After I heard the news of Pei Tingqing's death, just like when I first occupied Wei Wei to take revenge on Duan Xuchu, I didn't experience the pleasure of revenge at all, I sat in the car with my head down, my heart was trembling and shivering, my fists were clenched together, and my chest was rolling, I couldn't describe the too complicated mood at the moment.

Not sad or happy, I have a kind of fate so ending is so indifferent, and it can even be said that it is numb and indifferent mentality, which is actually very sad, if people live without something that can make you crazy, or hysterical, or unforgettable, or grief-stricken, and like me at the moment like the walking dead, then how meaningful is it for people to come to this world for a walk?

I don't like that myself.

Pei Yanjin stopped the car, put his palm on my shoulder, and called my name hoarsely, "Yanqiao? ”

I raised my head and looked at Pei Yanjin, with a smile on my lips, but Pei Yanjin's eyes were red, he was probably sad about Pei Tingqing's death, and probably too distressed that I could still laugh at this time, I shook my head at him, "I'm fine." But in the next second, a big teardrop fell, and I was caught off guard and even I didn't react.

I've only cried for three people for as long as I can remember, the first was Duan Xuchu, when he shot someone in the organization for me when I was young, and almost lost my life after being punished, I cried; Another time was that day in the hospital, when Duan Xuchu broke up with me and turned around and walked out the door, he turned his back to me and didn't look back, he didn't know that I was in tears.

And the second person who made me cry was Wei Weiyi, during the time when she was blind and lost her child, she was treated in the hospital, and one night after I secretly kissed her forehead, I kept a leaned position and stared at her pale sleeping face, and I suddenly shed tears; Later, she told me that she was with Duan Xuchu again, and when she returned me 200 million, I was drunk and cried like a child in Pei Yanjin's arms, and finally I knew that she and Duan Xuchu were married.......... It is said that men don't flick when they have tears, probably because they didn't get to the sad place.

I have suffered many times of flesh and skin wounds, under the pain of cutting flesh and removing bones, I have never shed tears, I once thought that I was cold-blooded to the point that I didn't even love myself, and then I met Wei Wei, I knew that the most painful thing in this world is emotional injury, and it is the most useless to hurt the muscles and bones for a woman, but only Wei is the only woman who can make me feel painful.

And now that Pei Tingqing has passed away, I only shed a tear, as Duan Xuchu said, I let go at this moment, I don't hate Pei Tingqing, but I won't forgive him.

Duan Xuchu and Pei Yanjin have witnessed my growth, they both know how much I want to get my father's love, how much I want Pei Tingqing to give me and my mother a real home, but Pei Tingqing has never done it, so I was unwilling to forgive him in those years, in fact, I have always had great expectations for this god-like man in my heart.

I am a person who is too complex and contradictory, and extreme, so many people don't understand me, Pei Yanjin said that he can't see through me, and I'm afraid that only Duan Xuchu knows my mind and what I'm doing in this world, I stay in prison and don't want to come out, I don't want to work hard to run the paradise club for many years, the root cause of my own self-harm and negative decadence is actually not to retaliate against Pei Tingqing, I am just forcing him in this way, as in those years, I think if he cares about me, he will work hard for it, Doing everything I can will give me what I want.

But the fact turned out to be the opposite, Duan Xuchu was right, Pei Tingqing didn't care at all, I was just punishing myself for other people's mistakes.

In the years when I made myself better and more perfect, trying to make Pei Tingqing notice, and remembering that there was still my son, Pei Tingqing only had the four chaebols in his heart, and he treated Duan Xuchu like his own son, just because he wanted to get several times the reward from Duan Xuchu, so that Duan Xuchu would be grateful to him and repay him, and Duan Xuchu was indeed such a affectionate person, how much did Duan Xuchu pay for the Pei family in the past years?

I feel sorry for Duan Xuchu and feel unworthy for him, so when Duan Xuchu told me that he forgave Pei Tingqing, I couldn't accept his indifference, until this moment I became the same as Duan Xuchu, hating a person and punishing only myself, only not caring is the biggest counterattack to the other party.

And now, Pei Tingqing is dead, and it has become meaningless to fight back or not.

