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The police handed me Song Chenchen's suicide note, then closed the door and took Xiao Cui to deal with Song Chenchen's afterlife, leaving space for a few of us to think quietly.

I trembled my hands and opened the suicide note written by Song Chenchen, my hands couldn't help but tremble, when I thought that she was dead and the child was dead, I felt that the blood all over my body was cold, and I almost wanted to faint. I shook off the suicide note, and it was a full three pages, and her handwriting was very beautiful, and it could be seen from the handwriting that she had taken life seriously. I started reading from the first line, and the Song Chenchen in the text I saw was completely different from my impression of her person.

Her words were cold and desperate, revealing a deep sense of powerlessness, and she said in her suicide note: I thank Ah Pao, who once gave me the best and most beautiful life in my life, but I didn't cherish it. I later learned that among the men I have experienced over the years, only Ah Pao really loves me.

She also said: Yi Zhizhi, I hate you because I deeply envy you, envy you for living so frankly forever, you will always have so many people love you, and you will never be condemned by moral public opinion. As for me, I took a wrong step, a wrong step, and every time I took a wrong step, I couldn't find a sense of direction in my life. I am also a college graduate from a key university, but why has my life gradually become like this?

She said to Xiaomi: Mijia, I'm sorry, I robbed your man. It's just that at that time, Xiao Cui appeared by my side like a life-saving straw, and I instinctively grabbed him and wanted to use him to stay in T City. I know I'm selfish, I've always been selfish and never thought about other people's feelings. Mi Jia, it wasn't until I really recognized Xiao Cui's face that I realized that I was wrong, and I was wrong again.

She said to Xiao Cui: Xiao Cui, I'm sorry, I took advantage of your sympathy. The two of us, like two liars, deceived and cheated, and finally turned our lives into lies. Maybe if you marry me, it's the greatest irony of our lives. I also gave birth to this child in a daze, thinking that I could use the child to trap you firmly. I didn't expect that both of us were the same kind of people, I was a jerk, and you were more jerks than me. Haha, so I took the child away, he shouldn't have come to this world, he inherited our genes, and it probably wasn't much better, so I took him with me. I was so tired and desperate to live, I knew that I had completely ruined my life, and I couldn't see any hope in life, so I chose this way. I know that even if I die, no one will miss me. Because I deserved it, I did too many wrong things.

Some of the handwriting on the letter has been blurred, I think, she must be crying while writing, she has always been a ruthless woman, and it is not very surprising that she chose such a decisive way. The letter reveals her slow remorse and gradually awakening conscience.

She concludes her letter by saying: Farewell, all those who hate me. I know that I have failed as a person in this life, and I hope that I can be a woman like Yi Zhizhi in my next life, and I hope that what I have not gained in this life can be compensated in the next life. My short life is so disgraceful, I really failed Xu Cheng's heart that funded me back then. Thinking of my former self, I have been reading books so desperately for more than ten years, thinking that I can get ahead from now on, but I didn't expect that what awaits me in the end will be a point of no return. Cangtian, why did I, Song Chenchen, get such an ending?

After reading the whole letter, I felt like a fishbone stuck in my throat, and I felt unspeakably uncomfortable. I handed them the letter and walked out of the door in a daze, Dai Xiangwei arrived, I smiled at him reluctantly, and as soon as my eyes were dark, I fell into his arms......

I had a lot of nightmares, in the dream, I dreamed that Song Chenchen opened his teeth and claws and asked me to give her my life, I also dreamed that the child's bright smile at me suddenly turned into a mess of meat, I dreamed of a dark room full of Song Chenchen's horrible and terrifying laughter, countless nightmares haunted me, I woke up sweating profusely from one dream, and then entered another nightmare, and so on......

Later, when I heard the sound of Sanskrit singing, I felt much calmer, and the dark clouds that hung over the tip of my heart gradually dissipated, and I slept comfortably, and when I woke up, I found myself in the old man's house on the mountain.

There were a few people around my bedside, the old man and Kaohsiung sat next to the coffee table not far away, Dai Xiangwei sat next to me, saw that I woke up, quickly held my hand and said: Zhizhi, you are awake.

I said, "I've had a lot of nightmares, I can't wake up when I want to, I'm running around in my dreams, and I end up going from one nightmare to another."

The old man said while drinking tea: You are trapped by a nightmare, I recited the Heart Sutra to you and help you solve the nightmare, so you can sleep peacefully.

Dai Xiangwei said: You don't know how terrifying you were in the first two days, you couldn't stop screaming for a while, you had to walk around like sleepwalking, you cried for a while, and you screamed for a while. Fortunately, I contacted Uncle Gao, and he came back quickly and recited some scriptures to you, so that you don't fall into evil like that. Damn, this thing is so wicked, sometimes people can't believe it.

I rubbed my sore and sore head, and the old man quickly asked someone to bring me a bowl of mung bean porridge, and after I drank a bowl, I still felt that my stomach was empty, and I asked for a big bowl, and after drinking it all, I felt that my stomach was much fuller.

