I clutched the wildflowers in my hands, not daring to look back, not wanting to look back, afraid that it was real and that it was delusional.

The days have calmed down, I don't want to make any more waves, I just want the world to be stable.

I stood there stunned, didn't turn around, didn't look back.

Under the refraction of the sunlight, I saw a figure gradually walking towards me, so much like him, so similar!

It's not him, it won't be him! I shouted in my heart.

A pair of hands put on my shoulders and turned my body over, and I saw a familiar face, a face that I had thought about day and night, so haggard, so vicissitudes, so painful.

He...... He didn't die, he bravely survived!

Leng Mochen took me into his arms, tightly, buried his head between my neck, and his voice sank into his ears: "I won't let go anymore, I won't let go again."

I felt my whole body stiffen, it was him! Is it really him? He came looking for me, he hugged me, and he said he wouldn't let go again.

I tried to raise my hand to hug him, only to find that my hands were stiff and unable to move.

I thought it was all over when I jumped off the cliff, but I never thought that in just one month, he would find me, and how much suffering and torture he had to endure in this month to make such a mess of himself!

originally thought that his heart would no longer hurt, but seeing his appearance at this moment, it turned out that his heart would still hurt.

It was a long, long time before Leng Mochen let go of me, I don't know if he was excited or excited, his hand holding my shoulder couldn't help but tremble a little.

I looked up at him, his perfect chin covered with beard that matched his haggard countenance.

I looked at him speechless, and I didn't know what to say for a while, who saved him after I left that day?

Leng Mochen's hand touched my face, lowered his head and kissed my lips, I didn't struggle, I didn't push him away, and responded appropriately to his kiss.

From beginning to end, I can't refuse him, let alone escape him, I am his, this life is destined to be only his, no matter where I go, he will try his best to find me, he said, if I don't want him anymore, even if I search the whole world, he will find me.

After kissing for a while, Leng Mochen let go of me, took my shoulders and held me in his arms, his big hand went down the top of my head, gently stroked my hair, and his voice was slightly hoarse: "I finally found you."

"Don't you hate me?" I snuggled quietly into his arms.

"I'm not qualified to hate you, I only hate myself." Leng Mochen looked down at me, his eyes were hazy, but a thin layer of mist floated on it: "Thank God for letting me find you, and I will never let go again."

I watched him and didn't speak again, my heart was complicated, there was love and very, love and hatred.

Leng Mochen held my hand and looked at me deeply: "Xiaoxi, are you still blaming me?"

"What's the use of blaming you, it's all gone." If I blame him for the child and can come back, then I blame him for the rest of my life.

"Shinoshi, you know ......"

"Don't say it, it's all over." I raised my hand to cover his mouth, and when I mentioned those sad things, I was afraid that I would not be able to control my emotions.

"Okay, I won't talk about it, we won't talk about the past." Leng Mochen grabbed my waist and hugged me to his chest: "Wife, I miss you so much, do you miss me?"

"At first, I will think about it, but slowly I will not think about it." Seeing him twist his eyebrows unhappily, I smiled and said, "Are you hungry?"

"Hungry." Leng Mochen nodded

"Let's go, I'll cook for you." I dragged him into the house.

A lot of things, calm down and think about it to understand that you really don't care too much about who is right and who is wrong, this month, I really think it through.

From the moment I jumped off the cliff, I never thought I would see him again, I thought he was dead, even if he didn't die, he wouldn't know I was here, I didn't expect him to find me so soon, I felt sorry in my heart, and I blamed myself, more of the emotion that I couldn't let go.

I love him, I hate him, I hate that he can't protect me, can't protect our children, in fact, I should hate myself even more, I can't protect myself, what qualifications do I have to ask others to protect!

I hated myself for being useless, that I couldn't even protect a child.

I hated myself for being cruel and killing the man I loved again and again.

I hated myself for being cowardly, and when something happened, I chose to run away and let the innocent people be punished.

He wasn't wrong, but I put all the blame on him.

I deserve to die for my sins, but I always want him to die.

I'm selfish, I'm ruthless, I'm ignorant, I'm impulsive, I'm worthless, why should he be so good to me, he shouldn't forgive me, and I don't deserve to be forgiven.

I stabbed him twice in the heart with my own hands, and I swore that if something happened again, I would stab myself in the heart, let myself die, and let the useless people die.

I cooked noodles for him, and he seemed to be hungry, so he picked up the bowl and ate it.

"Slow down, don't swallow it." It's been a long time since he's eaten!

"I'm so hungry, I'm so hungry."

"Why are you so hungry that you don't usually eat?"

"You're not here, you don't have an appetite for eating, but your wife's cooking is delicious." Leng Mochen put down the bowl in his hand and smiled at me, as if he was a little uncomfortable, he squinted and shook his head.

"What's wrong?" I asked hurriedly.

"I'm a little dizzy, don't worry too much." Leng Mochen turned his head to look at the room, looked at it and said, "Did you build this house?" I also planted vegetables and raised animals, wife, you are so virtuous. ”

"How can I have that ability!" Let me cut down wood to build such a big house, let alone a month, it will be a problem for a year.

"Who did that, do you live with someone else?"

"Yes, she saved me, otherwise, I would have died."

"Who is it, male or female, say it quickly."

"Of course it's a woman, how dare I live with a man." Not again!

Leng Mochen held my hand with satisfaction, and I saw that he was a little tired, so I went back to the room with him and asked him to rest first.

After Qin Zhen came back, I told her about Leng Mochen, she only sighed, didn't give too many opinions, she said, if we want to stay, we will live with her; If we're leaving, she's not going to force us to stay.

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