Chapter 57: Hate Yourself
Luo Nian was stunned for a long time and didn't speak.
Lan Xuan looked at Luo Nian's expression, as expected, "I'm like you, I was stunned for a while, I didn't expect it, I don't know the face but I don't know the heart, just looking at Jiang Minlan, I didn't expect that woman to be so vicious." ”
Luo Nian leaned back on the sofa and didn't speak for a long time.
"Then does Xie Jinghuan know?"
"Eh," Lan Xuan patted Luo Nian on the shoulder, "I'm a detective, I just look at the facts, I don't care about probing people's hearts." ”
Luo Nian didn't go back tonight, and slept in Lan Xuan's cozy nest for one night, and Lan Xuan made a special call to Huo Feng and didn't call him over.
Luo Nian went directly to Lan Xuan's bed tonight, "Xuanxuan, I want to talk to you for a while." ”
After half a year, the two are lying on the same bed again, pillowing the same pillow, but their moods are completely different.
"Xuanxuan, do you think Xie Jinghuan likes Shu Yanran?"
Lan Xuan shook her head.
"I have my observational powers, from what I see, Xie Jinghuan's girlfriends, Luo Lijiao, you, Miqiao, and then Shu Yanran, he hasn't liked any of them."
"He said he liked me." Luo Nian tugged at the pajamas on his body, his voice was aggrieved, and the sparkle in his eyes flickered a little.
"A man's words are not to be trusted, especially in bed!"
Luo Nian didn't answer.
"Luo Xiaonian," Lan Xuan sighed, "I know what you're thinking in your heart, you always feel that Xie Jinghuan has a hard time, right?" ”
"It's not a bitterness, it's a secret," Luo Nian corrected, "he has a secret." ”
Let Luo Nian want to explore, want to find, want to know the secret.
Lan Xuan glanced at Luo Nian, "Luo Xiaonian, to be honest, you are so professional, come and follow me, you will definitely be able to eat and drink spicy food, you are much more powerful than Xiao A's mallet." ”
Luo Nian snorted, "I don't want to change careers yet." ”
"Then are you and Huo Feng decided?"
"Nope." Lan Xuan directly denied it, "It's just to meet each other's needs now, nothing else." ”
Luo Nian smiled, "I thought the same way. ”
Lan Xuan was stunned for a moment before she realized when Luo Nian was talking about.
When Luo Nian and Xie Jinghuan first started, they were in love, and they just wanted to be in love.
There are no constraints in love, and you can break up if you want to.
However, she still likes him, likes him so much that she wants to marry him, and likes him so much that she is willing to be tied to such a man for the rest of her life.
I didn't know what time it was, Lan Xuan was in a daze and felt Luo Nian tossing and turning beside her, and snorted: "Luo Xiaonian, you still can't sleep, what time is it." ”
Luo Nian's eyes were shining, "I'll go to the bathroom." ”
She went to the bathroom and came straight out of the room.
Now my eyelids are already very sleepy, but my brain is very clear.
Luo Nian sat cross-legged in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, opened the curtains, and looked at the large area of ground sprinkled with street lamps outside, his eyes were a little fluttering.
After sitting for a while, she took out her phone and flipped through the address book.
Looking at this name and looking at it for a long time, Luo Nian didn't make up his mind to dial it.
He already has a new girlfriend, which means ...... She doesn't have to wait, does she?
There is no need to wait with a glimmer of hope.
Luo Nian watched the screen of the mobile phone dim, then lit it up again, and after repeating it several times, he finally pressed the mobile phone off and turned it off.
And right now, on the other side.
Xie Jinghuan also leaned on the head of the bed, holding his mobile phone in his hand, and dialed the number.
The earpiece came from the familiar sweet female voice: "The phone you dialed has been turned off, sorry ......"
He put away his phone.
In the dead of night, the human heart is most fragile.
Xie Jinghuan was also at this time, inexplicably wanting to listen to her voice.
But no......
Now he suddenly regretted a little, why didn't he record a portrait of Luo Nian when they were together?
It was almost sleepless, and after Xie Jinghuan woke up, his spirit was a little depressed.
