After taking a lapse around the courtyard, Yi Xuejia's chest only felt that her heart was constantly being dragged down, although the elderly in this welfare home were happy with the children, they were all well taken care of by volunteers, wearing clean clothes, and eating on time, but she could not feel any comfort because they did not deserve to be "forgotten" here.

There are about 20 elderly people in the whole hospital, half of them are Alzheimer's and can't remember where their home is, only one of them is a real literal "lonely widow" old man, no children, the others are abandoned by their children, and there are more than 40 children, all of them have intellectual or physical defects, most of them were abandoned when they were infants, and a small part was rescued by the police from the so-called "beggars" on the street.

Sitting on a bench in the center of the courtyard to rest, Yi Xuejia checked the photos in the preview screen and sighed deeply.

"What's wrong?" Liang Feng came over with two bottles of water and sat down, twisted the lid and handed her a bottle and asked, "Didn't you shoot well?" ”

"It's a good shot, this 'good' makes me uncomfortable, although everyone is smiling in the photo, but the message conveyed is still very lonely and helpless......" Yi Xuejia put the camera in his bag, glanced at Liang Feng, frowned and said, "The world is really bitter." ”

"Well, the most bitter thing is to be lonely, there are many people in the world who have no money, but if you are accompanied by your family, you can still enjoy the suffering, and the most afraid is to find happiness in the suffering, and there is no one around you to share." Liang Feng watched a butterfly land on the flowers and plants in the yard, his eyes and tone were so gentle that he seemed to be about to turn into another butterfly, "Yi Xuejia, I used to want a home very much, and I was very anxious, so I chased after Zhou Linuo and asked when I could marry me......

Yi Xuejia turned his face to listen seriously, and Liang Feng also turned his face, looked directly into her eyes and continued, "Now I think the concept of home is not limited to a template like a family of three, home is just a concept, the point is that someone to form this 'home', not necessarily family, but also friends, I wanted a home because I didn't have a mother since I was a child, but now that I think about it, I don't seem to have ever felt lonely......"

Yi Xuejia couldn't help laughing, put his hand on Liang Feng's hand and said, "Because you have a 'home'." ”

"You are my home, no matter how far I go, I know that I have a place to go back to, to go back." Liang Feng held Yi Xuejia's hand and confessed again seriously, "I like you, Yi Xuejia, but I won't force you to fall in love with me, if you can be friends for a lifetime, I will be very satisfied to be friends with you." ”

"Why do you say it again and again?" Yi Xuejia's ears were a little hot, she tried to pull her hand out of his palm, but she was grabbed tightly, she glared at him, and he smiled innocently.

Her face glowed with a thin and transparent golden velvet in the light, Liang Feng wanted to kiss her, but he still held back, he sighed, sneered and said, "Because I still have a glimmer of hope, I can say again and again, waiting for which time you may agree to me." ”

Yi Xuejia frowned, "Then I haven't agreed?" ”

Liang Feng quietly brought his arm closer to her, and at the same time unconsciously rubbed her fingers with his fingers, and said calmly, "Didn't you say that?" That's okay too. ”

Yi Xuejia blamed herself, "Isn't this delaying you to talk about a serious girlfriend?" ”

He shook his head, "Don't delay, I don't need a girlfriend, I need Yi Xuejia." ”

A volunteer was pushing a wheelchair past in front of them, the old man in the wheelchair was so old that his eyes had become a useless gap among the many wrinkles, if it weren't for the volunteer talking to her all the time, Yi Xuejia almost thought that the motionless old man was no longer breathing.

It is precisely because of these sick old people, even if the flowers are in full bloom in this yard, there is still a rotten atmosphere towards death, and the life energy of the children's upright growth period has not been able to dispel this rich sad atmosphere, and the conflict between rebirth and extinction has stimulated people's examination of the end of life: too fast.

Everything is too fast, from birth to the end, in the blink of an eye.

