I panicked and looked in a trance, Jin Yan shook my shoulder and asked me, "What did you just say to him?" Don't listen to me? Where did I say nonsense, of course you and my woman are in my charge now, is it possible that I still let you owe him a favor? ”

"You say those things without asking me what I mean? Do you know how much your words hurt my brother? The saddest and most helpless time for me was when he was by my side, and the most difficult time for me was when he helped me, and it was he who helped me so selflessly all the time, so I am today! Jin Yan, you are too much! "I felt so guilty about the torture in my heart, especially his wordless bitter smile at the end, which made me feel extremely embarrassed.

He was kind to me and recreated, but Jin Yan said those words to him like that, as if he was treated as a rival who coveted me and had selfish intentions towards me, and he was about to take me from Xing Feng's hands like an object without even saying a word of thanks, I understood that Jin Yan took everything for granted and didn't think much about it, but these words sounded so ironic and uncomfortable to Xing Feng, he really regarded me as a relative!

I was uncomfortable, I quickly got up and looked around for my clothes, but at this time the ground was full of messes, the skirt I sent last night had been torn to pieces by him impatiently, at this moment where did I go to find a dress to wear, I was anxious, I wanted to go to Xingfeng to explain immediately, I felt that I owed him an apology, I should not hurt a relative who is sincere to me like this.

My impatient appearance made Jin Yan deeply misunderstood, and he sat on the bed and asked me coldly: "Pan Rushu, are you in a hurry to leave?" You're in a hurry to explain to him, aren't you? If it's really just a pure relationship as you say, why are you in such a hurry now? ”

Jin Yan's misunderstanding made my heart more like an ant on a hot pot, Xing Feng helped me so selflessly, and in the eyes of anyone, he was suspicious of his intentions, after all, we were all men and women back then, and Xing Feng himself was a diamond king in Yushu Linfeng, and he had no reason to help me just because I looked similar to his sister, in the thinking of adults, even if I believed it at the time, I would murmur a little in my heart. What's more, when Xing Feng and I first met, there were subtle sparks, and Jin Yan once had deep worries about my relationship with Xing Feng. So now that he thinks about me and Xingfeng on a bad level, it is not incomprehensible from his point of view.

But at that moment, my emotions had come up, I once felt that I owed a lot of punishment, and this life might not be over, and my fate was rewritten because of him, but look at what I have done now. I once promised him not to fall in love and study hard in college, I once promised him that if he found someone he liked one day, he would ask his opinion first, once we promised each other to depend on each other, no matter what happened in each other's lives, we promised to treat each other as the closest people. But look what I've done now!

Jin Yan and I got back together, but I didn't have time to tell him a word! I clearly promised not to fall in love and study hard in college, but I broke my agreement! Not only that, I lied to him when he called just now, I knew he was worried about me, but I lied to him and said that I was in the dormitory, he knew that I was not in the dormitory, he may have called me last night when I turned off the phone, or maybe he looked for me anxiously! But look at what I've done!

I desperately want to get Jin Yan's understanding, I hope Jin Yan can understand my current mood, I hope he can go with me to Xing Feng's face, and tell Xing Feng everything frankly and frankly, but Jin Yan's face at this time is full of doubt and suspicion, so I can't open my mouth after holding my stomach.

"There's nothing between me and my brother! Jin Yan, how can you be like this, how can you doubt me and my brother...... "I just don't know how to say it anymore, I feel weak to say anything at the moment, my whole face is a capital "embarrassment", I messed everything up, and this is exactly the last thing I want to see.

"Pan Rushu, if there is nothing, then you sit down obediently now, don't think about going to him. I ask you, if he's really your brother, why does he mind if we're together? Why did you just hang up the phone when you heard that I was with you? I don't really understand. Jin Yan looked at me with a blank look, and the fire in his eyes "popped".

At this time, I was standing barefoot on the ground, the floor was cold, the cold wind of the air conditioner was blowing, I was only wearing underwear, because the skirt was torn I couldn't find clothes to wear, so I could only pick up Jin Yan's shirt from the ground and put it on my body. I looked back and saw the anger in his eyes, and suddenly realized that last night's love had vanished in an instant. He doesn't believe in torture, and he doesn't believe me, so what is everything we did last night?!

