I said to Xiao Cui: Give up this plan, let's not go down this wrong path again......

Xiao Cui looked at me very puzzled and said: Dayi, women's benevolence shouldn't appear on you, seeing that our deployment is about to succeed, do you really want to give up?

I rubbed my head, and I said: Xiao Cui, I'm tired of fighting, what do you say is the result of winning the fight, watching him go bankrupt and suffer the ridicule of others, watching me step by step and becoming the me I don't want to be at all?

Xiao Cui's reaction to me was completely incredulous, and he said: "Dayi, you and I both know how long we have been secretly deploying for this plan, and you and I both know that if this plan is launched, we can defeat a business opponent without blowing it off, and our company will move to a higher level." Dayi, at this time, how can you give up?

I said, "Little Cui, I know." This year, we did put a lot of thought into making this plan a reality. But when I did it, I realized that I couldn't do it. I can't lose the principle of being a man because of personal hatred, I can't ruin the happiness of others because of profits, Xiao Cui, I won't be happy if I do this.

Xiao Cui looked particularly disappointed, he said: Dayi, I have been with you for so long, and you have disappointed me for the first time. I originally thought that although you were a woman, you sometimes had a more aggressive style than a man. Today I just found out that you are still a woman. In business, a woman's kindness is the most important. Dayi, don't blame me for not persuading you, the mall is like a battlefield, today you are merciful, others will not be soft on you in the future.

After Xiao Cui finished speaking, he left in a huff. I know he must be very angry, and he has worked a lot of hard work to get this business information. This year, we spent a lot of effort to buy off the internal employees of Chenxi Company, and through special means to know the fact that they evaded taxes by using fake invoices, and Xiao Cui has enough evidence, which is presented today.

If we send this evidence to the relevant departments, then such a huge amount of money will definitely attract their attention, if it is thoroughly investigated, Chenxi's company will not be able to be saved, and Chenxi himself will face prison. But when the evidence arrived, I gave up. I don't think that's in line with my principles of being a human being. I can't do that.

I made an appointment with Chenxi, and I thought that even if I didn't report him, I had to let him know that if he did this, sooner or later he would be ruined in his own hands. As I sat in the private room of the tearoom and waited for him, I did not know where my kindness came from, and why I could not bear to send him to prison with my own hands.

When he arrived, he arrogantly asked me what I wanted to do.

I pushed this thing in front of him, and I said, "Chenxi, you take a look at this first."

After reading it, his face turned pale in an instant, and he hurriedly tore up the document, and then asked me: Yi Zhizhi, where did you get this?

I said, "Don't panic, since I called you here to show you this, it means that I don't want to report you." Otherwise, you are probably already under investigation.

He drank several sips of tea desperately, and after stabilizing his mood, he said angrily: Since you have taken so much trouble to investigate my company's accounts?

I said lightly: Yes, I originally wanted to see if there was any way to bankrupt you at once, so as to repay the hatred of you in my heart. But when I got this, I was merciful. So, I made an appointment with you.

He said coldly: Is the hatred between us so deep? In the end, it's nothing more than me saying goodbye back then. But then, I've already apologized to you.

I said: Chenxi, can an apology make up for all the wrong things a person has done?

He took two more sips of tea, and he said, "Then why did you stop when you were about to succeed, since you were about to destroy me?"

I stood up, looked at him condescendingly, and said: Because I am not you, I will compare my heart to my heart, I will think about your feelings after being imprisoned, I will think about the second half of your life when your family was suddenly hit hard, and I will think about what if your little heart like you suddenly can't think of going to die. Chenxi, not everyone is as cruel as you, understand?

When I said this, my heart hurt again, I sat down, my stomach hurt again, and a bean-sized cold sweat broke out from my forehead.

He was shocked by my words, and after a few seconds, he muttered: Actually, I knew from the beginning that it was illegal to do this, but the profit point was too big, so I couldn't help but take the risk. I didn't expect you to investigate my company's accounts, how did you do it?

I barely showed a smile, and I said: Chenxi, your family is rich enough, you can't be too greedy, especially not greedy for the country's money. I asked you to come today, just to see that you and I have known each other in the past, so I will remind you and stop it. I don't like to kill everything, and I don't want to push people to a dead end at once. But I hope you're in business and don't use these undesirable tactics anymore.

He was silent, and after a while he finally mustered up the courage to say a word, and he said, "Thank you, thank you for saying this to me, and thank you for your mercy." But I take the liberty of asking, can you tell me what happened to you after I left that year, and why do I think you have changed so much, is it because of me?

I smiled bitterly, and I said: Chenxi, let me ask you, when I said to break up, why didn't you break up with me happily?

He sighed, and he said: Actually, to be honest, I did like you back then, but it was just a liking, because you are different from other women, you don't like to ask questions, and you won't pester me too much, so when you mention breaking up, I am very reluctant.

