I see everything is you, but I don't dare to think about you when I think about anything......

Tang Jingcheng's tears came out all of a sudden, she didn't think that she would be like this one day, and she would stand in front of herself like this and say these words.

Is this a love story? It turns out that he can also tell love words.

Tang Jingcheng felt stunned and uncomfortable, and rushed forward with a breath.

"Bastard, are you pretentious?" Stretched out his hand, but Guan Luo pinched his arm, he took her into his arms, pressed down his hot lips against her still dripping hair, opened his mouth to bite, gently took her round earlobe, and kissed her lips all the way from earlobes to her lips.

Tang Jingcheng trembled lightly in his arms, and his heart flew with it.

He definitely did it on purpose, absolutely!

Tang Jingcheng's tears became more and more turbulent, Guan Luo couldn't kiss him enough, he simply grabbed her back and pushed her into the bedroom.

There was no light on in the bedroom, and it was dark.

"Guan Luo...... Guan Luo......"

Tang Jingcheng climbed on him and shouted his name over and over again, three years, these two words she had shouted in her dreams, shouted in hatred, and now shouted sharply and tremblingly in this flame.

Her voice filled the room. His respite.

Guan Luo responded to her with the rough of his fingers, fierce kisses, ripping off the straps of her dressing gown in the dark, holding her down on the bed in the bedroom......

Love is a very complex thing, it will confuse, it will hesitate, it will want to give up because of the fear of being hurt, so many causes and consequences, so many love-hate entanglements, there will naturally be a lot of "uncertainty", but your heart will not lie to you.

Be still and listen to the voice in your heart.

"Do you want to?"

"Want to ......"

"Do you want to?"

"Yes!" She was firm in her words, her eyes closed, her eyelashes fluttering like butterfly wings.

Guan Luo held her face with one hand, her skin was hot under the palm, and her tears were still stained on her fingers, which he gently twisted away.

"Tang Jingcheng..."

"Huh?"

"Don't be angry with me anymore, I'm sad, I don't want to lose you again..."

Tang Jingcheng laughed, tears flowing even more.

"I'll try my best!"

She was a bastard, and it was clear that she was going to eat this man, so she tightened her waist and sent herself in.

Outside the window, the moon and stars were scarce, and the bedroom was filled with the fragrance of sweat and roses.

He has already lowered himself to this level, and she is just a sentence of "I try my best", she is really a girl who doesn't know what to do.

After the incident, Tang Jingcheng lay on Guan Luo's body, and the two of them had no intention of getting up to take a bath, and their bodies were sticky and tangled, which were all bad problems brought out by this lazy girl.

Guan Luo's arm was a little sore from her pressure, and he freed up to change his position and hugged her to his shoulder.

"Tang Jingcheng...?"

"Huh?" The man on the shoulder replied vaguely, looking like a corpse again.

Guan Luo didn't care about her anymore, rubbing her wet hair, sweating with one hand.

"Smoke a cigarette." He reached for his pants on the floor with one free hand.

Tang Jingcheng said "um" again: "I want it too!" ”

"Not allowed!"

What kind of man is Nima? He lit it and smoked it by himself, spit out the cigarette and smoked it on Tang Jingcheng's face, Tang Jingcheng was so angry that he turned over to grab his cigarette, but Guan Luo pinched her arm, pressed his mouth up, kissed her fiercely, fed her a mouthful of second-hand smoke, and choked Tang Jingcheng raised his hand to beat him.

"You don't know how to pity a little bit of pity?"

Guan Luo hooked his lips and smiled: "It's not the first day you know me!" As he spoke, his fingers gently pinched Tang Jingcheng's shoulder, and his right shoulder was wrapped with a hundred day red vines.

Tang Jingcheng was upset by him.

"Don't pinch it."

"Still hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt anymore." She sat up a little in Guan Luo's arms and slapped the man's hand on her body, "I really want to smoke, give me one!" ”

Guan slightly grinded the root of the molars, accurately.

"Just half a root!" Hand her the half you had left.

Tang Jingcheng glanced at him, but after thinking about it, he still took it, this man doesn't eat hard and soft on principled issues, so half a root is half a root, it's better than nothing.

She smoked the leftover cigarette from Guan's cigarette.

Guan Luo's hands were all free, and he continued to pinch her shoulders, and there was no match, and the rough touch made Tang Jingcheng's heart itch.

She snorted.

Guan slightly stopped: "Can you tell me about the past few years?" ”

"What's the matter?"

