Hearing Su Yuhan say that, my heart was cold.

Obviously, the reason why she was kind to me was nothing more than to use our teacher-student relationship as an excuse for me to help her attend the funeral of Teacher Chen's husband.

Although I know that Su Yuhan generally decides things, it is difficult to change them. But I was still very unwilling to give up a chance to explain to her face: "Sister Han, I admit that I betrayed you, and I am indeed very sorry for you." But that's not my intention, and I don't want to. That day, I accidentally saw Xin Yi's stepmother killing someone. She was going to kill me, and then she had someone drug me, and then I was unconscious. Xin Yi's stepmother is a female bastard, she originally hated Xin Yi very much, after I fell into a coma, she forced Xin Yi to take aphrodisiacs, that's all...; …; That's what happened to me with Xin Yi.

I was unconscious all night, I didn't feel anything, and I didn't even know what happened that night. I know you're going to be sad to learn about it, but I'm not feeling good about it.

I know it's too late for me to say anything. I'm not explaining this to you to forgive me now, I know you won't forgive me, and I don't expect you to forgive me. Even if you forgive me now, I feel like I don't have the face to be with you now. Because it was I who betrayed you, betrayed our feelings, betrayed our commitment to each other, and I have no face to face you again. After seeing that text message from you that day, I even thought about dying, but I didn't do it in the end.

It's not that I'm afraid of death, you know, I'm not afraid of death for you, I don't even want my life for you. And I didn't kill myself for it, and of course I wasn't afraid that my parents would be helpless in the future, at least I didn't think about it at the time. Because I was only thinking that if I really killed myself, I was afraid that you would look down on me even more. I'm afraid you'll think you've ever liked a coward, a coward who can't withstand the slightest blow.

Before I met you, I lived without any purpose in life, and there was no meaning at all. But since I met you, I have found that people can still live so meaningfully, and people can still have so many beautiful ideals and aspirations when they live.

It can be said that since I got engaged to you, I have always regarded you as my goal in life, and you are the driving force for all my struggles. It was you who gave me endless strength, and it was you who awakened the fighting spirit in my heart. It has given me extraordinary ideals and goals in life. Even if this is the case now, it stands to reason that I have lost my ideals and goals, but I have no intention of giving up these ideals and goals.

I'm not asking for your forgiveness when I say this. I just want to tell you. You are still my ideal and goal in the future, and you are still my everything. The favorite person in my life is you, and the person I love the most is also you. It was before, and it is now. In the future, it will still be. I don't want to tell you that I'm going to marry you in this life, because I'm going to use time to prove it. ”

I said everything I wanted to say to Su Yuhan in one breath.

At this moment, I suddenly felt so relaxed in my heart. It's as if all the stress that has been suppressed in the body has been released.

As for Su Yuhan, she was very embarrassed to listen to me silently from beginning to end. Didn't interrupt me in the slightest. Even after I finished speaking, she was still lying quietly on the bed.

Sadly, after I finished speaking, she was quiet for a while, and then she added to me: "Are you finished?" Let's get out of here! After Su Yuhan finished speaking, he pulled the quilt on his head and covered his head.

Ay...; …;

She is really Su Yuhan. What she believes, even if someone says anything in a big way, she will never change her mind again.

In fact, what I said before was that I didn't expect her to forgive me now, in fact, I didn't want her to be considerate of me and give me a chance for the prodigal son to turn around and "mend his ways".

Seriously, if it was really my subjective mistake. I don't even have the face to talk to her about those things. But the sad thing is that this mistake is really not what I want to make, Ye Zi and Huang Ziyi seduced me so much, I couldn't help it. Because I love her so much. She really is everything to me, how can I be sorry for her. If I want to take the initiative to make mistakes, I have made mistakes a long time ago, how could I be planted in Xin Yi's hands.

Speaking of which, the biggest unwillingness in my heart is because this mistake was not my intention, and I was victimized. It is precisely because of this that I have the cheekiness to look forward to Su Yuhan's forgiveness in my heart.

The main thing is that I am too unwilling. Such a good woman, who still loves her so much, and who loves me so much, ruined both of us because of a mistake that would never have happened. It is estimated that no one will be willing to put this matter on anyone.

I stood there dumbfounded, holding the money Su Yuhan gave me in my hand...; …; I want to go, but I am reluctant to go. I want to stay, but I can't find a reason to stay.

After being silent for a long time, I said slowly, "Sister Han." Take care. What I said is that you don't marry, I don't want you to marry or not, I don't have that qualification, and I don't have extravagant expectations. I just want to guard the feelings for you alone, I want to continue to love you as well as I did before for a lifetime, love you silently alone, and make up for the love you once had for me, the love that can't be repaid.

Because I always remember. There was once the best woman in the world who sold her BMW for me to help my family build a new house.

I will always remember that there was once a woman with the most perfect personality in the world, but for me, a poor man who had nothing, but gave up a very rich second generation, betrayed his family, and finally left his hometown alone and wandered away.

Sister Han, don't be sad because of me, and don't be sad because of me. Don't worry, God won't forgive me for a sinful person like me, and I will never end well in the future! ”

I cursed myself viciously at the end.

It's not a curse for no reason, but I'm already ready to take Brother Tiger and them to mix with society. As my dad once said, if you don't study hard, you can only be a second-rate person in the future.

My dad didn't say this casually, although he has always been very opposed to my martial arts practice. But he still knows what I'm up to. After all, among my peers in the village, including many people with martial arts surnames, they are basically invincible in heads-up.

Because no one can hold my full kick. Until now, there is still a saying in our village, don't be kicked by him when you fight Xiaoqiang, if you can keep not being kicked by him, you will win, and if you are kicked by him, you will never be able to stand up again.

And my dad said that if I don't study well, I will definitely have to mix in society in the future, obviously because I fight fiercely, and I especially like to fight, he obviously saw that I don't study well, and sooner or later I will embark on this road.

However, when I just said "sinful", I did not mean that I would be sinful when I mixed with society in the future. It's that I did something so sorry for Su Yuhan that I was deeply guilty.

I should say that I'm all said and done, and I should go. Although I was very reluctant to leave, I saw that Su Yuhan had already covered himself under the cover because he didn't want to see me. I don't want to disgust her anymore. I had to say "I'm leaving, take care of yourself, take care of yourself", and then I strode out.

When I walked to the door of the hospital. I couldn't help but open Mr. Chen's WeChat again. I have long figured out Su Yuhan's character, except for Teacher Chen, she has no other good girlfriends. So when she is happy or unhappy, she always likes to share her heart with Teacher Chen.

In fact, everyone is the same, when they are happy and sad, they always like to share their feelings with their best people.

This time, Su Yuhan was no exception.

Just when I logged in to Mr. Chen's WeChat, I saw that Su Yuhan had already sent a voice message to "Mr. Chen". And this voice was obviously just sent by me when I left the ward.

I hurriedly clicked on the voice, and as soon as I turned it on, I heard Su Yuhan's extremely suppressed cry:

Woo, Sister Chen, what should I do? What am I going to do? He did something I couldn't forgive, I broke up with him, this time it was really a complete breakup...; …;

But my heart hurts so much, I can't bear him, what should I do! Why did God do this to us! We should have loved each other very much, we should have been together forever, why did such an accident happen!

How did the ending turn out like this, the ending for both of us shouldn't be like this, why is this so different from the ending I was expecting before, why...; …;

Woo, Sister Chen...; …; It's not the result I want, it's not the result I want.