"Later, I was really tired, when I happily packed my luggage and was about to go home on the day my brother gave birth, my mother said to me on the other end of the phone, Xue'er, don't come back, your brother-in-law is a teacher, if she knows that you are doing this, our family can't afford to lose this person, you just find a man outside to marry, don't go home again in this life, Mom can't stand you, but Mom can't afford to lose this person." Xiaoxue said as she spoke, tears falling like beads of broken threads.

"Do you know how I felt when I heard those words? I was so desperate that the last place in my heart was empty, and I looked back at my years and felt like a complete joke. I am a candle that burns myself and gives all the light to others, and when you turn into a broken candle, they all usher in the light, who cares about your tears? Xiaoxue's sentences are like a cone, which makes my heart hurt too.

Xiaohua also cried, and Xiaohua said, "Why did you never mention it?" You're still pretending to be so happy, pretending to be so indifferent. You see, your illness is simply out of sorrow. ”

Xiao Xue smiled miserably with tears in her eyes, and said slowly: "The matter of Ding Bell has nothing to do with Xingfeng. I got drunk on him, I was greedy, I wanted to have him, even if it was for one night. I've had miscarriages before, I thought I would never have another child in my life, I didn't think I would get pregnant. I feel like everything is arranged by God, and I am very grateful to God for giving me meaning in this way. ”

Xiaoxue said this, smiled, she held the hand of the little painting with one hand, and the hand with the other, she said: "Little book, little painting, every time you praise Ding Ding Bell handsome, I secretly have fun, because I know in my heart who he looks like." He is really becoming more and more like Xingfeng, and sometimes some small looks and small actions are like him. Ding Bell has been very sensible and worry-free since he was a child. Hey......"

Xiaoxue let out a long sigh and said with tears in her eyes: "If I have three long and two short, you must help me take care of Ding Bell." I don't plan to treat this disease, I want to leave a sum of money for Ding Ding, you can keep it for me, Xiaoshu, and I will trouble you to take care of it after Ding Ding. The reason why I say this today is that I feel pitiful, and this kid follows me...... Pitiful too. ”

A word made us all cry, the three of us hugged each other and cried, I was so sad that I didn't know what to say, but Xiaoxue touched my cheek and said, "Xiaoshu, do you know? In this life, the person I envy the most is you, and the person I admire the most is also you. ”

"Xiaoxue, don't say anything for a lifetime, as long as there is hope for your illness, we will treat you. If you feel that no one hurts without a home, we will all be your sisters in the future, and our home will be your home......" Xiaohua said with a whimper.

"Silly girl, you, too reckless, originally a good hand, but you played it badly, no wonder you can't win money playing mahjong, you are too anxious." Xiaoxue rarely said so many things so seriously, she shed tears as she spoke, Xiaohua cried, and she said, "You should learn more from Xiaoshu, Xiaoshu has been so down-to-earth along the way, and he has not delayed anything that should be done, and he has gone through so many hardships." In all these years, I haven't seen her give up on herself. Seriously, I'm really happy to have such a friend. ”

After Xiaoxue finished speaking, she put both of us on her shoulders, her tone sounded so light, she gave me the feeling that she seemed to have finally been relieved, she was not nostalgic at all, the only thing she couldn't worry about was the ding...... Therefore, this is the fundamental reason why she doesn't want to be treated, she has no attachment to this world for a long time.

Perhaps, the matter of Ding Bell was just what she deliberately revealed to Xiao Hua through drunkenness, her purpose was probably to hope that after she left, Xing Feng could remember the blood relationship with Ding Bell and have a sense of responsibility for Ding Bell.

The more I thought about it, the more scared I felt, and the more I pondered, the more I felt that Xiaoxue seemed to have already made up her mind to leave. What a person is most afraid of is not being poor or starving and cold, but that she has long lost hope in the world, and living has become her most burdensome thing.

This illness, perhaps, seems to Xiaoxue to be a relief.

"Xiaohua, learn more from your sister in the future, I may not have time to attend your wedding, but you are so beautiful, you will definitely find a good man." Xiaoxue still said in that casual tone, and said, "Xiaoshu, I am relieved, Jin Yan found her, which is a blessing in his life." ”

"Xiaoxue, don't talk about it, I don't want to hear it, it sounds like a goodbye, I don't want to hear that." Xiaohua was so sad that he simply covered his ears.

I didn't speak, and I felt an indescribable heaviness in my heart. Often in the face of such heaviness, I don't know what I can say, because I don't have the slightest defense in my heart.

