I had just stepped into the courtyard when the neighbors sitting around the stone table saw me with a strange playfulness in their eyes. I was so uncomfortable with such a gaze that I had to force myself to walk over.

Suddenly, my aunt suddenly walked out of the hall, she rushed in front of me, raised her hand at a speed that caught me off guard, and threw it hard in my face, I was stunned by her, and stood there in a daze.

Poked my nose with her hand, and my aunt opened her mouth and scolded: "First sister, you touch your conscience and ask yourself, your parents don't care about you, and they left you here to live for nothing for so many years, have I ever treated you badly?" You don't learn well at a young age, you always learn some side ways, you can't seduce anyone, you have to use that sass. Energetic to seduce your uncle! Your uncle didn't take the bait, and you still had the courage to smash your uncle's forehead with a hammer! You're hardened and fattened now, aren't you? How much blood mold I poured in my previous life, and I raised you white-eyed wolf for nothing, vixen! ”

My cerebral cortex seemed to have been sprinkled with white pepper, and those numbing sensations came up layer by layer, and I glanced at Wang Dayi, the rotten man Wang Dayi, with gauze wrapped around his head, leaning on the edge of the door connecting the hall to the courtyard, and his eyes were full of obscene snort.

Looking at this woman who watched me grow up, was called my aunt countless times, and the woman who was related to me by blood, her eyes were floating underneath, and the entanglement was mixed with a weak heart, she quickly turned her face away from my gaze, and continued: "Anyway, I have taken you in for so many years, and I am worthy of heaven and earth and my conscience, since you can do the immoral thing of seducing your uncle, I communicated with your mother on the phone in the morning, and she said that she can't teach you well with such a character, let me call her to give you the money to study in college." , we don't care what you will be like in the future! ”

As soon as my aunt's words fell, my cousin Wang Jinjun walked in with a sack, threw the sack at my feet, and said disdainfully to me: "White-eyed wolf, hurry up and get out of my house with your broken copper and iron!" ”

The neighbor who was still whispering just now instantly stopped like a cicada that had been choked by the throat.

I didn't respond to Wang Jinjun's words, but stared at my aunt Wu Yuemei, and I asked in a trembling voice: "Wu Yuemei, you cover your conscience and say it again, is it Wang Dayi, a rotten person, who keeps harassing me, or am I seducing him?" In fact, I think you know what the real situation is! Last night you weren't at home and he tried to be strong. Storm me! Wu Yuemei, your husband is a rotten person, he wants to be strong. Violence your own niece! But you have to defend that rotten man, pick up a basin of dirty water and deduct it from me! I took a shower before, and I just took off my clothes, how many times did Wang Dayi come and knock on my door? How many times did he come over and touch me while I was cooking? When I go to bed at night, how many things are on the broken door, and how many hemp ropes are tied to you, don't say you don't know! Don't tell me this, you didn't see it! If you're not blind, you've seen it all! But you have to turn a blind eye to make this bastard more and more bold, and he still wants to be strong. Storm me! ”

My words were like throwing a pebble on the surface of a calm lake, causing ripples, and the surrounding neighbors were in an uproar, but they didn't want Wang Dayi, a scumbag, to run towards me quickly, he pointed to my nose and raised his voice, and began to run the train with his mouth full: "Slut, things can be eaten indiscriminately, but don't talk nonsense." What do you know about yourself? If you're a serious person, can you not return all night last night? Maybe you ran out last night and got by another man. Done! I've had enough fun, come back now and deduct the black pot from me, right! It's not a serious thing in the first place, what kind of dung is sprayed high! ”

This is the first time I have seen such a shameless face of a person, obviously he is unreasonable, but when he opens his eyes and talks nonsense, his righteous and bold spirit is simply unmatched.

However, although he did not take any reason, he stabbed my heart crookedly, and when I thought back to the shameful scene not long ago, my whole body seemed to be drained of blood at once, and my mouth was flattened, and I could no longer say a word.

After the atmosphere was stalemate for more than ten seconds, Wu Yuemei squatted down to pick up the marijuana bag at my feet, took out a dark red passbook from her pocket, and stuffed it into my hand vigorously, she said with a blushing face: "Get out, don't make a fuss about my house again." Just when I was blind all these years of rice that was fed to dogs, I raised you white-eyed wolf! Your mother's tuition for a year is all in this passbook, and you know the password for taking this to withdraw money before, you take it and get out, and it's none of my business to live better in the future! ”

I cried when I came out with my bag of broken copper.

