Maybe she felt sorry for me, and she really stopped, she was so tired that she was panting, and my breathing was a little shorter than before. → eight → eight → read → books, .↓.o≥

I freed up an arm and gave Tang Ying a look.

She hesitated for two or three seconds, but finally fell on my arm.

I laughed to myself, feeling to myself that this woman was too face-saving.

I overmeasured my head and kissed her temples, there was no smell of perfume, only a faint smell of shampoo in my hair, and the smell of night cream on her face after bathing.

When I smell this woman, I actually smell home.

When I was a child, I was in my own home, and I always saw that my parents were good to business, and the meaning of home was unattainable for me. Shang Lin got on the train, and my parents asked me if I had an awkward relationship with Shang Lin. I was only 12 years old at the time, and the first thing I thought of when I was scolded was denial, but what kind of character did my own children have? Did you lie? Parents can see through it at a glance, not to mention that the lies of a twelve-year-old are completely full of loopholes in front of adults.

Shang Lin finally told them about getting on the train, and the next day's news appeared in the news that the train had abducted several children. My parents cried and screamed, they called me a debt collector, it was very cold that night, they wouldn't let me in, I was blown by the wind at the door for several hours, and my mother opened the door with red eyes.

After that time, my parents have been following the development of the abduction case, but there is no news from Bisheng. At that time, the sense of legal awareness and civic rights was still very weak, and the thinking of my parents was also backward. felt that Shang Lin didn't come back, the child was lost, and it was impossible to find it again, so he gave up in his heart.

As soon as they saw me, they either gave me blank eyes or ignored me, and cold violence was the most terrible. I'd rather they beat me up so hard that I couldn't get up, than with a cold face and avoiding me like a plague.

The first time I felt the taste of home was when I was renting a room with Lin Chao, and at that time she would wash my clothes and make me food, although the conditions were very difficult, but I felt very satisfied. To this day, I have no worries about food and clothing, and looking back, I have never had low requirements for my lover.

After Tang Ying and I got married, we were busy with work, and I couldn't feel the warmth of home. God knows how lonely I would come home every day, often not seeing my wife, or smoking a cigarette, or dangling around the house in my pajamas. It's like when I was hanging like a ghost in my house, no one would care about me, no one would come to look at me. Sometimes when I was sick, I could get it by taking a packet of powder, and sometimes I suddenly had a fever at night, and I felt the fever in the dark, and my wife was working overtime.

hugged Tang Ying's arm and unconsciously retracted it.

Her soft voice came from her ear: "What's wrong with you?" ”

I came back to my senses and smiled at her, "Thinking about the old days again." ”

Tang Ying stared at me, her fingers slid lightly on my lips, and she asked me a little embarrassedly, "Jiang Ciyun, when you were separated from me, did you miss me?" ”

"Miss you." I said hoarsely.

"How much do you want?"

As I thought, she would ask this.

I didn't answer quickly, and smiled at her expectant eyes.

Women are likely to be like this, happy to ask their lovers a lot of questions, even if they don't match their age.

"I really want to." I finally answered her in a particularly serious tone.

"That'...... Let's talk about it. "She doesn't look at me anymore, and when our relationship eases day by day, all the past is destined to peel off like an onion.

I nodded at her and said slowly, "The first few days were the hardest. I almost couldn't hold back several times, trying to rush to you and tie you back. I think you're going to be a crybaby again, and you're going to be so sick that you love me so much. I also miss children, she used to make a fuss in the middle of the night...... "My eyes were a little astringent, and a moist feeling suddenly slid up my sockets, lubricating my eyes." After adjusting my breathing, I said, "She used to make a fuss in the middle of the night, and I used to get up and hug her, poop and pee, and suddenly I didn't have to do these things, and the crying was gone...... It's so quiet. ”

Tang Ying stopped talking, the two eyebrows that didn't make the eyebrow pencil were close to each other like caterpillars, her eyebrows arched a small bag, I looked at it and laughed, and picked her armpit with my fingers, and she almost jumped out of my arms.

I hurriedly tightened my arms, for fear that this woman would leave this harmonious and warm embrace.

I told her all about the changes in my state of mind in the past three years.

At least a month made me very miserable, and then my mood slowly calmed down, Yan Jin, Qin Feng, and Xu Mushen would secretly ask me to drink in private, but they didn't come to me, and every time they met, they were in a very private place, and fortunately I still had friends in the loneliest and lonely days. There are still fox friends in the eyes of many people. But such a group of people can't break up, they can't scold or scold, they don't often contact each other when they have nothing to do, and they have long been standing behind me if something happens.

And so the days passed.

The diary has been changed several times, and Tang Ying, painted by Ah Shen, will be sent to my home by express mail from time to time.

Among so many friends, Lao Tzu is most sorry for Xu Mushen. His obsession is terrible, but what is valuable is that he is sensible and righteous, and he did not really stifle the relationship between us because of Tang Ying.

