"Chen Xiaojia," Gao Zijian glared at me, and said in a calm voice, "You are forcing me to ......"

I took a gentle breath, looked at Gao Zijian's expression at the moment, and said in a calm voice: "Gao Zijian, I now understand the real problem between us. Would you like to hear the rest of my words calmly? ”

Gao Zijian looked at me stunned and asked, "Chen Xiaojia, you'd better explain to me first, why are you with Sun Yiqing?" Don't tell me it's a coincidence, there aren't so many coincidences in the world. ”

Both of us are stubborn personalities, so, in the end, it will only bring each other harm.

Gao Zijian's stubbornness lies in his arrogance, solid family background, good educational experience, plus that face that most beauties never get tired of looking at, he has stubborn capital, and he doesn't need to look at anyone's face at all, so he can be domineering.

On the contrary, I have a modest family background, a short personality, a desire to be loved, and no proud capital.

The two of us have been able to get to this point, completely relying on the support of the love in our hearts, love will blind people and not see whether it is really suitable or not.

Before today, I complained about Gao Zijian's impatience and Liu Shihan's disguise, but after that, I only had a long sigh.

We didn't see it clearly, in fact, our personality, family background and other issues are not small problems.

My gaze met Gao Zijian's long confrontation, and he, like me, stubbornly held his chin high and unwilling to bow his head.

I took a deep breath and said with a smile: "Gao Zijian, I think, we are really not suitable......"

Gao Zijian looked at me with some surprise, moved his lips, and did not speak.

"I admit that I do have communication problems, of course, I don't mean to blame you, I just say...... Maybe it's the kind of rebellious character I have cultivated since I was a child that makes me so stubborn, in fact, in a sense, I do want to be soft on you and confess to you," I took a step back, tried not to make my hands tremble, and continued: "For example, Shi Lei and I, I didn't handle it well, it will make you feel that the person I care about the most is not you." For example, Liu Shihan and I, if I say that the memory card thing is not what you think, but related to her, you will not believe it, for example, some of the things that happened to me in the company were Sun Yiqing who helped me, but I already had a little self-esteem in my heart, and I didn't explain it to you, I think...... Maybe it should ......"

Gao Zijian turned around, stretched out his hand, slammed his fist on the car, looked at me angrily, and said, "Chen Xiaojia, I came to look for you today, I didn't come to listen to you say this at all!" ”

I sniffed, looked at Gao Zijian with a smile, and continued: "Yes, I know, if I don't tell you now, I'm afraid that we won't have a chance to talk in the future, there is such a difference in the thinking of the two people, and going a little further away will only intensify more contradictions, it is better to stop where it should stop, perhaps, and leave a little good impression of each other, what do you say?" ”

Gao Zijian's fists were clenched tightly, he pulled his collar irritably, coughed lightly, and said, "Chen Xiaojia, it turns out that I have been amorous for so long, I like you and it is my fault, I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" ”

"Gao Zijian, can't we talk well?"

"Say what? How much of a contradiction do we have? Say we want to leave a little more affection for each other? Chen Xiaojia, you're right, we're just too naïve! Be calm, huh? Okay, you calm down! ”

"Gao Zijian, I ......"

Before I finished my words, Gao Zijian closed the car door directly and walked away.

I didn't feel wronged, I just felt sad. The year before, I also proudly said that love determines everything, in the face of love, all problems are not problems, and now it seems that many problems are problems.

But Gao Zijian, I still love you.

I finally understood why these problems would not occur when I was with Shi Lei, although he was a child who grew up in a single-parent family, but the stubbornness in his bones, with stubborn humility, was similar to me.

Gao Zijian and I are together, and we communicate too little, so we have such and such problems.

I was scared and didn't dare to move forward, so I had to go backwards.

Squatting down and looking at the shadows on the ground, I couldn't stop crying.

Gao Zijian has been overshadowed by anger, he and I are immature, that's why this road is so tortuous.

Many years later, when I think of this day between us, I can't help but sigh, young and vigorous, unwilling to be convinced, like to put the three words I love you on my lips, but I never understand, and use behavior to manage that hard-won emotion.

Instead of saying I love you, we love myself more.

Gao Zijian would also look at me with disdain and say: Which man has not been naïve and which woman has not been stubborn? That's not a problem!

I didn't answer Gao Zijian, but every time I look back, I feel incredible. I came over and felt that none of these problems were a problem, but what about the people who were deeply involved in it? And how many people can see through it?

This night, Gao Zijian and I never contacted each other again. Looking at the familiar string of numbers, I pressed my finger down on the dial button and then retracted it, unable to tell what it felt.

