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Fu Lingyuan was not by his side for the fortieth day, thinking about him.

“…… I've been pregnant for 100 days. The two unexplained bleeding cases that I had told you earlier did not recur, and during the afternoon prenatal check-up, the doctor told me with certainty that both babies were healthy so far and that I was reassured. I promised on my lips, but my heart was still not completely settled. ”

"Two days ago, when I was on video with Mrs. Fu and Qingli, Qingli proposed that the 100th day should be celebrated. Mrs. Fu laughed at her, and she was not born for 100 days. But in the evening, the nanny who was in charge of taking care of my daily life stuffed me with a jade bracelet - a gift that Mrs. Fu had prepared for me at some point. And I specifically told that it is best not to wear jewelry during pregnancy. ”

"As it happens, I don't like to wear jewelry in the first place. Otherwise, I wouldn't just put the amethyst hedgehog necklace, chalcedony and wedding ring you gave away. No, necklaces should be excluded, it really is...... It's even better than Koko - forget it, there's no way to open your eyes and talk nonsense, Koko is uglier than a necklace. ”

Speaking of Koko, it and Ah Zhen's family, as well as Ah Shu and Ah Shang's family, Mrs. Fu originally did not agree to accompany her, Yan Xi's pitiful eyes were really unbearable, and in the end they were consigned together. In fact, this is better, although after Yan Xi came here, he completely regained the freedom that he did not have when he was in China, but Ah Needle They have been with him for a long time, even if he has made new friends, he also has deep feelings for old friends. Separate...... It's really uncomfortable. ”

"The reason why I didn't let them go with me was mainly because I was pregnant, saying that pregnant women can't keep cats and dogs, and I was worried about contracting toxoplasmosis. Of course, this has been confirmed to be a rumor. However, in order to reassure everyone, Ah Shu and Ah Shang's family were sent to the hospital for laboratory tests, and they were not kept directly at home, and the pet store in the foster community center was very close, and Yan Xi could go to see them at any time. ”

"This also makes it easier for Ah Shu and Ah Shang's children to breed with other cats in the pet store, and they will soon have kittens. It is impossible to raise so many more at home, and Yan Xi is not persistent, and takes the initiative to give the kitten to the person who wants to raise a cat when the time comes. It's just that...... Yan Xi often recited Gege. ”

“……”

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On the sixty-first day that Fu Lingyuan was not around, I missed him.

“…… I am four months pregnant. My stomach swelled into a small ball. ”

"Didn't you always think of gummies in your stomach? Later, I didn't have a chance to tell you, it was two gummies. In fact, the last pregnancy test, the doctor told me the gender of the two children. Today it is officially confirmed that you are out of breath, and your daughter's dream can come true. But...... Think about it, how to compensate our son who has been ignored by us...... Chu Qiao can also fulfill her dream of being a godson. ”

"By the way, you can't guess who I met in the hospital. Remember Zhuang Yi's soft Liang Dawson? I didn't expect to meet acquaintances in other places. Zhuang Yirou also went for a prenatal checkup, her month was older, and she would almost give birth in about two months. For the sake of time, I don't have time to say more, so I don't know much about the living situation of the two now, but I left contact information for each other, and we will meet and talk again when I have time. ”

"The dealer's side...... I haven't been back. After Erguan and Jiusi were called back by me from Jiangcheng, they completely cut off the news, maybe because Ruan Chunhua died and escaped, and the second uncle in the clan also lost contact with him temporarily, and the second uncle in the clan couldn't find me. Two days ago, I asked Chu Qiao to inquire about the news of Jiangcheng, only to learn that the female head of the Zhuang family died of illness. It's the guy who is wearing a human skin mask and pretending to be me. It seems that there is a new owner, but this time even the police can't find out the identity of the new owner. You say, does Ruan Chunhua still secretly control the dealer now? Was the new head of the family also supported by Ruan Chunhua? After Ruan Chunhua 'passed away', did he just run back to Jiangcheng and hide? ”

"Single Family...... According to the understanding of Jiao Yang and Zhou Rui and their group, Shan Minghan is still in the bureau. He seems to ...... Abandoned by a single family. Although the general public is still unaware of the experiment, it has been exposed in a small range of related research fields, and the ethics committee has taken the lead in protesting, and many well-known experts have also co-signed the agreement. It is estimated that it is under pressure that it is impossible to turn a big thing into a small matter like this, so a few people were found to deal with it, most of whom were researchers who were involved like Ruan Chunhua. The Shan family tried to dissociate themselves from the relationship, saying that this was Shan Minghan's personal behavior through a project cooperated by Zhang Weimo and the big drug lord Lu Zhenhua...... Ruan Xuan Hua hinted that there was ZF's acquiescence behind this experiment. The victory on the surface may not represent the real light, but at least, in the short term, it can bring back a little balance between black and white in this world. What do you think? ”

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On the sixty-eighth day that Fu Lingyuan was not around, I missed him.

