Chapter 165: The Confusion of Life
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Tianchen gritted his teeth and said, "Yesterday, someone from their side came and talked secretly with my father for one night. Soon after, my father said goodbye. β
Tianlan hesitated: "'They'...... Is it from my mother's side?"
He didn't know much about his mother, because he had never met her, only that she had died in childbirth when she gave birth to him. Since then, the whole family has never mentioned the 'female' head of the family. Occasionally, when others asked, my father would always speak violently and even fight. Part of the reason why the Tianlingsha family has made a lot of enemies is because of this, and it is also because of the many troubles in the capital.
He knew that although his father never mentioned it to him, his eyes were so cold when he occasionally looked at him, as if he was looking at an enemy who killed his wife, which made him very afraid. For the victorious general who is revered as a god by the people of the whole country, the only thing in the world that can touch him is his only wife. Therefore, even if Tianlan does not know the cause and effect, he can guess the approximate result by listening to just a few words.
But whatever that man's attitude was, it was his father! He didn't want anything to happen to him.
"Brother, father, he'll be fine......"
He stepped forward to comfort Tianchen, but Tianchen suddenly turned around, his expression was hideous, and he was angry, as if he wanted to choose someone to devour, and Tianlan was frightened and retreated. That look was so unfamiliar, if it weren't for that familiar look, he couldn't believe that this person was his own brother!
No, it shouldn't be like this! A sense of subversion suddenly rose in his heart, as if something was 'messed up'......
Tianchen roared angrily: "It's you! If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have lost my beloved mother! If it weren't for you, my father wouldn't have left me!"
"No, brother, how can you ......" For a moment, Tianlan felt that his brain was blank, and it seemed to be filled with countless thoughts, making him dazed.
"It's all you!Why are you born!!Why is it not you who died, but my mother!!"
Tianchen's face twisted and roared at him, his voice higher than the other.
"Damn! If it weren't for you, our family would still be happy now, how could we be like this! Why didn't you die?! Your life is the biggest mistake in the world!!
Every time he said a word, Tianlan's face became pale. The aggressive words of the 'forced' man were like sharp blades piercing his 'chest', and the pain was stronger than suffocation.
His eyes widened in disbelief and said, "Brother, it turns out that you have always looked at me like this in your heart?"
Tianchen's eyes burned with the flame of hatred, and he said, "That's right! If I knew this was the case, I should have tried every means to prevent you from being born! Your birth has only brought us disaster!"
He took out the dagger in his arms, threw it on the ground, and said, "Did I do it, or did you cut it off yourself?"
Tianlan lowered his head and looked at the dagger that rolled to his feet, his eyes were extremely complicated. He leaned down and slowly picked up the dagger, the dagger still had Tianchen's body temperature remaining, and it was so real in his hand.
He stared at the dagger in his hand in a daze, the sharp tip of which could indeed easily pierce his thin body. He couldn't help but think of every inch of his time with Tianchen before, whether it was laughter or sadness, it seemed to have become blurry and unreachable.
Seeing that he didn't take the next step, Tianchen added fuel to the fire and said, "Hmph, don't you understand? You shouldn't exist! It's good for everyone without you!"
Tianlan's hands trembled, and he looked up at Tianchen's ruthless eyebrows, feeling as uncomfortable as pressing a thousand catties of boulders. He raised his hand to put the dagger around his neck and closed his eyes in silence.
With a slight movement of his wrist, the sharp blade would cut through his carotid artery.
Seeing this, Tianchen smiled strangely, as if waiting for him to do it himself. But at this time, Tianlan smiled abnormally and said, "Haha, it really doesn't look like it." With that, he lowered his arm and threw the dagger far away. With a "ding-dong", the dagger fell to the ground and hit several pieces of wood.
Looking at him with a frown, Tianchen said gloomily, "What do you mean?
Tianlan shook his head, stretched out two fingers, and said, "You have two things wrong. β
"Tianchen" raised his eyebrows, silently waiting for his next step.
"First, you shouldn't make a fuss about my memories. The ones I resist the most are the unforgettable memories in my mind that shake my mind. If I hadn't been able to carry it, I would have died countless times, so how could it be your turn to do it?"
He said with a smile, and the natural 'tone' of the mouth was not at all like that of a ten-year-old child. That confident demeanor is somewhat similar to his real appearance.
"Second, your biggest mistake is that you shouldn't have tampered with my memories. My brother...... He's a good brother and would never say anything to hurt me. You really, you don't know him well. β
"Tianchen" was still 'gloomy', and there was neither affirmation nor denial of his words.
"I'll admit, you're really good enough to peek into my heart to such an extent. β
Tianlan lowered his eyes and said softly. Yes, these were his memories, at least until Tianchen turned around. However, the latter words are not made out of thin air. He has always known Tianchen's love for him, but who can guarantee that Tianchen has no jealousy and hatred in his heart? He really ruined Tianchen's family, his mother's early death, his father's disappearance, Tianchen lost the love of his parents, and had to face the pressure of the family in advance. In fact, he has always felt guilty about Tianchen in his heart, since he was a child. This anxiety and guilt were used by the wall of inquiry, and this situation was born.
Fake Tianchen's eyes 'revealed' a fierce light, and said: "Do you want to kill your brother with your own hands?" Hmph, the wolf's ambition, don't you even plan to let go of the last relative!"
