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Yu He rushed out of the classroom regardless of it, he was still in class at the time, and I appeared at the door of their classroom so wet, everyone was stunned.

Yu He took off his coat and put it on me without saying anything, and then said, "Vivian, I'll take you home to change your clothes."

I obediently followed him downstairs, and he didn't ask me why it was raining or what happened to me. He took me out of the school gate with an umbrella and took me home by hailing a taxi.

I obediently went back to the room to change clothes, took a shower, and then walked downstairs, he sat on the sofa, staring at the rain outside the window, I didn't know what I was thinking, I called Yu He weakly, he looked back at me, I sneezed coldly, he immediately stood up nervously and said: Vivian, have you caught a cold? Got a cold?

I shook my head, walked over to him, pulled him to sit down, leaned my head lightly on him, his shoulders immediately stiffened, and he said, "Vivian, are you cold?"

I said, "My heart is cold." I feel like the whole world has changed, not what I used to see and think.

He said: No matter what, I have not changed, and I will not change.

I nodded, leaned on his shoulder, and at that moment, I felt so peaceful in my heart.

I said: Yu He, do you dare to run away with me?

He asked me, "Where are you going to flee?"

I said, "Anywhere." I want to leave this world, I don't want to be changed by this world.

He said, "Vivian, wherever you want to go, I'm with you."

I said, "Yu He, what if I choose to die?"

He shuddered a little, and he said, "Vivian, how can you have such thoughts?"

I laughed, and I said, "You're scared of death, aren't you?"

He shook his head and said, "I never thought about it."

I said, "But I thought when I was very young that if you hadn't shown up when I was 8 years old, I might have died."

Puzzled, he asked, "Why?"

I said, "Before you showed up, I had a very high degree of autism. At that time, I often dreamed that angels came to pick me up and take me to heaven. Then you showed up, and I didn't have this dream.

He said, "I know, that's why my parents adopted me as an adopted son." So, I say, I'm here for you, Vivian.

I said, "But how unfair it is to you." Yu He, I feel more and more that my parents have done something wrong, they shouldn't treat you like this, and they can't force you to accept their gifts because of me. Yu He, do you blame me?

He shook his head, and he said, "Maybe I came here to save you."

I said, "Then are you willing to face death with me?"

He said, "Vivian, don't think so, you've been in a bad mood lately."

I laughed, and I said, "You don't dare, do you?"

He said, "I dare, but we have no reason to end our lives."

I said: I'm just tired, it's better to let go sooner than to be tortured by fate like Qianyi.

He said, "Vivian, you can't think like that, it's wrong for you to think that way." Vivian, you need to be sober.

I looked at him, and I said, "Yu He, don't you even agree with me?"

We parted ways.

The next day, I was taken by my parents, who rushed back, to consult a psychiatrist, and when my parents told the doctor that I wanted to commit suicide, I realized that Yu He had betrayed me.

That was the deepest secret of my soul. However, he betrayed me, and he told his parents everything I told him.

The psychiatrist didn't ask anything. I refused to communicate with anyone, so I was taken home by my parents, and I stayed in my room all day with the doll in my arms, and my parents were not going anywhere, looking at me worriedly.

I refused to see Yu He, and I felt that he was no longer loyal.

My psyche was in an extremely distorted state, and during that time, I read many, many books, and after reading them, I became even more hopeless about human nature.

I feel that I am out of step with this world, and even Yuhe is no longer with me.

At dinner in the evening, I could still see him, he was full of fantasies about college, and his parents asked him about his recent studies, and he answered fluently. Their relationship seems to have improved because of my sudden change of tracks, and I am probably no longer the hope of my parents, but a burden to them. And Yu He, he is growing vigorously at the speed of light and heat.

He tried to communicate with me, and every time he called my name, I rushed into the room with my ears covered and closed the door. I didn't even read the letter he handed me, and locked it in a drawer.

He drew a picture of the black heart with white blood on it, and I was shocked to see it, but I still ignored him.

I stubbornly closed myself off, locked myself in my own world and refused to come out. I was a problem kid, and now it's even more problematic.

The college entrance examination is approaching, and Yu He is even busier. My mother often came to my room, sat across from me, looked at me as I was dying, and wept quietly.

I am a child who is not saved. I saw despair in my mother's eyes.

I don't remember that it was my birthday, and there were only three days left before the college entrance examination. After school that day, Yu He didn't come home.

My heart ached, and I opened my mouth to speak for the first time, I said: Dad, Mom, something happened to Yuhe.

