I perfunctorily promised Xiaoxue that I would take good care of it, so she didn't continue. But I didn't take Xiaoxue's words to heart, so many books I have read tell me one thing, that is, people must not desire to get something for nothing.

Xiaohua was haunted by my disappearance for so many days, but no matter how she asked, I kept silent. For me, Jin Yan has become a secret in my heart, I only dare to carefully hold him out in the middle of the night when no one is around, miss him recklessly, cry uncontrollably, and then fall asleep with red eyes, wake up and continue to face the new day.

Xiaohua told my father about my performance after I came back, and my father called me on the phone, scolded me again, and finally asked me to go home, saying that he would teach me a lesson in person.

I listened in silence to my father, and finally said "yes" before hanging up the phone.

In this way, after more than half a year, I got on the train home alone, and prepared to go home to meet the "bloody rain" from my father with an extremely heavy heart.

After a three-hour drive, I vomited and dizzy from motion sickness, and finally arrived at Panjia Town, the place where I was born and raised.

Panjia Town is located in the river valley area, surrounded by mountains, Chonglan Mountain, small streams stretch down from the top of the mountain, converge into my hometown river - Panjia River. The old people in the village said that Panjia Town has mountains and rivers, beautiful mountains and rivers, and is a good place for outstanding people. It is also true that although this town is not large, there are many sages who have been born here for generations, and have even gone out of here, and some people have even done business overseas for a time, and many families in the town can even receive parcels from distant relatives overseas every year.

Most of the people in Panjia Town believe in Pan, so it is named Panjia Town. Every household in the town is thriving, and there are generally more men than women. Only when I came to my uncle and father, they both gave birth to daughters, and they were both twins. It coincided with the era when we were born in the most stringent era of family planning, so although the uncle and father both had the intention of adding another boy, they were powerless to be restricted by the policy.

The fact that there is no male in the family has become the biggest regret in the hearts of the uncle and his father. However, compared to the dullness of his father, the uncle is an open person, in the early years with his shallow medical skills to open a clinic, and later by going to a professional medical school to study and other means to obtain a professional physician qualification certificate, with the reform and opening up, he gradually expanded his clinic, because of its good medical skills, business is booming, and gradually became the richest man in the town, a few years ago, he imitated the style of the villa in the city to invite someone to design a set of houses, these two years have just finished decorating and moving in, and it was in the limelight in the town for a while.

The two elder sisters of the uncle's family, Pan Ruqin and Pan Ruqi, are both very competitive, especially the eldest sister Pan Ruqin, from childhood to adulthood, her academic performance has been top-notch, the first in the school in junior high school, and she was directly sent to the best school in H City in high school. Although the second sister Pan Ruqi is inferior to the eldest sister in academics, her grades have always been in the top five in the class, and she is also particularly good at interpersonal relationships.

Compared with the prosperity of my uncle's family, my family is a picture of increasing depression. My mother, who has been seriously ill all the year round, has no ability to work at all, and although my father is a primary school teacher, his meager salary is simply not enough to support a large family. The heavy burden of the family made my father, who was over 40 years old, gray his temples early, and he looked more than ten years older than his well-maintained uncle. It's just that, my academic performance has been seriously biased since I was a child, I can get full marks in Chinese and English, but I fail in mathematics, physics and chemistry all the year round, resulting in a very low comprehensive score, and I was once ridiculed by the head teacher, and I was often reprimanded by my father, and I felt that it was particularly embarrassing to have a daughter like me; Although Xiaohua's grades are not as good as those of the eldest sister and the second sister, dancing and painting since she was a child are her strengths, and she is surprisingly beautiful, which adds a lot of light to her father's face, and she has been her father's comfort since she was a child.

Compared to the excellence of my two older sisters and younger sister, my mediocre and non-verbal personality has made me suffer a lot since I was a child, and I have also suffered a lot from my father. My father vented all kinds of unhappiness in his life to me, and he was often kind to his mother and sister, but when he saw me, he hated to eat me alive, and this kind of different treatment made me extremely sensitive, and when I was a child, I was careful in everything I did, for fear that I would accidentally step on my father's "minefield", and then I would inevitably be beaten by him.

