Chapter 84: I Still Want to Love You

When Song Yan and Yan Xie went down, they didn't see Lu Yinchen, but they saw other people in the company there.

Song Yan went to class for about a week, and he didn't know anyone except for remembering Secretary General Helen.

And Helen seems to have disliked herself very much from the beginning.

Song Yan thought that she might think that if she wasn't there, she would be the one next to Lu Yinchen, so she would treat herself like this.

Song Yan was thinking about it, but Helen had already opened her mouth, "Who is this?" ”

"Yan Xiyi." Yan Xie Yi stepped forward to talk to her, and then, other people also joined the team, Song Yan didn't like such a hypocritical conversation, and walked directly to the side to eat fruit.

She just stood still in front of the window when her body stiffened.

Outside the window was a small garden, where two people were sitting on a bench.

The female Song Yan doesn't know her, but she looks cute and cute, and the man next to her is ...... Xi Zihang.

Min Jia's fiancΓ©!

What's the situation?

"Song Yan, what are you doing there? We're leaving! Helen's voice came a little impatiently.

Song Yan put down the fruit in his hand and walked towards them.

Although the footsteps followed them, Song Yan kept looking behind until a pair of hands reached over and hugged her whole person in his arms, "What are you looking at?" ”

Song Yan was a little uncomfortable and wanted to break free, but what he soon came into contact with was the gaze of Lu Yinhao over there.

Song Yan suddenly understood, and couldn't help laughing, extremely sarcastic.

"Why don't you speak?" Lu Yinchen's voice fell on her ear, with a slight itch.

"Nothing." Song Yan pulled his hand down and quietly widened the distance between them.

Lu Yinchen didn't care, and put his hand in his pocket.

Everyone went to lunch together.

Lu Yinchen invited a treat, and everyone naturally ate with an open stomach, Lu Yinchen ordered a dish, and Helen made the rest of the ideas.

Lu Yinchen sat down in the middle position, and Song Yan was very witty and chose a position opposite him.

Yan Xie was unceremonious, and sat down directly beside Lu Yinchen.

And Lu Yinhao didn't say much, and sat down on the other side of Yan Xieyi.

Lu Yinchen was sitting on the other side, and Helen, who had never had much kindness to Song Yan.

Song Yan in the seat didn't want to guess, so he only looked down at his mobile phone.

From morning to now, Yu Zhe has bombarded her with dozens of calls, and after Song Yan hung up all of them, he only sent her a message.

"You'll regret it, two years ago you were bruised, and now, do you want to do it again?"

Song Yan didn't reply, but when he saw the message, he glanced at Lu Yinchen opposite.

He was talking to Lu Yinhao, his face calm.

Everyone here knows that they are two brothers, and now they are rivals.

And in the shopping mall, there is never a shortage of people with good acting skills.

The dishes came up quickly, and Lu Yinchen only ordered one dish, vermicelli shrimp.

That's what Song Yan loves to eat.

After the dish came up, Lu Yinchen put on his gloves and began to dial it, the plate of shrimp was in front of him, and others didn't even dare to turn around.

She thought he had ordered something for her.

Song Yan cursed in his heart, bowing his head and eating something else.

"Song Yan, why haven't you come to work in the past two days?" The person next to him said curiously.

Song Yan saw that she didn't seem to have malicious intentions, and thought for a while and replied, "I'm not feeling well." ”

"Oh, are you not feeling well?" Lu Yinhao's voice came, "Why is my brother so unkind about taking care of people?" ”

It was Song Yan who was talking in the words, but Lu Yinhao's eyes fell on Lu Yinchen's body fixedly.

Lu Yinchen glanced at Song Yan and said with a smile, "It's my fault." ”

At this moment, the atmosphere at the table suddenly changed.

Yan Xieyi's hand under the dining table almost scratched her skirt, she took a deep breath and said, "Yinchen, you peeled this shrimp, why don't you eat it?" ”

"I don't eat it." Lu Yinchen just finished peeling the last shrimp, took off his gloves, and then put a full bowl of shrimp meat on the turntable and turned it gently.

When the bowl of shrimp meat arrived in front of Song Yan, he stopped the turntable.

The eyes of everyone at the table fell on Song Yan's body.

Song Yan's original action of picking up vegetables also stopped, and he looked at the other side, he was smiling at himself, with a harmless face.