Guan sighed slightly: "What you have experienced when you have been alone outside in the past few years. ”

"Actually, there's not much to talk about." Tang Jingcheng's tone was light, "You really want to hear it?" ”

"I don't want to hear it, but I should know."

He was absent for three years, and he didn't participate in her ordeal, but he should know that it was better than a blank slate.

Tang Jingcheng smoked a cigarette and thought for a while: "Where to start?" ”

"Let's start with you wanting to leave Yunling and go to Burma, why?" After so many years, Guan Luo has not been able to figure out why. Why did she have to leave in the first place, and chose such a backward country to go?

Tang Jingcheng spit out the cigarette and changed into a comfortable position in his arms.

"Actually, I left Yunling because I couldn't stand it anymore, my father had just died at that time, and I knew the reason for Qiguan's death so I went to assassinate you, you should still remember this incident."

"Of course!" Guan Luo sneered, "You are the only one who dares to blatantly use a knife against me." ”

"......" Tang Jingcheng rolled his eyes again. How spirited.

"It's a pity that I still didn't kill you."

"And then you're going to wipe your neck yourself?" That time Guan Luo was really angry with her, he asked himself to be good to her, but in the end she was able to attack herself without blinking her eyes, although she didn't succeed, but the knife was real, Guan Luo was not lightly injured that time, but after the end, the girl directly wiped her neck, if it wasn't for her lack of strength at that time, she might have been gone on the spot.

That experience was a nightmare for Guan Liu.

"I know I can't kill you, but I don't want to live anymore."

At that time, Tang Jingcheng was really discouraged, Qiu Qiguan was gone, his father was gone, Lou Qingxiao jumped off the building and committed suicide, she subconsciously took the blame for this crime on her head, she knew that she and this man could no longer have a way out, and she had nothing to redeem herself.

She really wanted to die.

"Then why did you suddenly go to Myanmar again?"

"Because I was found to be pregnant, I was taken to the hospital by you with a neck injury."

Guan Luo's heart tightened: "Just that time?" ”

"Well, it was Su Jue who told me that the doctor regarded him as the father of the child, but at that time I didn't think about keeping the child, what should I do if I stay? I don't have the courage to live anymore, how can I have the strength to raise a child. Tang Jingcheng still remembers the low time at that time.

Guan Luo rubbed her shoulders tightly: "What about later?" ”

"Later?" Tang Jingcheng looked at the night sky outside the window, "Later, I went to the family planning department alone without Su Jue. ”

At that time, the family planning department was in front of the ward where she was staying, a few minutes away.

She registered, made an appointment, and was taken into the operating room by the nurse.

"You know what? At that time, the child was more than two months old. Tang Jingcheng fell softly on Guan Luo's shoulder, he couldn't see her expression, and she couldn't see his face.

Only each other's breathing and voices were heard in the darkness.

"The doctor has to prepare before the surgery. I was pushed by the nurses and lying on the operating table, and they were going to give me anesthetic, and I was suddenly a little scared..."

Guan Luo pinched her shoulders very tightly, and Tang Jingcheng didn't feel pain.

"I suddenly wanted to see what the child looked like, after all, he had been in my belly for more than two months, so I asked the doctor to do a B-ultrasound for me before the anesthetic, and I was lying there. The image on the screen was blurry, but I could see the dark shadow moving......"

She suddenly grabbed Guan Luo's fingers: "You know what? That feeling...... He can move, he is alive, I realized for the first time that I have a life in my belly, he is so close to me, it turns out that I am not alone, even if Qiguan is gone, my father is also gone, but now I have a child......"

That fresh life was forming in her womb, and Tang Jingcheng's first feeling at that time was that she couldn't let him disappear, she wanted him to be well, give birth well, and grow up healthy, and they would depend on each other from now on and be each other's only relatives in this world.

Guan Luo was a little difficult to breathe because of her words, and he buried his head in Tang Jingcheng and kissed him heavily on his forehead.

"And then? You kept the child and didn't tell me? ”

"Why am I telling you? Do you know how much I hated you back then? If it weren't for that kid, I wouldn't have survived! ”

The beginning of her and Guan Luo is a deliberate conspiracy.

"You don't save Qi Guan when he sees death, you are almost the executioner who killed him, how can I have a child for a man who killed my husband? I can't, I can't get over this hurdle in my heart, but I am reluctant to beat the child. So I had to find a place to start over. ”

Tang Jingcheng gasped.

"As for the final choice to go to Myanmar, it was also accidental, Su Jue had been taking care of me at that time, he happened to have business to go to Myanmar to stay for a while, don't worry about me, I thought that Myanmar is not bad, anyway, as long as you don't stay in Yunling, it will be good anywhere, so I followed him to Myanmar."