He went to wash his face, put on a new suit, and prepared to pick up Shu Yanran's parents.
Shu Yanran's parents have already booked their tickets for tomorrow on the last day they stayed in City C, and they can go directly when the time comes.
Xie Jinghuan came out of the room and suddenly received a call from Shu Yanran.
"Jinghuan, it's not good, my mother had a heart attack and is now in the hospital!"
Xie Jinghuan's mind buzzed.
His first reaction was whether it was Jiang Minlan again?
However, car accidents can be faked, heart disease can only be a sudden illness, it shouldn't be, now that Xie Bin is staring at it, and he is watching, he doesn't believe that Jiang Minlan will be so mad that he will attack others.
Xie Jinghuan immediately rushed to the hospital.
In front of the operating room of the hospital, Xie Bin came earlier than Xie Jinghuan.
When Xie Jinghuan came to the corridor, he saw Shu Yanran lying in Xie Bin's arms crying, and her eyes were red and swollen from crying.
Xie Bin gently patted Shu Yanran's back, "Don't worry, I have found the best doctor, I will definitely be able to save your mother, don't worry, your mother will be fine." ”
Shu Yanran nodded, because of the long crying, she spoke with a feeling of sobbing.
Xie Jinghuan walked over, "Father." ”
Xie Bin let go of Shu Yanran's shoulder, "I have already called Dr. Wang to operate inside, it will definitely be fine, don't worry." ”
"Hmm."
Xie Jinghuan helped Shu Yanran, and Xie Bin's eyes swept over Shu Yanran's face, "I'll go out." ”
Xie Bin walked to the smoking room and smoked a cigarette, his mind full of a quiet appearance.
Since it is something that Lan Xuan can find, Xie Bin can naturally find it too.
It was as if it were an ugly secret that had been hidden for a long time, and gradually came to the surface.
Shu Yanran's sister-in-law is Shu Jing, that is, the woman who later changed her name to Shu Yifei.
However, Shu Yifei died.
Died ten years ago, in the best of years.
Xie Jinghuan comforted Shu Yanran, "Really? ”
Shu Yanran was still crying, and when she heard this, she was stunned for a moment, "What is true......"
"Did your mother find out she had a heart attack before?"
"Well," Shu Yanran said, "I have a heart attack, and because of her own reasons, heart surgery can't bypass, so I always have a fast-acting heart-saving medicine on my body." ”
Xie Jinghuan listened, his eyebrows frowned slightly, and he didn't speak.
Since Xie Bin invited an expert doctor and came out of the emergency room, people's lives were saved, but they still had to spend 48 hours of safety.
"Yanran, where's your father?"
"My dad came home temporarily yesterday, and now I'm afraid he's worried, so I haven't told him yet."
Xie Jinghuan nodded: "Well, don't tell him yet." ”
The mobile phone rang at this time, Xie Jinghuan glanced at the mobile phone screen, picked up the mobile phone and went out to answer the phone.
"You're in the hospital now?"
“…… Be. ”
"Come back, I have something to tell you."
Xie Jinghuan glanced at the door of the ward, "Yanran's mother is still in the intensive care unit now, I want to ......"
"You're neither a doctor nor can you do anything, now come back."
Xie Jinghuan still nodded.
Xie Bin heard that Xie Jinghuan had something, "You go and do your business first, here I am." ”
When Xie Jinghuan walked out of the hospital, there was a faint uneasiness in his heart.
He drove all the way to an old-fashioned residential house and parked the car on the side of the road.
East on the third floor.
Xie Jinghuan knocked on the door, the door opened inside, and the middle-aged woman turned around directly.
There was a strong smell of smoke in the room, and the ashtray on the coffee table was filled with half-cut cigarette butts, Xie Jinghuan frowned when he came in, and opened the window.
"Mom, didn't the doctor say you won't be allowed to smoke?"
"You can't die if you smoke, you still die if you don't smoke," Fang Ke threw the cigarette between his fingers into the ashtray and looked up at him, "What are you still doing in the hospital?" ”
"Yanran's mother......"
