Zhao Qinhan was arranged to a prison in another province, and Aunt Gu called me several times and earnestly asked me to accompany her to visit Zhao Qinhan, because Uncle Zhao didn't want to go, and Aunt Gu was too worried about Zhao Qinhan's current situation, so she called several times to ask me when I was free.

Since Tao Mengran told me those things, I didn't feel guilty about Zhao Qinhan, but Aunt Gu's plea still made me feel uncomfortable. After all, to be honest, I am still Zhao Qinhan's wife in the legal sense. Seeing Zhao Qinhan being imprisoned, I am still living a bright life, and I can't understand it from the perspective of others. If I don't even visit, it doesn't seem very kind.

So after we confirmed the date of the visit with the prison, I went to S City to pick up Aunt Gu, and we took the car to that place, and it took several times to get there.

The location of such a place is very remote, far from the city, and it looks very desolate. Aunt Gu and I waited for a long time before we saw Zhao Qinhan come out of there, and at first glance it seemed that his mental state was quite normal, his hair was shaved to a shaven and he was dressed in prison clothes.

Seeing us, he kept his head down, and Aunt Gu shouted his name in tears, and shouted for a long time before he picked up the phone.

Aunt Gu collapsed as soon as she heard Zhao Qinhan's voice, the poor old man had spent so many years in peace, but he had to accept such a tragedy as Zhao Qinhan, with tears in his eyes while shouting for warmth, I stood next to me and didn't know how to comfort him, so I could only gently pat Aunt Gu's back with my hand.

After they talked for a while, it was probably Zhao Qinhan who asked Aunt Gu to give me the phone, so Aunt Gu handed me the phone, I sat down, and I said, "How are you?"

"It's good. Thank you for coming with my mother. His tone sounded normal, and his voice was a little deeper than before.

"Tao Mengran told me everything, I didn't want to come to see you, but I can't bear to break Aunt Gu's heart." I said lightly.

I saw his gaze vibrate violently, and he said, "You don't know anymore? …… I don't know what to say now. I'm sorry, little book, but I was too selfish. ”

"Nothing, it's all gone. Hope you have a good makeover in it. I said.

"I just want to ask you, can you forgive me?" He asked again.

"No way. You've ruined my life and your own. The most feared outcome of a smart person is that he not only ruins other people's lives, but also has no way to control his own life. I said.

When he heard me say this, he looked at me curtly, and I knew that Aunt Gu was beside me, so I kept talking to him in English. After saying this, I said, "You can renovate it inside, I hope you can come out soon." I gave the phone to my aunt, she must have a lot to say to you. ”

I saw Zhao Qinhan's mouth moving over there for a long time, but I didn't listen anymore, I directly gave the phone to Aunt Gu, and then walked outside and waited.

After the visiting time, Aunt Gu walked out and asked me with tears in her eyes, "Xiaoshu, what did you just say to Qin Han?"

"Auntie, nothing, don't be too sad, let's go back." I say. I have never called Aunt Gu "Mom".

"Hey, seeing that he has lost weight, he must not be able to eat or sleep well in it, I brought over a few books that he usually likes to read, hoping that he can relieve his boredom in it." Aunt Gu said while wiping her tears, and said, "Xiaoshu, I know that your current concept is not so traditional, Qin Han has been locked up in it for so many years, you will definitely not wait for him." Xiaoshu, I'll discuss one thing with you, can you give us Qiuqiu? Our old couple is now at home every day, in addition to missing Xiaohan, we miss Qiuqiu. You're still young, and we won't blame you if you have a new man in the future. It's just that Qiuqiu is a child of our Zhao family, and we want him to stay in our Zhao family. Little book, what do you think? ”

I didn't expect Aunt Gu to say such a thought coldly, and I felt bad for a while, I knew that if I rashly told Aunt Gu the truth at this moment, Aunt Gu would definitely collapse, but if I didn't tell her, how should I refuse if she made such a request?

On the way back, Aunt Gu kept talking in my ear about Zhao Qinhan's childhood, saying how worry-free and excellent he was since he was a child, how smooth and peaceful his previous life was, and how smooth and peaceful his family had been since he was a child.