Scold...... I've loved you for so many years, but you only have a trace of liking for me.

I asked again: Did you deliberately ask me to accompany you to chuang every time you missed Liu Yixi?

I asked him this question in a daze, and at the end, he replied without confidence: ...... I'm sorry.

Scold...... Sure enough, when he lay on top of me, he was thinking about another woman in a foreign land.

I ask again: Why didn't you say goodbye back then, and why didn't you give me a word of explanation later?

This time he replied quickly, as if this answer was prepared by him, and he said: Actually, I don't know how to face you, you are so good to me, I really can't say this fact. It was naïve at the time, I hope you can forgive me.

I didn't speak, I just looked at him with some sadness, his forehead was still sweating, and I couldn't sit still, and leaned back in my chair.

He saw my strangeness, he thought I was too sad and sad, and he hurriedly explained: In fact, Wu Song told me about you going to him, but the more I like this, the more guilty I become, I am really surprised to see you after returning to China, in fact, my heart is full of guilt and I want to apologize to you, but you have been turning me away thousands of miles away, so the misunderstanding gradually became deeper and deeper.

I smiled reluctantly, and I said, "Chenxi, can you understand why I hate you?"

He nodded, then shook his head again, and said, "I know you're going to hate me, after all, I've failed you." But I don't understand why you hate it so much, I think a lot of men do it too much than I do.

These words instantly provoked my emotions, and the grievances I had endured for many years all broke out in an instant, and I said: Chenxi, because what you met was me. Do you know what kind of woman I am? Do you know me? Have you asked me a hint of what I think? You took advantage of my love for you back then to selfishly take possession of my body; You relied on me to like you, so you never treated me as your girlfriend; You trampled on my love, I didn't care about these because I loved you, but you didn't say goodbye, you didn't even have a word of explanation, I waited for your sincere apology for so long. Chenxi, do you fucking know what it's like to be trampled on emotionally, have you ever heard a fucking saying that if you can't give her a future, don't take off her pants? Cannon fodder:.*

My anger and grievances poured out like a flood, and at that moment, I felt like a lion who was hurt and couldn't help but roar, and said the words that I had buried deep in my heart for many years, and I said: Chenxi, this is the cigarette scar I burned that year, do you know what I named it, it's called. I'm treated like you, you trample on me if you want other women, have you ever asked me if I'm feeling well, have you ever cared about my feelings? Do you know how my heart bleeds when I read the letters you wrote to Liu Yixi?

Chenxi, you are the first man I have ever loved in my life. Hehe, but you haven't given me any love, all you have brought me is endless pain and remorse. Chenxi, I don't hate you, I swore that year that year, if I were to see you again one day, I swore that I would make you miserable and let you taste the taste of being trampled on. But today, when I can crush you with one palm, I am merciful, because I don't want to be you, because I have loved you, and although you are not worthy of my love at all, it is an indisputable fact that I have loved you. So, Chenxi, I'll let you go.

I burst into tears, and after I finished speaking, my clothes were wet with sweat, but it wasn't hot at all, but the more excited I was, the more my stomach hurt, the more my heart hurt, and I couldn't help but get excited. I've been waiting for this day, I've been waiting for too long!

Chen Xi listened to me quietly, his face was shocked for a while, and there was also remorse, he said: I'm sorry, I never thought that I would make you so miserable. Hearing you say that, I realized the harm I did to you back then. I'm sorry, but I didn't mean it, I didn't know you were such a person who demanded such a high level of affection. I'm sorry......

He kept apologizing, my tears kept pouring out, I felt that at this moment, I couldn't pretend anymore, I seemed to be saying to him, and as if I was muttering to myself, I opened the floodgates of my memories today, many years later, I said: I know that the day you left, I was locked in my room alone and smoked all night, and after each cigarette, I burned my left arm, and I burned as many cigarettes as I smoked. I had to let myself hurt, but I didn't have a tear left. Because tears are reserved for the weak, I will not cry, I will only allow myself to remember the lesson of this time.

Chenxi, this cigarette scar will be here for the rest of my life, and the injury you left me cannot be repaired, and it will not fade away for the rest of my life. Do you know why my stomach hurts so badly every time my aunt comes, do you know why my menstrual cycle is severely disturbed, and do you know that I may not be able to have children for the rest of my life...... Hehe, let me tell you, it's all because you kept forcing me to take that little pill after every time, do you know the lethality of that pill, do you know the consequences of taking it for a long time......

Chenxi, you almost ruined me, every month when I am in pain, I think of you, think of my efforts over the years, think of your affection I got after paying, Chenxi, how can I not hate you. I don't even know how I can show mercy today, Chenxi, even if I destroy you, it won't be too much, will it......