Has Gao Zijian appeared? I'm even a little skeptical.

Midnight dream, I woke up from the dream, dreamed of a person with a big knife slashing a person, the appearance was very fierce, it seemed to kill him, the big knife slashed behind us, I ran with him in horror, until the knife fell on his neck, he shouted a sentence Chen Xiaojia, I had an epiphany, he was no one else, it was Gao Zijian.

I think Gao Zijian is up.

Almost instinctively, I pressed his phone directly, and when I called out, there was no answer. My right eyelid was throbbing, and the uneasiness in my heart was getting deeper and deeper, so I put on my coat and took the key, and I ran out the door.

It was one o'clock in the morning, the community was very quiet, there were no pedestrians on the street, and there were no taxis, I waited for about five minutes, and finally couldn't hold it back, so I stepped on the road directly and ran towards Gao Zijian's residence.

Although we were only separated by two roads, I had to make a big detour to the nest that belonged to us because of the subway route being built on the other road.

The feeling of walking alone at night is actually very subtle, you can enjoy the peace of the city falling asleep, but also perceive the uneasiness in the depths of your heart, and the two mentalities are blended together, which is very special.

Standing downstairs in the community, on the one hand, I was surprised that I would do such an impulsive thing, and on the other hand, I was a little worried that Gao Zijian would not want to see me.

At this time, the mind of making a phone call is special, after we quarrel again and again, midnight dreamback, in the dream, exposing the most reluctant thoughts in my thoughts, the voice on the other end of the phone and my own heartbeat formed a subtle melody. I can't give up, and I don't want to give up.

Unfortunately, the phone was still unreachable, so I bit my lip and rushed straight to the elevator.

The key has been held tightly in his hand, the elevator door opened, he took a deep breath, stepped out of the elevator, and rushed directly to the house rented by Gao Zijian.

The door opened, a strong smell of alcohol fluttered on the tip of my nose, the light of the room was dim, but I could vaguely see the messy arrangement of things in the room, my eyes fell directly on the bed, but there was no one in the room.

Gao Zijian is not here! So where did he go?

I took a slight step forward, and the wine bottles on the ground blocked my way, and I lowered my head, and the whole floor was in shambles, wine bottles, drink bottles, everywhere.

"Gao Zijian?" I shouted softly, and when I glanced around the room, I still didn't see Gao Zijian.

The bathroom door was closed, I pushed open the bathroom door with an uneasy mind, a foul smell flew directly to the tip of my nose, I turned on the light, the toilet was full of vomit filth, my stomach rolled for a while, closed my eyes, pressed the switch of the toilet, and walked out with my feet raised.

The light in the room was bright, but there was no Gao Zijian on the bed, I hurriedly looked at the balcony, only to see that the window on the balcony had been opened to the maximum, and an uneasy psychology suddenly swept through my heart, and tears came out directly.

"Gao Zijian......" My hands trembled, stretched out my head to look out the window, my heart was even more flustered, and I whispered: "Gao Zijian......"

There was no response, and I finally couldn't control my emotions and started crying.

Gao Zijian, you can't be fine! Gao Zijian, you must never be fine!

I cried louder and louder, and then I stuck my head out to look out the window, and there was nothing but the sleeping position of the whole city.

"Gao Zijian...... "I shouted a little heartbreaking.

The sound of "crackling" suddenly sounded, and I turned my head uneasily and glanced into the room, but nothing else.

I cried a few times, and when I heard the voice again, I walked from the balcony to the room, looked around suspiciously, and finally, my eyes fell under the bed.

I don't think I will ever forget how Gao Zijian looked at this moment in my life, his hair was messy, his clothes were disheveled, he was lying sideways at the foot of the bed, there were still some stains on the corners of his mouth, and there were cans all around.

I walked up to him in two steps, glancing at his chest, and fortunately, there was still breathing.

Taking a deep breath, I looked at Gao Zijian on the ground, and my hand gently slapped his face once, calling Gao Zijian's name.

The smell of alcohol on Gao Zi Fitness was too strong, and when he felt my shout, he reacted slightly and moved a little outside the leg of the bed, and I realized that on his hand, that Doraemon.

My nose was sore, I unbuttoned Gao Zijian's clothes, carefully helped him up, and kept calling his name in my mouth, but Gao Zijian was like a dead pig and didn't understand at all.

