I was really impulsive, and since the unexpected loss of my child, I feel that my heart has become extremely sensitive and fragile, and my sense of mission for my career has plummeted. If I ask what my biggest wish is now, I think it must be to take good care of my body and strive to become a mother as soon as possible.

I'm already 30 years old, and when I see pregnant women walking down the street with big bellies and mothers of my age with a child in their arms, I think of the child who is fleeting in my body. Women, have they reached a certain age, no matter how strong and powerful they are, they still can't resist the brilliance of motherhood?

I took his hand and refused to let go, his emotions seemed to calm down a lot, he sat down, touched my face hard, and then said softly: Zhizhi, I'm sorry, I've been in a bad mood lately, hey......

I looked at his frown, and I couldn't help but blame myself for the thought that all this anxiety he had brought to him. He kissed me on the forehead as usual, and he said, "Well, let's give each other a little time and space, okay?" Since my child left, I feel like we've changed and we're not as close as we used to be.

I was a little reluctant, but I still nodded, and I said: Well, my emotions have not eased yet, and I can't control my emotions when I think of him leaving alone.

He said, "I am the same." Maybe I'm Xu Cheng, the children of this life are thin, hey......

He left anyway, leaving me tossing and turning alone. I still haven't said anything about my hidden illness, I think he's sad enough and anxious enough, I really can't stop him.

The next day, I told the old man that I was going to go to a Chinese medicine doctor with him, but everything would have to wait until I transferred the company.

When I announced the transfer of the company to all employees, the whole company was boiling in an instant, especially those old employees who followed me from scratch, they all expressed their puzzlement, they knew me too well, and it was not my style to escape. Only this time, I surprised them. Those people who have been fighting with me until now have tried to persuade me not to give up.

It's just that I have made up my mind, and soon I announced this matter to the outside world, and the outside world instantly talked about it, I have not become the eldest lady of the Gao family, and now I can't even keep my own company, and many people have secretly seen the jokes.

Xu Cheng called me and asked me if I really wanted to do this, I said well, he was silent for a long time, and then said: Okay, it's okay, after all, the road ahead is getting harder and harder, so let me carry it alone.

I said softly: either we break up, shall we? As long as you're not my boyfriend, I don't think Liu Yixi will target you again.

He immediately became angry, and he said: Don't tell me this is your father's idea for you!

He seems to have a deeper and deeper prejudice against the old man, and he will think about everything in that direction. I said: No, it's my own thoughts, I don't want to bother you, you have worked so hard for so many years, I really don't want to be wasted because of me.

His voice cooled down again on the phone, and he said: Zhizhi, am I, Xu Cheng, particularly useless in your eyes now? Do you think that Liu Yixi can easily put me to death if he controls the Gao family? Do you think I'm a man who is afraid of things?

I feel like I'm getting darker and darker, why do two people desperately want to get closer to each other, but they end up pushing each other farther and farther away? I suddenly felt like I had walked into a dead end, tangled, stuck, confused, restless, restless, and all kinds of negative emotions. Is this still something I can do easily?

I said, "I really don't mean that, my dear, have we all been too sensitive lately?"

He sighed and said, "Yes, from the days I was stuck in traffic, I discovered my insignificance. Then you miscarried, and I felt more and more powerless against fate. Immediately after your father appeared, Liu Yixi took control of the Gao family, and I found that I was becoming more and more over-minded and inadequate. I used to think that I was strong enough to protect the woman I loved, but now, I can't find the fulcrum, this moment of insignificance, worthless feeling is too uncomfortable, am I still me, right?

I could feel the helplessness and confusion in his words across the phone, no one can be strong forever, and everyone has the moment when they are crushed by fate. He once thought that he was strong enough to direct the country, and when the Gao family and other merchants made all kinds of boycotts, slanders, and attacks on his company, he found that the real mountain was higher than the mountain. He is alone in T City, he has gone from nothing to now, he has experienced too much, so much that he thinks he can no longer believe in love, but when he met me, he rekindled the expectation of love, but it is easy to fall in love and difficult to get along, and these intertwined and complex relationships are pushing our feelings away step by step. He and I have been visibly tired lately.

