After receiving an emergency call from the hospital, I rushed over without a moment's delay.

As soon as I saw my grandmother being rescued by electric shocks, I instantly went limp, and tears welled up in my eyes.

Helplessly facing a loved one who may be lost at any time, it is really the most unspeakable pain in the world.

I suddenly remembered that when I was a child, I would cry every time I got sick and had an injection. And every time I cried, I would look at my grandmother and yell for her to save me.

At that time, everyone would laugh at me for being timid and afraid of pain, but my grandmother always looked at me with red eyes, and then touched my head lovingly, telling me not to be afraid, the pain would be better after a while.

Now that I think about it, when my grandmother saw me crying, I don't know how distressed she was! She must have preferred that the person who was pricked with a needle was herself.

Although I was young at the time, I was already very tall. Every time I got an injection, my grandmother would carry me home with her body on her back. The people in the town laughed at me, saying that I was almost as tall as my grandmother when I stood up, and I had to wrap my grandmother on the back.

I was so embarrassed that I yelled to come down. Grandma always just smiled and said that it was okay, and that she would carry it for a while while she could still carry it. Later, when I grow up, I won't have to carry it if I want to.

At that time, I was ignorant, so I opened my mouth and replied, "No, when I reach the age of thirty, I will have to carry my grandmother!" ”

At that time, I thought it was my grandmother, thinking that when I grew up, I would be embarrassed to let her carry it. Now I know that she knows that if she really reaches that time, she can't carry it even if she wants to.

Yes, when I grow up, my grandmother will be old. And in the twilight of life, in the face of time, it will become powerless.

The rescue lasted for more than 20 minutes before I heard the heartbeat again with the "Dididi" heartbeat. I exhaled steadily, feeling as if I had struggled through the ghost gate and finally come back to life.

It was only at this time that I realized that my hand was gripping my other hand tightly. The hand was wide and warm, as if it could pass through the palm of the hand to convey the comfort that was enough to soothe the pain all the way to the heart.

When he saw that I was looking at him in a daze, he turned his head, looked at me deeply, and then reached out and gently wiped the tears from my face.

After my grandmother was sent to the intensive care unit, we followed the attending doctor to the medical room to learn that my grandmother had cardiac arrest induced by acute cerebral hemorrhage. The worst case may be that the whole body is paralyzed, and if the consciousness is concerned, it may be clear for the time being.

"But doctor, my grandmother was fine when I got out of the hospital this morning, why did she suddenly have a cerebral hemorrhage?"

"Well, you also know that your grandmother is old, and the old man's cardiovascular and cerebrovascular properties are not good, plus such a stimulus-"

I interrupted him urgently, "Stimulation? Who stimulated her? ”

The doctor looked up, "It is said that this old man walked around the hospital with the old man in the next bed, and then when he walked to the intensive care unit, he saw a small patient lying inside through the glass window, so..."

After listening to the doctor's words, I only felt that there was darkness in front of me. My grandmother has asked me more than once where Xiao Jiujiu went, and I kept saying that he was at Yan Lei's house, saying that Yan Lei was awarded after the divorce, and their family treated him with good food and drink, so let her not worry.

I was also afraid that she would know that it would be like this, so I didn't dare to tell the truth, but I didn't expect that when she should come, she always has to come.

Just thinking about it, I knew how uncomfortable she must have been when she saw Xiao Jiujiu like that!

I went back to the ward to accompany my grandmother. Duan Muqing stayed behind and talked to the doctor about something.

I held my grandmother's hand tightly and didn't dare to let go for a moment. I'm afraid that this release will be forever separated.

This person, that's it, when you have it, you never feel that you have anything more than others, but once you want to let go, you know how precious the things you hold tightly in your hands are.

About an hour later, Duan Muqing came. He gestured at me and motioned for me to speak.

"What's wrong? What do doctors say? ”

"I talked to the doctor and my grandmother's condition was really serious. At present, there is no better way than craniotomy. But this craniotomy itself is also very risky, and my grandmother is also old, and the doctor said that she may not be able to hold on to the operating table-"

I hurriedly reached out and put my hand to his lips, "I know, don't say it." ”

He gently pulled my hand down, "Think about it, if you don't have surgery, your grandmother may not last long." The doctor said, half a year at most, and a short one..."

