Jiang Xiaomo looked at me with a surprised look on her face, and said for a while: "Uncle, are you really still the uncle I once saw?" ”

I looked at her quizzically, not knowing what she was trying to say, and waited for her to continue.

"The first time I saw you, I was only a freshman, you sent me takeaways, and you also delivered couriers, I will always remember your powerful and confident smile, as if you can never see frustration in you, I was surprised, why a man who just delivered takeaways and couriers, but had such charm, it wasn't until later, when you were invited to give a speech at our school, that I really understood: at that time, you were just accumulating explosive power in silence!! ...... I will always remember your generous statement that day, which really gave us a lot of motivation and enlightened our ignorant lives....... Now that I'm about to graduate, my biggest dream is to join your company and let your power continue to guide me....... But at this time, all I feel is the vicissitudes of life and helplessness, and there is a hint of struggle!! ”

I picked up the beer can next to me and took another sip, just smiled and shook my head, now I really have no enthusiasm for life, I am like a rusty machine, stiff in the time of a regular look, roundabout.

"Uncle, you should be very happy, there are so many people who worship you, and there is a happy family, and I have also seen your wife, she is a very beautiful and temperamental woman!" Jiang Xiaomo looked at me very sincerely and said.

The lonely reflection of the moonlight on the stone wall in front of it makes people feel very cold, but it is a good night to tell.

"Want to hear my story?" After being silent for a long time, I said to Jiang Xiaomo.

"I'm looking forward to it, I'm looking forward to it...... In the eyes of those of us admirers, you are like a mysterious garden, and no one has ever known your real life! ”

I looked up at the sky and asked for a long time, "Do you think the moon is beautiful?" ”

"Well, it's beautiful!"

"You think it's beautiful because the light hides its ugliness, and it's not as perfect as it seems, and if you look at it with the help of a telescope, you'll find that underneath the gorgeous exterior is ugly potholes...... Me too! I am a city in your eyes, but in fact it is in ruins! ”

I subverted Jiang Xiaomo's cognition, she looked at me with mixed emotions, was silent for a long time, and I asked, "Is there any smoke?" ”

I wanted to smoke so much at the moment that I asked a girl who had no possibility of smoking at all.

"Hmm." Jiang Xiaomo nodded, took out a pack of unopened cigarettes from her small satchel and handed it to me.

This time, I looked at her in surprise: "You smoke?" ”

"My boyfriend's, he's a big smoking gun, and I confiscated it to control his smoking." Jiang Xiaomo explained.

This coincidence solved my urgent need, I took out a cigarette and lit it, took a deep breath and said, "Thank you boyfriend for me." ”

"Uncle, it's not important, tell me your story, I really want to hear it, I really want to hear it......."

I nodded, gathered my thoughts and said, "The story should start when I was a freshman, one ordinary night, my brother and I participated in an open-air party held in our school in a dynamic zone, that day we sang Xu Wei's "Blue Lotus", maybe fate, maybe it was a coincidence, our singing attracted a girl like a blue lotus......."

.......

It lasted for an hour, and I finally finished talking about all my experiences in the past 8 years, and my mood was a little relieved, and all the emotions were sighed and smiled!

As a listener, Jiang Xiaomo has cried several times and has not spoken for a long time.......

"Uncle...... You are really angry, pathetic, and pathetic!! ”

I smoked and was speechless...... What I need at the moment is not an evaluation, right or wrong is just a passing moment after all, and I can't go back and make up for my mistakes and regrets.

After a moment of silence, I looked at the time and said to Jiang Xiaomo, "I have to go, do you want to come with me?" ”

"I'm sad and want to sit a little longer!"

"It's just a story for you, don't be sad!"

"But I'm really sad, sorry for you......"

Maybe I shouldn't have said this to Jiang Xiaomo, she is just a student who has not been deeply involved in the world after all, but I used my own desolation to attack her pure and primitive truth, which is really a kind of recklessness and a sin for me.

I patted Jiang Xiaomo's shoulder and comforted: "Xiaomo, we can understand it from another angle, it is precisely because my world is so dirty that I have found the most beautiful wish....... Have you forgotten what I told you just now that you want to build this place into a realistic version of a utopia....... Does the unbearable and dilapidated of the individual, in front of this most beautiful wish, seem vain and empty? ”

Jiang Xiaomo looked up at me and said complainingly: "But the flame in your heart has been extinguished, where do you still have the motivation to realize your wishes?" ”

I was silent for a while and said, "One day, someone will help me light this flame again!" ”

"Is it Mo Han, or is it Angel...... Or a woman who hasn't appeared in your life yet? ”

I shrugged: "I don't know...... But there will be! ”

Jiang Xiaomo nodded and said, "Uncle, you must do what you say and turn this place into a paradise free from pain and sorrow!" ”

"Yes."

........

In the distance, the light of a motorcycle came, and Jiang Xiaomo said to me: "Uncle, I have to go first, my boyfriend is coming to pick me up!" ”

"Go ahead."

"Can you leave a contact information?"

I shook my head.

Jiang Xiaomo was not reluctant, and asked again: "Then will we meet again?" ”

"It depends on fate."

Jiang Xiaomo waved at me, then turned around and ran along the winding path towards the foot of the mountain.

Looking at Jiang Xiaomo's departing back, I took out another cigarette from the pack of cigarettes she left behind and lit it, took a deep breath, looked around again, and whispered to myself: "I like here, if one day I have nothing, I will come here to dig a grave for myself, bury it here, and if I have a lot of money, I will make this place the utopia of my dreams!" ”

In the smoke, I asked myself, "Will I have nothing in the future, or will I have a lot of money, and will the person who lit the flame for me appear?" ”

.......

After smoking a cigarette, He Fei drove his old Passat to the foot of the mountain, got out of the car, and shouted at me in a loud voice: "You kid hurry down, the wine and food are ready, hurry up and drink a few glasses with me." ”

"It's coming!" I answered, slipped the bag of cigarettes into my pocket, and walked down the path to the bottom of the mountain.

In just a short journey, I met several student couples who came to the mountains to admire the moon or whose motives were unknown, which made the tranquility just now seem precious!

I got into He Fei's car, he started the car, and said to me happily: "I heard that He Kuan's kid said that you are back, I called Quan Yun, he is rushing from the city to the town, I have to have a few drinks with you, it is estimated that he will arrive soon!" ”

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