Jiang Ciyun called Yan Jin, and I saw the little girl come out of the gate of the hospital with my own eyes, and then Shen Yin walked in.

In the car, Jiang Ciyun lit a cigarette with the window ajar, and he suddenly patiently asked me what new plans I had recently. I told him 1510 and came up with the idea that it was time to fight Lu Li.

Jiang Ciyun slowly sprayed a puff of smoke from his mouth on my face.

He sprayed slowly, and it took a long, long time to exhale all the smoke out, and his hand holding the cigarette hung out of the car window, leaning towards me: "I used to tell you, don't lose if you can't afford to lose, and if you can't bear it, go and get it back." But now, I'd rather you let go of all your hatred. ”

I stared at Jiang Ciyun's face for several seconds, and for several days, whether it was hints or words coming out of his mouth, it seemed to tell me that he might not love me, and he might go to other women to give him the affection he wanted.

I suddenly felt uncomfortable, grabbed him by the collar and asked, "Jiang Ciyun, let me ask you, if we don't see each other for a year, you don't want me anymore, right?" ”

"Yes." He flicked his arm, and the cigarette butt flew out with great force.

I was indulging in his decisive answer and couldn't extricate myself, and Jiang Ciyun's arm suddenly circled over.

He rubbed me into his arms and whispered in my ear: "Yingying, what do you rely on to maintain feelings in a life without intersection, do you think of such a ghostly thing?" That's a saint's thing, Lao Tzu is a layman. I said, I like someone, that person can be around whoever you want, if you love someone......"

Jiang Ciyun stopped talking abruptly as he did at the beginning, but this time he paused for more than ten seconds and said, "If I love someone, I will become very selfish and rampant. will be jealous, will be sad to death, will be aggrieved, suffocated to the point that I can't hold it anymore, that person wants to be free, no! ”

My heart was surging so much that I lay on his broad and safe shoulders and said slowly: "But you also said that the whole world where a man becomes a woman is tragic, and the world will be ruined if he has a slight problem." You said that you hope that I can rely on you for everything, but I hope that I can handle everything calmly in the future. That's what you said, have you forgotten it? ”

Neither of us moved, not even my grip on his collar, but the way he held me became distorted.

Jiang Ciyun's voice was still steady, not revealing the slightest joy or anger: "You choke me with what I said last year, why don't you compare what you thought when you were five years old with what you think now." People change, ideas change, and who can remain the same from life to death. That's fart! ”

My chin twisted gently over his shoulder, inhaling the smell of perfume diluted by the smoke on his body: "You mean you gave me a direction before, and I went." I'm halfway there, and you regret letting me go the opposite way? I was born to be called by you and can only live in your orbit? You've cultivated me with your own hands, and you want to beat me back to where I am. Jiang Ciyun, what's wrong with you? ”

His hand slid into my back, slowly moving up the skin, inch by inch: "Don't you think it's scary?" Lao Tzu is so terrible. You are the biggest exception in my life, proof what? Prove how different Lao Tzu is to you. Jiang Ciyun is in his thirties, and he wants the person I love to accompany him and want to be a father. Is it too much to ask? ”

"No...... Excessively. I could clearly feel the extreme anger in his words.

I gently pushed him away and added another word: "What?" ”

His body seemed to stiffen suddenly.

"Jiang Ciyun, the person who made me change was you, but you want me to turn back. There are a lot of things that can't be turned back. Now, if someone steps on my head again, will I still be on my stomach and let someone step on it? Not only will I give her back tenfold, but I will probably stab her again. Two people will become very similar after being together for a long time, and you teach them well. You don't like me, and in a sense you hate yourself too. Besides, why can't career and love go together? I can adjust my working hours and go home on time, I can take off my high heels and cook dinner for you every day, I can make having a baby a priority plan for this year, and I can give you all the time I think I have at work. Why do you always say hurtful things in front of me again and again, and ask me to live upside down according to your wishes? My eyes were red: "My heart is also fleshy, you can just hold Miss and let me endure it, how many women in the world can endure such a thing?" What am I forbearance for? Yes? You said! ”

After saying this, I finally cried, and tears rushed down and flowed out. Because I have met Jiang Ciyun very rarely in the past six months, he also did not come to the company to see me. Now that I think about it, maybe he was too busy, maybe he was too proud to come, and maybe he was getting used to not being able to see me change.

