Pei Shuyi's Confession (3)

Yan Qiao and the three of them came back soon, and there was Qi Chuchu together, Yan Qiao strode over and sat at the head of the bed, put his palm on my shoulder, and called my mother in a hoarse and painful voice, he should have looked for Pei Tingqing to confirm that Pei Tingqing left, Yan Qiao comforted me and said: "It's okay Mom, we can still get Dad back like last time, you cheer up, I have arranged for someone to go." ”

Where to look? Pei Tingqing will be disfigured, if he doesn't want us to find it, then even if we look for twenty years, it will be fruitless, the last time he stayed here with Yan Xiao and Yan Jin, he always gave me hope, and now he may die soon, and if he finds it again, it will be just a pile of white bones and a cold tombstone.

Yan Qiao wants to find it, just look for it, anyway, I don't care so much about whether I can find Pei Tingqing, it's best if he is still alive at that time, if it is really a tombstone, I will accept it calmly, in short, no matter what the result is, I will definitely accompany Pei Tingqing.

Yan Xiao reached out and hugged me, she was still a girl, she cried like me, Yan Xiao choked up and said to me: "Mom, don't do this, Dad, he is just going out to run errands temporarily, even if it is ............ Even if something really happens, you can't help but think about it, Mom, you still have us............"

I shook my head silently and quietly with tears in my eyes, I'm sorry, let my children worry and feel sorry for me as a mother, but even so, I still have to give up my life and go to hell or heaven to find Pei Tingqing, I know that I am too selfish and irresponsible to leave Yan Qiao and Yan Xiao behind.

I'm not like Pei Tingqing, I'd rather disappear, let me and Yanqiao keep looking for him, he won't die in front of us, don't let us grieve for him, I can't use any words to describe Pei Tingqing's man, this father's love for me and our children, he has been paying for us and thinking about us in this life until he is about to die, how can there be such a great man and father as Pei Tingqing in this world?

I didn't cry anymore, because I couldn't waste the few days I had left, I should make some preparations for my death, I didn't eat, drink, sleep, I sorted Pei Tingqing's clothes and other things in the room, even though I used to do this every day, there was nothing to tidy up, but before I died, I still wanted to do it again.

I wrote the original manuscripts of the cartoons I drew over the years with Pei Tingqing as the male protagonist and the jewelry he gave me on paper and displayed them one by one, telling them that when I die, these things will be buried for me, and I will take them away, because they have witnessed the forty years of feelings and bits and pieces between me and Pei Tingqing, which I like and cherish the most.

But what can be given to Pei Tingqing's funeral, what does he like and cherish the most? I don't think there is anything else but me, he is not very interested in anything, I have not seen him have any special hobbies for so many years since I have known him, since I am his whole world, then let me bury him.

I look like a nervous path, Yan Xiao was scared by me, and she didn't go out, she followed me inch by inch, accompanied me, guarded me, for fear that I wouldn't be able to think about it, but in the end they will understand that only by letting me die with Pei Tingqing is the greatest achievement for me, and I will be the happiest.

Three days later, Yan Qiao still didn't hear from Pei Tingqing, but I became more and more calm, Yan Xiao put dinner in my hand, Yan Qiao persuaded me to eat, but I really couldn't eat, I had given up on myself, and I was ready to end my life with a hunger strike.

Qi Chuchu came over at this time and told us that she had found Pei Tingqing, but she had one condition.

I slowly raised my head.

Later, a few of us went to Japan together, facing not a tombstone, Pei Tingqing returned to the small room where I was studying in college, the sky here in Tokyo is still snowing, my slender figure stands in the fluttering snow, Pei Tingqing got off the car, is walking to the house, raised his eyes to see me who had already burst into tears, he was stunned.

As expected, Pei Tingqing was wearing a human skin mask on his face, except for a few people we were familiar with, how could ordinary people recognize him? The view was blocked by the goose feathers and heavy snow, I stood motionless a few steps away from Pei Tingqing, covered my mouth with my hand, I choked Pei Tingqing and called Pei Tingqing, "Big brother............"

