In my small world, I feel that there are cigarettes, alcohol and meat, it is a kind of ordinary life, and now, suddenly I have it, but I have lost a lot, gradually alienated from my family, estranged from my friends, I can't listen to words, as long as I feel that what I am doing is right, but in fact, it is not.

I took a small stool, sat near the window, gave myself a place to sit at the same time, but also gave it to others, everyone is just running for life, often people remind me, what to do, what not to do, such a life, who wants?

Time, passing little by little, while passing, overdrawing one's body, many people can't see such an essence, and I belong to an outlier, to put it mildly, it is anti-human, and only with a family can there be a country.

I have seen it for a long time, I have to wait until now, it is unreasonable, the biological clock has been disturbed, many people have hinted that I am dead, but they don't want to think about it, I die, what else can they get!

……

In a flash, three days have passed, and there is only a little time left before Zhou Ji returns from a business trip, I will wait for her!

However, she didn't come back until the sun went down, and I started to be a little impatient, restless, so I could only sit obediently and wait, this is life.

An old man in the same ward, I'll call him grandpa! He was accompanied by a woman in the upper grades, the two of them were of the same grade, if one day, I was really sick, then I hope that the person who accompanied me was her, her name was Zhou Ji, a name for her for the time being (the story is purely for entertainment).

Children live a life of clothes to stretch their hands and food to open their mouths, not knowing the cruelty of social competition, to describe it in one word, in a dilemma. Take a step, you can't take a step, take a step back, you can't pour. You say, "Why is this man so weird?"

Delusional to be one, the battle of trapped beasts, as everyone knows, never, ever, forever, never can escape, it's just wishful thinking.

Sitting, looking at the scenery outside the window, high-rise buildings, very tempting, the red light at the rear of the car is very excessive, the world was made by me to start dividing forces, each is the king, just like a bandit, I am a human, not a god, I can't fight the sky at all, what does God let me do, I can only sit silently.

things, always remembering what to do.

The faucet next door, the voice with sarcasm, drilled into my ears, maybe washing clothes, maybe washing fruits, the sound of cars on the road, shouting very loudly, the operation of the country, inseparable from the people, this is a change, although I lost, but I lost convinced, people live, isn't it just for a mouth? There are also people who think about problems with their lower bodies.

I used to be one of them, but now it's much better, the space in the big city is very narrow, it's not as good as the countryside, I want to go back there, that's my home, and if I don't go home, I really can't get in, I can't get out. It's like the October Siege.

I speak for myself, casually promote a few types of products, please consume rationally, otherwise the country's money will not be able to pay back, I owe too much.

"Kazamimatsu, come with me."

A nurse sister came to my ward and called me who was sitting on a small bench, and then I walked with her to the nurse's station, where there was almost no one here, only two female nurses, very good-looking, breasts......

I'm not discriminating! Just looking at it with appreciative eyes, my heart is on a beloved, I know that if she doesn't come, I won't be able to go out for the rest of my life, all I can do is keep the house.

"Your smoking problem is very serious, can you fix it?"

"I know."

"Then you don't want to smoke yet, in the hospital, you can't walk casually, out of the hospital, I still have to ask for leave, and if you don't ask for leave, you have to take medicine. Injections, injections I am afraid of pain, it is my own blood that is flowing, it is my life that is pumped, I am very depressed at the thought of running for life, do you think I can still be saved? “

"Yes, it depends on whether you are worthy of the treatment or not."

"Then let's discuss, can we not get an injection?"

"Injections, what's there to be afraid of?"

"It's not that I'm afraid, I just can't wait, I have to find a job, take money to buy things, no money, I can't eat, I can't do things, it's really hard to pay a penny! In my drawer, I only have two dollars and a golden five-dime coin, and you say that I am bitter or not. “

"Man! You can't change anything, you have to fight for life, everyone is just trying to eat a bite of food, do you say it's easy? You have to learn to refuse others, you can't do what others do, you just follow what to do, that is a phenomenon of following the trend, you have to learn to control yourself, don't be desperate to stick in it, the security salary is not high, but it is better than his leisure! “

"But I think the security guards can't be a few gangs, five gangs! I can't do that kind of gangster, I'm not a gang boss, I can do whatever I want, I'm also a human! “

"Okay, don't say it, I know what you think, you go back first, another day, I'll talk to you again."

Finally, I spit out my heart, I felt much happier in my heart, just when I returned to the ward, not long after, Zhou Ji came back, her eyes were ruddy, there was a feeling of crying, seeing her first glance, I was full of emotion, I thought about it for so long, for a while, I didn't know what to say.

Both of them were silent, just one with red eyes, one with no owner, a little scattered, feeling a panache in her heart, she stood outside the door, I sat on the bed, got up, slowly stepped forward, when she got in front of her, she subconsciously took a step back, as if I was already a demon, she didn't dare to approach me, but I didn't speak, my hair that hadn't been washed for a few days, standing uprooted, a little bit of killing Matt, and my beard was not shaved, so I was cleaner in casual clothes.

There was a bit of affection in her eyes, and she stared at me directly, seeing that I, a young man who usually doesn't blush, was a little embarrassed, and looked like an old blush.

Zhou Ji still couldn't help it, like a river bursting its banks, crying out, tears fell down, dripping on the smooth floor, making a "tick-tock" sound, seeing her shed tears, my heart hurt, the pain was so painful that I couldn't extricate myself, so I stepped forward without hesitation, hugged her jade shoulder, kissed her lightly on her forehead, "Why did you come back so late." “

"The plane was delayed, this day will change, it will only take two days, but it has been postponed for a whole day, you say that it is not annoying, a lot of things are waiting for me to deal with!"

After she finished speaking, I took her hand and sat on the hospital bed, "Now, I am a patient, would you be willing to be with me?" “

Zhou Ji's eyes were white, "What did you say, although I haven't passed the door yet, I know a lot about you, and I also know what kind of person you are, I just ask you to take care of your body and pay attention to hygiene." “