I can't remember how long it's been since I've cried like this, like a dog, maybe worse. Seeing the mascara I brushed in my tears, I didn't have to look in the mirror to know how ugly and ugly I was now.

Jiang Ciyun was silent for a while, he took out several pieces of paper from the box and wiped them for me, wrapped those ugly things in snow-white tissues little by little, threw one out of the window after wiping it, and then wiped it again.

After a long time, he lifted my chin and said, "I was wrong, don't cry." ”

I froze, and he gently cupped my face and repeated again: "I was wrong." ”

He'll never know how touched I am, it's not the first time he's told me, but it's bigger than the previous few times.

Actually, I can understand him, he is in his thirties, he wants children, he wants me. As soon as he was wrong, I dug my selfishness out of my head and judged myself a thousand times. People are like this, sometimes they will be very clear when they calm down and think about their own good and bad, but most people are not willing to talk about what they think is wrong at any time, it is something that they dare not touch, and they will be weak and want to hide. The more people try to say it, the more they want to deny it. Often you only need to meet a point that pokes at the heart, but you can easily admit yourself.

I rushed into his arms and whispered, "Shall we both do well?" It's easy to get married, but it's not easy. Don't give up when you encounter the slightest problem, we can coordinate, we can give each other a small step, nothing is a problem. ”

As soon as Jiang Ciyun's arm was closed, the more he hugged it, the more powerful it became, and his other hand began to rub my hair, full of pampering and love as before.

"It starts tomorrow," he said. ”

"What's going to start tomorrow?" I couldn't turn my mind for a moment.

Jiang Ciyun's voice finally caught a faint smile: "Go home on time tomorrow." You don't have to cook, Lao Tzu does what you eat. ”

In a wanton cry, I pulled myself out of his arms, and suddenly laughed like a fool, and he looked at me as if he was disgusted: "What do you want to eat tomorrow night?" ”

"Eat you." I say.

He frowned: "I remember last night, it seems to be ......"

I pounced over and covered his mouth: "Don't make a fuss! Don't say it! ”

Jiang Ciyun finally broke my fingers one by one, and said without saving face: "It adds up to more than three hours." ”

I subconsciously covered my face and buried my body in a tight leg, and he gently swept my head with his hand: "Don't throw yourself around." ”

I didn't listen to him until I clicked and I looked up, and he turned the screen to me and said, "The angle is right, the evidence is conclusive." ”

"Deleted!" I reached for it.

He held his hand up, and I threw myself into his arms, and he took it around and gently dropped a kiss on my forehead.

The phone ringing bothered us.

"It's Yan Jin." He finished and took it.

"When will you enter the ward?" Yan Jin asked.

"She hasn't come yet? I've been in there a long time ago. Jiang Ciyun glanced at me.

And I seemed to have guessed what Yan Jin was talking about on the other end of the phone.

Jiang Ciyun raised his hand to look at his watch: "It's been more than half an hour." He said a few more words to Yan Jin, and then hung up the phone and said to me: "Yan Jin, that kid said that he didn't see Shen Yin, and asked the nurse at the front desk, saying that a woman went to the doctor's office to ask for some wintergreen oil to get rid of insects, and she would die if she took wintergreen oil, so you should call her mobile phone." ”

Maybe it was because of the thoughts that occurred during the day, I hurriedly found my mobile phone to call Shen Yin, and the prompt tone was temporarily unavailable. If you don't have a phone, no one answers, or the phone is out of power, it will turn off the prompt, but it can't be connected, either she pulled out the card, or in a very closed place.

I started to get anxious, pulled Jiang Ciyun's shoulder and said, "Go, it's wrong, I always feel that she doesn't want to live anymore." ”

Jiang Ciyun narrowed his eyes: "Impossible." ”

Indeed, if it was impossible for Shen Yin before, she didn't make her want to commit suicide when her relationship broke down for eight years, and there was decadence, but the feelings she gave me recently were too strange, like too indifferent, too aware of her mistakes, and this time was often the most terrifying.

"Really, I really think so. Whether it's or not, let's take a look, okay? "My voice grew high.

Jiang Ciyun quickly opened the car door, and I quickly got out of the car, and we went to Yan Jin's ward first, but Yan Jin was not in the ward.