"Satisfy you! How? Don't want to do it with me? I'm your husband, do you hate me for being lonely for three years? Leng Mochen's hand touched my forehead, as if smiling: "Don't hate me, tonight, I will make up everything I owe you, and you will never be able to leave me again." ”

"No...... Don't, I don't, you let go of me, let go of me. Perhaps out of extreme fear, my chest rose and fell violently, and I looked at him in horror.

Leng Mochen pressed me tightly, my chest rose and fell and stimulated him, he looked down at my chest, but I saw a trace of disgust flashing in his eyes, that disgust with unspeakable hatred, unspeakable hatred, I know, he dislikes me, he must dislike me, so, at this moment, I am not afraid, I am not afraid of anything.

He did it not to make me scared and nervous, and he succeeded.

And I, I wanted to threaten him, make him angry, make him angry, but I failed.

Why? Why is it so unfair?

I thought that Leng Mochen would let me go, but who knows, his face was a foot closer to me, so that I could see myself in his eyes, I thought I was no longer nervous, but I saw that my face was still so tight in his eyes.

Leng Mochen buried his head in my neck, and his voice sank into his ears: "Do you know why I haven't touched you for three years?" ”

"For ...... Why? "I didn't want to ask, but I asked anyway. He didn't touch me, which is a good thing for me now, at least my innocence is still there, as for why he didn't touch me, it doesn't matter if I know it or not, because it doesn't matter anymore, even if I know? Can you go back three years?

"Because you're dirty." Leng Mochen left a heart-wrenching sentence in my ear and got up to leave.

Because you're dirty! Because you're dirty! Dirty! Dirty! This sentence is like a bomb suddenly exploding around me, shaking my ears with a bang, and like a hanging bell that has been ringed, the aftermath refuses to disperse, am I dirty? Am I dirty? Where am I dirty? Why does he say I'm dirty?

I almost bounced up from the sofa and called him coldly: "Leng Mochen." ”

Maybe it was because of habit, Leng Mochen stopped and turned around, I rushed forward, covered my ears and thundered, hugged his neck, stood on tiptoe and kissed him, bit him hard, pushed hard, dodged, I ran back to my room, and closed the door with a bang.

I did this series of actions almost in one go, and it was not until I returned to the room that I leaned against the door and let out a big breath, although I buried the first kiss that I had treasured for twenty-three years, but in this way I felt much more comfortable.

The living room outside was silent, thinking that Leng Mochen had not come back to his senses, and then, I heard a "bang", the voice seemed a little sharp, it should be that he broke the crystal ashtray, and an angry voice sounded: "The woman who died." ”

There was a slight sound of footsteps, and within a few seconds, silence returned to the outside again, and Leng Mochen was gone? I guess it's gone, right? I did this to him tonight, and he won't stay here.

I didn't open the door to look, I didn't bother to look, I raised my hand and wiped my mouth, there was a bright red blood stain on the back of my hand, it was his, it was his blood, I bit out the blood from his mouth, thinking of this, I was a little happier in my heart.

Raising my left hand, the round cigarette scar imprinted into my eyes, I didn't feel much pain before, but now I feel heart-rending pain when I look at it, that scar, it will always be with me, for a lifetime, for a lifetime.

Leng Mochen is a slut, he scalded me, pushed me, insulted me, I have never suffered like this when I have grown up, when have I ever suffered such a grievance? Even if he ignored me before, he wouldn't have been so cruel to me, perhaps, tonight I really angered him, I am strong, I am a cheap bone, I don't know how to be a hero not to suffer the loss in front of me, I made myself bruised all over my body.

After a whole day, I was so exhausted that I didn't bother to take a shower, or even to medicate my wounds, so I fell asleep on the bed.