Looking for him thousands of times, sunrise to twilight (2)
Pei Shuyi listened to Pei Yixian's words, and was shocked and confused, what happened? When is she going to kill Pei Tingqing? Although she was delirious at the time, she remembered that she used the medical equipment at Pei Tingqing's bedside because she didn't believe that Pei Tingqing would become a vegetative person, she would rather exchange her life for Pei Tingqing's health, how could she harm Pei Tingqing and let him die?
"Yanqiao, what's going on?" Pei Shuyi suppressed her emotions, stepped forward and asked Yan Qiao, she didn't use her mobile phone in the past few months, she didn't watch TV, she didn't care about the reports in China, and she didn't know that Yan Qiao forced Pei Tingqing to announce their relationship to the public.
Yan Qiao's hand holding Pei Yixian's collar froze there, and after a while, he let go of Pei Yixian, turned around and stood in front of Pei Shuyi, Yan Qiao looked at Pei Shuyi with a self-reproachful and painful gaze, he pursed his lips and said hoarsely, "I'm sorry Mom." ”
"A few months ago, when my dad woke up, I was in prison because of the clubhouse, threatening him with self-harm, and I misunderstood that he was the manipulator behind the scenes, and since he was risking our lives, I would take revenge on him, unless he gave us both a name, otherwise I would continue to stay in prison."
Pei Shuyi's body shook when she heard this, she stretched out her hand and pointed at Yan Qiao tremblingly, her face was pale and she couldn't even speak clearly, "You ............", no wonder Yan Qiao asked her to wear a mask when she got out of the car, that was because she had become the object of being pointed out and discussed, how could Yan Qiao do this?
She knew from the beginning that she would never be able to stand in front of the public as a wife in her life, although she had been sad for this, but she was afraid that the world would look at her, and when she walked on the street, some people would say that she was disgusting, perverted, and disorderly, how could she have children with her cousin who was related by blood?
And she cares more about the reputation of Pei Tingqing and Yan Qiao, otherwise this matter is exposed, how will they behave in the future? When such a scandal spreads, even the entire Pei family chaebol will be hit hard, so the stakes are so important, can't Yan Qiao weigh it?
Pei Tingqing has done too much in order to be with her, and she is also content, at this moment Pei Shuyi was shocked and angry, holding her forehead with one hand, so angry that the whole person was trembling, and her slender body was a little unstable, so she had to press one arm on the bedside table.
Seeing this, Yan Qiao hurriedly stretched out his hand to help her, and repeated in an obscure tone: "I'm sorry Mom." At that time, I thought that Pei Tingqing in order to merge M2K and annex the other three major chaebol families, and treat our dearest people as his tools and pawns, that day when Ah Chu and I drove to Yan Jin's funeral, we finally escaped, and then on Infernal Island, Yan Jin and I fell into the cliff one after another, I broke my leg, Yan Jin was disfigured, and Mom, you are also crazy. ”
"I thought that all this was caused by Pei Tingqing, so I wanted him to be ruined and pay a painful price, until the second uncle came to me shortly after Pei Tingqing died of illness and told me all the truth, I knew that I was wrong to blame Pei Tingqing. Mom, I'm sorry............" Yan Qiao said only to feel a sour look in his eyes, and some kind of liquid was about to burst through his eyes.
Pei Shuyi pushed Yan Qiao away at once, turned her head sharply and stared at Yan Qiao, she said angrily and disappointedly: "You would think that he is joking with our lives in order to achieve his own goals? Yan Qiao, how can you misunderstand him so much? ”
"Whether it is his uncle as your instructor over the years, or your father Pei Tingqing, how much he has done for you and how much he loves you, can't you really see it? It doesn't matter if you are not grateful, you still force him and take revenge on him, how could I give birth to a son like you? Pei Shuyi felt heartbroken and pathetic, no wonder Pei Tingqing would make everyone think he was dead and no longer let anyone find him.
He put too much effort into Yan Qiao's son, and gave Yan Qiao the best with everything he had, but what did he get in the end? His own son not only misunderstood him like an outsider, but also wanted to take revenge on him and leave him with nothing, how strong should he be to support all this?