Pei Tingqing took off the mask on his face, and then stepped forward in a few big steps, wrapping me into his arms with his slender and strong arms, he must have already known, no matter life or death, I will follow him without hesitation, so there is no need for other words, we hugged each other tightly in the heavy snow, Pei Tingqing's palm was on my back, and his resolute chin kept rubbing the top of my head, full of pity and helplessness.

He hoarsely asked me how I could be so persistent? Last time, I didn't hesitate to dig a grave, and it took me more than half a year to look for him all over the world, and this time I found him again, can't I let him die quietly and not let anyone feel sad for him?

The tears in my eyes kept pouring out, was he too stupid, or did I never do enough? He never believed that even if he died, I would not give up on him, I would be so persistent, just because I loved him, just like once I pushed him away again and again, every time I hurt him so deeply, he never gave up on me, after a hundred turns, what has not changed is that he loves me, I love him.

Pei Tingqing shook his head and replied that it was because I believed in my feelings for him too much now, and after he passed away, I would give up on myself, so he tried to let me live well in this way, but the facts proved that he failed.

At this time, there was a sound of "plopping" behind him, Pei Tingqing and I turned around, Yan Qiao was already kneeling on the ground, his back was straight, and he apologized to Pei Tingqing so solemnly for the first time in so many years, "I'm sorry Dad, I was wrong before, and I won't break your heart again in the future." Don't you want to see me get married and have children? I promised to be with Qi Chuchu, please don't leave us again............"

That's right, this is the condition put forward by Qi Chuchu, using her marriage to Yan Qiao as an excuse to let Pei Tingqing come back, and I know that Yan Qiao loves Pei Tingqing's father so much, don't let him get married, even if he exchanges his life for Pei Tingqing, I'm afraid he will be willing.

Pei Tingqing walked over and squatted in front of Yan Qiao, he stretched out his hand to hug Yan Qiao, and said sorry to Yan Qiao, even if he died in the future, he would accompany Yan Qiao and Yan Xiao on their last journey.

Yan Qiao hugged Pei Tingqing and choked up Dad, and then he cried, and Yan Xiao, who was hugged by Yan Jin behind her shoulders, also covered her mouth and silently shed tears.

Sitting in the car on the way to the airport, Pei Tingqing found that Yan Qiao had brought at least twenty subordinates over, he immediately smiled dumbly, and asked Yan Qiao, who was driving in front, if he was unwilling to go back, Yan Qiao would let those subordinates do something with him?

Yan Qiao was noncommittal, and raised his slender eyebrows Yuzhi said proudly that he couldn't beat Pei Tingqing alone, it didn't mean that twenty people couldn't tie Pei Tingqing back forcibly, Pei Tingqing nodded, and said another day, if you have a chance, you can try.

Originally, I was leaning on Pei Tingqing's shoulder, holding him tightly with one hand, and when I heard this, I suddenly raised my head and asked him what he meant, he hasn't gone back yet, and he has already begun to plan to escape next time?

Pei Tingqing turned sideways and hugged me, pressed my face on his chest with his big hand, his chin pressed heavily on the top of my head, and he said in a low voice: "I won't go anymore, really, I won't leave you until I die............"

I then wrapped my arms around Pei Tingqing's thin waist and snuggled up to his thick and hot chest, and the good smell surrounded me again, I smiled lightly and closed my eyes contentedly.

After a few hours on the plane, Pei Tingqing and I finally returned to Yan Jin's residence, this time Pei Tingqing didn't hide it from me anymore, saying that he went to Japan several times, all because there was a doctor arranged there, and he would go to check and treat every once in a while.

When Pei Tingqing first left the Pei family and came here, the doctor diagnosed that his condition was not optimistic, and at that time he was too disheartened and full of despair about the world, so he had to get by, he didn't care how long he could live, and he thought that he would not live long.

He felt that the medicine and treatment were useless, and after I found him, in order not to make me sad and worried, he hid the medicine, and now that the deadline for the doctor's death notice has arrived, he can only choose to leave me, wanting me to live with the last bit of hope.

