89. I may never have loved you.

In terms of disparity in power, women are never men's opponents, and I have long understood this, so I closed my eyes numbly and stopped resisting.

After a while, Shen Chengchi also felt that I was numb and had no feelings, it was a kind of silent resistance and perfunctory, so he couldn't continue.

He pressed his dejected forehead against me, closed his eyes to hide the bitterness in his eyes, but when I opened my eyes, I still saw the astringency at the corners of his lips.

At this time, Shen Chengchi was so unfamiliar, without his usual noble and cold aura, decadent as if he had encountered some setbacks that he couldn't overcome.

I think that Shen Chengchi had just regained his memory, so some of his feelings were too strong, so he was inevitably a little out of control for a while and couldn't hold back.

For him, I finally endured a little soft-heartedness, and for a moment I lost the ability to speak, and I didn't know what to say.

"Ah Yao......"

Hearing him call me like this, if I hadn't remembered the things I had done with Ye Feiqing before, I would have been happy and happy, but now, all I have is full of complexity and helplessness, as well as numbness.

"Ye Feiqing will not give you happiness, believe me, he will never be your beloved." His low voice was cold and cold, just like his cold temperament.

I moved my lips and said calmly, "I know."

Shen Chengchi chuckled a little helplessly: "Even so, you still have to choose him, right?"

I shook my head, "I didn't think about choosing him."

Even though I had remembered some things and subtly changed my mood a little, I still didn't think about choosing Ye Feiqing.

I know very well that Ye Feiqing married me because of revenge, for himself, for Mother Lin, whom he regarded as a relative, and for the pain that Lin Shanshan suffered.

He hates me, so I won't give my heart away stupidly, I will hold my heart well, don't let it get hurt and break, and draw a prison for myself.

After a pause, I added, "But I won't choose you either."

Now for Shen Chengchi, all I have is friendship.

Shen Chengchi retreated and slowly let go of me, as if he was running away, as if he didn't want to hear me say these words, he sat up straight, started the car again and said coldly: "I'll send you back."

After thinking about it, I felt that there were some things I had to make clear, otherwise it would only hurt him.

Now, I think that in fact, he and Fu Rou are very good together, although Fu Rou is not good, but they are already engaged, in this case, Shen Chengchi should not abandon it from the beginning.

"I may be ruthless and selfish when I say that, but there are some things I want to say to you clearly."

Shen Chengchi tightened his facial lines, his lips were tightly pursed, and although his cold face was colored, he was still cold and handsome.

"I may never have loved you."

His hand gripping the steering wheel tightened.

"Just like you treat Fu Rou, if you really love her, you won't have no nostalgia for her after recovering your memory, and so will I."

If I really loved him, I wouldn't change that zealous heart with those memories of the past.

Closing his eyes, Shen Chengchi said in a deep voice: "Shut up!" Say no more. ”

But I didn't mean to shut up; "I lost the memory of Ye Feiqing, plus we have known each other since childhood, at that time I was sick, the Fu family ignored me, no one gave me a trace of warmth, it was you who have been taking care of me, so ......"

I covet the kindness and care he gives, covet all his tenderness, and the envious eyes of others make me feel very superior, making me feel that I am actually a princess.

Especially when the Fu family can't tolerate me, because of Shen Chengchi, I stood in the Fu family, and although my grandparents still had a calm face, they never gave me a look at it again.

The rest of the Fu family also began to look down on me, which greatly satisfied my vanity, so I wanted to catch him and make him my backer.

Because I've known him since childhood, I don't reject him, I don't hate him, but it's not love.

I remember that every time we were intimate, in fact, he couldn't continue, and I was also faint, and I never had a reverie.

If you really love someone, how can you not have a reverie for him?

I lowered my head and said to Shen Chengchi lightly, "I'm sorry."

In the silence, the car had arrived at its destination, Shen Chengchi didn't look at me, he took a deep breath, as if trying to suppress the anger in his heart, and his cold voice was low and faint: "Get out of the car."

I know Shen Chengchi, he is a cold person, and he is also an arrogant person, he is the same as Ye Feiqing, only they refuse others, and they can't tolerate others refusal.

I think those words really stabbed him, how could Shen Chengchi, who has always been arrogant, not be angry?

If it was someone else, he would strangle the other party, but for me, he chose to forbear.

I didn't say anything more and got out of the car.

I think that everything that needs to be said has been made clear, and Shen Chengchi's arrogance will not allow himself to be humiliated like this, he should soon figure it out and exclude me from his world.

When I came home a little tired, when I saw the lazy and elegant figure standing by the window, I stood at the entrance and paused.

Ye Feiqing? How did he get in?

Even though his back was to me, I could still feel his anger and gloom in the aura that emanated from him.

I retracted my gaze, closed the door, and changed my shoes.

Ye Feiqing squinted his lazy eyes and turned around slowly, his cool and unruly gaze fell on me slowly, his thin lips like a knife sneered, and his words were still so mean and mocking: "How? Is it fluttering to relive the old dream with Shen Chengchi? So I forgot even my last name. ”

What happened to me and Shen Chengchi just now, Ye Feiqing must have seen it, otherwise he wouldn't have spoken like this.

His eyes were cold: "Do you want me to remind you of your current identity?" Mrs. Ye! ”

I know that when he says this, he is nothing more than an allusion to my water-based poplar.

He has been looking at me this way since we got married, since he started to appear in my sight, and I don't know what happened to us before that made him look at me like this, and despise me.

I looked at him expressionlessly: "I can relive the old dream with him, this is still the credit of Ye Ershao, I have to thank you for making what I dreamed of finally happening."

I smiled shallowly and looked in a good mood: "Shen Chengchi said, if it wasn't for your punch to wake him up, he wouldn't have remembered what happened before."

I looked like I was really grateful to Ye Feiqing, and bowed slightly, not humble or humble, full of sincerity: "Thank you, Ye Ershao."

When I raised my eyes, I saw that amazing face suddenly had no smile, like staring at thousands of years of ice and snow, and the cold air was wanton.

I think that if the eyes could kill, Ye Feiqing would have cut me with a thousand knives a long time ago.

Suddenly, he walked up to me enchantingly, pinched my jaw very roughly, and smiled amazingly: "You really should thank me, if it weren't for the fact that I learned that he forced you to give Fu Rou a blood transfusion, I wouldn't have beaten him."

I was stunned, with mixed feelings.

I don't know what he meant by saying this, whether he was reminding me of what Shen Chengchi had done to me before, or telling me that he had fought with Shen Chengchi because of me.

As if seeing through my thoughts, he smiled coldly: "Don't get me wrong, I'm not telling you this because I care about you and care about you more, it's just because of my things, how can others mess around without my permission?"

He leaned close to me and whispered coldly in my ear, "Moreover, the pain that Shanshan and I have suffered has not been recovered from you, how can you die before this?"

My heart couldn't help but tremble, and a touch of pain suddenly crossed my heart, stung me, and made me shiver involuntarily.

So his smile bloomed grandly, bewitching and cold: "What if Shen Chengchi recovers his memory?" After all, you are my Ye Feiqing's wife, and it is not right to be with him after all. ”

I raised my eyes and smiled at him: "It doesn't matter, as long as you can be with him, it doesn't matter if you are a mistress."

Ye Feiqing's pupils shrank suddenly, and the smile evoked became more and more charming, but it did not reach the bottom of his eyes, and I could clearly see the frost and cruelty in his eyes.