Xie Jinghuan suddenly stopped.
"Mom, do you know Yanran's mother, she ......?"
"Did you have a heart attack?" Fang Ke laughed, "I'm from her." ”
"How do you ...... that?"
Xie Jinghuan understood.
When he saw Xie Bin outside the emergency room comforting Shu Yanran, who was crying, he had already vaguely thought of it.
He has lived in the dark for such a long time, and even if there is something, he will think in the direction of darkness first.
Fang Ke raised his eyes to look at him, "Don't look at me like that, it's true that she had a heart attack, I just happened to be there at the time, she asked me to talk about your marriage to Yanran, but the only thing I did was ......"
She took out a cigarette case from under the coffee table and threw it on the table, biting a cigarette and lighting it, "I didn't give her a quick-acting heart-saving medicine in time." ”
Xie Jinghuan snatched the cigarette from Fang Ke's hand with a split hand, and asked angrily: "This is human life!" Are you kidding that far? ”
"What are you excited about, I called an ambulance, and it's going to be fine."
"What if!"
"No whatever!" Fang Ke raised his eyes coldly and looked at Xie Jinghuan, "There is only a fait accompli that has passed, if you say that in case, you must not have thought that when you approached Luo Nian, you would like her and let her go, right?" ”
Xie Jinghuan's face turned pale.
"She was only four or five years old at the time......
"How about four or five? Can you kill someone at the age of four or five without being in charge? ”
"She didn't kill anyone!"
"If you don't kill Beren, but Beren died because of her, if it wasn't for her at that time, things would have been different!"
Xie Jinghuan's lips moved, looking at Fang Ke's rough and sallow face, obviously he and Jiang Minlan were the same age, Jiang Minlan piled up tens of thousands of skin care products and cosmetics on his face all day long, and Fang Ke ......
Fang Ke knocked his leg on the coffee table, "I know what you think, when you asked me to testify against her, I knew what you thought, you like her, and you can't bear to hurt her, that's why you broke up before you got married, right?" It's not because you're going blind, or because she's found out that your purpose in approaching the Luo family is not pure. ”
Xie Jinghuan closed his eyes, "Mom, this Xie Bin and Shu Yanran have nothing to do with each other." ”
"Okay, then let's talk about Shu Yanran. Shu Yanran is Shu Jing's daughter, she knew about her mother's affairs and volunteered to take revenge, with you or with Xie Bin, which one can hit Jiang Minlan more easily? ”
"But now it's all said outside that Yanran and I ......"
"So what, in short, just make Jiang Minlan feel bad, don't forget, how many lives she has had in her hands at the beginning."
Fang Ke is gone.
Directly locked the door.
Xie Jinghuan sent a message to Shu Yanran: "I'm outside tonight, and I'll see you in the hospital tomorrow morning." ”
Shu Yanran replied with one word: "Okay." ”
He had no way to face Shu Yanran.
Even now that Shu Yanran's mother has been saved, he doesn't have the face to face Shu Yanran.
Xie Jinghuan walked to the room, opened the curtains, and looked outside.
In the dark old town, only a lone street lamp stood not far away, and the yellow light illuminated the ground.
Just like that year......
In the middle of summer, heavy rain poured.
He ran along the mountain road for a long time, but whenever he saw a car on the road, he went to block it, and he went to shoot on the door.
"Please, please, come with me......"
"Fuck off! Touch the porcelain! ”
There was no car stopped.
A white car drove up, and the boy rushed over, and at once he stopped in front of the car, and with his arms outstretched, the headlights hit him, and he fell down all at once.
The driver was holding a mobile phone and saw someone falling, so he hurriedly ran down to see if there was anything wrong.
"Are you alright?"
Luo Haidong held an umbrella and looked down at the boy's injuries.
The boy suddenly got up from the ground and grabbed Luo Haidong's pants, "Please, help me, they are dying, you can help me......"
Luo Haidong was startled, "Who is dying......
"They want to kill him...... They have knives in their hands, please, go and help me......"
When Luo Haidong heard this, his face was also afraid.
"Please."
