Chapter 32: Dinner with Jorin
Shen Hong took Qin Zhen's hand, his stiff and cold hand made him feel no trace of temperature, but Shen Hong knew that it was the place where his heart had always dwelled.
The man guarding the morgue looked at Shen Hong and slowly developed sympathy for him.
Since then, Shen Hong has been enclosing himself in his own world, staying in his room with Qin Zhen every day, cutting off contact with the outside world, and closing the curtains all day long, not knowing whether it is day or night.
The whole room was filled with the smell of cigarettes, alcohol, and the smell of being closed without air for a long time.
I don't know how long it has been. It was so long that Shen Wenjing felt that it was impossible for her father to come back, and it was so long that she thought that she had no one to ask for and would stay in the welfare home all the time.
It wasn't until twelve years had passed that Shen Wenjing quietly heard the news of her mother's death when she was talking secretly from the welfare home, and it was very decadent to have her father on a business trip at all, and she had always closed herself in her room.
Hearing such news, Shen Wenjing's heart couldn't be for a long time. Calm Shen Wenjing seemed to have changed overnight, and her heart began to have a maturity that she had never had at this age.
Shen Hong was still in the hospital and had not left the hospital all these years, and Shen Wenjing began to worry about Shen Hong. The calm and silent heart began to feel something else.
Shen Wenjing decided to leave the welfare home and decided to go back to Shen Hong, her heart was faintly worried. With the help of her memories, she found her home
Shen Wenjing looked at the unfamiliar but unfamiliar home, and the taste in her heart was mixed. Everything familiar in this familiar home was covered in a thick layer of dust and without a hint of life.
In the years she has lived in the orphanage, she doesn't know why she was sent to the orphanage, and she doesn't even know why her parents, who love her very much, didn't come to her.
As time went on, she thought that her parents would not come to her again, and she slowly accepted the result in her heart, and there was no hope.
She didn't think that one day her mother, who loved her, would leave her, and even her father, who loved her, was immersed in the grief of her mother's departure and couldn't extricate himself, and he didn't come to her.
She didn't know how she got into the orphanage, she hoped that her parents would come to her, but she was even more disappointed year after year.
In the welfare home, there are many abandoned children, but Shen Wenjing is always alone, she likes to be alone and not to be disturbed.
The immature and innocent eyes are often mixed with maturity, indifference, loneliness, and helplessness that are not available at this age.
Shen Wenjing likes to stay in a world of people.
She knew that there would always be a boy by her side, neither far nor near, just with her.
Shen Wenjing was still quietly alone, not wanting to pay attention to anyone. Until one day, when Shen Wenjing found out that he was not there, he was slightly lost in his heart.
Shen Wenjing's calm and waveless eyes looked around, just around a corner, Shen Wenjing's gaze collided with his, Shen Wenjing was like a frightened bird, hurriedly turned his gaze away, but it was already too late.
Shen Wenjing retracted her gaze and quietly looked at the lake in front of her, as if she was immersed in her own world.
The little boy had a faint sunny smile on the corner of his mouth: "You were looking for me just now, and I found out." ”
Although Shen Wenjing heard his voice, Shen Wenjing was still unmoved, and her eyes were still calmly looking at the lake. Ignored him.
The little boy looked at Shen Wenjing's calm and immature but unhappy cheeks: "It's okay if you don't speak, just listen to me, I'm leaving tomorrow, but we will meet again." If you're going to stay here, I'll come to you, and if you're going somewhere else, I'll come to you. ”
After finishing speaking, the little boy reluctantly glanced at Shen Wenjing's direction and left.
Shen Wenjing still stood quietly in place, her eyes without a trace of waves were sinking deeper and deeper, and her clear eyes were filled with a layer of shadows that children did not have, maybe all this about her own changes even Shen Wenjing herself did not know.
She stayed quietly in the welfare home year after year, waiting for her parents, or waiting for the boy she didn't find in her heart, maybe both?
Shen Wenjing returned to Shen Hong's side, and Shen Hong's mood slowly became better, although it was not happy, but it was not always sad.
Shen Hong is always taken care of by Shen Wenjing, and when he is fine, he will sit on the sofa and look at his phone alone, and his face will show sad emotions.
She knew it was a last-minute message from her mom on her phone. Without sadness, a peaceful life is not impossible, and such days are already very satisfying for Shen Wenjing.
But it didn't take long for such a seemingly simple and peaceful life to be broken by another person, until now. Wu Li broke into their lives and brought a gentle and lovely sister with her.
