The so-called best state of affection is "I love you, but you are free." ”

It's just that in today's society, it is difficult for anyone to do this, and most people's attitude towards feelings is "I love you, you are mine." "Even the last word.

This is the mistake that most men and women in love make, and it is the source of all doubts, suspicions, jealousy, insecurity, and exhaustion.

When I learned that Xu Jie had lost her memories, I subconsciously did so, forcing her to retrieve those memories and make her fall in love with me again. I think Xu Jie is mine, so she can only love me, so everything I do is for her good.

In fact, I gradually understood that no one can decide who others love, only Xu Jie herself can make this decision, even I am not qualified to help her make this decision, because that is not love, it is possession.

If you want to maintain a long-term and comfortable relationship between people, you rely on recognition and attraction, rather than oppression, bondage, flattery, and blind dedication and moral self-touching, if you do anything, you will only kneel on the ground and cry yourself.

I understand this, so I plan to give Xu Jie the opportunity to choose, she can not love me, but I will always love her, I will not restrict her freedom, she can do whatever she wants.

After I said that, Xu Jie looked at me, she seemed to be relieved, her face was not tense, and she said easily: "Thank you." ”

I smiled wryly and said, "Thank you, you don't have to, you would feel a little rusty if you said that." ”

Xu Jie asked, "Then what should I say?"

I thought for a while, then stretched out my hand and said, "First time meeting, hello, I'm Chen Ge." ”

My actions made Xu Jie stunned for a moment, and then she sneered, stretched out her hand and said, "Hello, I'm Xu Jie." ”

Yes, I just figured it out, I don't have to dwell on the past, from now on, I get to know Xu Jie again, chase her again, and make her fall in love with me again, isn't it the best decision?

The two of us had a long time in front of the store, and everyone thought we were fools, but she and I didn't care, and it was a really nice feeling, as if something I had lost had come back.

In the past two years, I have been patronizing and bowing my head forward, just thinking about getting what I can't get, but I don't know what it is, and this idea that I don't know where it comes from has gradually become a kind of oppression, so that I can only rely on the "work" on the rivers and lakes to get rid of it, and when I am shocked, the gradually stiffened heart feels only crying, and those once unforgettable feelings have been completely lost.

Whether it is a brother or a lover next to him, he gradually cares less about them, and only considers the so-called interests of the rivers and lakes, I think that is maturity, but it is actually just sophistication.

If it continues like this, maybe some things will really be lost, but at this moment, the moment I shook hands with Xu Jie, I seemed to have returned to the junior high school days when I was ignorant and had no worries, as if I met this little girl for the first time before, as if I had returned to the campus without disputes, everything had not changed.

There is no fighting, no loss, no cycle of cause and effect, just the most primitive happiness in the depths of the soul.

Yes, at this moment, I seemed to have obtained the so-called salvation, temporarily detached myself from this deceitful rivers and lakes, and returned to the state of my original intention.

I don't know why, I suddenly wanted to ask Dongdong, Yanzi, Feizai, Prince, Hu Tou, Jiang Yufei, and Zhou Lian to have a drink, just like back then, it doesn't matter if you drink unconscious, only by accompanying each other, isn't it good.

Just when Xu Jie and I were smiling from the bottom of our hearts, a voice interrupted us, I looked back and saw a woman, dressed in white, as playful and cute as back then, the corners of her mouth went up, and she said to me: "Long time no see, Chen Ge." ”

“……”

I once fantasized that the scene of countless reunions with Chen Xiaoxiao was on the sweltering street in summer, she was wearing a short dress and a short skirt, the sun was just right, she smiled at me, and I smiled too.

Or in the glittering bar, she is like a combination of angels and demons, sexily writhing her seductive body in the middle of the dance floor, and I shamelessly go up to say hello, do you remember me? She said she remembered, and then I said coolly: "You still remember me so much, Xiaosheng is very happy." ”

Or at the scene of her wedding, she was wearing a traditional cheongsam, holding another man's hand, and the invitation I received was her wedding card, sitting in the audience, and my mind automatically made up Eason Chan's "Wedding Blessings", and then I really blessed her.

But I never thought that it would be such a reunion scene, I held Xu Jie's hand, and she appeared in a corner of the street, saying softly, long time no see.