But even so, he didn't scold or blame Yan Qiao at all, he still connived and doted on Yan Qiao, and he didn't make any excuses, because he was tired and disappointed in everyone, and he no longer cared about anyone's opinion and attitude towards him.
In disheartenedness, he decided to die in everyone's lives from now on, and even more tragic is that even if he died, none of the younger generations and Yanqiao, his biological son, who he had cultivated and raised with his own hands, attended his funeral.
Pei Shuyi's heart twitched for a while, dripping blood and the pain was incomprehensible, one palm pressed on the position of her heart, she was a little suffocated, lowered her head and tears rolled down in large pieces, Yan Qiao was wrong and should be taught, but what about her?
That time should be the time when Pei Tingqing was under the most pressure, when Pei Tingqing asked her if she had ever loved him, why did she have duplicity? Why didn't she admit how much she loved him because she was angry? She thought it was just a small fight, so she fought with him.
If she can't persevere, she will still take the initiative to admit her mistakes and compromise, but who would have thought that such an accident would happen later? He couldn't wake up, even if she said I love you many times, he wouldn't hear it, and finally she became mentally abnormal and moved his medical equipment to test whether he was pretending to be and after confirming that he really wouldn't wake up again, she went crazy.
As a result, everyone also misunderstood her, thinking that she was going to kill him, and Pei Tingqing probably thought so, right? Not only did his son take revenge on him, but even the woman he once guarded with his life said that she had never loved him, or even wanted to kill him, so how could he not despair?
With all the mistakes, right and wrong, who is more responsible? It doesn't matter anymore, the important thing is that he is still alive, and fortunately he has given up everything, at least not his own life.
Pei Shuyi looked at Yan Qiao with red eyes, tears soaked her fair and beautiful face, still so young like a flower in the rain, Pei Shuyi choked up, and said to Yan Qiao in a hoarse voice: "You think he has great ambitions, and wants to reunite the M2K organization, dominate the underworld in the whole of Asia, and annex the other three chaebol families, but you have forgotten." ”
"M2K was created by himself, his hard work for more than ten years, and then he gave it to Duan Xuchu for nothing, and now M2K has also been disbanded by Duan Xuchu. As for his intention to annex the other three chaebols, wouldn't you try to get rid of many rivals in order to expand your business? Because Wei Weiyi is the controller of the Wei family, you love Wei Weiwei, so you have a distinction between good and evil, and you feel that your biological father is heinous, but the only one doesn't love you at all, is it worth punishing your father for her? ”
"You let Pei Tingqing announce to the public that I messed with him, as well as the true life experience of you and Yan Xiao, so what did you get while taking revenge on him? Have you ever thought about me and Yan Xiao? Pei Shuyi shook her head, only sadness and powerlessness remained in her eyes, "How extreme should you be?" Take revenge on others, and ruin yourself as well. ”
In fact, Yan Qiao should have inherited Pei Tingqing, Pei Tingqing used bitter tricks on her and Yan Qiao several times, and his style of acting was crazy and extreme, but that was when Pei Tingqing was sure of himself, but Yan Qiao was completely reckless and reckless.
Yan Qiao's tall figure stood there, with his head down and he didn't say a word for a long time, in fact, after Pei Tingqing admitted the scandal to the outside world, Yan Qiao himself was of course ruined, and from then on he was no longer the third young man of the Pei family's chaebol, he lost his status and all the glory, as well as the ability to call for wind and rain in the entire T City, so he couldn't save Duan Xuchu and the only one, and he couldn't even help them.
Only then did he know that he was wrong, only then did he understand Pei Tingqing, and why Pei Tingqing wanted him to recognize Ning Lianmeng as his mother, even if he didn't want it, Pei Tingqing also gave him such a supreme position as the third young man of the Pei family, otherwise how could he do whatever he wanted and be lawless?
Because what Pei Tingqing gave him was always ready-made, so he didn't cherish it and didn't care, at that time, he thought that even if he was ruined and bankrupt, he still had his mother and Yan Xiao, he could take them out of here, go abroad, and live a stable and happy life from then on.