I suddenly found that I didn't know where to complain, I complained back and forth, and I could only blame my life for not being good.

My parents would leave me at my aunt's house, and let me endure so many years of life that were not as good as pigs and dogs, because in the year I was born, the shipyard that my father and others jointly built was completely ruined, and then my brother was seriously ill, and the fortune teller said that I was hard, and I was born to kill my father and my brother, or I was separated to raise them, and they would have to be unlucky for me sooner or later.

At first, my mother was really reluctant to leave me, but then my dad couldn't help arguing with her for three days and arguing for two days, so she ruthlessly threw me to Wu Yuemei.

Later, my dad went to Hong Kong to run a boat, and my mom took my brother to Shenzhen to live with my dad, and she gave birth to a younger sister to me, and she had a caring little padded jacket to replace me, and she quickly eliminated me, the unlucky ghost with a hard life, from the tip of her heart.

Although my mother's life is getting better and better, but the money she gives Wu Yuemei is getting less and less, Wu Yuemei is becoming more and more unkind to me, I have done all the housework, as long as the school is on vacation all year round, whether it is winter vacation, summer vacation or weekend vacation, Wu Yuemei has to drive me to the suburban seafood factory to peel shrimp shells to make money, and she also stipulates how many catties I have to peel a day to earn money. In order to complete the task she gave me, I have to speed up, I don't have time to pay too much attention, my hands and feet are pierced by those ** shrimp thorns in a pile of small holes, it hurts and itchy, I don't have money to buy medicine to wipe it, so I hide in the attic and close the door and cry, when I cry, Wu Yuemei took the money I earned back and took my cousin to eat fried chicken and drink Coke, and my mother took my sister to dance interest classes, and then bought her cute and sweet little cakes to make her happy.

I am always outside the happy life of the people around me, watching the people around me stage in front of me the warm drama of father, son, filial piety, mother and daughter, watching them let the flood of family love flood into a family and love each other, and I only get a lonely and lonely vastness and loneliness.

I used to complain about the cruelty of life, but now I can only blame my bad life.

Yes, my life is not good, so I deserve to be abandoned by my family, I deserve to be harassed by rotten people, and I deserve to be ** to a stranger. I deserve only a period of youth that rots into the dust. I deserve to be unclothed, homeless, and have a bleak and miserable future.

I thought I was going to die, but I wasn't.

In the end, I followed my previous life plan and reported to the university as scheduled after successfully receiving the admission notice from Shenzhen University.

I tried to hide my gray and rotten past, automatically and consciously cut off all my high school classmates, disguised myself with pretended brightness, and tried to make myself look like a simple and ordinary positive woman who had never experienced anything.

In fact, I really did.

After graduating, I successfully passed the formal application process and joined an advertising agency owned by my brother.

There are also some good boys around me who pursue me, I obviously keep telling myself that I shouldn't be arrogant, there is no family that depends on each other and a happy family, I can pursue my own happiness without being a virgin, and enjoy the favor of life for me, but I don't know why I always have to fight with myself to the end, I am afraid that if I am with a boy, although he can accept my broken family environment, he can't accept that I was once drunk by a strange man. Violent facts.

In fact, as I get older, the more detailed I think about things, and the more I love to pursue perfection after seeing too many imperfections in life, I regret more and more regrets, regret my mistakes back then, and the face of the initiator Chen Tu also appears from time to time, and the shadows in my mind float and entangle into a net. The feelings I felt about him in my heart changed from simple hatred and disgust at the beginning, to those indescribable complex emotions later, and he became a very special and illusory existence in my life.

I have always been haunted by the fact that I did not insist on him to apologize to me, and I even dreamed back one midnight when I thought that it would be best for me to meet him by chance, and whether he remembered me or not, I would have to kill him once, and in this way I would mourn the end, so that I could forget the absurd youth that his drunkenness and my carelessness had given me.

I thought that such an idea was just my wishful thinking for a while, after all, the world is so big, it is not easy to meet a person who only has a side relationship by chance. But I didn't expect that life is sometimes like a hilarious tragicomedy, which turns its hands into clouds and rains, and uses those just perfect coincidences to give me a surprise encounter.