Chapter 726: It's okay to hold a grudge

The room was very quiet, except for the ticking of instruments.

Lin Xi looked at Chen Xiaoran on the hospital bed without blinking, and now she felt that she had really lost too much weight.

She used to think that Chen Xiaoran was losing weight, but now it seems that it is because of this disease.

"When did you know you weren't quite right?" Lin Xi asked her.

Chen Xiaoran looked at the ceiling in a daze: "When?" It's been a long time, before I liked Qiao Shuning, I knew it. ”

Lin Xi frowned.

"That's why I'm willing to make such an extreme move as crashing, because I know I won't survive." Chen Xiaoran hooked his lips and smiled, the arc was very sarcastic, "Do you think I'm cheap?" Because he knew that he couldn't live, he did that, not because he was not afraid of death for the so-called great love. ”

Lin Xi pursed his lips: "So you didn't go abroad to study at all." ”

Chen Xiaoran didn't like to study very much, and when he said that he wanted to study abroad, Lin Xi still thought about why this woman suddenly opened up, but now that she thinks about it, it's not like that at all.

Moreover, the school that Chen Xiaoran went to in the end was not the one they had agreed with before, and even the country was not the same.

Chen Xiaoran smiled: "Sure enough, I can't hide anything from you." ”

"Why didn't you tell us?" Lin Xi frowned and looked at her, "You didn't say anyone?" Holding on to it alone? ”

"It doesn't help to say it, and there is no one to share my pain." Chen Xiaoran looked up motionlessly, "Do you know how I feel every time I have a splitting headache?" Every time I want to break my head open, it hurts like that, and I tear a lot of my own hair off, and it hurts like that. ”

"And when it hurts, I don't have any senses, I will hit my head against the wall, I thought more than once, it would be nice if I just hit myself to death, but I was saved by the doctors and nurses again and again. I went for surgery and wanted to have it removed, but it was too unsuitable and the risk factor of surgery was very high, so I failed. ”

Lin Xi listened to Chen Xiaoran's indifferent tone, as if he was talking about other people's things.

"My hair is gone, I feel really ugly, so I rarely go out, as for He Xiangting, I don't know why my grandfather asked me to marry He Xiangting, but do you think my body is okay? Is it really not a burden for He Xiangting? ”

Lin Xi pursed his lips: "Maybe He Xiangting won't mind." ”

"But I don't mind." Chen Xiaoran paused word by word, "I can't let He Xiangting directly marry a sick woman, I can't let him be dragged down by me, who doesn't want to marry a beautiful and healthy daughter-in-law to live together?" Can I get He Xiangting to marry me just to take care of me? ”

Lin Xi took a deep breath, not knowing what he should say.

"And then there's that child, I will definitely give him the best of the child I gave birth to, but I can't accompany him to the end, so I won't give birth. I'm not sure if He Xiangting will always be good to him, and I don't know if my stepmother will really love him, so I won't give birth to this child. ”

"He Xiangting will be good to him." An Xin said at this time, "He likes you so much, he loves Wu and Wu." ”

"But I don't believe it." Chen Xiaoran finally looked up at An Xin, "What if the women in the future of He Xiangting treat him badly?" He can't stand any grievances, not at all. ”

"He Xiangting has the ability to protect the child."

"But I still don't believe it." Chen Xiaoran looked at the direction of the ceiling again, "There are too many uncertainties, and the doctor said that the child's health may be affected, and I can't give birth to a crippled child, which is irresponsible." ”

Chen Xiaoran is stubborn, and no one can say anything about what he believes.

"So you're going to keep it a secret in the future?" Lin Xi sat on the sofa and looked at the tubes on Chen Xiaoran's body, "Even your grandfather won't tell me?" ”

"I just said that I went abroad, and my grandfather is old, and I don't want him to worry about me."

"Why not surgery?"

"I haven't lived enough, I want to live a little longer." Chen Xiaoran smiled very dismally, "Ten percent, what a low chance this is, I will basically be sentenced to death." ”

"But that doesn't mean it's impossible."

"But I'm afraid." Chen Xiaoran blinked, tears flowed out in large gullies, "I'm really scared, I'm afraid that I'll die on that cold operating table, I'm really afraid." ”

"Surgery, okay?" Lin Xi lowered his tone, "As long as there is a glimmer of life, we should not give up." ”

"But I really want to give up." Chen Xiaoran closed his eyes and shook his head, "Do you know Lin Xi, when I had surgery, the anesthesia could only anesthetize part of it, and I had to endure part of it for life, because the anesthetic is likely to hurt the nerves, do you know what it feels like to have a knife cut on your head?" Do you know how much it hurts? You really can't imagine. ”

"When I had an abortion just now, I said that I would choose an abortion, and I wanted to try how much it hurt, it was really painful enough, but it was still much worse than my operation. If I still have surgery, it will hurt like this again, so Lin Xi, I beg you not to persuade me, it really hurts. ”

As soon as he heard Chen Xiaoran's last few words, Lin Xi's tears couldn't hold back anymore and fell out so directly.

