Han Zili has been leaving Yangde for two days and leaving the palace, and he is as light and simple as ever. His philosophy: belongs to his own time, and it is completely his own, and he does not have to make a big fanfare, otherwise, it will really cost the people and money.

When he came to Yangde this time, his mood was always a little sad for some reason, perhaps related to the approaching death of his father.

His father was demoted to Yongzhou 70 years ago, where he stayed for 10 years, living a lonely and desolate life. Relatives and friends ignored them, and local officials kept watchful eye on them. The disaster left him in great disarray, unkempt and dejected. However, the disaster also gave him a sense of tranquility, allowing him enough time to meet nature and talk to himself. As a result, he entered the best state of writing, and the cultural history of the Celestial Empire had "Six Records of Yongzhou" and other articles, and Chinese literature once again condensed a peak construction.

It stands to reason that he can be satisfied and no longer worry about the decline of his career. However, he has the roots of family ambition in his bones, and he has realized his own value, but he is confused about his own value. Yongzhou returned him a relatively complete soul, but there were countless temptations lurking outside the thin shell of the soul. At the beginning of this year, a paper order ordered him to return to the imperial capital, but he still couldn't hold back, was overjoyed, and hurried away.

After passing through the Miluo River, Qu Yuan's appearance immediately overlapped with himself. He said casually:

The south does not do Chu Chen's sorrow,

Re-entry to the door has its own period.

For the spring breeze tears Luo Road,

Don't let the waves shine in vain.

Now Han Zili is still quite uncomfortable reading such poems. When my father mentioned Qu Yuan, he wrote it as "Chu Chen" intentionally or unintentionally, but it was not a big mistake. On the same bank of the Miluo River, Qu Yuan, who was sad and sad back then, and today's jubilant father, have different moods and similar mentalities, and agree in their hearts: the individual is meaningless, only the courtiers favored by the dynasty, only the father's son or the son's father, only a little bit of the intimate network between friends, only the weakness of the trembling under the cross-toothing, only the coordinates of the top and bottom, the left and right, and the combination and convergence of various ethical concepts. There should be no living entity, no individual soul.

But when he arrived in the imperial capital, he took a basin of cold water in his head, and Shangfeng announced loudly that he was sent to the more remote Liuzhou! …… This is a devastating blow to my father, and the ruthless power is like playing a game for him, moving around on the territory of great unification, and you can't stay in one place for too long, so as not to build an independent personality corresponding to the stable landscape. Let you take a bump and turn on long distances, and let you remember: you are not you......

My father learned from the pain: when you can't decide that you can be yourself, try to be the one who "decides the fate of others"!

Since then, there is no such chapter as "Six Records of Yongzhou", page by page, it is a bloody history of cold and thin love to climb to the peak of power, including treating their own children, harsh and even cruel......

My father raised a wolf dog Zhang Jian, who once only gave birth to a litter of dogs.

Five of the six are healthy, and only one is born weak and sluggish, unable to grab the mother's milk to drink, so naturally it is more disadvantaged and in danger.

I will always remember my father's actions that day,

He picked out the five healthy ones and distributed them to their brothers and sisters, "Take care of them, and when you take them out to fight in a year, their bravery represents your strength." After speaking, the puppy who was about to die fell to the side without pity, and the puppy was like a dead dog at that time, "The survival of the fittest is like this." ”

Zili is the youngest son of his father, and there is a young sister below. But at that time, Zili felt that his sister was more aggressive than himself. The little sister is only five years old, and she will take her own puppy to train intensively every day...... Self-detachment is more playful, since childhood a little delicate naughty, in front of his father, he trained his puppy decently, turned his back, pampered the puppy and it as a friend. That's because there is another point, he actually has two puppies: yes, the one that his father thought he had fallen to death and discarded, Zili was also raising it when he secretly brought it back, and he cherished it very much......

He gave the frail and clumsy little dog an interesting name: Again.

Double "and" is double, taking the meaning of the rest of the brothers and sisters raising one, and he raising a pair.

It's also very weak, and sometimes it's hard to open your mouth to drink milk, but it's very cute, because it's very squeamish and lazy because of its weak mouth, and it's very cute.

and very clumsy, his other little dog Zhang Chang is a fool among the five, and it is more slow and dull, it crawls slowly, slowly opens its eyes, and slowly looks; It sniffs slowly, and sometimes a small ear seems to be beautiful in all directions, and it is dumbfounded for a while...... Zili smiled, if this is a person, he must be a little fool.

However, at the same time, I feel that I am very talented, especially the sense of smell, as long as it smells something once, it absolutely remembers its taste, no matter where it is hidden, it can be accurately found when digging three feet into the ground, which is amazing!

Since I have fallen in love with this little thing,

If he is young and has only been in this world for six years, there is someone who can be called "beloved", and it must be again......

However, it was the first "beloved" in this life, but I didn't think about it, and in the end, it became the only one and the last......

His father found out that he was secretly raising and again,

Perhaps, this has become the only nightmare in Han Zili's life,

This time, the father stood on the second floor,

And the little body trembled in the paws of his father's palms,

The six-year-old son knelt at his father's feet and hugged his father's leg firmly, raised his head and cried loudly, "Dad, let me raise it again, it is very smart, I will definitely raise it well, and I will definitely win in a year!" ……”

The father looked down at his youngest son, "This is my son, who can grovel for a beast today, and what can't break his self-esteem in the future!" ”

After saying that, he let go ruthlessly......

This time, it was difficult to escape death again, and his brain burst out,

This time, my father made an almost outrageous decision:

And he called his servants to skin and cook the bones and bring them to his younger son.

"He doesn't eat, he doesn't give him food."

No matter how the mother cried and begged and scolded the father, the father was unmoved.

The young self-detachment lasted for two days, and finally could not resist the hungry, dark and claustrophobic space, and cried and ate it again......

So far

No matter how much his father favored him, and even in the end, he completely restrained his brothers and sisters with a "suppressive posture", in order to cultivate him as the heir of the family.

No matter how painstaking his father was to nurture and cultivate, he forged everything he has today, including power, temperament, and ability.

In the self-centrifugation, the father is forever associated with this nightmare, mixed with clear hatred and pain......

It is conceivable that

At this moment,

In this despicable little rockery,

A pair of eyes that felt almost exactly the same as back then appeared in front of me! The same panic and pure pity peculiar to small animals! ……

Han Zili's fishy vomit had already reached his throat,

"What's your name?"

He didn't know why he had to ask this question.

Do you want to verify a result that you think is ridiculous and ridiculous?

still

At this moment,

It seems that there is no such thing as "ridiculous absurdity" at all,

Everything is so real, so real that it hurts my heart!

"...... again"

Xia is rare and vigilant, not to say the surname,

Instead, he dug deep into his throat in one fell swoop,

"Gross!"

Han Zili held on to the rockery and vomited violently,

It was as if he was going to vomit out the pure heart of the six-year-old......