How can I take it, I can't turn my head, so I replied very old-fashionedly: "What are you doing here?" ”

As soon as these words came out, even I felt embarrassed, Xu Jie couldn't even hold back a smile, Chen Xiaoxiao too, she covered her mouth and said happily: "It's been almost three years, why are you still the same as before, like an elm head, haha." ”

I touched my head a little embarrassed and said, "Hehe, I didn't know what to tell you when I met you suddenly." ”

Chen Xiaoxiao stepped forward, glanced at Xu Jie, and then looked at me and said, "Don't worry, we can find a place to sit and have a good chat, I have a lot to say to you." ”

After saying this, Chen Xiaoxiao looked at Xu Jie again, as if waiting for something, but Xu Jie looked at me with a puzzled look and said, "Little brother, who is she?" ”

I said that it was Chen Xiaoxiao, Xu Jie said, "Hello, I'm Xu Jie!" Chen Ge's girlfriend! ”

How comfortable do I listen to this, it seems that Xu Jie has begun to accept the fact that she is my girlfriend, Chen Xiaoxiao said with a surprised face: "I know you are his girlfriend, really, do you want to show off as soon as you meet, and pretend not to know me, this trick is ruthless enough, you are even more difficult than before, Xu Jie." ”

Chen Xiaoxiao didn't know that Xu Jie had lost her memory, and thought that Xu Jie said it on purpose, so I explained: "She lost her memory and doesn't know who you are." ”

Chen Xiaoxiao's expression was even more surprised, she raised her head and looked at me and said, "No, how can it be bloody?" ”

I shrugged, though I didn't want to admit that it was bloody in my life, but it did.

Chen Xiaoxiao finally believed it, and then said: "Okay, let's not stand on the street, we finally met, and we can be regarded as old classmates, let's find a place to drink something." ”

I instinctively looked at Xu Jie, if she had been before, she would definitely not agree, but now she has no memory, so she said generously: "My mother is still in the mall, you can go with Chen Xiaoxiao, just pick us up later." ”

After finishing speaking, Xu Jie walked towards the store, I took her hand and said, "Okay, I promise soon, you will call me after shopping with Aunt Wang, I will pick you up immediately, and don't be angry." ”

Xu Jie nodded and smiled, reassuring me that she wouldn't be so stingy, and then she said hello to Chen Xiaoxiao and walked towards the store.

After she left, Chen Xiaoxiao came up and said, "Are you sure she just lost her memory?" How I feel like a completely different person, if she had known that you wanted to go with me for a drink alone, she would have gone with her, and I can assure you, it would never make the conversation pleasant. ”

Chen Xiaoxiao smiled happily after speaking, and I said to her, "You have become cheerful." ”

Chen Xiaoxiao said: "Hehe, of course, when you meet your ex, you must behave better than him, so that you can earn a breath back." ”

I don't know how to refute what I said, the only thing I know is that compared to Chen Xiaoxiao who was with me at that time, Chen Xiaoxiao seems to be happier now.

After we found a milk tea nearby, we went over there to talk, and as soon as we sat down, I picked up a cigarette and lit one.

Chen Xiaoxiao glanced at me and said, "Do you know why I want to find a bubble tea shop and not go to a café?" That's because cafes can't smoke, how can an old smoker like you put up with it. ”

I took a puff of cigarette and said: "Then I really want to thank you for your understanding, if you want to say why I smoke, I have to find Dongdong for this matter, he taught me to smoke the first cigarette back then, I didn't think about it, I smoked like this, it's been almost six years, and time flies really fast." ”

Chen Xiaoxiao held her chin with one hand and looked lazily: "What do you say, I remember the past, when I was with you, I always asked you to quit smoking, but you always couldn't quit, why did you say I was so stupid back then, would I like a bad boy like you?" ”

I flicked the cigarette ash and said, "Maybe the bad boy is more attractive, hehe, aren't you disappointed, what virtue I used to be, and what kind of virtue I am now, you must think that I haven't grown at all." ”

Chen Xiaoxiao shook his head and said; "It's not like that, it's good, it hasn't changed, at least it shows that you don't need to change, you know, in a society like this, it may be difficult to find a consistent person like you, by the way, how have you been recently?"

I couldn't help but laugh and said, "I knew you would talk about this kind of old-fashioned question, how are you doing lately, do all the people who have been reunited for a long time have to say this sentence in order to continue talking?" ”

Chen Xiaoxiao gave me a blank look again, saying that she was caring about me, and looked at me like a hooligan.

I said happily: "Okay, I won't tease you, in fact, I haven't heard this sentence for a long time, do you know why?" Because no one like me, who lives a day licking blood from the knife's edge, would greet him like that. ”

Chen Xiaoxiao was curious: "Then how should I greet him?" ”

I extinguished my cigarette and smiled in a C-shape, "The right greeting, how the fuck are you still alive?" ”