I closed the window, sat back and closed my eyes weakly, and said in such a nonchalant tone for the first time in my life, "Let's go." ”

"Okay." Pei Yanjin still replied hoarsely, he started the car, the TV screen gradually faded away, and I didn't pay attention to what was played.

Pei Yanjin and I didn't ask Pei Tingqing's death, when Pei Tingqing's funeral was, and where he was buried, and I was not interested in knowing, from this moment on, everything will return to dust, and the earth will return to the earth, and I will no longer have anything to do with the Pei family chaebol.

The car stopped at my and my mother's original residence, it was raining lightly outside, Pei Yanjin handed me the umbrella, I didn't pick it up, I strode into the house, Pei Yanjin followed.

Over the years, every time I was in a bad mood, or something happened, no matter how busy Pei Yanjin was, he would leave his own affairs behind, just stay by my side, if I didn't say a word to him, he would remain silent, until I was willing to speak, he would talk to me.

No matter when, as long as I turn around, he is behind me, silently guarding me, doing everything he can for me, but sadly his affection for me is not as simple as Duan Xuchu.

I only learned that Pei Yanjin liked me in a lover's way while I was pretending to have amnesia, and I have to say that just as he hid Li Shaochong's identity, he liked me as a man and never let me know.

Love is possession and conquest, including both physical and spiritual aspects, I think the reason why I didn't notice Pei Yanjin's liking is probably because he didn't have the physical impulse and possession of me, his liking is a very high state of spirituality, this liking transcends many things, and it is also very humble——— he likes me, but it doesn't matter whether he gets it or not.

I couldn't respond to his feelings, because I loved Wei Wei's only woman, so I always pretended not to know Pei Yanjin's thoughts.

After I returned to the house, I didn't even take a shower, I felt tired like never before, so I fell asleep, and someone knocked on the door outside in the haze, probably because Pei Yanjin was worried that I wouldn't be able to open it, so I ignored him.

I don't know how long I slept this night, I had a long dream, from the time I can remember to the time I am now 31 years old, in the dream there is Infernal Island me and Duan Xuchu fighting to decide who will wash the clothes in the next month, and there is also Pei Tingqing wearing a mask when I was injured and unconscious every time I trained, he took care of me, and then left Infernal Island Pei Yanjin took classes in the university classroom, I slept on the table next to him, and my mother looked at me sadly and tenderly.......... In the end, Wei Weiwei wore a snow-white wedding dress and completed the wedding ceremony with Duan Xuchu in the holy church.

I think it's just a dream, it won't become a reality, but when I woke up and tasted the salty taste on my lips, I remembered that Wei Weiyi was indeed married to Duan Xuchu, and I became the one who lived by memories, and when a person began to remember, it means that he is old, I don't deny that until I am 31 years old, I feel as if I have experienced a hundred years, I am vicissitudes and lonely.

Pei Yanjin didn't know when he came into the room, he was sitting on the carpet and lying on the head of the bed and sleeping, his hair looked dark and soft in the not very bright room, and that posture was distressing.

As soon as I moved, Pei Yanjin woke up, and I knew that I had slept all day, and it was already the next night, so even if I slept, what could I do if I dreamed a lot? After waking up, nothing has changed, and what should be faced is still faced, for example, I remember so clearly that tomorrow night is the only wedding banquet for Duan Xuchu and Wei.

Pei Yanjin cooked, the two of us sat on the dining chair, facing each other and eating quietly, I didn't want to speak anymore, Pei Yanjin was also silent, seeing that I was only eating rice, he put the dish into my bowl, I was like a lifeless machine, swallowing the food as if it was just completing the task, to me it tasted like chewing wax.

Pei Yanjin pursed her lips and wanted to say something, but in the end she still didn't speak.

After eating, I took out the wine, sat on the sofa in the living room and drank all night, but I couldn't get drunk anyway, but became more and more sober, and all kinds of pictures kept flashing in my mind, including Infernal Island and Pei Tingqing, as well as Duan Xuchu and Wei Weiyi, like a movie, one by one fragmentary shots composed of my past years, I myself was like an audience, too deep into the play or laughing or sad, living in reality, but I couldn't withdraw from the play, I felt that if I continued like this, I was about to schizophrenia.