I sat up from the bed, Dai Xiangwei put a pillow on me, and said: Don't be too concerned about that, her death is not your responsibility, you just blame yourself too much to be controlled by the demons. You see, you've gone crazy, right?

I glared at him, and I said: What happened in the past two days, and how did Song Chenchen deal with the aftermath?

He sighed, and he said: As soon as Song Chenchen died, Xiao Cui also seemed to be in evil with you, and the whole person seemed to be lying in the hospital with nonsense like convulsions, Xiaomi had no choice but to go to the hospital to take care of him. Ah Pao also kept having diarrhea, and the medicine didn't work, but in the end, Uncle Gao came out and gave Ah Pao some fragrant ashes, and Ah Pao was fine. This thing is also very strange, I really didn't believe that there was such a mystery before, but now I realize that there are so many things that cannot be explained by science.

The old man stroked his beard over there and said: Good and evil will be rewarded in the end, and it is better to settle the grievances than to settle them. In fact, everything is her creation, and you don't have to blame yourself too much.

But when I thought of Song Chenchen and the death of that child, my heart was still extremely heavy. Although she herself drove herself to a dead end, I always blamed myself for thinking too sinister about human nature. Is the reason why she was psychologically distorted to the point that she finally committed suicide because of our inadvertent contempt and contempt for her?

My mind wasn't very steady yet, and I felt sick and nauseous when I thought about it. Not long after, I vomited the mung bean soup I had just drunk, and the old man calmly asked someone to serve it again, and then said: Don't go down the mountain these days, stay on the mountain with peace of mind. I'll teach you some Dharma mantras, first stabilize your mind.

I nodded, and at this moment, with the old man by my side, I suddenly felt a lot more peaceful. After counting the days, when I woke up, it was the twenty-ninth day of the lunar month, the day before the thirtieth day of the Chinese New Year's Eve. The old man said that this year, I spent it in the mountains, which made up for my regret that I didn't accompany him last year.

Speaking of last year, I can't help but feel a little sentimental. At this time last year, I had returned to Xu Cheng's hometown, receiving blessings amid laughter. The joy of being a first-time mother is still vivid, but now, it is like a lifetime away.

Xu Cheng is still abroad, maybe he doesn't know everything at home. After that call, I never received any more calls or texts from him. I don't know how he is now, I asked Dai Xiangwei if he had been in touch, Dai Xiangwei shook his head and said no. I have a faint worry in my heart, and I don't know how he is doing this year in a foreign country.

The old man did a ritual for Song Chenchen and the child, surpassing their souls. The old man said that they should have been reincarnated in peace, and there would be no more grudges left in the world.

I didn't believe in any of these gods and ghosts. But what happened in the past two days made me have to believe it a little.

The old man left me on the mountain for the New Year, and everyone simply went up the mountain in a car to accompany us for the New Year. Although the mountain is cold and windy, the old man has already laid floor heating in his meditation room, so it will not be cold when he hides in the house.

Song Chenchen's unexpected death not only shocked T City, but also made us all very depressed. I think that the important reason why everyone is willing to follow me up the mountain for the New Year is nothing more than that the old man is regarded as a lucky star, so that he can stay closer to the Buddha, and there is the old man and Kaohsiung here, everyone is at ease.

I was fine after two days of coma, but I ate a little more than usual, some of the wild vegetables pickled by the old man were sour and spicy and spicy, especially appetizing, and I ate three bowls of porridge in one meal every day, and even I admired my appetite.

Everyone is probably used to eating meat and fish, and when you come here to eat these vegetarian dishes, you all feel that your appetite is open, although it is winter, the vegetables on the mountain are also purchased from the mountain, but the old man usually instructs others to dry some dried flowers, dried wild vegetables, dried bamboo shoots and the like are all taken out and burned, although the mountain can not eat meat, but the vegetables fried with the special camellia seed oil in the temple are particularly fragrant.

Chinese New Year's Eve, no wine, no meat, no Spring Festival party, everyone for the first time had such a clean year. The old man made a big pot of steaming vegetable hot pot, and then asked someone to prepare a number of small dishes, everyone just ate and chatted around the hot pot, although the atmosphere was not high, but everyone's heart was very calm.

The old man burned a special spice in the house, which he said calmed the mind and was not disturbed by distracting thoughts.

Since Kaohsiung followed the old man, he has spoken very little, and he has really become an authentic monk, sitting there with almost no sense of existence. Maybe Dai Xiangwei was there, and facing Dai Xiangwei was somewhat embarrassing, so he didn't sit for long, and went back to his room to chant.

I said, "Old man, Uncle Gao has changed a lot.

The old man said, "This is the wonderful thing about Buddhism."

I laughed, and I said, "I'll learn from you someday."

The old man smiled and said, "Oh, how do you feel about your body in the past two days?"

I said: It's okay, I ate well and slept well on the mountain, but I feel that I want to sleep especially in the past two days, and I am always sleepy.

The old man said, "I have something to tell you."

I said: What?

He said, "Congratulations, you are happy."

I was woken up by a phone call from my coach at around 5 a.m.

Say it's called learning to drive today.

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