“…… It's 1:34 a.m. Sydney time, and it's the first time I've written a pregnancy diary at such a time, and it's not that I don't pay attention to rest, I go to bed before 10 o'clock every night. But just now, in my sleep, two children suddenly kicked me. I...... I...... I don't know how to describe the feeling, and the two children only moved a few times, as if their bellies were jumping. I didn't know what was going on at first, so I was scared and called the nanny to take me to the hospital. After being reminded by the nanny, I remembered that it was fetal movement. Whether it's a doctor or when I browse the knowledge of mothers and babies myself, I obviously learned it, but I just forgot it. Such a shameful thing, the nanny actually reported it to Mrs. Fu one by one......"

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On the eighty-seventh day that Fu Lingyuan was not around, I missed him.

“…… Chu Qiao took a vacation earlier and said that he would come to Australia to see me, but he couldn't make the trip. At first, it was because she was a state official, and when she went abroad, the procedures she needed to go through were more complicated and strict than ordinary people. When I asked her about her progress during the video yesterday, she complained to me that Ma Yi didn't let her come. I asked the reason, her momentum turned 180 degrees, and she was embarrassed to say, and finally controlled her Internet time, only to learn that she also had good news. Well, now it's okay, her leave has been extended again. ”

“…… All of Lu Zhenhua's assets have been frozen, and Lu Shaojie, the original heir of Sanxin Group, is invalid, which also proves that Wang Xueqin really likes Lu Shaojie, not for money, and is still willing to take care of Lu Shaojie. However, legally, Wang Xueqin is not Lu Zhenhua's wife, Wang Xueqin can't take Lu Shaojie directly, and Lu Shaojie is temporarily handed over to the Children's Welfare Institute. Chu Qiao is already actively going through the formalities with Wang Xueqin. Over the years, Wang Xueqin seems to have accumulated a lot of private money, and she is already planning to take Lu Shaojie and her three daughters abroad according to the previous plan after successfully adopting Lu Shaojie. Chu Qiao discussed it with me in private, which shows that Wang Xueqin's private money may not be simply 'a lot'. She joked, was Wang Xueqin too smart or Lu Zhenhua turned a blind eye and allowed his woman to 'steal' so much money from him? Chu Qiao also said that Wang Xueqin was very attentive and went to the tombs of Zhuang Peiyu and 'me', and I don't know what she talked about with Zhuang Peiyu and 'me'. I'm curious. ”

“…… Recently, my hands have been a little difficult, and I have struggled to write, and the time spent on pregnancy diaries has increased. The nanny asked me to write for a while, I had to rest for a while, get up and walk around, otherwise it would be easy to hurt my eyes. But I want to talk to you more and more......"

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On the ninety-ninth day that Fu Lingyuan was not around, he still missed him.

“…… Jiusi has already reconnected with Cao Wangde. My 'accidental death' was a good opportunity for Cao Wangde to embezzle all of Huaxing's assets, not to mention that no one knew that I was the real boss behind Huaxing, but Cao Wangde didn't. Such a person is really rare now. I am also embarrassed to continue to occupy the majority of Huaxing, in order to thank Cao Wangde for sticking to Huaxing, thank Cao Wangde for his dedication to Huaxing, first transfer 70% of Huaxing to him, I selfishly left 30%, which is already too much to make me embarrassed. Cao Wangde did not agree. So the matter was deadlocked. So...... Although I am no longer the head of the banker's family, I have not fallen out of the ranks of rich women, and I still have the ability to support you, when will you come back to eat soft rice......? ”

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On the one hundred and twentieth day that Fu Lingyuan was not around, I missed him very much.

“…… The child is almost six months old, and his belly is already swollen like a balloon, and I have some difficulty sitting at my desk. The nanny advised me that if I had to keep a diary, I would dictate it with a voice recorder, and that I should write it with a pen if I didn't have to. I tried the recorder for a few days, but I fell asleep because I was sleepy, pressed the recorder, and accidentally deleted all the dictation for several days. The sensitivity and fragility of pregnancy made me cry. I still used paper and pen again. ”

"Mrs. Fu and Qingli still haven't been able to come and see me. Mrs. Fu didn't say it explicitly, I also know that the Fu family is sensitive, where can the people of the Fu family go abroad casually? Actually, it doesn't matter if you can't come to see me, everything here is very well arranged, I have gained 20 pounds, and I am starting to think about how to lose weight after giving birth. ”

"Skills such as changing diapers, soaking milk powder, holding children, etc., should be what you need to master, but I learned them all through Yan Jia. Even so, in the future, all the things with the children will be up to you, and I only need to be responsible for unloading, which is enough. ”