Pei Yanjin was still by my side that night, looking at me distressed as usual, his eyelashes were moist.

I ran to the bathroom and vomited, my palms pressed the marble countertop, even the tears were stimulated, I looked down and watched the transparent and round tears fall down one by one, and after a long time I turned around and leaned there, slid weakly on the ground, buried my head in the crook of my arm, and finally there was a suppressed low cry.

I lost my father, my best brother, and the woman I loved the most, I never got it, and my mother didn't recognize me for a long time, and Pei Yanjin guarded me, but I couldn't accept it.......... In this way, I became nothing, I became the loneliest and lonely person in the world, guarding my memories, but the more I recalled, the more painful it became, and there were so many long years in the future, how should I spend it?

***

The next day Ning Xiao rushed back from abroad, and she didn't ask about Pei Tingqing's death, and when I got up after a hangover, I put on a black suit again, and when I looked in the mirror, I felt that I had not changed from before, at least on the surface, it was still light and light.

Pei Yanjin and Ning Xiao and I rushed to a hotel to attend Duan Xuchu and Wei's only wedding banquet.

There were only a few people invited by Duan Xuchu, Mu Yuxiu and Wen Wan, Chi Beizhi and Wei Yanshan, Sheng Qizhou and Ling Yueqiong, Gu Jingnian and Bai Tannian, and Pei Yanjin and Ning Xiao, all of them were in pairs in the past, and I was the only one who didn't bring a partner.

The moment I pushed the door open and went in, several couples of them were talking about their love for their ears and sideburns, I stood stiffly by the door, and suddenly there was a feeling of being at a loss, even a few other people were stunned for a moment, in the end they were still well-behaved, ran to my side and greeted me with a smile, "Uncle, you are here, my father and mother are married, you have to bless them." ”

I always feel that the seven-year-old girl's mind is a little heavy, just like what she said at the moment, whether she is unintentional or not, but I listen to it very harshly anyway.

Wei Wei probably noticed it, and quickly got up and walked over to hold Nannan's hand, and then she smiled faintly and nodded at me.

She is wearing a white embroidered cheongsam today, her body is curvy and slender, her hair is pulled up and she is wearing very delicate makeup, her tall figure stands in front of me, and she smiles at me very gently, like a classical woman in a painting.

In just a few days, she faded away from the arrogance and coldness of her first acquaintance, and after becoming Duan Xuchu's wife, she was so soft and graceful, quiet and beautiful.

She was so different from what she used to be, and it felt strange to me, but I still couldn't resist her temptation to me.

Men are visual creatures, and it is undeniable that I was attracted to Wei Wei at first sight because of her outstanding appearance and temperament. Of course, appearance doesn't determine everything, and it's not like I've never seen a beautiful woman.

I vividly remember the first time I was attracted to Wei Wei was when she sprinted out of the private room at the Paradise Club, I grabbed her wrist, and the moment she turned around suddenly, her eyes were shining with tears under the light, but her face was cold and defensive.

I handed the handkerchief over, and she pushed me away and turned to leave, her back straight and lonely in the narrow corridor, and it was that back that was deeply engraved in my mind.

The second time she was tempted was when she handed me the disc copied from the chip, and when she tried to save the brotherhood between me and Duan Xuchu, she was calm and calm, and she was not afraid of me who killed her at that time; The third time was at Nannan's birthday party, she found me in advance and asked me to celebrate Nannan's birthday with a low profile.

I agreed to her emotionally, that night I made a big cake with her for Nannan, the whole process of her lips always smiled, gentle and full of love for Nannan, even if she didn't know that Nannan was her biological daughter at that time, she was still like the best mother in the world, what I like is the stability and warmth she brought to me.

She brought too many strange feelings to me, who had never been in love.

It wasn't until one day I began to annoy her for snuggling in Duan Xuchu's arms, began to be jealous of Duan Xuchu, and even wanted to kiss Wei Wei for some reason, that I realized that I didn't know when I fell in love with my best brother's woman, and the key is that this woman also loved my brother deeply.