They looked at me fixedly, and they didn't understand what I meant. I rushed out, feeling something calling to me.

I ran for my life, my parents followed me, and finally, I saw a group of people gathered on the road, and as I approached, I saw my feather lying quietly in a pool of blood......

And so he left. There were cakes scattered all over the floor, and there was a card on the ground that said: Vivian, you are an angel, don't be sad.

I sat on the ground, looked at Yu He, who was covered in blood, and cried bitterly. My mother was in a daze, the scene was chaotic, my mind was blank, and at that moment, I thought, maybe I should follow Yu He.

I stood up and ran quickly into the driveway, but I was stopped, and the person who grabbed me was my father, who slapped me hard and said, "Isn't it enough to lose Yuhe?" If I lose you again, how will your mother and I live?

I was stunned.

Yu He was buried in the cemetery, and every day I would go to accompany him, and I sat there quietly, looking at his photo, and my parents looked at me sadly not far away.

I realized that what I thought was a light death was so heavy.

God always takes away people who don't want to leave, but he leaves me who wants to leave the most in this world.

I closed myself off for half a year, and for half a year, my parents kept watch over me without leaving the house, for fear that I wouldn't be able to think about it.

I stayed in Yu He's room, quietly reminiscing about the time in my life when I had him. Then, with trembling hands, I opened the letters he had written to me that I had not read.

In his letter, he said:

Vivian:

The three years I spent alone in that school were lonely, I lost contact with you, I didn't have a good relationship with my classmates, and I, like you, thought about death.

Later, I thought, maybe that's a stage that we all have to go through as we are in adolescence, just like you are going through now. Vivian, it's a painful process. But after going through it, we become calm.

Vivian, don't give up on life. Like me, come out of the darkness bravely.

Recently, my desire to help people has become stronger. I think when we go to university, I must do a lot of things and help everyone as much as I can like my parents.

Vivian, I feel more and more now that my parents are right. Although many times they ignore our feelings and ignore the emotional needs that we need in adolescence, they give us life and everything we need from childhood to adulthood. I now feel that my parents are great, they have not only helped me, but also helped a group of children like me. So, I hope more and more that when I grow up, I can repay them well.

Vivian, you are a happy child, although you are lonely on the way to grow up, but you have to understand your parents. Vivian, come on, cheer up, we're not far from "grown-ups", and come with me to accept growth and this imperfect world, okay?

Come on, Vivian, I'm sure you'll be able to get out of it soon. We also said that we would go to ** to teach together. Vivian, come on. Vivian, come on. Vivian, come on.

Yu He

It was this letter, to be exact, Yuhe's suicide note, that changed my life.

After I finished reading it, I wiped away my tears, walked out of the room, and said to my parents: I want to repeat it.

I know that from then on, I carried the dreams of two people.

After the age of 18, I began to learn how to be a good person, I began to accept the world, I studied like crazy, I stubbornly filled in the application I wanted to apply for, and I continued to study in the field of medicine without hesitation. Because I know, Yu He is looking forward to seeing me like this.

But my love has already died at the age of 18, and with the sudden departure of Yu He, it is completely silent.

I learned to be a good child who let my parents no longer worry about it, and I always felt that Yu He was always by my side, and he always guarded me, as if he had never left.

I often see him in my dreams, he is wearing a white jersey, holding a basketball and smiling at me, and he says, "Vivian, you are so beautiful when you smile."

He will never come back. But it doesn't matter, from that year on, he is me, I am him, and our two souls have been firmly embedded together. This time, another ten years.

At the beginning, I accepted Dai Xiangwei, but it was just for the integrity of the appearance, my parents have gradually forgotten the scars caused by Yu He's departure as time progresses, I am no longer the lonely girl, and my relationship with them has been harmonious over the years. Because Yu He taught me what it means to repay grievances with virtue in that letter.

I couldn't bear to let them work and agreed to the marriage. I always thought that we were just a formal marriage, and in this life, I have nothing else to think about. I didn't even think about having a baby with him.

It was just a trip to South Africa that gradually melted me with his humor, humor, and thoughtfulness, and it was the first time in 13 years that I opened my heart to another man in my life.

It's just that I can't seem to tell him anymore. God didn't give me a chance to talk to Him, so He took me to heaven in the name of great love......

And Yu He was on a road covered with flowers, and said to me with a smile on his face: Vivian, I finally waited for you......

(Vivian ends)

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