"I only remembered to tell you today that you ...... At home, you're already a dead man, just like me - you were shot dead by the police during a border arrest operation because of resistance. The targets of the Haicheng police's prosecution have also changed from two people, you are hungry for Lu Zhenhua, to only one Lu Zhenhua. Even so, Lu Zhenhua still tried to transfer a lot of charges to you. I don't know how long this trial will last. Maybe a year, maybe two years. Anyway, after all, it is impossible for Lu Zhenhua to come out again. ”

"What I care about is that in the eyes of the world, you have been forever fixed in your identity: the head of Qingmen Sihaitang, the CEO of Sanxin Group, Lu Zhenhua's godson, Lu Shaoyuan." 'scum', 'drug lord', 'social cancer', 'heinous crime', 'full of evil', etc., countless negative labels have become all of your life. ”

"Now, I've calmed down my grievances about the matter. It's ridiculous why you care about your name. When you decided to go down this path, you already anticipated that you might face notoriety in the future, right? You don't care, why do I care? The man I fell in love with wasn't one of the above labels. You are Fu Lingyuan, you are just Fu Lingyuan, you will always be my Fu Lingyuan, I am alone, only I know your goodness, and I only need to know it. Oh, yes, now we have to add the two children in the belly. ”

“…… Having said all that, what I really want to tell you today is that I'm upset—"

The message box on the mobile phone came in, interrupting Ruan Shu's thoughts of writing a diary.

Squinting at the past, seeing that it was Jiao Yangfa's apology, her phoenix eyes were cold, she raised her hand to pull Jiao Yang into the blacklist and ignored it.

Not long after, Chu Qiao called her.

Ruan Shu picked it up and took the lead in speaking: "If Jiao Yang asked you to come to Bang to ask for forgiveness, don't talk about it." ”

"How can I him?" Chu Qiao snorted, "I heard that he was cheap again, and I came to Bangbang to scold Jiao Yang together." ”

In order to prove her position, in the next two minutes, Chu Qiao really counted Jiao Yang, and after drinking water with a dry mouth, she mentioned: "By the way, hasn't Jiao Yang been applying for transfer to the border since a while ago?" ”

Participating in the front-line anti-drug work is Jiao Yang's intention for a long time (Chapter 724), since he went to the border with Lao K to cooperate with that mission, the fire in his heart has become more and more intense.

"Well...... "Regarding this, Ruan Shu still admires Jiao Yang very much...... At the beginning, a few "gentlemen" who had a good relationship with Fu Lingyuan, because of the advantages of their natural family class, enjoyed a large part of the information of the society, but they did not lose that breath in the enjoyment, and assumed the social responsibility to match it to varying degrees, and in the future, they will replace their parents and become the mainstay.

Regardless of whether they will change in the future, at least for now, Ruan Shu sees hope, a hope that can compete with the backers behind the experiment.

Maybe there are more people who are numb or even dead, but at least, there is still new power being injected.

"Approval from above." Chu Qiao told the joke, "He shouldn't be unaccustomed to the soil again." ”

Ruan Shu pursed her lips and did not comment.

Ma Yi's voice came from the background, and Chu Qiao was so frightened that he hurriedly hung up the phone.

Ruan Shu put down the phone, lowered his eyes, looked back at the diary in front of him, was quiet for two seconds, picked up the pen again, and continued to write-

"They can let out the news that you're dead, but they can't judge that your chances of being alive are small because they haven't found you for a long time."

"'It's easy for me to die. In this world, there are some people and things for which I am willing to give my life. But in this world, there is only you, which makes me want to live, even if it is very difficult'. These are the words you said to me when you held me next to my ear, and I remember every word. What about you? Didn't Old K bring my words? ”

"Why—"

You're not coming back......

The pen unconsciously pushed harder and harder, until the tip of the pen cut through the page, and she could not finish the last five words.

Tears also filled her vision completely, and she couldn't continue to write.

Ruan Shu sat quietly, letting the tears fall on the page, soaking through the words that had not been long in coming.

She was very sure that the people of the Fu family, Chu Qiao, and Jiao Yang did not hide Fu Lingyuan's news from her, and the fact was that Fu Lingyuan could not be found.

She also knew very well that Fu Lingyuan knew that she was waiting for him, and it was impossible for her to have no news for no reason, as long as she still had a breath, she would definitely let her know that he was still alive and reassure her heart.

But no.

Nothing.

Originally, everyone, including her, believed that as long as the body was not found, there was still hope of living.

And with the passage of time, more and more people have lost their confidence.

No......

No, you can't do that......

He'll definitely be back......

Ruan Shu leaned on the table, covered his bulging lower abdomen, shrugged his shoulders, and sobbed softly.