He gave me a cautious look, and his voice was very soft, "A month." ”

When I opened my mouth, I felt like someone had suddenly stuffed a handful of yellow lotus into my mouth, so bitter that I couldn't say a word.

And the bitter taste, still down the mouth, has been bitter to the heart, making my whole body tremble, and the whole person trembles with it.

A month! In a month's time, I'm going to lose my grandmother!

Forever ......

Seeing that I couldn't even stand on my feet, Duan Muqing pulled me and helped me sit down on the chair next to me.

I stared blankly ahead, helpless and terrified.

He looked at me, sighed heavily, and then raised his hand to help me brush my forehead.

I withdrew my gaze, looked at him in a daze, and said in a wooden voice, "Mu Qing... Is there anything you want me to do? ”

He looked at me in surprise, "Why do you suddenly ask that?" ”

"Leave it alone, just tell me if there's anything I can do for you?"

He thought thoughtfully, looked at me worriedly, and didn't answer.

"Nothing?" I looked at him anxiously.

In the face of my questioning, he still didn't say a word, except that his eyes were a little deeper.

"Can't I do anything?" I smiled to myself, "I can't do anything for you, I'll only trouble you forever, right!" That's what I really am! ”

He put his hands around my shoulders, "Xiaoxi, what are you thinking?" ”

I cried and shook my head, "But... I really can't do anything! Seeing you uncomfortable, seeing you angry, I really don't know what to do. ”

"Xiaoshio..."

I didn't dare look him in the eyes, "You know what? In fact, among the two people, sometimes it is often the one who breaks up first, which is the more painful. Because she's afraid! I'm really scared! When I knew I was angry with you, the first thought that popped into my mind was fear! I'm so scared that my whole body trembles! I was overwhelmed with fear. ”

"What are you afraid of me?"

I shook my head, "I'm afraid of losing you. ”

Hearing this, his hand around my waist stiffened slightly, and then I was embraced by him in his generous arms.

When I leaned into this arms again, I really felt like a world away. I really thought that I would never feel this tenderness again in my life.

It's like a roller coaster, when you pass the highest point and are on the verge of death, you will cherish the peace of the flat place more and more.

"Mu Qing, during the time you ignored me, I really thought about it alone for a long, long time, but I just couldn't think of what I could do for you. It's true! I hate myself sometimes, why am I so stupid! ”

"Nope! You're not stupid, you-"

He stopped talking suddenly.

I was curious to look up, but he pressed me harder and harder into his arms, "Besides, I don't want you to do anything for me except to pray that you will love me." ”

"That's not right! You don't want me to do anything because you know I can't do anything, right? I'm actually very incompetent! It's like my grandmother, she worked so hard to pull me up, but now, I-"

He interrupted me softly, "Xiaoxi, listen to me, I have experienced your current mood." At that time, my mother was seriously ill and lying in the hospital, and at the last moment, I desperately pulled her hand and kept crying and begging her not to leave, saying that I hadn't had time to repay her, and she hadn't had a good life for a few days, so she just left, it was not worth it! ”

He sniffed slightly, "But do you know what she says?" ”

I shook my head in a trance.

She told me intermittently that in fact, for her, to be able to see my healthy growth and live well in this world is for her in this life... The best reward! ”

Hearing this, my tears welled up.

"Xiaoxi, in fact, I still regret it. When my mother left, I only cared about my own sorrows, crying darkly, and screaming to her not to leave me, not to leave me alone in this world. Now that I think about it, my mother must have felt so uncomfortable when she heard my heart-rending cry! If she could, of course she would stay, and she didn't want to leave! But... How fragile people are in the face of life. She also knew that it was time for her to have to leave, and if I cried like that again, she would definitely be worse than dead......"

I felt his voice tremble faintly, even in people.

I thought, he might have cried

"That's my eternal regret, I don't want it to be yours. Now that I think about it, I should have held my mother's hand tightly and told her, Mom, you have lived a strong and innocent life, and I am proud of you. Although I am really reluctant to give you up, but ...... If you're really ready to go to another world, then... You can go with peace of mind. Although I will be sad and sad, after that, I will definitely live a strong and happy life like you once was. Being able to be your son is the greatest happiness of my life! ”

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