I still have a scar on my back after my father whipped him with a bamboo whip, that was when I was in the fifth grade of primary school, Xiaohua secretly took the 100 yuan earned by my father doing odd jobs to buy paint, and later my father found out and mistakenly thought that I had stolen the family's money......

I still remember that memory and I still feel shocked, and occasionally I even woke up crying in a dream in a dream. After nearly 20 minutes of hard beating, my back was dripping with blood, and then my grandmother, who lived near my house, heard my heart-rending cry and rushed to protect me, desperately shielded me, and cursed my father so hard that my father gave up...... I remember that time, my father threatened to beat me to death.

I was beaten to death by my father, and I passed out when my grandmother arrived. I was taken to his house by my uncle to live for more than a month, when the eldest sister was resting at home after the high school entrance examination, the uncle, aunt, and eldest sister took turns to take care of me, and under their care, my scars gradually recovered, but the scars on my back that were beaten to the flesh still left scars, which have not faded away.

Because of this incident, the uncle even had a big fight with his father. Uncle has the same character as my grandmother, my father's differential treatment of me makes them repay me deep pity and sympathy, Uncle even put forward if my father dislikes me, I can let him pass on to him, he to raise me as an adult, but I don't know why I was rejected by my father, for this father also sneered at him, thinking that Uncle is a hypocritical person.

I just vaguely feel that the ambition of the uncle's family makes my father more depressed, and the seriously ill mother also makes my father anxious all the year round, so I became an outlet for him to vent when I was young. It's not that he doesn't like me a lot of the time, it's just that the unlikable me is too easy to become the fuse of his emotions, so that his emotions that he has been suppressed for many days finally explode. But even so, I still regard my father as the most important relative in my life, and I blame myself for all the reasons, although occasionally I feel wronged.

Everything in my hometown is still the same, except for the town's particularly striking bungalow, which has hardly changed in the past twenty years. The newly built houses are becoming more and more mottled by the rain year after year, the elementary and junior high schools that were once built in their infancy are still dusty and look old, the town is gilded with a faint golden halo by the setting sun, the fields are full of unknown wild grasses and wild flowers that have not been cultivated until now, the rooftops of the few families living at the foot of the mountain are filled with smoke, and the sunset looks at the crystal clear Panjia River and this refreshing pastoral scenery. I couldn't help but slow down, and I couldn't bear to let the coming "storm" destroy this peace and tranquility in my heart.

I walked slowly on the concrete road in the town with my bag on my back, and from time to time my neighbors greeted me with a smile in my hometown, because my father's dislike of me led to my hometown people giving me a vulgar nickname called "Stupid Woman", which continues to this day. As long as I return to my hometown, there will always be people who will call me like this, shouting and shouting that the elements of contempt and shame have gradually faded with the years, but have added a sense of cordiality and locality.

A brand-new black sedan was parked on the empty road in front of it, and the appearance of the sedan was atmospheric and elegant, and it looked familiar.

I was amazed at who in our town had bought such a luxurious car, when the doors of the car gradually opened, and a slender, well-dressed man stepped out of the car. When I looked closely, it turned out to be a torture style.

How did he appear in the small town of Pan's family? It's weird.

And he was looking at me with a smile on his face, as if he was waiting for me here. I was amazed, and walked forward quickly, looking at him suspiciously, and he also looked at me, and said to me first, "Hey, little book, we meet again." ”

"Mr. Xing, ...... you?" I asked, and suddenly I thought he couldn't be waiting for me here on purpose, right? Could it be that Xiaoxue told him that I was going home? Thinking about it, I deliberately put on a straight face and showed a very unhappy look.

No matter how I behaved, the expression on his face was always calm, and he said slowly: "I have long heard how pleasant the scenery of Panjia Town is, and when I see it today, it really has a unique charm." ”

"What are you doing here?" I asked rudely.

"Inspecting the customs and customs, the government recently intends to vigorously promote the development of tourism throughout the province, so I walked around, inspected it, and saw if there were any tourism projects suitable for development, and I thought it was good." Xing Feng said with a smile, the reason turned out to be seamless.

I was stunned for a moment, and then my heart was greatly moved. As a child of Panjia Town, everyone longs for such a beautiful hometown to become a famous tourist attraction one day, but the chances of realizing it are almost slim. Over the years, there have been many delegations to visit Panjia Town, but then they have failed. If Xing Feng really had such thoughts, it would have impressed me.

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