106 Resentment (1)

From childhood to adulthood, Fang Jinghao has always been proud and ruthless, he will never bow to anyone, let alone take the initiative to let others see his weak side, so in the eyes of outsiders, he is always so resolute and impeccable.

However, this time, in front of Li Xiaoyun, he was open, he was not afraid that she would laugh at himself, he just wanted to tell her his truest thoughts, and he just wanted to ask for her forgiveness.

"So, I'm going to send someone to interfere with your work, I've been anesthetizing myself, telling myself that you're helpless outside, and when you're cornered, you'll definitely come back to me, and maybe you'll be in front of me in the next second. Every day begins with such hope and hope, but always ends with disappointment after disappointment. I sent someone to find out your news, and looking at the photos they took back, you became dark and thin, squatting in the corner in dirty work clothes and eating instant noodles, and my heart was like falling into a hot oil pot, and I was suffering every day. I'm such a bastard, I know you suffered so much when you were a child, and I still hurt you so badly. But in the face of all this, I was powerless and could not do anything. Every night at home, I have the kitchen full of your favorite dishes, and I hope you can come back and eat your favorite meals as soon as you enter the house. But why do you always disappoint me......"

"I once remembered that there was such a saying, asking but not being able to, giving up, and not hesitating, this is the greatest sorrow of people. I'm only now realizing what it really means. I didn't cherish you when you were by my side, I just blindly enjoyed and squandered your dedication to me, and now when you leave, I know the pain of not being able to ask for it......"

"Xiaoyun, don't cry, why are you crying again? You know that I can't see your tears the most, and every time I see you crying, I don't know what to do. Every time I make you cry, I will secretly tell myself that I will never let you shed tears for me next time. ”

"Good girl, don't cry, okay? You know I'm most afraid of seeing your tears......"

Fang Jinghao said softly, hugging Li Xiaoyun into his arms, his face revealing a joy of being lost and regained. He gently sucked away the tears from the corners of Li Xiaoyun's eyes, and said happily: "Great, my baby, don't cry, I'm really, really afraid of losing you." It's all gone, let's start over, shall we? Thank God for allowing you to come back to me again......"

Li Xiaoyun cried loudly in his arms as if venting, even she didn't expect that she would have so many tears. She couldn't control her tears for a long time, because Fang Jinghao was so unreserved in front of her, so frankly confiding everything to her, in Fang Jinghao's arms, she could deeply feel his pain and grief, it turned out that he was immersed in the pain of losing a child like her, and even more painful than her, because the child could be said to have been killed by him. She couldn't ignore the deep love in his eyes, and she couldn't ignore the deep remorse and chagrin contained in his words. Fang Jinghao, this person is the man she once fell in love with desperately, and I am afraid that he will also become the only person she falls in love with in this life. He has an innate arrogance and nobility in his bones, he has never spoken to anyone so gently and affectionately, let alone bowed his head and apologized to anyone. Her heart was deeply shaken, and it was undeniable that the grievances and injuries she had been suffering all the time were soothed, and the sincerity she had been silently giving for a long time was also responded. It's a pity that providence makes people, when she fell in love with him, he blindly hated her, and when she left, he knew that he liked her. It all came too late. Perhaps, if that heart knot is not opened for a day, her heart will always be in pain and darkness, and no amount of tenderness and remorse can melt the ice in her heart.

She herself knows that pretending to be strong is really tiring. She really wanted to tell him the pain and grievances of these days without reservation like him, she really wanted to tell him that the reason why she was so indifferent and resentful towards him was all because of the deep love in her heart for him that had never been extinguished, she really wanted him to know that she was willing to exchange everything for that time that was extremely happy, she was willing to be desperate and crazy for their tomorrow, and she could not care if he was lying to her. However, it was precisely because she was greedy for this warmth that she was blinded and lost her relatives...... It was she herself who pushed herself into an abyss from which she could never recover.

So, she can't! She couldn't forgive him anymore!

Li Xiaoyun was ruthless and forcibly pushed away his warm embrace. "Fang Jinghao, we can't go back!"

She laughed coldly a few times, glared at Fang Jinghao fiercely, and asked sharply: "Fang Jinghao, do you know how many things you have done to me that are inferior to beasts and intolerable to heaven." Do you think I'll forgive you as stupidly as ever with a few sweet words from you? Fang Jinghao, I'm afraid you underestimate me too much, I'm not as cheap as you think, and there is no cheap thing in the world like you think! ”

Fang Jinghao's face was incredulous, as if he had never known Li Xiaoyun in front of him, he forcibly held back the emotions in his chest and said, "Didn't I say that I would compensate you well?" Why don't you believe me? ”

"Compensation?" Li Xiaoyun sneered and sneered indifferently, "I don't need your so-called compensation, do you think money can buy everything in the world?" If you really feel that you can't stand me before, please trouble you and Zhou Yuchen to stay away from me, don't harass me anymore, I don't want to deal with you beasts anymore! ”

Fang Jinghao's eyes narrowed slightly, as if Li Xiaoyun's words just now had stimulated him.

"You have a deep brotherly relationship, so you are like a person, I'm afraid there is nothing that you can't share except for Zhao Meng, right?" Li Xiaoyun shrugged indifferently and said, "Forget it, I know it's useless." In fact, there is nothing wrong with following Zhou Yuchen. He is also rich and powerful, the money in his pocket is not less than yours, and his appearance is not worse than yours, but he has a special hobby, and his methods are a little perverted, but it is not so unbearable. It is said that a husband and wife will be a hundred days, and if I have been by his side for a long time, it is inevitable that I will 'do' some feelings, and when the time comes, my living expenses for the rest of my life will be settled. ”

As soon as the words fell, Fang Jinghao grabbed Li Xiaoyun's arm and dragged her in front of him. His eyes could literally spew fire, and a scorching anger emanated from all over his body, as if he was going to devour her alive, and he gritted his teeth and said, "Do you have to do this to yourself?" Do you have to watch me go crazy to be satisfied! ”