For Pippi's decision, I am not only unexpected but also disappointed, but looking back, it is not difficult to understand that since Zuo Lan passed away, Chen Qingyi took him with him, and I have been busy with work, and the time to be with him is very limited.

Pipsqueak asked, "Dad, are you really not going to Ireland with us?" ...... You said the other day that you were going to take me to the beach in Ireland to collect shells! ”

The first time I lit a cigarette in front of Pippi, my fingers trembled a little, and although I could understand Pippi's decision, I couldn't let go of my failure, which I was a failure as a father.

I didn't answer Pippi's question directly, but just said to him, "Daddy is smoking, can you go back to the house for a while?" ”

"Oh." Pipsqueak gave me a nostalgic look before walking towards his room.

.......

When the leather belt closed the door, my eyes burned uncontrollably, and my fingers holding the cigarette trembled so much, I was very heartbroken!

"Yixi, let Pippi go with me, when you chose to marry me, you were afraid that Pippi and Mr. An would not be compatible, and that Mr. An's family would not accept Pippi, don't you have such concerns now....... Don't let Pipsqueak get involved in our adult emotional entanglements, or you can just take him on vacation to Ireland and let him make his own choice when everything settles down at home! ”

My emotions suddenly collapsed, all the depression over the years, all the misunderstandings, all the regrets, all the unhappiness, can't stop the gushing out, when the dark side of life erupted collectively, I finally understood how failed and embarrassed I had lived these years.

"Qingyi, I'm really a failure in life, a failure.....!" I choked up and said, but I couldn't tell where I had failed, and looking back, there was a dead silence and a mess in the life I had almost lived.

Chen Qingyi hugged me and let me lean on her chest, and instantly I had a support, I found a cathartic point, but I couldn't cry at all, I could only choke!

Chen Qingyi gently stroked my hair: "Yixi, I understand your pain...... I believe that you will be happy if you break free from all shackles and stay true to yourself...... Let's learn to let go and bless each other! ”

"Relieved!" I silently recited these two words in my heart, and after the baptism and tempering of the years, when I faced these two words again, I felt difficult and heavy.

"Relief" is just two words, but when you really try to let go, you will understand how much you are haunted, all the pain in life comes from your own can't see through, if I can see through everything, I will choose to go to Ireland with Chen Qingyi, if I see through everything, I will let Pippi and Chen Qingyi go to Ireland, if I can see through everything, I will pursue Angel desperately, this is logically very confusing, but when you see through everything because of relief, any choice is reasonable, It's a kind of freedom to do as you please, but does anyone really dare to see through it?

To be alive is a false proposition that has no answer!

.......

In the evening, Chen Qingyi and I took Pippi to eat with the family, if Pippi insisted on going to Ireland with Chen Qingyi, I would not stop him again, but after the domestic situation stabilized, I would definitely go to Ireland to pick him up, now it depends on the opinion of my parents.

Chen Qingyi and I were a little cramped because we were thoughtful, and Pippi looked at Chen Qingyi and me from time to time, probably curious about how we would explain to our parents that we would not go to Ireland.

After a long time, I finally put down my chopsticks and said to my unsuspecting parents, "Dad, Mom, I'm not going to Ireland!" ”

Mom and Dad stopped eating and looked at me unexpectedly, waiting for me to give them an explanation.

"I want to stay in China and return to the mall, there are some things that I can't explain to you, but I hope you can support my decision!" I said to both of them in the calmest of tones.

The parents turned to look at Chen Qingyi again, waiting for her to make a statement.

Chen Qingyi nodded and said, "Dad, Mom, I respect Yixi's decision...... But I have a reluctant request. ”

"You say."

Chen Qingyi lowered her head and pondered for a long time, finally raised her head, mustered up the courage to say: "I want to take Pippi to Ireland....."

Dad and Mom said happily: "We don't have to worry that Pippi is following you, and you must be better at educating children than we do....... However, Yixi, when are you going to go to Ireland to remarry Qingyi, and do you plan to wait for your career to stabilize? ”

I said in a low voice: "Dad, Mom, Qingyi and I will not remarry....... We'll live our own lives! ”

My parents changed color instantly, looked at me and then at Chen Qingyi, and said emotionally: "Ridiculous, if you don't remarry, what will happen to Pippi and Qingyi!" ...... If you insist on refusing to remarry, we won't force you, but Pipsqueak is determined not to go to Ireland with Qingyi! ”

"Dad, Mom, we have obtained Pippi's permission to go to Ireland, what he needs more is maternal love, I promise you that I will definitely do a good job in the role of mother, I really regard Pippi as my own, I can't let go of him!" Chen Qingyi's voice choked.

"Qingyi, this can't be helped, if...... If you're Pippi's birth mother, and you take Pippi to Ireland, we'll be able to bear the pain, you...... This is not appropriate! Dad patted his leg anxiously and said.

Mom chimed in: "We really can't agree to your request!" ...... Pippi, tell grandma, are you really willing to go abroad with your mother Chen? ”

Pipsqueak looked at everyone and just nodded, but didn't say a word.

My mother immediately cried: "You guys are tossing...... Isn't it good to remarry well, this is to let the child suffer, it's too bitter for my little grandson! As he spoke, he hugged Pipsqueak tightly in his arms.

"Mom, don't cry...... If Pippi is willing to go with Qingyi, let him be, and when my career in China stabilizes, we will take him back, and going to Ireland will at least be more conducive to his growth! "I was extremely depressed, and when Pipsqueak insisted on leaving Chen Qingyi, I realized that although I was Pippi's biological father, I had no sense of existence!

"Dad, Mom, don't worry, as long as Pippi is by my side for a day, I won't think about marriage for a day, let Pippi go with me, this is Pippi's own wishes, and it will also make a down-to-earth comeback in China, and when Pippi is older, he is willing to return to China, I have no opinion, but in my heart, he will always be my son, even if he gets married in the future, my husband must recognize this!"

Mom wiped away her tears and looked at Dad again, then looked at Pippi, the corners of her mouth trembled, and finally chose to be silent, I know that this is a kind of acquiescence after compromise, we owe Pippi too much, when he himself has the will to follow Chen Qingyi away, it is really difficult for us to go against his will, although they know that this is extremely unreasonable, maybe they are still looking forward to using Pippi to bond and keep the hope of me and Chen Qingyi finally remarrying!

"Qingyi, you must promise us that when Pippi wants to come back, he must let him come back to us!"

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