Song Yan pursed his lips, and after the chopsticks were stiff for a long time, he still clipped one, and then transferred it to others, "You also eat, Mr. Lu has no other hobbies, he just likes to peel shrimp." ”

Others naturally didn't dare to move, and in the end, a bowl of shrimp meat still fell into Song Yan's stomach.

It's just that I don't know why, Song Yan only feels that it's not a taste all over his body.

She really couldn't understand what he was ...... What you want to do.

Do you want to show Lu Yinhao?

Why...... The heart that was already dead and silent still beats at this time?

Because of him, beating alive.

After lunch, everyone walked to the hot spring hall.

It is divided into two large soups, men's soup and women's soup, and several are separate couples' special rooms, Song Yan didn't want to go directly into the women's soup.

After a while, Yan Xie Yi also walked in.

She looked at Song Yan, "Is your child okay?" ”

Song Yan took off his clothes and hummed softly.

"I heard, that kid is not Yinchen's?"

Song Yan's hand stiffened and turned his head, "Does this have anything to do with you?" ”

"It's okay, it's just Song Yan, don't you feel ashamed?"

Song Yan really didn't know where Yan Jieyi's superiority came from.

Just because she has known Lu Yinchen for so many years, just because before this, Lu Yinchen had chosen her countless times?

Thinking of the latter one, Song Yan himself was stunned for a moment, and then nodded, as if he had a sense of superiority.

Yan Xie Yi looked at her meditating and nodding her head alone, and her brows couldn't help frowning, "Did you hear me?" ”

"I hear you." Song Yan wrapped the bath towel around her and walked in front of her, "Didn't you just say that I was shameless?" Since you are shameless, how can you feel ashamed? ”

Yan Xieyi's eyes widened, Song Yan ignored her and walked straight ahead.

Most of the people who came this time were male colleagues, in addition to Song Yan and Yan Xieyi, it was Helen and the girl who was sitting next to Song Yan just now, from their conversation, Song Yan knew that her name was Cheng Jing.

"Miss Yan, what are you and our Mr. Lu...... What's the relationship? Helen didn't want to deal with Song Yan, and began to curry favor with Yan Xieyi.

"Are you talking about Yinchen?" Yan Xie Yi said with a smile, "You should have seen the news, we were lovers before." ”

"How could that ......?"

"It's hard to say about emotional things, you also know that there will definitely be a lot of women with such an excellent person as Yinchen......"

Yan's words were already very obvious, and Helen glanced at Song Yan directly, "So that's the case, I thought that Mr. Lu was a gentleman before, but I didn't expect it to be ......."

Before Helen's words were finished, a sneering laughter suddenly came from the front, and several people looked over, Song Yan also felt that his laughter seemed to be a little out of place, so he had to stand up, "Sorry to disturb you, I feel a little stuffy, go out and take a breath." ”

"The villain has a will!"

Helen's voice came from behind him, and Song Yan heard it clearly, but he didn't look at it, and just left there quickly.

Almost as soon as she opened the door, two people happened to meet each other.

Song Yan immediately lowered her head, and the door also happened to block her body, and the two of them walked directly in front of her.

There it is...... Couple's soup.

Song Yan's brows furrowed tightly, and by the time she reacted, her footsteps had already caught up.

If Song Yan was only suspicious when he saw these two people in the garden just now, it was almost certain now.

Xi Zihang...... Cheating.

Song Yan turned around and wanted to go back to get his mobile phone, but when he had just taken two steps, the door of another couple soup next to him suddenly opened, and then, Song Yan's whole person was directly pulled over.

Before she could scream, the man's lips gagged her.

When that familiar smell came, Song Yan immediately knew who the person in front of her was, but despite this, she still put her hand in front of his chest, trying to use it to distance them.

However, instead of letting go of her, he hugged Song Yan's waist and let her whole body stick directly to him.

Song Yan finally couldn't help it anymore and bit his lip.

Lu Yinchen was in pain, and finally let go of her lips, but his hand was still on her waist.

Song Yan pushed him and didn't move.

"I was just thinking about how to trick you out of there, and you came over on your own." Lu Yinchen said with a smile as if he didn't feel her resistance.

Song Yan was a little out of breath, "You let me go!" ”

"Shh......h Do you want people to know you're here? ”

Song Yan glared at him fiercely, Lu Yinchen thought for a moment and said, "For example, Xi Zihang." ”

"You know?!" Song Yan blurted out, and Lu Yinchen covered her mouth, "Speak lightly, the sound insulation effect here is not good." ”

Song Yan pulled his hand down, "Did you know from the beginning?" ”

"Xi Zihang is from Haicheng, and they are all in a circle, do you think I may not know?"

