178 Twisted Youth
When he said this, I could only let Datou wait for me here, but he also whispered to him, let him follow, if Sandianshui wants to play any tricks, immediately go to Dongdong and Yang Wei, Datou nodded, knowing the meaning of my words.
I'm also a careful eye, because I don't trust Sandianshui at all, who knows if he will ask me out alone, and then find a good person to ambush me, these days, it's better to be cautious, after all, it's not the first time I've been tricked.
After arranging, I walked in front, three points of water followed behind, I didn't dare to get too close to him, for fear that he would suddenly come up and do something, I found that I was not afraid of anything, I was afraid of him.
After I went to the toilet twice, I gave me a cigarette at three o'clock water, and this time I didn't refuse, after all, he had just shown his loyalty to me, and it would be a bit hurtful if I didn't take his cigarette at this time.
I'm a yard to a yard, although I hate three points of water, but people are indeed as he said, immediately pulled his little brother at night, and admitted in front of his little brother that I was the boss of the first year of high school, and everyone who has been mixed in school knows that he has been the boss, and he values his face very much, so he will easily submit to others, especially in front of his little brother, if he does this, he will still have prestige in the future? So at least for now, he's a man of his word.
I lit a cigarette, looked up at the three points of water, and said, "If you have something to say, just say it." ”
I was happy at three o'clock water, saying that I really looked alike, I asked him who he wanted, he said his stepfather, I was stunned for a moment, and said a little helplessly: "How old is Lao Tzu?" ”
Sandianshui said with a smile: "It's not appearance, maybe it's temperament, Chen Ge, do you mind hearing my story, after listening to it, you may know why I obey you so easily." ”
I nodded, and three o'clock water began to tell, when he was very young, his parents divorced, and he lived with his mother alone, he used to have a sister, but he died of illness not long after he was born, he was born not long after his sister died, and his mother didn't know if he liked girls or became a little strange because of the pain of losing his daughter, he would dress up like a girl for three points of water since he was a child, he would wear skirts, he would make long hair, and comb his braids, in his mother's eyes, he was a girl, so from the time he can remember, I've always thought of myself as a girl.
When he was in the first grade of Sandianshui elementary school, his mother remarried and ushered in a stepfather, once, he took a bath with his stepfather, and found something strange, he saw the symbol of men, he asked his stepfather what it was, how it was different from his mother, and the stepfather replied to him. This was the difference between a man and a woman, and he asked his stepfather if he was a boy or a girl.
The stepfather smiled slightly, and asked him if he wanted to be a man or a woman, because he remembered his mother's teachings since he was a child, so he said that he wanted to be a girl, and the stepfather's eyes became a little strange, and asked him if he wanted to touch it, and the three points of water subconsciously nodded, and then he ended this first experience with his mouth under the guidance of his stepfather.
Later, because of this incident, his stepfather was getting better and better to him, and he would play games with him every day.
But the good times didn't last long, and it didn't take long for his mother to find out, and he had a fight with his stepfather, and he heard a lot of disgusting words that he didn't know at that age, and that day his mother gave his stepfather a slap and left that house forever with three points of water.
He hasn't seen his stepfather since then, he always thinks of himself as a girl, so there are always some strange behaviors at school, such as going to the toilet to go to the women's toilet, such as wearing some trinkets on his head, so he doesn't get the shame of the people around him, they all say that he is a monster, and he doesn't care about the three points of water, he thinks it's very happy, but one time he can't help fighting, because a boy loudly accuses him of not a girl, but a boy, and he beats the boy's nose and bleeds.
This incident made a big fuss, and finally the teacher invited her mother over, and Sandianshui watched his mother continue to apologize to the teacher, while listening to the boy scolding himself, all of which were particularly ugly words, and the boy's parents looked at him with contempt, he felt very strange, why did the people around him hate him? Is it wrong for him to want to be a girl?
After going home that day, his mother lost her temper and beat him hard, and while beating, she told him seriously, Cheng Miao, you are a boy, not a girl, you have to be a man who stands up to the sky, and finally picked up scissors and stabbed his long hair.
That night, three o'clock water cried very sadly, because he had long hair, and since he was a child, his mother told him that he was a girl, he couldn't figure out why his mother suddenly said that she was a boy, and how much of a temper he had, and his behavior was corrected by his mother since then, and his mother no longer bought him beautiful clothes, nor dressed him up, but said in his ear every day that he was a boy.