However, when the real accident happened, he realized how important power and status were, at that time, he mistakenly thought that his mother's plane crashed, but he didn't even have the manpower in his hands that could be used, and finally had to turn to Duan Xuchu to help him find it.
And everyone comes to this world once, no matter how they die in the end, they will die anyway, the important thing is the process of life blooming, just like Pei Tingqing, no matter how hard this life is full of ups and downs, but he lives a wonderful life.
There is something worth remembering when you are old, that is success, it is undoubtedly sad to come to this world in vain, and the life of being pale and meaningless is undoubtedly sad, so Pei Tingqing will hope that his son will become a dragon and hope that he will achieve something in the future, but it was not until Pei Tingqing could no longer do anything for him that he really understood these truths.
Pei Tingqing, as he wished, made him recognize the facts, and paid a painful price for it, which also proved that Pei Tingqing didn't even care about him, the son who couldn't give up or let go of the most.
He was once very afraid that Pei Tingqing would abandon him and give up on him, and he always longed for Pei Tingqing to love him, but now the result is true, so in comparison, he lost his father, and his heartache was no less than Pei Shuyi.
"Now that you still know............" Pei Yixian opened his mouth at this time, Yan Qiao's back stiffened, and his thoughts were pulled back all of a sudden, he turned to look at Pei Yixian again, and heard Pei Yixian say in an indifferent voice: "Tingqing, he has been relieved, let go of everything, no matter where he is now, he will live very comfortably, so if you are for his good, don't look for him anymore and bother him again." ”
Pei Shuyi suddenly raised her eyes and looked at Pei Yixian when she heard this, since Pei Tingqing let everyone know that he had died of illness, and even Pei Yixian did not know his current whereabouts, as Pei Yixian said, Pei Tingqing really didn't want anything.
So even her, he really doesn't love anymore, doesn't he want to be with her anymore? Yes, she hurt him so deeply, his heart is dead, how can he continue to love?
"Big brother, in the end, did you really abandon me?" Pei Shuyi only felt as if her heart was being cut by a knife one by one, and she was about to die of pain, she closed her eyes vigorously, and tears rained down.
Later, before leaving the hospital, Pei Shuyi tried to pretend that nothing happened, and said to Pei Yixian with a smile: "Since he will live well without me, then don't worry, no one will bother him anymore." It's just that one day if you get in touch with him, or see him, please tell him on my behalf that I love him and will not change in this life. ”
After that day, Pei Shuyi followed Yan Qiao back to Pei's house, she lived in Pei Tingqing's bedroom, everything in it had not changed, Pei Shuyi walked over and opened the wardrobe, and saw the shirt, suit and tie inside, Pei Tingqing was so handsome when she put it on, and her tears always flowed uncontrollably.
Pei Shuyi was lying on the bed, the tip of her nose was full of the breath of Pei Tingqing's body, it smelled so good, she was infatuated with it for more than 30 years, they used to love each other on this bed, and after the fierce battle, they were sweating profusely on each other, so they hugged each other tightly, eager to integrate into each other's bodies.
Under the soft light of the bedside, she was held by Pei Tingqing, lying on the crook of his strong arm, feeling the tension and heat of his muscles, so satisfied and steady; He stroked her hair with his broad palm, staring at her, his inky eyes filled with tenderness and love.
He smiled on his lips, so handsome and beautiful, and said that he loved her and said touching love words............ Everything, all the feelings of love are so profound, they swallow and drown Pei Shuyi's whole person, but why does she still remember that Pei Tingqing is so ruthless, saying that if you don't love, you won't love?
Pei Tingqing put it down, but what should she do? She can't let go, what if she can't live without him? However, as Pei Yixian said, without her Pei Shuyi, Pei Tingqing would have a good life, so isn't her letting go the greatest fulfillment?
It hurts, it turns out that the one who keeps the memories alone is the most painful, if she had known that this was the end, then she would rather go crazy until she dies than wake up, then it won't be like this moment, so painful that she just wants to end her life immediately.