Song Yan's brows furrowed tightly.

Lu Yinchen looked at her, "What, do you want to talk to Min Jia?" ”

"That's not your concern, is it?"

"After all, it's a human housework, so you'd better not interfere, and besides, do you think Min Jia might not know?"

"She already knows?"

Lu Yinchen stretched out his hand and gently stroked her cheek, "A woman's intuition is very accurate, as if if if I had another woman, you would definitely know, wouldn't you?" ”

Song Yan was frowning and thinking about the question, but when he heard his words, he immediately reached out and pushed him away, "What do you care about me?" ”

"Now everyone knows you're my woman." He said behind his back.

"So what? You think I'm going to compromise that way? ”

"You're here today, you've already compromised, aren't you?"

Lu Yinchen's words made Song Yan's footsteps freeze in place suddenly.

He knows everything.

Her every move is like a guinea pig being played with by him, and she will never escape the palm of his hand.

Song Yan turned his head abruptly.

Lu Yinchen was looking at her with a smile.

Then, he sat down in a chair next to him, "Come here." ”

"I think I should go back." Song Yan took a deep breath and said.

Lu Yinchen stretched out his hand, pulled her in his arms without saying anything, lowered his head and kissed her.

Song Yan couldn't push him away, and this time, no matter how she bit it, he just wouldn't let go.

She was wearing a loose bathrobe, and Lu Yinchen's hand could easily poke in.

Song Yan grabbed his hand, "You...... Let go! ”

"If you want me to let go, you can do it, but you have to cooperate with me well!"

Song Yan looked at him puzzled.

He helped her tie the strap on her bathrobe and looked at her, "Don't resist, don't run away, or I'll get your baby." ”

The cruelty in his eyes was not a joke.

This is him, one second he can be so obsessed with love, but the next second he can become the devil of purgatory.

Song Yan's hands clenched tightly.

"Why?" She said through gritted teeth.

Lu Yinchen hugged her, "I don't know why, when I find the answer, I should let you go." ”

"When?"

"It should ...... Soon. ”

Soon......

I don't know why, when I heard this answer, Song Yan's heart seemed to hurt again.

She looked at him, "You can tell me about my brother...... Why? ”

Song Yan didn't know why, maybe there had been no such peace of mind between the two for a long time, so she asked like this.

Looking into his eyes, his hand gently grasped his clothes.

At that moment, there was even a ridiculous idea born in Song Yan's mind.

That is, as long as he says he has to do it, as long as he says everything for the reason, she will forgive him.

And then desperately, with him.

However, he didn't.

He just said, "I'm sorry. ”

I'm sorry......

With this answer, Song Yan didn't know if he should laugh.

The hand that was holding his clothes suddenly let go.

Then, she closed her eyes.

"Yan Yan, don't be painful, you can continue to hate me." His voice came.

Song Yan wanted to push him away, telling him that hating someone was much more painful than loving someone.

If he could, Song Yan really wanted to find something and kill him directly.

In this way, it is crisp and neat.

However, she couldn't do it.

It's because she thinks of her child, and she can't let the baby be so young and lose her parents.

Song Yan will not admit it.

Won't admit it...... It's just because of her that I'm reluctant.

……

After soaking in the hot springs, the evening activity is barbecue.

Inside the courtyard was the barbecue grill and ingredients prepared by the resort, Song Yan didn't want to do it, and sat alone in the corner, in front of her, was an open beer.

"It's not right to come out and play with such a lot of preoccupations." A chuckle was heard, and immediately after, the man sat down across from her.

Song Yan didn't need to look up to know who it was, he just took a cup from the side and poured it.

"It's not fun to just drink, why don't we play games?"

Song Yan looked at him, "The two of us?" ”

"Why, don't you dare?"

"Not interested."

"You haven't listened yet, why don't you dare?"

Song Yan drank all the wine in the cup, "I think the relationship between me and Mr. Lu has not yet been drunk and played games together." ”

"How can this be? After all, we used to lie in the same bed. ”

As soon as Lu Yinhao's words were finished, Song Yan raised his hand directly, and the wine in the cup was splashed on Lu Yinhao's face.