Shen Wenjing did as they wished, only occasionally returning home and living at the school. Shen Wenjing suddenly recalled her past life, and unconsciously added infinite melancholy to her thoughts.
Maybe it was too immersive, and Shen Wenjing forgot that she had already finished class. Although the classmates were talking in her direction at the end of class, Shen Wenjing was still immersed in her own world.
Qiao Lin looked at the gossip of his classmates and glanced coldly in their direction. Those classmates did not dare to look in their direction.
It wasn't until the classmates in the classroom finished leaving that Shen Wenjing realized that the class had ended. Shen Wenjing packed up her books and prepared to leave the classroom.
When Shen Wenjing found it and was about to leave, Qiao Lin stood behind her, his eyes focused on her:
"It's time for class to eat together?"
Shen Wenjing was startled, she thought that there was no one in the classroom, and she didn't notice that there were people behind her, Qiao Lin's voice was not loud, it could be regarded as very gentle, but it still made Shen Wenjing startled.
Shen Wenjing turned back and looked at Qiao Lin. She was about to reject Jolin, but what Jolin said next left her at a loss.
"We are classmates, and we may be friends in the future, so you won't lose face."
Shen Wenjing's words in his throat were swallowed hard. Qiao Lin also helped her, and the blank refusal didn't seem to be really good, so she got along naturally as real classmates.
Shen Wenjing showed a faint smile with relief, it was the kind of polite and distant smile.
Qiao Lin's lips were raised, and a gentle smile awaited behind the golden frames of his glasses. Shen Wenjing and him on the way to the cafeteria, they will inevitably attract the attention of their classmates.
Shen Wenjing just hugged the book, buried her head and didn't look at her classmates, which automatically widened the distance between her and Qiao Lin. She didn't want any gossip, even casual gossip.
Shen Wenjing felt that this short journey was very long, and the eyes and sights of her classmates seemed to baptize her, Shen Wenjing's heart was a little resistant, she didn't want to stand on the cusp, and she didn't want to be eye-catching.
Finally walked to the cafeteria, Shen Wenjing thought that she could relax, but she didn't expect that at this time, she was running into other classes after class, and there were more people.
Qiao Lin saw the faint anxiety on Shen Wenjing's face, and did not speak, but a trace of displeasure appeared on his face. It wasn't because Shen Wenjing was unhappy with him, but because other people's harassment made Shen Wenjing uncomfortable.
Qiao Lin glanced at the audience, and there was no warm gossip everywhere she looked, Shen Wenjing and Qiao Lin were eating face to face, she was just eating quietly, her head was buried low, and she didn't have any communication with Qiao Lin during the whole process.
Shen Wenjing's behavior didn't hurt Qiao Lin, on the contrary, he understood Shen Wenjing's approach, and probably knew what Shen Wenjing was thinking in his heart.
He accompanies her, she doesn't want to talk, and he won't let her talk and do things she doesn't want to do. Shen Wenjing raised her head and glanced at Qiao Lin, she had already finished eating and wanted to leave.
Qiao Lin saw the faint eagerness in Shen Wenjing's eyes, although it didn't matter, his heart couldn't deceive himself.
Qiao Lin said to Shen Wenjing lightly: "Let's go, there are too many people here, I don't like it very much." ”
Shen Wenjing heard the other party say this, she was faintly happy in her heart, she was worried that she couldn't find something to say, now it's okay. Shen Wenjing stood up and picked up the dishes and chopsticks.
Qiao Lin stopped in a gentle tone: "It's good that I'll come." ”
Shen Wenjing knew that this was politeness, and it was also a man's gentlemanly demeanor. Shen Wenjing looked at him and smiled: "I'll come by myself, thank you." ”
Shen Wenjing took the lead in picking up the dishes and chopsticks and walked to the place where the sink washer washer. Walking to the door of the cafeteria, Shen Wenjing stopped and looked at Qiao Lin, his tone polite and gentle:
"Qiao Lin, I still have something to do, I want to go first."
Qiao Lin smiled and gave Shen Wenjing a warm and indifferent smile. Shen Wenjing's heart suddenly felt less uncomfortable, after all, she always seemed very cramped with him, hoping that the other party would not feel that she was targeting him.
Shen Wenjing came to the dormitory, Lin Yi was still lying on the bed lifelessly and showed no signs of waking up, Shen Wenjing sighed helplessly and came to Lin Yi's bedside.
Looking at Lin Yi's sleeping position, he couldn't help but smile, but Lin Yi suddenly sat up, staring ahead. Seeing this, Shen Wenjin smiled even more.