Shen Ran was about to go to the filming location with the crew, she had to pack her luggage and drag out a SpongeBob SquarePants's lockbox, which was the right size, she liked it very much, she simply packed her clothes and daily necessities, stared at the suitcase in a daze, thinking about what else she should bring.

"Ranran, where are you going?" Shen's mother came in with a plate of fruit and saw Shen Ran packing her luggage.

"Mom, I was just going to tell you, I'm going to the crew." Shen Ran said.

"So fast, when will it go?" Shen's mother asked.

"The flight the day after tomorrow." Shen Ran stuffed a small electric fan into the suitcase, and heard that the place was quite hot, so she had to bring her little baby with her, thanks to it in college.

"Of course, when I go to a foreign country, I have to learn to take care of myself." Shen's mother's heart has been hanging, I heard that the entertainment industry is very chaotic, there are people and everything, if it wasn't for An Yimo who invested this time, how could she rest assured that Shen Ran was alone?

"I know, I'll take good care of myself, Mom, don't worry!" Shen Ran patted Shen's mother on the shoulder indifferently.

Early the next morning, Shen Ran went to An's to get a plane ticket.

"However, the company has been busy recently, so I have to let you run." Xiao Xiao gave the ticket to Shen Ran.

"Sister Xiao Xiao, you are still so polite to me."

"Okay, go out by yourself, be careful." Xiao Xiao said that although it is basically An's own people, there should be no chaos. Suddenly, he seemed to think of something again, "Wait, I'll give you a phone number, which is the contact information of the main person in charge of this filming of "What's the Matter", you still contact him at that time and go over with the company's people." ”

"Yes." Shen Ran took out his mobile phone and wrote down the number.

"Sister Xiao Xiao, is my brother in the office?" Shen Ran asked.

"Yes, you go to him, I'll leave first if I have something."

"Okay, you're busy."

Shen Ran gently knocked on the door of An Yimo's office.

"Come in."

It belongs to Ann Yimo's usual deep voice.

Shen Ran pushed the door in and said with a smile, "Brother, I'll come and see you." ”

"Got your ticket?" An Yimo said without raising his head.

Shen Ran suddenly realized that he really couldn't hide anything from him.

"Brother, that, I'm going to go to the filming venue with the crew, can I ask you for one thing." Shen Ran looked at An Yimo cautiously and said.

"What's the matter?" An Yimo stopped his pen and looked at Shen Ran and asked.

"That's it, that, I don't need special care when I go to the crew." Shen Ran was afraid that she would be treated differently because of An's when the time came, if she didn't make any requirements for her as a screenwriter, then how could she learn?

"Yes." An Yimo knows her temperament and doesn't like to be talked about by others, and the comments made a while ago have made her feel that she is the one who has affected An's.

"Also, brother, I'm not at home, you go back to accompany your mother." Shen Ran said, thinking of leaving her mother at home alone, she suddenly felt a very sad feeling in her heart.

"Yes." An Yimu responded, bowed his head and continued to look at the documents.

Shen Ran was suddenly surprised what was wrong with him? It's just a little more than an hour of flight, and she can come back if she wants to, maybe go to another place, leave the person closest to her, deep down, she still has fear.

"Brother, I will do my best to complete this work." Shen Ran didn't want to disappoint him.

"Well, I know, go out and take care of yourself."

"I will, so do you, don't be too tired from work."

Ann Yimo was signing the pen for a moment, but did not say anything more.

As soon as I walked out of the bathroom, I heard the mobile phone ringing, it was a call from Lin Rui, Fu Yijie answered, "Hey." ”

"Don't oversleep on the plane tomorrow at half past eight." Lin Rui specially called to remind Fu Yijie.

"Yes, I see, I've already set the alarm." Fu Yijie wanted to wipe his hair with a towel, but suddenly remembered something, he was not used to it, and now he could only wipe the water droplets on his head, he laughed bitterly at himself.

"Okay, go to bed early." Lin Rui couldn't help but yawn on the other end of the phone.

"Well, you too."

Hung up the phone, Fu Yijie simply packed his luggage, and then slowly walked to the mirror, he looked at himself in the mirror, he was afraid before and now there is an indescribable relief, when he shaved his head, the small wound next to his ear that was accidentally shaved was also healed, yes, all the scars will eventually get better.

Fu Yijie opened the notebook and prepared to record his feelings before joining the group as before, just to facilitate his memories in the future, recalling the bits and pieces of the past, he has always thought like this from the beginning to the present, and now it has become a habit, just like brushing his teeth in the morning and evening, so natural. Both hands began to tap on the keyboard, typing out what was in mind at the moment:

Written before the start of filming of "What is the Autumn Wind Sad Painting Fan".

I remember that two years ago, I also had a good opportunity to play a blind man, for an actor, to be able to play such a role, will definitely be affirmed, I thought so at the time, in order to play a blind man well, I went to the screenwriter, to find the director, I asked them what the effect of the character wanted? I went to ask actors who had had similar acting experiences and asked them how they managed to play such a role. During that time, I lived alone with a blindfold, to experience the daily life of a blind person, and to go to a special institution for the disabled to "study", and I was thinking that my efforts should be recognized, and this time I should not fail myself, right? But the result was not as good as I imagined, my performance was cut almost the same, for what specific reason, I don't know, and then I heard that it was to add drama to the protagonist, so many supporting roles were deleted, is it true? I do not know.

At that time, I slowly began to understand that sometimes life is not as good as I imagined, and that hard work may not be rewarded, just like throwing stones into the sea, always sinking into the sea, and not seeing the splash of water. But my personality does not allow me to give up easily, because I am Fu Yijie, I prefer to believe that hard work is a process, and it requires continuous efforts bit by bit, so I cherish every opportunity more. Now I have an opportunity that I feel is particularly good, this time it is the mercy of fate, or the reward that I have not given up for several years?

Many times, I am very confused, scared, and hesitant, but in front of people, I will not show it, because I am a public figure, my actions will affect other people, even if I am not popular, even if only one person likes me, I will do my best not to disappoint him, from the first day I decided to step into this industry, I told myself, and I have been according to this standard set by myself, and I have always demanded myself.

Maybe everyone will have fear before doing something, I'm just an ordinary person, because this time "What's the Matter" is a Qing Dynasty drama, I shaved my hair, as an actor, it can be said that I can make sacrifices for a role can be said to be happy, but when the makeup photo was released, I was questioned too much, and a lot of bad reviews hit me, I was really afraid, did I do it wrong? Is it really not suitable? I struggled internally, but then I figured it out, because no one can predict the future, am I a good fit? Am I doing well? Just let the facts speak for themselves, and instead of trusting others, why not choose to believe in yourself?

Time will tell.

to your future self

After writing, Fu Yijie closed the computer, and there were more memories that belonged to him in the folder called "Drip", good night, good dreams, Fu Yijie said to himself.