The others were originally happily barbecuing, but when they saw this scene, everyone suddenly fell silent.

Song Yan didn't care, turned around and was about to leave.

Lu Yinhao's voice came from behind, "Isn't what I said wrong?" But I also have to admire your good skills, and after serving my brother and serving my brother, I have to admire your brother. ”

Song Yan's footsteps stopped, and the hands hanging beside him clenched tightly into fists.

Lu Yinchen, who had just come back from outside, entered the courtyard and saw such a picture.

His brow furrowed suddenly, and he looked at Helen, "What's the matter?" ”

"Miss Song and Mr. Lu seem to have some kind of dispute......"

Lu Yinchen walked up, and just wanted to grab Song Yan's hand, but Song Yan pushed him, "Don't worry about it!" ”

With that, she turned and left.

Lu Yinchen immediately looked at Lu Yinhao, "What's the matter?" ”

"It's nothing, she might not be in a good mood, right?" Lu Yinhao shrugged.

Lu Yinchen didn't care about him, and turned to chase after Song Yan.

Yan Jieyi, who was originally standing in place, paused for a moment and ran out.

Song Yan walked forward by himself.

She knew that nothing had happened to her and Lu Yinhao at that time, but every time she thought of it, it was as if the scars on her body had been torn apart, and those things that she had originally hidden well and numbed herself not to think about came like this.

"Song Yan."

His voice came from behind, Song Yan didn't care, and walked to the front by himself.

Lu Yinchen grabbed her hand from behind.

"Leave me alone! Lu Yinchen, I'm really fed up with you! Why are you doing this to me? If you want to break it, don't come near me again, why do you still tease me like this, it makes sense?! Didn't you do a good job before? When you left me behind, when you divorced me, when you left me to Lu Yinhao, didn't you do a good job? What do you mean by being like this now?! ”

I don't know why, Song Yan's mood suddenly collapsed, he held her hand, but she kept pushing the person in front of her, and tears kept falling from her eyes.

She really couldn't read it.

I really don't understand...... Why did he do it?

Or is it that he has some bitter hatred for her, which is why he tortures her like this.

Lu Yinchen's hand grabbed her tightly and looked at her, "Song Yan, what are you afraid of?" ”

"Nope! Lu Yinchen, I hate you, I hate you! ”

"You're scared, you're scared...... Will you fall in love with me again? ”

As if something was broken by him, Song Yan's body suddenly froze.

Then, she gritted her teeth, "No! ”

"Really, isn't it?" He looked into her eyes, Song Yan tried hard to push him away, but he was taken into his arms, and then, he lowered his head and kissed her lips.

Song Yan kept pushing him, but his hand clasped her waist tightly, preventing her from moving for half a minute.

When the smell spread all over his lips, Song Yan's struggling strength didn't know when, and it had slowly loosened.

At that moment, Song Yan admitted that in front of him, all his defenses and emotions collapsed.

She was so afraid of his approach, not because she hated and hated, but because she was afraid that she would fall in love with him again.

……

Yan Xie Yi stood behind the grass, watching the two of them standing there, kissing as if no one was around.

hand, couldn't help but grasp the skirt on the body, and the whole body was trembling slightly.

She wanted to rush forward and tear the two apart, she wanted to scream loudly, he was hers!

However, she couldn't do anything.

When Lu Yinchen stood beside her before, she always had a feeling that he seemed to be leaving at any time.

She also comforted herself that it was all delusion.

It must have been all her delusion.

But now Yan Xie Yi knows that this is not an illusion.

He...... I didn't love her for a long time.

The cold liquid fell from her eyes, Yan Xie wiped it fiercely, and turned to leave.

……

Song Yan forgot how she got back to the room, her head was a mess, and there seemed to be a taste of Lu Yinchen in her lips.

When Yu Zhe's call came again, Song Yan still didn't answer.

She turned off her phone directly, and when she pushed the door open, Yan Xie was not inside.

Song Yan didn't think about it so much, and fell asleep directly on the bed.

……

Song Yan seemed to have a dream.

In the dream, she was back before she was fifteen years old.

She has a mom and dad and a brother.

There is another one, a little brother who lives next door.

Now Song Yan thinks about it, that person is Yu Zhe.

She returned to that day, she was holding her newly bought toy and wanted to find Yu Zhe, but far away, she heard a heart-rending cry.

She was frightened, but walked slowly over anyway.