After returning to Japan, Pei Tingqing went to the hospital again, and the doctor actually said that his physical condition had improved, and if he actively cooperated with the treatment, there should be no major problems............ After hearing this, I was ecstatic and excited, and I used this to ridicule Pei Tingqing for being too stupid.

He's really smart, and he's confused for a while, isn't he better than the doctor knows what his own body is? Pei Tingqing's face is still so thick-skinned, and he said calmly that he doesn't treat himself, the reason why he doesn't seem to have anything to do on weekdays is because of his strong willpower, in fact, sometimes he feels that his internal organs are not very comfortable.

Hearing this, I laughed "poof", nothing can make me feel so good than Pei Tingqing is alive, I asked him meaningfully where he felt uncomfortable, was there something wrong with his kidneys? Xing ability is the only thing that can hit Pei Tingqing's self-esteem, and after hearing this, his face immediately sank, and he turned over and pressed me all at once.

Just came back from the plane, and the sky was blue, he was going to love me, but he Du Danhua died, and he was also a ghost, but I couldn't let him indulge himself anymore, I stopped him with a tough attitude, and I still softened my heart when I saw him burning with lust and trying to endure it.

Finally I sat him on the bed, and I knelt on the carpet with my arms on his knees and my head into his legs.

For a period of time after that, I didn't allow Pei Tingqing to go to the piano shop again, except for accompanying him to the hospital for treatment according to the doctor's arrangement, we stayed at home for the rest of the time, and I recuperated his body in many aspects of diet, including making him abstinent.

As a result, Pei Tingqing refuted me with the reason that proper love is good for my health, and I had to take a step back and satisfy him in another way every other day to avoid him from overindulgence and kidney loss. （→_→）

During this time, Pei Tingqing said that he was locked in a golden wire cage, and he didn't even have any freedom, I followed him inch by inch, he sit, I sit; When he rises, I follow him; When he left, of course, I didn't forget to hold his hand............ Even when he went to the bathroom, I had to stay outside.

I also asked Yan Qiao to send a few subordinates, always paying attention to Pei Tingqing not to run away anymore, Pei Tingqing said disapprerovingly If he really wants to leave, how can we people stop him? For example, he can slash me unconscious with a knife while I am sleeping, walk through the window, and he can shoot several flying knives in a row, killing those subordinates in minutes.

I was speechless, wondering whether to get a pair of handcuffs to clasp my wrists and Pei Tingqing's wrists together, but thinking that Pei Tingqing might even be able to open the handcuffs, I still gave up this extreme idea.

On the other hand, sticking to Pei Tingqing like this every day, even if I don't do anything, I don't feel bored or bored, anyway, as long as I look at Pei Tingqing, it is enough for me.

Yan Qiao went back to China, Qi Chuchu stayed in Pei Tingqing's piano shop for the time being, and Yu Xiao and Yan Jin said at dinner one day that they were going to have a child, but before that, the wedding was going to be held, and Yan Jin didn't want to be wronged by Yan Xiao at this point.

Pei Tingqing proposed to plan the whole wedding for the two children, Yan Xiao and Yan Jin were of course very happy, so they handed everything over to Pei Tingqing.

The wedding was held in the church here, Pei Tingqing rarely disliked me, and adopted a lot of my ideas in style and decoration, and finally the wedding time was set for October 1.

However, that morning, when I woke up from a nightmare covered in cold sweat, I reflexively looked to my side, Pei Tingqing was not there, and my sleep in recent months has always been very shallow, unless he did something to me, otherwise as long as he got up and got out of bed, I would definitely be aware.

I panicked again, trying to calm myself down and comfort myself that maybe Pei Tingqing got up early to be busy with Yan Xiao and Yan Jin's wedding, or maybe he was downstairs? I lifted the quilt and was just about to get out of bed, when Yan Xiao knocked on the door outside and told me that Pei Tingqing went to the church first and asked me to wash up and go downstairs.