"Your eldest sister...... She is really an unattainable woman, and I know that I will never be able to be such a woman in this life or even in the next life. Xiaoxue ignored Xiaohua's words, and suddenly smiled again, saying, "But in the next life, I want to work hard and become a woman like Xiaoshu." ”

I didn't laugh, and Xiaohua didn't laugh either, we both understood what Xiaoxue's words meant. Except for Ding Bell, she has nothing to love. Once a person loses his or her combat effectiveness in life, he is overwhelmed by endless negative emotions and loses his armor before he even starts fighting. A person's biggest enemy is often not illness, not superficial hardships, but one's own emotions.

I collected a lot of examples of Xiaoxue's victory over cancer, I accompanied Xiaoxue to her hometown, and when she was about to reach her door, she retreated again, she said: "Forget it, I was not treated when I was alive, and I bothered them when I was dying."

She insisted on not wanting to go home and refused to take any medication, saying that the only hope she had was to die gracefully. She doesn't have any choice in this life, so she only hopes that when it comes to death, she can choose how she wants to die.

We watched her hair fall out day by day, watched her become skinny day by day, and watched her die of illness day by day...... In the end, I couldn't bear it anymore and ran to Xingfeng's office to look for him.

When I went, Xing Feng was in a meeting, and I sat in his office and waited for half an hour. After Xing Feng saw me, he understood why I came, and he asked lightly, "How is Xiaoxue now?"

I shook my head: "She has completely given up hope of life, and is bent on death, living every day as if it were her last." I laugh every day, but I laugh so hard that I feel very distressed. ”

"Hey......" Xingfeng sighed heavily, "what do you need me to do?" ”

As smart as he is, he naturally knows why I came to him, so he asks me straight to the point.

"You go and talk to Xiaoxue once, I think she still listens to the most in her heart. For so many years, she should have kept you silently in her heart. I said.

"Good. I'll give your eldest sister a call first. After Xing Feng finished speaking, he took out his mobile phone and called the eldest sister, and after explaining in a few words, he said to me: "Let's go."

I went to Xiaoxue's house with Xingfeng, when we went in, Ding Bell was holding warm rice porridge and sending it to Xiao Xue's mouth in small bites, Xiao Xue was lying on the head of the bed with difficulty, Ding Bell was wearing a primary school student's uniform, with a face of tenacity and forbearance, such a small child, probably understood that his mother was leaving, but he was stunned and didn't show it, while feeding while encouraging Xiao Xue and said: "Mom, you have to come on, because Ding Bell will also come on." Ding Bell will study hard and let her mother live a good life when she grows up. Mom, eat fast, take an extra bite......"

Xing Feng and I stood by the door, watching this tear-jerking scene, and my heart was indescribably heavy and sad. I saw that Xing Feng's eyes were full of tears, and at that moment, I thought he must have thought of his own strength, when his parents died when he was a child. It is undeniable that Ding Bell has the shadow of the torture wind on his body, especially the side face, which seems to be a copy of the punishment wind...... But why didn't we find out before? 360 Search: Drunk Night Indulgence: A Kiss and Entanglement Update quickly

Xiao Xue was the first to see us, and Xiao Xue said with difficulty: "Ding Ding, your Aunt Xiaoshu and Uncle Xingfeng are here, go and invite them in."

Ding Bell turned his head to see us, quickly put down the dishes and chopsticks, and walked over and grabbed my and Xingfeng's hands respectively, Xingfeng's whole body trembled, this is the kind of power that blood relationship is self-evident. Even if you never realized that this child was your own, once you know that he is your own son, your mood will definitely change dramatically, and no matter what you do from now on, this child will definitely not be able to let go......

"Xiaoxue, are you better?" Xingfeng walked over and sat down.

"It's fine." Xiaoxue smiled bitterly, and it could be seen that the arrival of the torture wind made her very happy.

"Ding Bell, peel apples for your uncle and aunt." Xiaoxue commanded again.

"Don't be busy, Ding Bell, you go and do your homework, Uncle has something to say to you later. Now, Uncle wants to talk to your mother. Xing Feng said to Ding Bell, with a slight tremor in his tone.

Ding Bell obediently walked out and closed the door, Xing Feng looked at Xiao Xue lying on the bed, and said slowly: "Xiao Xue, we won't mention the past. I know what you want to hear most now, and I've been thinking about it these days, no matter what the situation was before, it's not easy for your mother and son to rely on each other for so many years. I will give you an accurate word today, you can rest assured, I will be responsible for the growth of Ding Bell in the future, and I will not let him live alone. Whatever else you need from me, you can ask for it, and I will promise you. ”