She saw Yu Zhe and his mother kneeling on the ground, holding a man's legs, as if begging the man not to leave.

The man had his back to Song Yan, she couldn't see his appearance clearly, but inexplicably, she felt a burst of familiarity.

Just as she was watching, the man suddenly reached out and pushed the two of them away, and then turned around and left.

When her eyes saw the man's face, Song Yan opened her eyes suddenly.

She sat straight out of bed.

Regarding the memories of his childhood, Song Yan has forgotten a lot, but that dream Song Yan can be sure that it is not a dream!

She thought about it seriously for a long time, but she couldn't remember whether she had seen that man's face that day.

……

Song Yan lingered in the room until nearly ten o'clock before going down.

Seeing her, Helen came up first, "Song Yan, where is Miss Yan?" ”

Song Yan's footsteps froze for a moment, looked at the crowd, and shook his head, "I didn't see her." ”

"Didn't you live in the same room?" Helen said immediately.

Lu Yinchen, who was originally sitting there talking about something, also looked over.

Song Yan frowned, "I live in the same room, but I went to bed early last night, and I didn't see her when I got up in the morning......"

"In other words, Miss Yan didn't go back all night?"

Hearing this, Lu Yinchen immediately stood up and looked at Song Yan, "What's the matter?" ”

Song Yan really felt inexplicable, everyone was looking at her at this time, like that, as if she had lost Yan Xieyi.

Her brow furrowed as she said, "I don't know. ”

"Go check it out." Lu Yinchen immediately looked at Yao Fei.

At this moment, Lu Yinhao rushed down from upstairs, "What's going on?" ”

In his hand, there was a text message from Yan Xiyi that he had just received.

"I know I'm a burden to everyone, I'm gone, don't look for me."

After reading this information, Lu Yinchen's face suddenly sank.

Lu Yinhao looked directly at Song Yan, "Song Yan, what did you tell her?" ”

Song Yan's face also sank, "What do you mean by this?" ”

"She was obviously fine yesterday, why did she suddenly leave like this? You're in the same room, did you tell her something? ”

"You have to have evidence when you speak." Song Yan's voice was cold.

Lu Yinhao still wanted to say, but Lu Yinchen directly interrupted his words, "Let's find someone first!" ”

Song Yan looked at him, "You don't believe me either?" ”

"It's useless for me to believe it, now I'll find someone first."

His appearance was cold, but Song Yan could see that he was very anxious and anxious.

She couldn't help but sneer, "Looking, of course you have to find it!" ”

After saying that, she walked directly in front, Lu Yinchen looked at it, paused, and chased after her.

……

"Song Yan."

His somewhat muffled voice came from behind, and Song Yan didn't look back, just kept walking forward.

"You don't want to make a fuss, can you meet?" There was a hint of anger in his voice, and Song Yan's footsteps suddenly stopped and looked at him, "Where do I dare to make trouble?" Am I not looking for someone? ”

"Do you know where she went?"

Lu Yinchen's slightly squinted eyes made Song Yan's anger rise suddenly, and she pushed him away, "Yes, I know where she went, I was the one who made her angry, and I hid her, how about it, are you satisfied!?" ”

His brows were furrowed, Song Yanqi's whole person was trembling, and he didn't care about him, he walked forward directly.

After taking two steps, she turned to look at him, "Don't follow me!" ”

He really didn't follow.

Song Yan kept walking forward, I don't know why, the more she walked, the more aggrieved she felt, and her eyes couldn't help but turn red.

She rubbed it hard and kept moving forward.

I don't know when it started, the road in front of me became more and more difficult to walk, and when Song Yan stopped, he realized that he didn't know when he had gone up the mountain, and the surroundings were strange.

Damn it.

Song Yan cursed in a low voice, turned around and walked back.

Just as she turned around, she vaguely heard two words.

It seems to be ...... Help me.

Song Yan immediately turned his head, and there was nothing behind him except for the tall trees.

"Anyone?" She said loudly.

I didn't answer, but when I remembered the two words just now, I still felt a chill in my heart.

She took two steps forward, "Anyone?" Yan Xiyi, isn't it you! ”

Still didn't answer, Song Yan thought, he must have heard it wrong.

She continued to walk back, and at this moment, a hand suddenly stretched out behind her, Song Yan turned her head suddenly, maybe the person was also startled by her movements, and suddenly there was a force on her hand, and Song Yan's whole person was pushed down directly!