Of course, I immediately came up with the idea of snatching Wei Wei from Duan Xuchu's hands and occupying Wei Wei, but it was only for a moment that I came to my senses, I couldn't be so despicable to take people's love, and the other party was still the second brother who was deeply in love with me, so I retreated to the next best thing, and put my love for Wei Wei in the deepest part of my heart, so as not to let this love see the light of day again.

On the other hand, my best brother is with the woman I love the most, I can be good to both of them at the same time, and at the same time silently protect the two of them, if there is a woman in this world who can give Duan Xuchu happiness, it must also be Wei Wei, and the man who gives Wei the only happiness must be Duan Xuchu.

The two of them are together, it is not a conflict for me, but it is what I am most happy to see, and therefore I have never regretted risking my life to save Wei Weiyi on Infernal Island, firstly because I love Wei Weiyi, and secondly, because Duan Xuchu is my second brother, even if I fell off the cliff and almost crippled my leg, I am willing to do it for these two people.

I woke up not long after, I heard the conversation between Ning Xiao and Pei Yanjin outside the door, and for a moment I wanted to kill Pei Yanjin immediately, but I also knew that Pei Yanjin didn't have that much ability alone, plus Pei Yanjin was Li Shaochong, this fact hit me hard, I avoided and didn't want to face it, and on the other hand, I wanted to find out who the person behind Pei Yanjin was, so I chose to pretend to have amnesia.

What happened again was something I didn't expect.

During that time, I spent most of my time spying on Pei Yanjin, so I knew a lot of his conversations with Ning Xiao, and who he had contacted, and I knew at that time that Wei Wei was blind, she broke up with Duan Xuchu, and Duan Xuchu and Pei Yanjie got married.

Regardless of whether there is a hidden reason or not, after learning that Duan Xuchu has failed Wei Weiyi, I impulsively wanted to put a gun on Duan Xuchu's head and ask him why he didn't treat Wei Weiyi well, if I had known that he had hurt Wei Weiyi to that extent, what if I had treacherously fought for Wei Weiyi? If Wei was the only one with me, I wouldn't have hurt her that much.

At that time, I wanted to leave the fishing village and want to know what happened to Wei Weiyi, I wanted to go to her side to take care of her, but before that, Pei Yanjin called Wei Weiyi, and finally succeeded in convincing Wei Weiyi to come here to find me.

Pei Yanjin went abroad, and at this time I didn't know that the main messenger behind the scenes was Pei Tingqing, and Pei Yanjin's sudden departure must have a plan, so before the truth is known, I still need to pretend to have amnesia to hide my true purpose.

Before Wei Weiyi came over, I learned cooking from a middle-aged woman in the fishing village who was a good cook, and asked her how to better take care of a pregnant woman, and this aunt asked Wei Weiyi who I was, and I told her that she was the woman I liked, and how to define the relationship between me and Wei Wei, even I didn't know at that time.

I did my homework, just waiting for Wei Weiyi's arrival, when Wei Weiyi stood at the door of the infusion room and called me third brother with a smile, I couldn't suppress the excitement and joy in my heart, strode over and hugged her hard without saying anything, and I was reluctant to let go for a long time, at that moment I thought that since this woman came to my side, then I would definitely take good care of her and try my best to be good to her.

That night in the dining room, I sat beside Wei Weiyi, peeled shrimp for her, and when she praised me after eating, such a simple sentence made me so excited that I didn't fall asleep one night, but pondered what to do for her tomorrow, what to do the day after tomorrow, and what to eat every day after tomorrow.

I've never been in love, I've never been so interested in a second woman except for my mother, I don't know how to please Wei Weiyi, how to make her happy and smile at me, I'm like a teenager who is new to love, treating Wei Wei with piety and seriousness, and being careful for fear that she will be wronged, she frowns, and she cries.

That morning, Wei Wei sat on the stool on the dresser, I stood behind her and took care of her hair, and when I talked to her, she finally smiled once, in my eyes, Wei Wei smiled the most beautiful, but also the biggest temptation, so at that moment I didn't control myself, I kissed impulsively, no matter how Wei Wei struggled, I didn't let go of her.

It wasn't until Nan Nan pushed open the door and came in to see this scene that Nan Nan cried and complained that Wei Wei had just narrowed the distance between me and Wei Wei, because Wei Wei only took care of Nan Nan, she was alienated from me again.

