It's been a month since the anxious summer vacation, and tomorrow is August. Time flies really fast, every day at home is to eat, sleep, play with mobile phones, go out to receive couriers, and other than that, go to the interview.

A month after graduation, I haven't found a job yet, and to be honest, I'm anxious. I didn't think that I would fail the interview for teacher recruitment, I originally thought that I would take the public recruitment of teachers after graduation, and I would be able to report to the primary school at the beginning of the school year, and then become a people's teacher.

The reality gave me a hard slap in the face, and I thought it would be so easy to get a job, no way. When I chose to go to a normal school, I heard that it was easy to find a job, so I worked hard to get a teacher's certificate, and I was happier to get a teacher's certificate after graduation than to get a graduation certificate.

I'm overestimating myself, there are so many people interviewed in the public recruitment, and the teachers who have been substitute for many years are among them, and I am a recent graduate, and I have no teaching experience, so what can I do to compete with others.

At a time when I didn't have hope in public schools, I thought about going to private schools. I searched on the Internet, there are two schools I want to go to, so I paid attention to their official account, all kinds of search for their recruitment information, the result is over, the primary school teachers have been all recruited in May, but the rest of the junior high and high school teachers I am not competent.

The reality is so cruel. Now I can only look for educational institutions, and I have checked a lot of recruitment information on the Internet, and I found that the salary is either too low, or it is not in line with my major.

I finally found an educational institution that met my requirements, and I also met the requirements of the employer, and my resume was sent over, and the interview notice was sent to me quickly.

But! My train ticket has been bought, on the way to the train station I suddenly don't want to go to the interview, the reason is too far from home, and it is a small county, I am a little disgusted, and then I have been hinting to myself psychologically, I don't go if I don't go, what's good there, isn't it good to work in my own city, why do I have to go so far away.

So I decisively refunded the train ticket and told the other party that I couldn't go to the interview, because my family didn't agree, and I didn't expect the other party to agree in the past, and I suddenly felt a little guilty, because when I was talking to the other party, she really wanted me to go there to work.

I regret it a little, if I went to the interview at that time, maybe it would be a job, and I don't have to worry about being idle at home.

Sometimes I hate myself when I think about it. Life is so fucked up, jobs are so hard to find, only work can relieve my anxiety, why is everything so hard.