Even so, the habit of going to the toilet at three o'clock was not corrected until the second grade of elementary school, but the people at school would still make fun of him, saying that he was a sissy, and he didn't dare to resist at three o'clock water, and he was afraid that his mother would beat him again, so he endured it all the time, and his personality became withdrawn, and he didn't have any friends at school.
Gradually, he began to grow up, began to know the difference between men and women, and realized that he was a boy, not a girl, but he was very unhappy, until he was in the sixth grade of elementary school, he groped into the fucking room, put the fucking skirt on his body, and looked at his immature self in the mirror, he suddenly felt extremely happy.
After that, Sanshuishui found a way to comfort himself, during the day he would put up with all the people and things he hated, put his energy into his textbooks, and at night, he would sneak to his fucking room, put on ill-fitting skirts, and giggle and do his homework, a habit that has remained until now.
He always remembered that he was a girl, and a boy was just his identity during the day, because of this, his orientation began to become strange, he didn't like women, but he had a strange feeling for men, he knew that this feeling was given by his stepfather, and he never forgot that man......
After listening to the story, I was confused, I didn't know how to react, I didn't even know how to say, his mother's wrong love for giving three points of water since he was a child, and his stepfather's wrong enlightenment to him, caused him to become this appearance of neither male nor female.
I suddenly felt that Sandianshui was not so disgusting, and I felt that he was very pitiful, but there was a trace of admiration, because when people all over the world said that you were wrong, Sandianshui still thought that he was right, and this persistence made me admire.
Three points of water said with a smile: "It's really a twisted and dirty youth, right, you can laugh if you want, I won't blame you, anyway, since I was a child, I've been spent in other people's teasing, I don't know why I want to tell you about this, maybe it's because you're like a stepfather, or maybe because I think if it's you, you'll definitely understand me, I don't know why, that's how I feel." ”
I still didn't answer, and Sandianshui continued: "Do you know who my favorite star is?" It's Leslie Cheung, not because his singing is good, but because he is not afraid of being photographed when he goes shopping with his same-sex partner, I like his courage, but sometimes I really think it's strange, why do people see a man and a woman who can drag their hands and walk on the street, two men, two women can't? Will it be blamed? I have always believed that true love is independent of gender, and seeing love should be the attitude of one soul to another. and not the reaction of one organ to another. ”
I spread my hands and asked three points of water, is he going to bend me? Sandianshui bluntly said that he was working hard, and I looked at him and said, "Actually, I don't think I hate this kind of thing as a, and I don't remember meeting a that disgusts me." Some is indeed disgusting, but not because he is gay or heterosexual, and in my eyes, those who are so-called "in accordance with the laws of nature" are not too many disgusting guys? ”
After I said this, Sanshui's eyes lit up, but I quickly waved my hand and said, "Even so, I still won't like you, because first of all I have a partner, but it's not that I don't accept homosexuality, but I'm not a homosexual, you know what I mean, right?" ”
Three o'clock water sighed, and returned to the appearance of a little woman: "Really, I have been talking for so long, but the result still doesn't move you, why is your heart so hard?" But that's fine, at least you don't hate me as much as you used to, do you? ”
I nodded and said, "It's your choice, I support you, but don't waste your effort on me, I'm definitely a 100% straight man!" ”
Three o'clock water said happily again: "It's hard to say, every man I've been to before said this, and as a result, it's not ...... that I'm obedient."
Before he finished speaking, I was about to leave, and I was in a hurry, pulled my arm and said, "Do you hate me, can we be friends if we can't be lovers, don't be ruthless." ”
I looked back at him and said, "Correct, you just said follow me, so now strictly speaking, you are my little brother!" I'm a person who doesn't usually accept annoying little brothers. ”
Three points of water were stunned for a moment, let go of his hand, and then took a step back, his eyes were full of gratitude, he seriously lowered his head and said to me: "Thank you for your understanding." ”
I patted him on the shoulder, didn't speak, turned around and walked towards the door of the toilet, and just halfway through, I heard Sandianshui say seriously: "Chen Ge, if I have sex reassignment surgery, will you fall in love with me?" ”