I was a little anxious, worried that he was alcoholic, so I raised my voice and shouted: "Gao Zijian, Chen Xiaojia is going to die!" ”

Originally, it was just an angry sentence, but what I didn't expect was that Gao Zijian actually sat up from the foot of the bed, accidentally bumped into the edge of the bed, snorted twice, and squinted at me.

Chen Xiaojia ...... Chen Xiaojia ...... "Gao Zijian raised his arm and stretched out his hand to mine.

"It's me...... Gao Zijian...... You have been drinking...... "I feel very sorry for Gao Zijian, and I can't say anything nervous.

"Chen Xiaojia?" Gao Zijian's voice was full of doubt, and he said, "Isn't Chen Xiaojia with that grandson?" Why did Chen Xiaojia come to me? ”

Grandson?

"Chen Xiaojia doesn't like me at all...... Chen Xiaojia...... You don't like me at all......" Gao Zijian rolled directly on the ground, his hands and feet kept moving, and he seemed to be struggling.

"Who said that?" I looked at Gao Zijian with some grievances and said, "You get up first, and then talk about ......."

"I can't afford to ......" Gao Zijian squinted, drunkenly pushed my hand away, and said, "You let Chen Xiaojia come over, you let that grandson get out!" You asked Chen Xiaojia to come over...... Chen Xiaojia ......"

Gao Zijian was drunk, his voice was a little hoarse, and he seemed to be crying, and I was a little annoyed in my heart, but he was still rolling on the ground and couldn't hold it at all.

"It's Chen Yujia, her name is Chen Yujia...... "I want to tear up the topic, but I don't know what to pull out."

"No, it's Chen Xiaojia......" Gao Zijian's hand scratched on the floor, grabbed Chopper, raised his hand, and said, "I grabbed this with her, and she didn't have me in her heart at that time...... But what to do, I just like her......"

Gao Zijian seemed to be crying, his voice was astringent, I pulled him and wanted him to get up, but he still ignored me, there was no clean place on his body, I went to fetch water in distress, squatted beside him, and unbuttoned him.

Gao Zijian pushed my hand away very brutally and said, "Don't touch me, I don't need to fucking anything!" Call Chen Xiaojia to me! Let Chen Xiaojia come over! ”

Gao Zijian's arms flicked wildly, and his legs kept staring, where did he pay attention to his image like this, where did he ever have such an embarrassed appearance, and his mouth kept stopping, it was Chen Xiaojia's three words.

I cried, looked at Gao Zijian with a choked voice, and said, "Chen Xiaojia only likes Gao Zijian, she said it herself." ”

"No...... She doesn't like me anymore......" Gao Zijian turned sideways, hugged Doraemon in his arms, curled up in a ball, and said: "I know, I can't give her anything now, I will be deceived if I sign a contract, the house is also rented, I want to buy her a bag, and I have to sell my imported car, she dislikes me...... She doesn't like me anymore......"

"Gao Zijian, open your eyes and see, Chen Xiaojia is in front of you now!" I shook off Gao Zijian's hand a little annoyed, and said: "Gao Zijian, Chen Xiaojia likes you very much now, Chen Xiaojia doesn't like that Liu Shihan, she doesn't like Liu Shihan dangling in front of you, she didn't deliberately splash Liu Shihan, because Liu Shihan found someone to arrest her, took a photo of her, and finally pretended to be a good person in front of you, so Chen Xiaojia will be angry......"

Gao Zijian opened his eyes and looked at me in a daze, one second, two seconds, three seconds......

Suddenly, he jumped out from under the bed, hugged me tightly, and said, "Chen Xiaojia, I can't be dreaming, right?" I...... I won't ......"

"Gao Zijian, Chen Xiaojia will not dislike you for being poor, will not dislike you for not having a house or a car, she just wants to talk to you well, but have you thought about it, you only know that you believe in your childhood sweetheart, but you don't trust her at all, does she feel ......?"

After speaking, I couldn't help crying, Gao Zijian hugged me tightly, although I was drunk, but my arm was still leaning on my back, and said, "Xiao Jia, don't cry, Xiao Jia, don't cry...... Whoever bullies Xiao Jia, Gao Zijian will get it back......"

"Get it back? Does a bag make Gao Zijian feel that Chen Xiaojia is unfaithful? I don't even know what Sun Yiqing gave me, I was because the zipper of my bag was broken, you ...... You ......"

"Chen Xiaojia doesn't cry......" Gao Zijian's chin rested on my shoulder and said, "It's Gao Zijian's fault, Gao Zijian is a big bastard, Gao Zijian is a big fool, it's all Gao Zijian's fault......"

