The house was empty, Bai Jiu gradually fell into contemplation, once his mother was an ordinary peasant child, went out to work, not deep in the world, but did not expect to meet his father's scoundrel, because his father was not only lazy and hypocritical, so his mother refused many times and finally had no choice but to return to his hometown, but he did not expect his father to chase his mother's house far away, a strange man chased to his home, how much impact on the reputation of a girl at that time, my grandfather scolded my mother half to death, and beat and scolded, Even the grandmother, who was protecting her daughter, was affected. Originally, there was not much of a deal, but when the loud grandfather shouted, the neighbors knew about it, so the mother finally had no choice but to marry the father.

Before getting married, there was a period of time before the newlywed husband and wife spent together, and the father coaxed the mother with rhetoric, and the mother finally believed in the man and began her painful journey.

Bai Jiu has known since he can remember that the relationship between his parents is not good, his father often beats his mother as soon as he gets home, and even, when he remembers it the most, when he was two years old, he was sitting on the edge of the bed, and his mother was ridden by his father, beaten like a dog, his face was bruised and swollen, and he had nosebleeds, but because of his young age, he gradually forgot about it, but then his father began to be away from home, that is, he took a group of dog friends to smoke, drink and play mahjong at home, and his little brother hid by the window and watched secretly. The group of men in the living room who were surrounded by the smell of tobacco and alcohol, after the mother came back, Bai Jiu told her mother about it, and the mother immediately asked her father, saying, where did you get the money to smoke and drink again, didn't you tell me that there was no money? You have money to smoke and drink, why don't you think about your pair of children, their hukou is not yet enrolled, they are all going to primary school, why don't you think about this family, you are still renting a house, and the family is surrounded by walls. Why don't you think about it for me, the money you borrowed from my mother's family with all my hard work, and the money I borrowed after I made a guarantee to your sister-in-law, was actually used by you to play mahjong......

Before the mother's words were finished, the father began to punch and kick the mother again, the mother as a woman had no power to resist, when the young self and the younger brother pulled the father to prevent the mother from being beaten, but he did not expect that as his children, he was beaten all over the body. Later, this kind of thing became more and more frequent, more and more frequent, fighting outside, drinking in debt, and stirring up trouble, so the creditors came to the house to ask the mother for this money, but the mother did not, so she had to earn money every day from morning to night, working overtime every day, Bai Jiu basically couldn't eat a better meal during that period of time, in the morning the mother hurriedly cooked and went to work, the mother did not eat at noon, and saved her share of the working meal for Bai Jiu and her younger brother to eat, and the mother did not come back at night. Bai Jiu can only eat leftovers at home.

Since then, Bai Jiu has learned to make breakfast for his mother who works overtime all night in the morning, pick up his younger brother to kindergarten in the morning and evening, and learn to be an eldest sister. But my father seems to be like a bottomless black hole, which cannot be filled no matter how much it is filled, and it is getting bigger and bigger. At that time, he was still relatively naïve, no matter what his father said, he believed it, this kind of thing Bai Jiu thought that it hurt his mother very much at that time, and Bai Jiu really couldn't think about it.

Bai Jiu has always been a particularly sensible girl, she knows what to do and what not to do. Bai Jiu thought of her light, the bright sunshine, that was what she had been chasing, and she must not sink in the dark.

The former Bai Jiu also thought about giving up, but when she thought that his figure had spent so many years with her, and was her only light in the dark, she couldn't give up being friends with Shen Mo, she wanted to lean into that warm person. After Bai Jiu thought about it at the time, she said to all the people who told her to be realistic, I know, but I want to try, how can I know if I don't try, I believe that my efforts are enough for me to walk up to him one day and say to him, let's be friends, okay?