When Li Ao came over, I thought that Wei Wei would leave with Li Ao, but when I heard Wei Wei say in the kitchen that she would not accept Duan Xuchu anymore and that there was no longer any possibility with Duan Xuchu, I finally strengthened my heart.

Since Wei Weiyi and Duan Xuchu are separated, why can't I pursue Wei Weiyi?

Duan Xuchu hurt Wei Weiwei so deeply, Wei Weiwei couldn't forgive Duan Xuchu, and I was also very angry with Duan Xuchu, I didn't fight with him at that time, because I hoped that he could give Wei the only happiness, but Duan Xuchu didn't do it, then in this world except Duan Xuchu, only I can give Wei the only happiness, only I protect Wei Weiyi, put Wei Weiwei by my side, I can rest assured, no other man.

I fought with Duan Xuchu that day, and a large part of the reason was because I was angry that Duan Xuchu had hurt Wei Weiyi, and when Wei Weiyi was still pregnant with his child in his belly, he abandoned Wei Weiyi, and such an irresponsible man didn't deserve Wei Weiyi at all.

Later, although I lost, Wei Weiyi did not leave with Duan Xuchu, Wei Weiyi chose to stand on my side, and it was from that moment that I knew that Wei Weiyi was dead to Duan Xuchu, no matter what, she would not come together with Duan Xuchu again, so I could naturally pursue Wei Weiyi, even if she didn't like me for the time being and couldn't accept me, it didn't prevent me from being good to her.

After returning to T City from the fishing village, I tried my best to be good to Wei Wei, I gave her a residence, planted an elegant and holy magnolia like her in the yard, made a swing for Nannan, I gave Wei Wei Wei a brocade dress and jewelry, I paid attention to her every move, smiled and smiled, helped the Azure Group negotiate business behind her back, and asked the Pei family chaebol and my own paradise club to help her....... And so on all I did for her, what she knew and what she didn't know, as long as I could think of, I gave her everything I could give to a woman as a man.

She didn't agree to my proposal on Chinese New Year's Eve, I still haven't given up on her, and I can continue to wait.

I followed her to a foreign country, clearly knowing that she was using me to get rid of Duan Xuchu, and in my opinion, Duan Xuchu had already married Pei Yanjie, Wei Weiyi didn't give him a chance, and I also felt that Duan Xuchu shouldn't come to pester Wei Weiyi anymore, so I cooperated with Wei Weiyi to act, on the other hand, I also hope that Wei Weiyi will not be as stupid as in the past, because she loves Duan Xuchu, and chooses to be Duan Xuchu's lover, give up Duan Xuchu, she deserves a better man.

I spent a huge amount of money to photograph those two earrings for Wei Wei, and that night I put them on Wei Wei in the light, and I couldn't help but hold her under me.

She didn't reject me, I thought that the next love would come naturally, but who knew that she was drugged, I was willing to be her antidote, but she was unwilling, and shouted Duan Xuchu's name.

It hurt my dignity as a man too much, and it angered me, and I put her in bed and made up my mind to force her, after all, we had cultivated a relationship for so long, and it should have come to this point.

And it is said that the passage to the depths of a woman's soul is yin dao, a man who can't conquer a woman sexually, no matter how much he loves that woman, he can't let that woman die to him, I think that as long as I have done it with Wei Wei, Wei Wei will slowly cling to me and forget about the beginning of the paragraph.

I didn't believe that there was anything in this world that you had to do, but the result was that Wei only proved to me her loyalty to Duan Xuchu, and she stabbed me in the heart with a knife.

In addition to the heartache, I still don't regret forcing her, anyway, it has come to this point, I was going to continue to do it, but when I was about to enter her body, she closed her eyes in despair, and tears welled up.

My strong desire to conquer in the last second turned into pity at the moment when she compromised, and I thought that if she had cried at the beginning and begged me for mercy, I might not have been able to do this, many times men's bestiality is stimulated by women's resistance.

In the end, I only borrowed Wei Wei's hand, and when Duan Xuchu went to visit me in the hospital, I still thought that Duan Xuchu was irresponsible and couldn't afford to give Wei Weiwei a future, he was still pestering Wei Weiyi, and Wei Weiyi would never look back, so in order to help Wei Weiwei get rid of Duan Xuchu completely, and because I wanted to occupy Wei Wei's selfishness, I told Duan Xuchu that I had slept with Wei Weiyi, and planned to get married soon.