Guan slightly flipped over her palms and clasped her five fingers tightly.

"Hmm. Go on..."

"Originally, I only planned to stay in Myanmar for a while, do you know Bagan?"

"You know, a tourist city in central Myanmar."

"Well, I was going to go there, the environment is good, it's peaceful, I just want to find a peaceful place where no one disturbs me to give birth to the child." That was Tang Jingcheng's only wish at that time.

"I didn't think about anything at that time, Guan Liu, really, it was incredible." She clasped Guan Luo's fingers tightly, and there was a warm dampness inside, "I never thought that a child would bring me such a big change, you know that I have a very bad temper, and I have a nervous disorder, and I always wanted to end my life before I knew that I was pregnant, but gradually as my belly got bigger and bigger, I felt that I was slowly precipitating......"

There is no hurry or impatience, and the gray life seems to become bright all of a sudden.

"I no longer hate, I no longer suffer, the only thought is to wait for the child to be born safely, the day after I went to Myanmar, I went to the Buddhist temple in Mandalay, and I chose to raise a baby in Bagan because there are thousands of stupas in that city, I never believed in these before, but since I had a child, I began to worship the gods, I think that if I look up three feet old, someone will see it, otherwise why would you give me a child when I am most desperate?"

During that time, the child became Tang Jingcheng's salvation.

Guan Luo understood, he understood her pain and entanglement at the time, and he also understood her heart that gradually precipitated in the end, because he had seen that photo on Su Jue's mobile phone.

The girl in her arms was wearing a brightly colored cage base, standing in the sunlight at the door of the Yudu Hotel with her stomach upright.

Such a beautiful scene, Guan Luo hated that he couldn't see it with his own eyes.

But all the good things stayed on that day.

Tang Jingcheng turned over, buried his face and drilled into Guan Luo's arms, all the beauty came to an abrupt end, and ugliness and pain rushed violently at the end of that midsummer.

She didn't have time to go to Bagan, and the child didn't have time to be born......

"Guan Luo..." Tang Jingcheng grabbed Guan Luo's arm tightly, lying on his chest and gasping, finally about to talk about this most painful point, Guan Luo kissed her forehead.

"I'm in..."

"You're not here... Why weren't you there? Tang Jingcheng pulled his nails into his flesh, "The day before the explosion, someone sent me a text message in your name, saying that they wanted to see me, I agreed, and made an appointment to meet the next day, do you know what I thought at that time?" I don't want to tell you about the child, if you hate me, the child will follow me in the future, just don't have you as a father, if you can accept me, then I'll go back with you, I don't want the baby to be born without a father, but why don't you give me a chance at all? The other party takes my life in your name. When the gunshot rang out, there was still a voice in my ears, saying that neither I nor the child could stay in this world, and I thought it was you on the other end of the phone, and you were going to take my life and the child's life, and I realized then that you hated me so much......"

Tang Jingcheng couldn't cry anymore.

Guan Luo's voice seemed to be completely blocked, he couldn't say a word, and some pain seemed to cut bones without going through it.

"I hate you too. If I hadn't hated you, I'd probably not have been able to survive for a few years, but you asked me if it hurts? Surgery after operation, skin grafting, wound infection and festering, lying on the bed is worse than death, no pain, at least not as much as the pain I hate you, I have nothing, the explosion destroyed half of my face and half of my arm, I don't even have the strength to cry out in pain, but I am conscious, close and ...... I was conscious at that time, I knew that the child was gone, you found someone to shoot me, you hate me so much, and I still want to give birth to you stupidly, but I don't understand, for so many years, I hated you and asked myself repeatedly, how can you be so ruthless? It's okay to kill me, why not give the child a birth? That's your child, your own flesh and blood......"

Tang Jingcheng was already crying in Guan Luo's arms until he was about to faint, hurt by the people he cared about, dark and dark, that kind of love-hate emotion, night after night.

Guan Luo picked up Tang Jingcheng's arm and wanted to wipe her tears, but she was weak and collapsed on Guan Luo's shoulder.

"Our child died...... Off. He's dead...... I couldn't save him, I didn't even know when he was taken out of my body, but before I returned to China last year, I went back to the hospital in Hpakant town to see the doctor who induced labor at that time, and the doctor told me that the boy, it was the boy......"

Five-month-old boy has taken shape.

Guan Luo finally couldn't bear it anymore, and gradually cried as he rubbed the person in his arms......