"Gao Zijian is a big bastard," I couldn't help but shed tears, and said: "Chen Xiaojia's ex-boyfriend dumped Chen Xiaojia, she felt inferior, she felt unworthy of Gao Zijian, she even felt that a man like Gao Zijian could like her, she was brainless, too rude, and didn't make a good impression on her parents-in-law, so they didn't want to see her, but Chen Xiaojia couldn't say it, she just had a little bit of self-esteem, Chen Xiaojia liked Gao Zijian very much......"

Gao Zijian let go of me, wiped my nose with his dirty shirt sleeve, and whispered: "Gao Zijian knows it's wrong, Gao Zijian doesn't know that someone is bullying Chen Xiaojia, it's Gao Zijian's fault, Gao Zijian doesn't know that Chen Xiaojia's bag is broken, it's also Gao Zijian's fault, Gao Zijian punishes himself!" ”

As soon as he finished speaking, with a flick of his wrist, he threw it in his face, fast and ruthless, I didn't have time to stop it at all, and then, he was about to hit himself again, I hurriedly pulled his hand and put it on my face.

"We are all at fault, if we want to fight, let's fight two people together!"

Gao Zijian looked at me and said, "I'm sorry, I ignored this, I was too busy to communicate with you recently, I didn't have self-confidence, I think I would let you accompany me to suffer, Chen Xiaojia, I love you...... I love you so much......"

I sniffed and said, "The faucet was broken by me, and Sun Yiqing just helped fix ......"

"I was wrong...... Gao Zijian hugged me again and said, "It's me who didn't communicate with you well, it's me who is wrong......"

Gao Zijian was indeed crying. He is such a proud person, tormented by his parents, by the relationship between us, by the triple pressure of reality, I know that he must bear no less than me.

Gao Zijian said his mistake, why shouldn't I? If I am willing to open up and talk to him, how can there be mutual torment?

The night was very quiet, Gao Zijian and I hugged each other tightly, and glanced at the left hand side, Doraemon was lying at his feet, quietly.

When we were children, we all wanted to have a robot cat to meet our greatest wishes, but now think about it, what we say and communicate with our hearts does not need to be with the help of external forces.

Love needs to be managed, not a blind quarrel, after Gao Zijian and I went through this, we both understood each other's bottom line, each other's heart, maybe in the eyes of most people who have come over, the quarrel between each other is a joke, but what to do? Loving someone also needs to be learned.

Gao Zijian is studying, and I am also studying. Life inherently gives us a lot of experience, and we all have to learn about love.

After the quarrel, the trouble, I really couldn't stand the strong smell of alcohol on Gao Zi Fitness, I rubbed his ears and asked him to take a shower. Gao Zijian went to take a bath, but he dragged me along.

The sound of the rushing water in the bathroom slowly left on our bodies, and Gao Zijian, who was still a little drunk, hugged me tightly, our skin was close to each other, without saying much, but in this quarrel, it was closer.

Lying on the bed, my drowsiness was already very strong, and the smell of alcohol on Gao Zi Fitness had not yet dissipated, so I jokingly asked him: "What should I do if I drink like this and die of drinking?" ”

Gao Zijian took a soft breath and said, "If I tell you that without you, life is better than death, do you believe it?" ”

I raised my head and looked at Gao Zijian, he kissed me lightly on the forehead, and said: "Chen Xiaojia, I have been wronged, I must tell me as soon as possible, whether it is in the workplace or in life, although I can't guarantee that all your troubles will be solved, but I still want to be the first person to listen to you, the first, understand?" ”

I pursed my lips and nodded, and whispered, "I know, I'll tell you as soon as possible." ”

"Then I'll ask you now, your team leader deliberately made things difficult for you, and the person surnamed Sun solved it for you?" Gao Zijian pinched my nose and asked in a low voice.

I glared at Gao Zijian and said, "Sun Yiqing has also helped me anyway, are you teasing him like this?" ”

Gao Zijian laughed lightly and said, "Chen Xiaojia, this matter may not be so simple. ”

"Huh?" I turned around and leaned against Gao Zijian and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

Gao Zijian's eyes moved up, sighed softly, and said, "Don't think so much, if it's really the Liu family who deliberately makes things difficult for you, it's time to make them suffer a little." ”

"No," I hurriedly stopped Gao Zijian and said, "I just don't like you being so close to so-and-so, as for the rest, just go over the past, you are so busy with work, don't ......"

"That's good," Gao Zijian looked at me with a smile and said, "I'm not a stingy person, it's just ............ For this kind of person who has nothing to do, you have to teach him a lesson, right? ”