He chuckled and said, "Another person might really fall into your trap." It's a pity for me...... I've never been 'confused' about my existence, all I can say is your questionβ"
The corners of his mouth rose and he closed his eyes slightly, and in an instant, the wind blew upside down, overturning the entire room, and at the same time, the fake Tianchen also turned into green smoke in the wind.
"Wrong. It wasn't until the 'color' of the surrounding scenery gradually disappeared that he slowly spit out the last three words.
He opened his eyes again, and found himself in a gray-black 'colored' forest, needless to say, this was naturally the Bathing Spirit Forest.
He smiled self-deprecatingly, his eyes revealed a bit of loneliness and helplessness, and said to himself: "It's still not ruthless enough, I actually close my eyes and don't want to look, am I still afraid to face it today?"
At this time, the leaves of the trees not far away shook for a while, and he shouted vigilantly, "Who is it?!"
Several black shadows fell to the ground from behind the forest leaves, as if they were three people, covered by the leaves, and their bodies were so tattered that it was difficult to distinguish.
He sensed that the three of them were somewhat familiar, and took two steps forward. One of them raised his head, and he recognized it almost immediately: "Ye Yi?!How could it be you?!And they are?Tao'er?Nangong Kui?"
Ye Yi helped the trunk of the tree to climb up, his eyes were not good, and when he saw Tianlan, he was like looking at a great enemy, the rusty sword in his hand roared into the wind, crossing a semicircular arc, and the tip of the sword was actually aimed at Tianlan!
"Ye Yi?!" Tianlan took a few steps back, his expression confused, and somehow.
Ye Yi's eyes burst with hatred, and he said hatefully: "It's all you! It's all you who insist on going to the Bathing Spirit Forest! You already know that there are dangers here, right?! You already knew that we were likely to die here, but you still let us come to send us to death, right?!"
Tianlan involuntarily took two steps back and said, "What are you talking about......?"
Ye Yi pressed step by step, and said: "Do you still want to quibble? Do you dare to say that you don't know the dangers of the Bathing Spirit Forest? For your own 'selfishness' and 'desire', you don't care about the 'life' of our companions!"
Tao'er and Nangong Kui also floated over at some point, the two of them stared at a pair of white eyes, their faces were full of blood, like a terrible ghost, very terrifying. And their voices are as profound and terrifying as coming from the Nine Shadows, and they are extremely shocking.
"Why are you framing us like this......"
"How can you be so ruthless and disregard our lives and deaths?"
"Why don't you die!"
Tianlan retreated again until his back touched the trunk behind him, and there was no way to retreat.
A cold sweat broke out on his head, the three of them looked so miserable that he had never seen them before. No, perhaps, he thought about it. After all, he had been to the Bathing Spirit Forest before, so he naturally knew that it would not be easy to cross the forest safely with their strength. It's a pity that he still chose it.
The almost ghostly appearance of the three of them shocked him deeply, and he could feel the sound of his heartbeat almost shattering his body. Is this true? Is this a reality? Because of his choice, he killed his friends?
His selfishness, in order not to cross the border, to protect the integrity of his family, he put his friends in danger?
No, it won't! How can this kind of thing happen!
"It's a nightmare disaster for us that you're alive!"
"I really regret knowing you!
Every sentence was the last thing he wanted to hear, but at this time his ears were so sensitive that he could hear even the hatred in their words.
Tianlan closed his eyes and took a deep breath, forcibly restrained his fluctuating emotions, and said, "You are wrong. Even if I was asked to see the last thing I wanted to see, it wouldn't shake my mind. Although he said this, the blood biting out of the corner of his mouth showed that his heart was not calm at this time, at least not as calm as in his words.
"First of all, it's not up to me to decide our course. It's a joint decision, and it's not something I can influence alone. He explained sensibly, as if to calm his own mind.
"Secondly, my companions are not so weak that they will surely die if they enter the Bath Forest. When it comes to risk, I was probably the most dangerous one when I was blind. β
"And if they really get upset about it...... Then I can only say that I am looking at the wrong person. β
He opened his eyes suddenly, and all the confusion and hesitation in his eyes had dissipated, and only firm conviction remained.
"I don't think I'm responsible for everything, things that don't belong to me, even if you impose them on me, can't make me question them. When it comes to the knot in my heart, I only have a 'confusion' about the future, but not about existence! I have never doubted me standing here, and I must never doubt it. I won't be 'confused' or 'confused' by you, so let's die!"
He stretched out his fingers, and his fingertips were suddenly entwined with cyan 'color' airflow, and more and more airflow converged towards his fingers!
The wind was so strong that it sneered at the hem of his clothes, and the ghostly trio couldn't help but retreat, looking at him in surprise.
"Tianlan, do you want to kill people?!"
Tianlan's brows furrowed slightly, his fingertips were blue, and the docile cyan 'color' airflow suddenly turned into a sharp blade, turning into a terrifying blade whirlwind in the whirlpool! In less than a second, the whirlwind completely engulfed the three people, and not even a wisp of green smoke escaped!
Suddenly it darkened, it was dark, and nothing could be seen.
He lowered his hand weakly and smiled bitterly, "It's time to do it now." β
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