What else is there to cherish? Hold on tight. Yi Xuejia said frankly: "Actually, I don't want to be separated from you, of course, it's not just you-" Her tone was moving, but she was afraid that Liang Feng would misunderstand, so she quickly added an explanation, "It's everyone, it's everyone, if only we could be together forever." ”

"I know." Liang Feng let go of Yi Xuejia's hand, and finally couldn't help but stretch out his arm to hold her in his arms, put his cheek against her hair, and said solemnly, "I'm not sure about others, but I, and Zhou Linuo, will die with you even if I die, don't worry." ”

"Then we are so young, before we die, there is still a long time to be together......" Yi Xuejia did not resist Liang Feng's touch, she rubbed his chin with the top of her head, her body and mind relaxed softly, and said with a smile, "It's so good." ”

When Yi Xuejia and Liang Feng mentioned death, the related word they imagined was only "parting", not farewell, because they were too young, and their bodies were full of unbridled power, about death, among the six of them, they had been infinitely close to even touching what it was, only Yuchen, after his parents, he had thought about self-disconnection several times, just on the first day of transfer, he touched the top floor of that strange teaching building, stood in the wind and looked down, feeling that everything around him was pushing him, Persuade him to jump.

Every time he was dragged back was Zhou Linuo, she was comforting him as a beam of light in a desperate situation, there was still beauty in this world worthy of his nostalgia, of course, Zhou Linuo didn't know all this, she didn't know that she had escaped from human existence, and was transformed into a beautiful wonderland, she became the medicine he relied on for his life, and those who have faith will go to heaven, and what Yuchen wants to go to is in the halo called Zhou Linuo.

"Zhou Linuo?" He groggily called her name, struggling to open his eyes, as if he had come out of the black mire, relying on that imaginary light, "Zhou Linuo? He kept calling her name, as if chanting a mantra to recharge himself, and finally he saw the scene in front of him, which was the studio in the twilight light.

Yuchen stroked his head and sat up, the hangover made his mind a slashing sound, he pressed close to his eyes in pain, his curled legs unconsciously kicked forward, kicking over many empty wine bottles and cans, and these bottles and cans rolled out of the way and knocked over the messy tools on the ground, a quiet sound in his ears and eyes was like a wild cat screaming, making his tinnitus even worse.

Zhou Linuo...... Zhou Linuo...... Where are you? He whispered in pain, rummaging around with one hand, and touching a cigarette butt, it was not the wine that drunk him, he had smoked too much last night, he was drunk, he was so drunk that he vomited on the ground, but the tension brought by the extreme pain made him feel inspired, and finally he had something he wanted to carve, but as soon as he grabbed the carving knife, he gave up because his hands trembled, and the final result was that he destroyed another piece of wood.

Finally touched a hall of beer, he opened it, poured it into his throat, tried to "fool" his head, told it to stop twisting, after drinking it all in one go, he crushed the can, threw it aside, and yelled at the white wall, "Zhou Linuo!" ”

"What do you want me to do?" Zhou Linuo asked strange questions as he walked in through the door.

Yuchen froze in place, beer overflowing from the corners of his mouth, he couldn't tell whether it was an illusion or reality, but no matter what, he reflexively greeted it, even if the image of the demon incarnation on the other side was the end of his yearning.

Seeing him staggering over, Zhou Linuo glanced around with disgust and said, "You haven't contacted us, you haven't answered the phone, everyone is afraid that you will die, so I just came to take a look...... What's wrong with you? Zhou Linuo, who was in a mess here, unconsciously took a few steps back, "It's dirty and smelly." ”

"Zhou Linuo, I miss you, I miss you so much, I need you." Yuchen grabbed Zhou Linuo's wrist and kissed her cheeks and the exposed skin in her neckline indiscriminately, while dragging her towards the work table, this series of movements was interrupted by a sudden slap, half of his face immediately turned red, and the wine woke up a little.

"You're enough, what are you doing with me?" Zhou Linuo glared angrily, "I'm not your garbage emotion recycling bin. ”

Yuchen stared at Zhou Linuo, who had a double image in his eyes, and for a while, he didn't understand the current situation.

The sound of giggling - glucking in high heels revealed Zhou Linuo's rare hesitation and anxiety, and after pacing around the wall from left to right three times, she finally couldn't help but let out a sigh of relief, and asked with a sneer: "How do you explain that lace news?" ”

The aura on her body was a long river of ice that rejected people, and countless ice picks extended out, forming long whips that could make human skin open flesh, tightly choking Yuchen's airway.