"Big brother ............" Pei Shuyi hugged the quilt tightly in her arms, the whole person curled up in a ball, her body kept trembling, she buried her face deep in the pillow, tears poured out of her closed eyes, and the quilt was already wet.
Pei Shuyi began to have insomnia, unable to sleep all night long, constantly replaying the bits and pieces of the past with Pei Tingqing in her mind, when she loved someone so deeply, even her breath was painful, and tears couldn't flow.
Pei Shuyi only felt unprecedented despair, losing Pei Tingqing, she really didn't know the meaning of her existence, since it was so painful, why was she still alive?
So on a snowy night, Pei Shuyi held the sweater she had given to Pei Tingqing in her arms, and cut her wrist with a blade in the bathtub, and later Pei Shuyi was sent to the hospital, and when she opened her eyes again, it was already late at night.
Yan Qiao sat on the chair next to Pei Shuyi's bed, holding one of her hands tightly, the tears in his eyes rolled down big and big, he was a man in his thirties, but he was crying like a child at the moment, Yan Qiao couldn't cry and said: "Mom, if you really can't let go of Dad, then let's get him back, okay?" ”
He still remembers that year Pei Shuyi and Pei Tingqing quarreled, for a long time Pei Tingqing didn't pay attention to Pei Shuyi, Pei Shuyi got sick, and now she actually chose to commit suicide, it can be seen that without Pei Tingqing, she really can't live alone.
"No need." Pei Shuyi shook her head, she looked at Yan Qiao, but her pupils were in a trance, without any focus, "He doesn't love me anymore, even if you can forcibly get him to me, what's the use?" It's better to miss it than this. ”
So she thought about it, she wouldn't die again, Pei Tingqing was still alive, then they could at least breathe under the same sky, and she treated him as if he had always been by her side and never left.
Pei Shuyi lived in the hospital for a period of time, during which Yan Qiao asked her subordinates to follow her every step of the way, for fear that she would commit suicide again, and when she returned to Pei's house, it was already spring, and the oleander flowers in the yard were blooming, Pei Shuyi couldn't remember how many times she recalled that year, Pei Tingqing took her to see the peach blossoms.
The mountains were scorching all over the field, and all eyes were pink, and the young man in white clothes walked towards her from under the peach blossom tree, softening her whole past.
And now she is standing under the peach blossom tree in plain clothes, the wind blows, one by one the peach petals are flying, and the ground is full of flowers, she has waited for a long, long time, but she has never seen the man she loved with all her life.
Pei Shuyi walked back to the living room and sat down next to the black piano in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, this piano was still there, and she had the impression that she had only used it once, or that morning, at the request of Huo Huiyuan, she and Pei Tingqing played the tune together.
After so many years, the people who should have left have left, she once thought that Pei Tingqing would accompany her to the end, but now that Pei Tingqing is gone, she is here alone.
Pei Shuyi's slender fingers landed on the black and white keys, "You're cold, tired, I'm crying."
It's not happy at first, you write on cardstock
Some love is only given to this, really understood
What's the matter, you're tired, and you're happy
I understand, don't talk about it, love fades, dreams are far away
Happy and unhappy, count them one by one, you are reluctant
The feelings of love are so deep that I still remember them
You don't have to wait to say okay happiness
I was wrong, the tears dried up, I let go, I regretted it
It's just that the music box of memories is spinning, how do you stop............"
One night, Pei Shuyi found a brown paper bag at the bottom of the bedside drawer, which should have been placed here by Pei Tingqing.
Pei Shuyi opened it and took out an inspection sheet inside, which turned out to be the identification sheet of the father-son relationship between Pei Tingqing and Pei Zongyou, and the result column indicated ............ In the next second, Pei Shuyi's pupils widened suddenly, and she raised her hand to cover her mouth, not letting the scream come out.
The next day, Pei Shuyi went to Pei's company and held a press conference with the outside world, which was the first time that Pei Shuyi appeared in front of the public after it was revealed that Pei Tingqing and Pei Shuyi's cousin were in love.