Her tone was aggrieved, and she said it hurt.

Such a good friend of mine said that it hurt, but she couldn't do anything.

Lin Xi clenched his fists and bit his lip.

An Xin looked at Chen Xiaoran like this, and couldn't help crying.

Chen Xiaoran raised his hand and wiped his face: "I'd rather be tortured to death than go through that experience again, faint from pain, and then be cut by a knife to wake up." ”

Lin Xi covered his ears, a little unbearable to listen to it anymore.

"I'm really not a good person." Chen Xiaoran said again after a while, "I just messed up my style of doing things, that is, I didn't love myself a little bit, but I never wanted to hurt others in the past, I didn't break up other people's families, I didn't be a junior, I didn't harm anyone, why is fate still so good for me?" ”

It is said that good people have a long life and a long life, and disasters will last for thousands of years, Lin Xi knows that Chen Xiaoran, a girl, is really not so bad.

"I just feel aggrieved." Chen Xiaoran touched his face again, "He Xiangting slapped me today, I am not wronged, I deserve it." The doctor said that I had a special disease, and I could take less medicine if I could, so I didn't take the contraceptive pill, who would have thought that I would really win the lottery, and really any tragic thing could be encountered by me. ”

"He Xiangting is also very angry today, don't blame him."

"I don't blame him, those who don't know are not guilty, there's nothing to blame." Chen Xiaoran's tears still kept flowing, "I just feel very wronged, why should I go through all this?" ”

Lin Xi really has no way to answer this.

"Forget it, leave me alone, it's much better to say it, you guys go and rest. You have children yourself, so take a break. Chen Xiaoran waved his hand very weakly, "I'm so tired, I'm going to sleep too." ”

"We're here to watch over you."

"No, you better go back, I'm not used to it." Chen Xiaoran immediately vetoed, "I don't like to be watched while sleeping. ”

An Xin gave Lin Xi a look, and then walked out together.

"It's uncomfortable." These are the two words that Lin Xi said to An Xin, "It's really uncomfortable to hear her say that." ”

"I'm not comfortable either, this girl wants to be strong or die to save face, and no one will tell her." An Xin sighed, "If you tell Political Commissar Chen to tell He Xiangting, everyone will be able to discuss." ”

"If He Xiangting knows, then it is estimated that she must be married, He Xiangting likes her so much, how can she let her go through the last days alone?" Lin Xi said in a very clear tone, "Chen Xiaoran doesn't want to drag He Xiangting down at all. ”

An Xin looked at Chen Xiaoran in the ward, and really felt that she was very embarrassed.

"It's a bit inappropriate for her to do that." An Xin frowned, "Things always have to be discussed, and it's not a way to endure it alone." ”

An Xin then looked at Lin Xi: "So, do you want to tell them?" ”

Lin Xi shook his head: "You have to say that Chen Xiaoran can be moved first, if you don't respect Chen Xiaoran's opinion and say it rashly, she will be very unhappy." ”

But Chen Xiaoran is really too difficult to convince.

An Xin frowned: "But for He Xiangting, wouldn't this really be bad?" Will this affect Chen Xiaoran's image? "

"But didn't you find out that Chen Xiaoran was deliberately blackening her image?" Lin Xi sighed, "You didn't find out that Chen Xiaoran really wanted He Xiangting to hate her, and He Xiangting hated her and wouldn't like her anymore, because He Xiangting still had a long life to go, and he always had to like others." ”

An Xin nodded: "As soon as she said it just now, I knew what it meant." ”

Then the two of them were speechless for a long time.

Lin Xi called Gu Jingnian and asked about He Xiangting's situation. He Xiangting was in a bar and was in a bad mood.

Lin Xi lowered his eyes: "How is he now?" ”

"Don't say anything, just drink."

But this is also a way to vent, Lin Xi has nothing to say.

Gu Jingnian also sensed that the situation was not right, so he asked, "Where are you now?" ”

"In the hospital." Lin Xi lowered his voice, "Chen Xiaoran just had an abortion and is recuperating in the hospital. ”

"Then take good care of her." Gu Jingnian nodded, "Qiao Si and I are here here, it will be fine." ”

Subsequently, he hung up the phone directly.

Lin Xi sat in the hallway, looking at the floor under his feet.

For a long time, it was really a long time, there was a sound of footsteps in the corridor, Lin Xi turned his head, it was He Xiangting's figure.

He probably heard Gu Jingnian's phone call.

He still couldn't let her go.

What are these two people going to do?