I like to play the qin, when I first learned the instrument, I chose the guqin, the guqin, also known as the yaoqin, the jade qin, the seven-stringed qin, is one of the oldest plucked musical instruments in China, the qin in the qin, chess, calligraphy and painting refers to the guqin. I can't say why, but as soon as I saw it, I liked it inexplicably, and Uncle Hai next to me persuaded me to learn the piano, saying how elegant the piano was. But I still like the guqin. Daddy didn't say anything, just gave me a strange look.

Playing the guqin is exquisite. The charm of the guqin is quiet and elegant, and in order to achieve such an artistic conception, it is required that the player must combine the external environment with the peaceful and leisurely inner state of mind, so as to achieve the artistic realm of the harmony of heart and object and the unity of people and piano pursued in the qin song. In the eighty-sixth episode of "Dream of Red Mansions", when Jia Baoyu learned that Lin Daiyu could play the piano, she asked her sister to play a song for herself. Lin Daiyu said at this time: "If you want to play the qin, you must choose a quiet room and fast, or on the top of the floor, inside the forest stone, or on the top of the mountain, or on the water." When the sky and the earth are clear again, the wind is clear and the moon is clear, burn incense and meditate, and think about it without thinking. He also said, "If it is necessary to play the harp, you must first be neatly dressed, or a crane, or a deep garment, like the image of the ancients, then you can be called a saint's vessel, and then you must put your hands on it and burn incense." "Lin Daiyu is indeed a talented woman, she is well versed in the piano and knows people.

Although I didn't pay attention to it so much, every time I played the piano, I changed into a flowing white dress, wore long hair, closed the doors and windows, and performed with the calmest heart. I enjoyed the tranquility of the room, as if nothing in the outside world existed, and there was only the sound of the tinkling of the piano between heaven and earth.

Daddy likes to listen to me play the piano, as long as he is at home, he will put down the things at hand and sit opposite me and listen quietly, occasionally looking up, only to see his face calm, his eyes long and distant, and a shallow smile at the corner of his mouth, as if he thought of something.

Sometimes, I wonder what kind of man Qin Siqian is, he is warm and caring for me, but I know that he still has a dark side, a gray side, or a dark side, he tries his best to hide this side in front of me, but I know, I am not afraid or disgusted, I know that it is not easy for people to live, and it is enough for him to hold up a bright sky for me.

He doesn't want me to see it, I don't like it, he doesn't want me to know, then I know it, even if he is heinous, he is still the person I admire the most. It's just that I don't know what kind of beautiful woman it takes to be worthy of my perfect father.

When I was secretly guessing, my father actually surprised me, to be exact, very surprised.

I was practicing that day, and my father came back, accompanied by a woman with long hair, a pointed chin, and two very beautiful eyes. Daddy said it was Aunt Xu and motioned for me to say hello to her.

The woman squatted down on her own without waiting for me to speak: "You're the first time you've met, right, it's as cute as your father said." ”

Who is she, and she knows her father well? Daddy and her talking about me? I frowned and heard her continue, "Do you like to play the piano at first sight?" Auntie will too, okay, Auntie will play it to you? ”

She's really beautiful, especially when she laughs, not only beautiful, but also very kind, and I don't think any man can resist her request. But I was very angry at this time, stretched out my hand and pressed it on the piano, smiling like a flower: "No need, I'm tired and want to rest." Ignoring her smile, he turned away.

I don't know what my dad told her, she seems to leave my house very quickly, I don't care, I care about my puzzle, I'm building a castle, there are many houses in the castle, and there are big yards, like my home, but I've been putting together for a long time, and I can't put it together.

I don't know when Daddy was already leaning against the door, he called me, I looked up at him and buried my head in the puzzle. Why is there a water stain on the puzzle, am I crying? How can I cry, my heart is not sad. I wiped it with my hands, but I couldn't wipe it clean.

"Don't you like Aunt Xu?" Daddy gently wiped my tears and ran his fingers across my face.

"I just hate it when people touch my stuff!" I shook my head, looked into my father's eyes, and said seriously, "I don't care, you can just like it." I lowered my head and sobbed hard.

"Silly Nier!" Daddy took me into his arms and didn't speak for a long time.

I hate when people touch my things, I'm not a selfish person, many things, including money, I can share with others, but there are also some things, some things that I have the most personal imprint, such as the piano, such as the bed, the computer, the mobile phone, I will never allow others to touch it. Some people say it's called cleanliness, but I don't think it's because I don't feel safe enough.

I thought I was mentally prepared, but the moment I saw Aunt Xu, I admitted that I was still flustered, as if something beloved was going to be snatched away, and I also admitted that I was very rude, but I didn't mean to, I was just scared, I just didn't know how to face it, give me time, I think I would adjust myself, but I can't ignore the truest voice in my heart.

I'm used to living with my father, I'm used to my father's care, and I'm used to seeing me alone in my father's eyes. Habits are such a terrible thing, and now I find it difficult to adapt to even the slightest change, but unfortunately it was not me who made the decision, it was never me.

I waited anxiously for the story of my father and Aunt Xu to play out, the strange thing is that Aunt Xu never came to my house again, to be precise, there was never a woman in our family again, I secretly rejoiced at the same time, but also a little sad, I always felt that I seemed to have done something wrong. It wasn't until much later that I learned the story of my father and my mother, and at that time, my father told me that the first time I saw was the mistress of this house, the only mistress.