I really wanted to be comforted, but I didn't know how to comfort, my words seemed so pale, when I found that I couldn't even give him basic comfort, I was also very powerless, I said: Cheng, you are still you, the man who stands up to the sky in my heart. You've been good enough to me that you don't have to blame yourself. Now, I hope you can go all out against the Gao family, and I'm sure you'll have a way. After the transfer of the company, I will go to other places for a period of time to relax and regulate my body, and also give you a certain amount of space, so that you don't have to be distracted by me, okay? Perhaps, we need to separate a period in order to clear the fog and know what we really want.

He pondered for a while, and he said: Okay, then, don't mention breaking up, we won't break up, I, Xu Cheng, will never let go of your hand, just remember this sentence. Whatever you see or hear later, don't believe it, for I love you and love you alone. You can go out of town, avoid all these disturbances, and maybe by the time you come back, I will have taken care of everything. Otherwise, please believe me, I don't think I, Xu Cheng, will not be crushed by fate, let alone play with a woman, I have never been afraid in my life, and now I will not be afraid.

I heard the strength of his words and the spirit of perseverance, I knew that he was very tired and hard, recently their company's business volume is shrinking significantly, Liu Yixi gathered a lot of shrimp soldiers and crab generals who were willing to rely on the Gao family like a female devil, and chased Xu Cheng hard, he was really tired. But he said that he would not be crushed by fate. This is the man I love deeply, no matter what kind of adversity he is in, he can shout his most powerful voice.

When I heard about the transfer of my company, Chenxi, who was performing commercially all over the country, called me to ask about the specific situation, and he had already learned that Liu Yixi had taken charge of the Gao family, and he said: Zhizhi, what can I do for you?

I smiled and said: Live well, sing your song well, it's enough.

He asked me if I was short of money lately, and if I did, he would lend me as much as he could, telling me that there was no need to transfer my years of hard work to others.

I shook my head and I said, "No, I'm just tired and I don't want to hold on any longer."

He was silent, and he said, "I didn't expect her to get worse and worse, hey."

I vaguely remember that in high school, Liu Yixi sat in the stands of the school basketball court, smiling like a flower watching Chenxi play. In a decade, the sea has become a mulberry field. Time is a magical hand that can change everything. (=semi-/float*-raw+).

That night, I called a meeting of all the top management of the company, and I was willing to cut my shares into small pieces and sell them separately, hoping that they would continue to operate. I think that instead of falling into the hands of others, it is better to give these brothers who have come all the way with me, at least they will continue to walk with their feelings for the company, no matter how big or small, as long as the company is preserved.

After arranging everything, the old man and I set out on the road to Nanjing. Before leaving, I called Xu Cheng, and he excused himself because he was too busy to see him off, but I thought it was because he was too prejudiced against the old man and didn't want to see him.

The old man didn't like to fly, but he still liked to take that kind of green-skinned hard-seat train, which surprised me. His own identity was no longer usable, and he didn't know where he got someone else's ID card, so he got into the car. After my persuasion, he finally agreed to me to find a sleeping berth to sleep in. Along the way, the two of us have been chatting, he told me about numerology, and as a result, the passengers on the train who had a large ticket climbed down from the sleeper to find him to tell their fortunes, and the old man shook his head and said that he was the truth, so that I couldn't help but be ashamed after reading it.

Only then did I realize that fairies and old men are such focal figures, and they can enjoy themselves everywhere they go and shout at a large group of people, why haven't I inherited it?

The old man and I went to Nanjing for two months. His friend of traditional Chinese medicine is indeed the legendary Hua Tuo, who is especially good at incurable gynecological diseases. After I went, he gave me a pulse, asked about the basic situation and gave me medicine, I took it for a few days, and found that the body was really much better, the situation of backache and fatigue was significantly reduced, the two old people drank tea together every day and learned the art of tea, I also followed the side to watch, listened to them, and really gained a lot of knowledge.

I was overjoyed to tell the fairy about this, and she was overjoyed to hear it. The old man found the old Chinese medicine doctor was really too reliable, not only personally for me to suffer, but also arranged for someone to prepare three meals a day for me according to the diet recipe he gave, and spent two months there, living exceptionally quiet, occasionally going out with the old man, most of the time lying on the recliner in the room, reading books, and the old man learning to write calligraphy.

I'm finding more and more that people with sentiments are indeed much more comfortable than ordinary people. It's just that in the dead of night, I can't restrain my thoughts about Xu Cheng. He only called me once on the day I arrived in Nanjing, and we never kept in touch again, which was absolutely impossible before.