This is the most fatal blow to Duan Xuchu, he doesn't hate me for getting Wei Weiyi, he said it very clearly, he just doesn't want to see Wei Weiyi snuggling on the chest of another man in the future, he and that man can't be friends, they can only be strangers, and we break up.

But the moment he walked to the door, I called out to stop him, and I wanted to explain to him, but in the end, in order to prevent Wei Wei from being hurt by him again, I chose to remain silent.

Wei Wei attributed part of the fault to me, misunderstanding that I hurt Duan Xuchu completely for her own selfish interests, she hated me and wanted to run away from me, I felt scared and imprisoned her with childish and extreme behavior, but my heart for her has not changed, I hope she will give me a chance to behave and forget the unpleasantness of that night.

I never thought about hurting Wei Weiyi, and after I went back, I was as good to Wei Weiyi as ever, but in order to prevent her from leaving me, I still used small means, such as gossip about me and her from the outside world.

Later, I went abroad for a few days, Wei Weiyi was with Duan Xuchu again, and when I came back from abroad, I kept thinking about how I could persuade Wei Weiyi not to be Duan Xuchu's underground mistress so stupidly, but in fact she didn't give me a chance to speak, and her 200 million yuan made me speechless.

In those days abroad, I finally knew that Pei Tingqing was the mastermind behind the scenes, Wei Weiyi and Pei Tingqing gave me a double blow, I was drunk in those days, I wanted to get drunk to escape all this, and I didn't want to face it again, and Pei Yanjin thought that I was just sad because of Wei Wei, and then he told me that Duan Xuchu was actually not married to Pei Yanjie.

This result shocked me, my misunderstanding of Duan Xuchu was so deep, if I had known that Duan Xuchu was not letting Wei Weiwei be his mistress again, I would not have entangled Wei Weiwei for a while, let Duan Xuchu give up Wei Weiyi after misunderstanding, I would not have fought for Wei Weiyi, as a brother, I might also help them resolve the misunderstanding and continue to be together.

But no one told me the truth, and Pei Yanjin didn't say it, I guess it should be Pei Yanjin who thought that I pretended to have amnesia in order to disown Duan Xuchu's brother, so that I could justifiably pursue Wei Weiyi.

In fact, they were all misunderstood.

That day I asked to go to Jiang Qian's wedding, I told Pei Yanjin that I gave up Wei Wei for a while, and I really thought so in my heart, if Wei Wei never liked me, and she was justifiably with Duan Xuchu, then I was willing to quit and bless my best brother and my favorite woman as before, even if I was in pain.

At Jiang Qian's wedding, I really wanted to clarify my relationship with Wei Wei, but when Wei Wei received the hydrangea and I walked over to call her name, I hesitated for a few seconds, and it was this short hesitation that caused all kinds of misunderstandings and tragedies later.

I don't think it's wrong for me to fall in love with Wei Wei, and I didn't rob my best brother's woman, everything is because Duan Xuchu caused a misunderstanding between him and Pei Yanjie for me and Wei Weiyi's marriage, I don't want Wei Weiyi to be hurt anymore, and I am also angry that Duan Xuchu failed Wei Weiyi, so I chose to stand with Wei Weiyi........ I know that after Duan Xuchu and Wei only registered their marriage, I was very sad and painful.

But I still gave up after all, as before, if Duan Xuchu can give my favorite woman happiness, if Wei Weiwei can give me the best brother happiness, then I am willing to quit and bless the two of them, I am sad only that Duan Xuchu and I can't go back to the past, and Wei Weiyi will no longer call me the third brother as before.

The past will not come back, and I lost both of them at the same time.

I remember the day in that red maple forest, I carved a line on that tree with a dagger, "I want my best brother and favorite woman to be happy."

At that time, I thought that Duan Xuchu's happiness was given by other women, and Wei's only happiness was given by me, but the fact turned out that I inadvertently blessed the two of them to finally become married.

"Yanqiao." Duan Xuchu walked over to me at this time.