I looked at him very sadly, and I said, "So...... You didn't believe me, did you? That's the real reason why you haven't confessed to me, right? In the past six months, have you always had a faint thorn in your heart, do you think I must have had something with anyone, have you never believed me?! ”

I shouted hysterically, and I suddenly felt that everything yesterday was so ironic, that we had just said that we would never be separated and that we would always be together, and it was only a long time before his suspicions broke all the vows! All of a sudden, I felt that everything was meaningless, meaningless, what is this?! Is this what I thought was true love?! I've been waiting for so long, and I've been waiting for such doubts?!

"Rushu, listen to me......" He saw that I was really angry, and suddenly came to his senses, and he quickly got up from the bed. I stepped back again and again, shouting in pain, "Don't come here!" ”

I was so excited that my voice changed, and I asked in a trembling voice, "Isn't that right?" Diabetes is just a cover for you to prevaricate me! The real reason is that you don't think I haven't had a relationship with someone else, right? You didn't believe me at all! You've had deep doubts about me all along! Is this the reason why you haven't confessed for so long and are so desperate to compete with others? Jin Yan, I've loved you for so long, so long...... It turns out that I love the wrong person, I love the wrong person......"

My heart was suddenly desolate, I felt that the heart I had just filled was instantly hollowed out again, I leaned against the wall in despair, the air conditioner above my head was still blowing the cold wind, my tears were dried and flowed out by this cold wind, I looked at him in a daze, looking at this man I had fallen in love with since the beginning and has not let go until now, I have never had any doubts about his words, but he has such doubts about me in his heart. I'm so sad, I've never been so sad.

"Yes, you're in love with the wrong person! You're in love with me wrong! Yes, that's what I am! I just doubt you! I just think why so many men are willing to surround you and treat you like a baby! Why! I Jin Yan treats you as a treasure because I once possessed you, and I have owned everything from you! I've hurt you so much! That's why I love you so desperately! I can't forget you! But why are other men being nice to you, how can they be good to you for nothing?! How do you make me believe?! Pan Rushu, you tell me, how do you want me to believe? Jin Yan shouted in pain, I saw that the bruises on his face were exposed, I had never seen him so emotionally out of control, he looked at me with tears in his eyes, his face was full of pain and deep confusion.

Why are they nice to me? I've never thought about it. As soon as Jin Yan asked, I suddenly confused myself. The punishment wind is good to me because I am like the torture rain, but this alone will not cause him to care so much about me; Zhao Qinhan was good to me, but I didn't give him anything, and even smiled stingily, he still said that he loved me; As for Zhang Yu, he still worships me as a goddess until now, and he has always watched from afar and dared not approach easily, even if I have used him......

I was stunned, but I really didn't give anything back to them, especially Xingfeng, who has always been pouring emotional and material investment into me, although I remember them all in my heart, but I have very little in return. However, I clearly understand that the style of punishment is really not love for me. But all this, how can I explain Jin Yan to understand?

"You can not believe it, you can doubt it. But I can swear to God, there has never been anything between me and them! It's just you, do you doubt me like this because you feel guilty? So I have to have something to do to make you feel at ease?! I couldn't help but ask, knowing that there were some things I couldn't ask, but I asked anyway.

He was also stunned, I could clearly see the stagnation of the expression on his face, I was just a sharp instinct when I was angry, and I didn't expect it. The moment he nodded, I instantly felt like it was dark.

"Yes, I've had ......," he said in a low voice, looking up at me again, and saying in a very affirmative tone, "So I don't believe you haven't, you must have." Pan Rushu, let's all admit it! Be honest with each other about any restart, okay? ”

Once the thorn of trust takes root in the heart, it will be deeply rooted in the heart. But just two days and one night of pleasure, the trust that we had just established between us had collapsed, I looked at him, I was speechless, I wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes, and said coldly: "Don't think that your reluctance is someone else's." People and people, it won't be the same. ”

I don't want to stay here any longer, and the residual smell of affection in this room is a great irony to me. At the previous moment, we thought that the sky would fall apart, the sea would not be separated, but at this moment, it seems that the separation of the vicissitudes of the sea is imminent. Isn't it true that he and I don't get together?

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