Luo Haidong looked at the boy kneeling on the ground, and finally ran for what a man should do, and nodded, "Okay, I'll go with you." ”
However, as soon as he turned around, the mobile phone in his hand rang.
Answering the phone, a daughter's voice came from inside: "Dad, why haven't you come back!" You said you wanted to spend my birthday tonight! It's almost twelve o'clock, and if you don't come back, it's tomorrow! ”
There was a crying voice from the earpiece, and a gentle female voice: "It's raining so hard, don't rush your father." ”
"No, I'm going to wait for Daddy to come back! Dad promised me to come back and brought me a gift, and I don't want a gift for my birthday! ”
The little girl's arrogant voice came through the earpiece.
Luo Haidong glanced at the little boy on the ground, hung up the phone, got into the car directly, reversed, bypassed him and drove away without stopping again.
The little boy fell to his knees, his eyes full of desolation washed by the rain.
He clenched his fists, he had never hated such an indifferent world so much.
He suddenly stood up and ran back in the pouring rain.
Along the way, I stumbled, fell down a few times, got up a few times, and didn't know how long I ran.
He finally came to the outside of the cabin.
The chalet is nailed to the door.
He walked around and tapped his finger twice on the plank, and the boy leaning next to him inside heard him and saw him outside through the gap.
"Don't come in!"
He whispered, "Hide! Hide! ”
Bang.
The door was kicked open from the outside.
He saw several strong men with knives in their hands, took two steps back, and hid in the haystack behind.
He hid outside, listening to the shouts inside, listening to the insults inside, listening to his sister's cries, biting the back of his hand, blood flowing down his legs.
There were times when he wanted to rush out, to break through the straw pile.
However, he was only a child.
When he went, he just gave them one more life.
They were all adopted children by Fang Ke.
Fang Ke has always lived a hard life, but he has never been tired.
His name is Fang Jingtang, the elder brother of the dragon and phoenix fetus is called Fang Huan, and the younger sister is called Shen Qi.
At that time, he didn't understand, why didn't he call his sister and surname Fang?
Fang Ke said half-jokingly: "When I grow up, I will be your daughter-in-law." ”
Later, he asked Fang Ke, although it was a joke at the time, but he also thought so.
A few days ago, when the family was happily sitting at the dining table eating, suddenly the police came and arrested Fang Ke on suspicion of drug trafficking.
"I didn't - drug trafficking! I don't have a drug cache! You must be mistaken! ”
Before leaving, she shouted to Fang Jingtang, "Take care of them!" ”
He had already thought about it at that time.
However, he only thought about it, but he didn't expect that after he came back from school, the house would be empty.
His consciousness drifted a little, and he bit his lip so hard that blood was running down his bitten lip and meandering all the way through the rain.
I don't know how long it took before the sound outside gradually stopped.
The strong men were gone, "Do you need to deal with it?" ”
"No, it's been dotted above, and it will be dealt with."
"Let's go."
He moved his legs, which were completely numb, and crawled out of the straw pile.
His legs and feet were weak and he couldn't stand, so he could only crawl on the ground, kneeling forward step by step, pushing open the door of the cabin, and the pavement was a burst of blood, and his tears flowed down his eyes, like pins and needles.
Fang Huan fell in a pool of blood, blood flowing all over the ground.
He walked over, "Xiao Huan! ”
Fang Huan was bled to death.
After such a long time, the blood in his body has already soaked the ground under him.
With the last trace of his thoughts, he reluctantly opened his eyes and "shine...... Take care...... Xiaoqi ......"
"I know...... I know, you must hold on, I will take you to the hospital......"
Fang Huan reflected him in his eyes, and there was no expression on his face, but his snort stopped.
Fang Huan shivered and stroked his snort.
There was not a hint of breath.
He let out a hoarse cry in his throat and began to cry.
Shen Qi leaned against the wall, and his eyes had long been out of focus.
He crawled over and whispered, "Xiaoqi." ”
She trembled as if she hadn't heard.
He was afraid that someone would come to take Shen Qi away later, so he took the initiative to hug her, "Let's get out of here first......"