"You called Lao Tzu to say it. How? Don't want to hear it? I asked her pretending to be angry.

She cupped my face and whispered, "Jiang Ciyun, I'm sorry. ”

"Why did you tell me I'm sorry? Yes? I was stunned and stared at her incredulously.

"I'm still too ignorant. Jiang Ciyun, your heart is so good, you know? Tang Ying said coldly.

I hugged her tighter and kissed her forehead wantonly.

The next day, she and I came out of the Civil Affairs Bureau, and I held the marriage certificate very tightly, and I put it in my trouser pocket when I got into the car.

At noon, Xiaoyan was in school, and there were only two people in the family, her and me. She cooked for me, wore an apron and slippers, and looked like a hostess.

She was busy in the kitchen for a long time, and I was drinking tea in the living room, and even the air seemed to be filled with the smell of happiness.

When the green onion and ginger are put into the pot, there is a special sound, and the rich fragrance overflows, and after a while, hot white rice and four dishes and one soup are on the table.

I put down the teacup and strode over to her, walked around behind her and helped her undo her apron, then hugged her and said, "Are you going back to the company?" ”

Tang Ying didn't speak.

That media company turned her status upside down, and I clearly saw her happiness on the day she became the owner of a listed company when she was poor. And now, I'm not sure if she still wants to be a strong woman who can hold her head high.

"You have to prepare to go back, I support you, and I can pick up and drop off the child." I said slowly.

Tang Ying said after a long time, "Let's eat first." ”

"Okay." I let go of my arm, knowing full well that her hesitation was due to uneasiness.

During a meal, she sandwiched the food to me several times and smiled wildly, as if the momentary embarrassment had never happened.

After the meal, she said she wanted to go out, and I agreed. She drove out in that domineering Humvee, and it wasn't long before I drove with her.

The car stopped in front of a barbecue restaurant.

I glanced at the sign from afar, and if I remember correctly, this shop was opened after Lu Li's business failed.

I was a little surprised, and quickly got out of the car and walked in, for fear that Tang Ying would be bullied.

When she saw me, she stared at me in amazement.

I pulled out the chair opposite her and sat down, looked around, and didn't see Lu Li and Xiao Li, only Lu Li's mother, Chen Ping.

Chen Ping is a lot older, and it is completely different from a few years ago.

She said politely to Tang Ying: "Tang Ying, I was too strong before, I was not good, do you still blame me?" ”

Chen Ping smiled a little embarrassed.

Tang Ying shook her head and asked, "How are Lu Li and Xiao Li?" ”

Chen Ping suddenly cried: "Ah Li is not good, he won't live long." ”

When I heard this, I was slightly stunned, and subconsciously looked at Tang Ying.

She also seemed surprised, and opened her mouth slightly to ask, "Don't live long?" What, what's going on? ”

"It's cancer. The money is gone, and it still can't be cured. Xiao Li's girl was with other men not long after Lu Li's illness. She didn't even want to look at Lu Li, saying that it was too scary to watch. That girl, what a conscienceless thing! As soon as she left, Ah Li's illness worsened, and if I could do it all over again, I wouldn't let him leave you even if I died. Tang Ying, I still know a little bit about your conduct, if it were you, Ah Li would definitely not leave when he was sick. Chen Ping scolded in broken thoughts.

Tang Ying handed her a tissue and asked cautiously, "Is it possible?" There is no hope of a cure? Have you changed a few more hospitals? ”

Chen Ping cried and shook his head: "The money is gone, it is estimated that there is no hope, his person of more than 130 pounds has now lost 80." I can't eat it, and it hurts all day long...... Let me, this old lady, look at it and feel so uncomfortable. ”

I drank my tea quietly and sighed to myself. What's the use of making that much money sometimes? Once you have a terminal illness, no amount of money will help, and it is good to be bland. It is best to have the cost of living, travel from time to time, and have some spare money not to worry about life.

Tang Ying and I ordered a lot of barbecue, but we couldn't finish it. Before leaving, I quietly gave Chen Ping a stack of money, not much, just 10,000 yuan.

Chen Ping quickly took the money and said thank you repeatedly, wanting to come to this house because the oil had really run out of oil for treatment.

On the way back, Tang Ying and I each drove a car, and she used her car phone to tell me about her decision.

She said: "Jiang Ciyun, I don't need to live a wonderful life, the truth is as absurd as the ideal." Let Xu Mushen take care of my company, I, like you, only need to share a little money every year, and I don't have to deal with people who have nothing to do with it. Let's have a good life as a family of three. By the way, I want to go to Thailand for a few days. ”

I didn't respond to her and just hung up.

When I was in my thirties, Tang Ying gave me the most desirable home.

And I'm willing to do everything I can to protect her all my life.

The car drove one after the other, and I lit a cigarette and drove behind hers, with the same destination.