Hearing the end, I couldn't help but say to Aunt Gu: "Auntie, it's not that I'm cold, it's that I married Qin Han, and there are too many things you don't know." I don't know what to say to you, but anyway, I'm determined to raise Qiuqiu myself. I understand your feelings, and I hope that you two can be relieved and live out your old age well. If I had time, I would definitely visit you. ”

"Xiaoshu, it's unrealistic to take Qiuqiu with you, if you get married in the future, Qiuqiu will definitely be disgusted by then." When Aunt Gu heard this, she immediately became anxious with me.

"Auntie, there are some things I don't want to tell you now, let's all spend a period of time in peace, and when this matter gradually passes, I'll tell you then, okay?" I saw that Aunt Gu was anxious, so I said.

After sending Aunt Gu home, I returned to the farmhouse to continue my business. My flower garden business is very good, so I started to run orders in H City, gave up the previous plan to open a flower shop, and directly signed a cooperation agreement with the existing flower shop, and we were responsible for supply. For this reason, I recruited several more people and expanded this channel.

In the past few years, I have blindly pursued peace, and I haven't thought about how to make money at all. The amount of money in my bank account is increasing more and more, which makes me have higher expectations for life.

About a month later, the prison called me out of the blue and told me a shocking news. The prison told me that Zhao Qinhan committed suicide in prison and was not rescued.

When I heard the news, I hurriedly told Xing Feng, and Xing Feng and I drove there overnight, but we were greeted by Zhao Qinhan's already cold body.

The person in charge of the prison handed us all the relics of Zhao Qinhan, which contained a thick manuscript recording the process of his liking for me from the beginning to forcing me step by step towards marriage, as well as the letters he wrote to his father and mother respectively, as well as a pile of books and a few of his clothes.

When I got this, my hands were heavy, and the expression of Xingfeng was as solemn as mine. I trembled for a long time and didn't dare to look at the manuscript he left behind, I didn't expect that he was so calm behind the original mourning more than death, I heard that he had already committed suicide when he first entered the prison, only this time it was successful, he hanged himself in the middle of the night and died, and when the guards found out, he was silent......

When I saw his body covered with a white cloth, I instinctively became scared in my heart, I didn't dare to step forward, I didn't dare to open the white cloth, I kept trembling, the torture wind put its arms around my shoulders vigorously, I couldn't believe that he was dead like this......

Was it because of what I said that made him completely hopeless? Is it because of the huge blow of this person before and after him that he lost his living **? Is it because I didn't give him hope that he completely lost faith in life? Or is it because he has never failed in his life, so one failure made him completely give up his plan to live?

I don't dare to think that he is dead, I would rather not see his body, I would rather I have not experienced all this. I felt that all the blood in my body was congealed, and the intense grief forced me to lose sleep night after night, I did not dare to look at the manuscript he left behind, I did not know how to deal with his parents, and I did not know how to continue the years to come......

He's dead...... He actually chose to commit suicide, and when I think about it, I feel paralyzed and weak.

After Zhao Qinhan was cremated, Xing Feng informed Aunt Gu and Uncle Zhao that all these matters were handled by Xing Feng, I heard that Uncle Zhao was admitted to the hospital that night after hearing that Zhao Qinhan had committed suicide, and Aunt Gu cried all day long and wiped her tears without eating or drinking......

I returned to the farmhouse for several days and was haunted, dreaming every night, dreaming every night that Zhao Qinhan was standing alone in the void of the universe, looking at me affectionately. I woke up from my dreams every night, and then I became delirious.

I was completely frightened by this sudden life and death, I had a serious illness, my consciousness was constantly drifting as if it had been hollowed out, and there was nothing in front of me except for a barren land, except for Zhao Qinhan......

Later, I learned that during that period of time, everyone took me everywhere to see a doctor but to no avail, countless medicines were fed in and vomited, I didn't eat or drink every day, just lay there, with a vague smile on my face, and it lasted like this for nearly a week, the whole person was dehydrated and thin, and my father even quietly began to prepare for me......

Later, my grandmother reminded me that I might have hit an evil spirit, so this situation happened. So, my father went on a trip to the Goddess Mountain, and invited the Taoist priest of the temple on the Goddess Peak home, and my father, who never believed in superstition, was stunned this time to let the Taoist priest do the Dharma for me, everything sounded suspenseful and hanging, but two days later, I began to eat, and after another week, I gradually became conscious, thinking that I was just a dream, but I didn't expect that time had passed so long.