As soon as his hand touched Shen Qi, she began to yell violently, resisting, trembling and struggling, and screaming miserably: "No! Don't touch me! Don't ......"
He will protect Shen Qi in his arms, "Xiao Qi, it's me, it's Fang Jingtang, let's go back, ah, let's go back." ”
He had never hated himself as much as he did now.
I hate my cowardice, I hate my incompetence, I hate my compromise.
Even later, in his boarding school, he fought desperately, was pressed to the ground and beaten hard, broke his ribs, and smashed his leg bones, and he never screamed or shouted.
In the tempering, his bones became harder and harder.
However, every time he dreamed back at midnight, the once dark and cowardly worm gnawed at his flesh and blood, making him toss and turn and couldn't sleep, hating his past self and his present self.
He remembered Luo Nian......
Five-year-old Luo Nian, I don't know what it looks like......
At that time, she still had all Luo Haidong's father's love, as well as the company of her mother, she was arrogant and beautiful, and she had the special pampering of a rich girl.
She......
I don't know.
What Fang Ke said was not right, those things were not caused by Luo Nian.
Luo Nian just made a phone call......
It was just a phone call that changed Luo Haidong's trajectory, changed his trajectory, and changed the trajectory of the twins in the cabin.
Perhaps, it can't be changed.
With Luo Haidong alone, he can't save them.
Maybe it can be saved, but sooner or later this day will come.
Can...... It's only half a month, waiting for Xie Bin's people to come over...... It's going to be fine.
All the truths can never be imagined.
If there are too many possibilities and too many changes, it is even less referential for a person like him, who already knows all the current situations, to assume.
Xie Jinghuan had a stuffy pain in his chest, he couldn't straighten his waist in pain, and he couldn't even breathe and gasp, so he stood up abruptly and knocked down the chair behind him.
It was as if a fierce flame was spinning in his body, but he couldn't rush out.
He took a sharp fruit knife from the table and made a cut and another cut on his arm.
The pain in his skin gradually eased, and his eyes regained their black calmness.
………………
Song Jinsheng had high blood pressure and was hospitalized.
Luo Nian was grateful to this important major shareholder who was overthrowing Luo Haidong, and picked a time to buy supplements to see him in the hospital.
After sitting in the ward for a while, Song Jinsheng's daughter-in-law came with her grandson, and she casually found an excuse to say goodbye in the face of such a happy family.
She passed by a hospital room and stumbled upon a familiar figure.
Shu Yanran?
Luo Nian stopped.
She pushed the door open and went in to take a look.
Shu Yanran looked up at her.
"Yes......"
Shu Yanran's eyes were red, "Miss Luo, you ......"
"I'm here to see the sick and see you here, who is sick?"
"It's my mom."
Luo Nian subconsciously looked at the person lying on the bed still covered with a quilt, and saw that it was not Xie Jinghuan, and she felt a little relieved.
"Is your mom okay?"
Shu Yanran nodded, "It's past the dangerous period." ”
The two don't have anything to do with each other, even if they know each other, it's all because of Xie Jinghuan's relationship.
Knowing that the hospital didn't have anything in his hand, Luo Nian went downstairs again, went to buy some fruit and sent it up.
This time, there was no shadow of Shu Yanran in the ward.
She put the fruit on the table and wanted to withdraw, but at this moment, the door of the bathroom opened, and a cold and straight figure came out of it.
Xie Jinghuan noticed Luo Nian outside the door, his pupils shrank slightly, and he put down the half-rolled up shirt sleeve.
It's just that the action was still a step too late, and Luo Nian saw the scratch on Xie Jinghuan's arm.
"What's going on with your arm?!"
Luo Nian strode over and pulled his arm at once, wanting to lift the sleeve of the man's shirt.
Xie Jinghuan narrowed his eyes and opened his arms sideways, not wanting Luo Nian to see it during his movements.
Luo Nian squeezed forward strongly, pressed his elbow horizontally against Xie Jinghuan's chest, and directly ripped off the cufflinks of his shirt, and with the sound of the cufflinks falling to the ground, she also saw several scars on his forearms that had been cut by knives.
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