I immediately breathed a sigh of relief, some wondered why Yan Xiao was still at home, when I walked to the living room, I saw five or six makeup artists and stylists waiting, I was ashamed that my daughter was going to get married, but I got up too late as a mother, who knew that one of the women walked in front of me with a snow-white wedding dress, and asked me to change it with a smile.

"Huh?!" I turned my head to look at Yan Xiao behind me, but she smiled mysteriously and said nothing.

The mobile phone vibrated at this time, and Pei Tingqing sent a text message like this, "This is just a pretense, in fact, it is not Yan Jin and Yan Xiao who are really going to hold a wedding, but me and you, who have been preparing for so long, and the reason why I hide it from you is just to give you a surprise." ”

"Shuyi, although you have never made this request to me, I have not forgotten that on the day we received our marriage certificate, I promised you that I will definitely hold a make-up wedding in the future, let you wear a snow-white and holy wedding dress, marry me, and be my bride............"

The tears in my eyes had already rolled out, and I smashed them on the phone screen in large pieces, covering my mouth with my hands, trying not to let myself cry.

A few hours later, I got in the car and rushed to the church accompanied by Yan Xiao, where Yan Jin, Yan Qiao and Qi Chuchu, Duan Xuchu and Weiyi, Mu Yuxiu and Wen Wan, and even Sheng Qizhou and Ling Yueqiong were in the guest seats............ Waiting for their former relatives and friends to be there, but all I could see was the man in the white dress in front of me, with a smile on his lips.

Pei Tingqing has broad shoulders and strong waist, tall and majestic, that face is handsome and young, his eyes are full of endless tenderness and love when he stares at me, I am so excited, if it wasn't for Yan Xiao holding my arm all the time, I'm afraid I would have fallen to the ground because I couldn't walk well.

In the sound of beautiful and tactful music, I walked over step by step, the smile on Pei Tingqing's lips deepened, I also smiled back to him, but my eyes were hot, my tears were about to gush out, in a long time as if a century, I finally handed my hand to Pei Tingqing, and then he held it tightly.

Later, Pei Tingqing lifted the veil covering my face, leaned over and kissed me with his hot lips, so cherished and extremely reverent, before I closed my eyes, I saw two lines of tears that slipped on Pei Tingqing's handsome face, and he also cried at the moment when I finally became his bride.

For a moment, tears rained down my eyes.

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Author's digression: I wish there were years to look back on, and with deep affection, the instructor did not forget the wedding promised to Shuyi, and I also did not forget, at this moment it is finally really over.

I said I never write tragedy, or open-ended endings, so you should believe me from the beginning, this is still a perfect story of sadistic heart-to-heart abuse, but not sadistic ending, and what is this story trying to interpret? It's willful, impulsive, youthful and crazy.

Whether it is the instructor and Shuyi, or Wei Chengshu and Du Shixian, they all started from being young and ignorant, and changed as they grew older, or until death, or ended sadly, and when they couldn't afford it, they loved without hesitation, no matter what their ending was, the same thing was that the process was vigorous.

This ending has always been what I want to give to everyone, to myself, and even the most important thing I want to give to the instructor and Shuyi the most, someone loves tragedy, I have thought about countless tragic endings, but when I really love the characters in my pen deeply, I hope they can be happy, so the idea of tragedy is just thinking about it.

I actually don't want to compare fiction with reality, but I have to say that my essays are all derived from reality, so what I want to say is to cherish the feelings that belong to you, dare to love and hate without giving up and stick to it (of course, if you are not a beloved, you should break it off as soon as possible, O(∩_∩)O haha~), but also believe that this world is full of true love, as long as you find, cherish, and give, kind people will be lucky............ That's all, after writing it, my heart suddenly emptied, I guess many readers are like me, right?

Statement: The charging method of grinding iron is rounding, so in the case of not exceeding the word limit, I will not charge more for this nonsense, I am really a person who does not like to make announcements, forgive me for this compulsion, what should be said is here.

March 12 at 4:00.