Chapter 18 It's not that I don't want you, but I'm lost

He came home and sat on the balcony and smoked again, thinking about all the things he had done to Qiao Xia before, from hiding behind her and asking her to help him solve the problem, to helping him buy lottery tickets for his lost wealth, and having the idea of asking her uncle to come back and take her away quickly. Thinking about this, he really doesn't have the appearance of a father.

When he was smoking, Qiao Yang was attracted by the sound of spraying and turned around, turned off the light, the room was very dark, and Qiao Xia didn't know when he ran out and smelled him smoking, and he had asthma.

Qiao Yang hurriedly snuffed out the cigarette butt in his hand, straightened out his clothes, walked out of the balcony and thought about what he had just thought about, squeezed a smile at Qiao Xia, and said, "What's the matter, you don't sleep so late", because the voice was too gentle, and there was less of the way to flow in the past, Qiao Xia was not surprised, and then the moonlight looked at whether this person was Qiao Yang or not.

After confirming that this was her father who had specially returned to China to recognize, Qiao Xia said with confidence: "I see that you went out in a hurry just now and don't know why, and you smoked gloomily when you came back." I don't have time to give this to you."

Qiao Xia stretched out his hand and took four hundred to Qiao Yang, remembering that Qiao Xia said that he wanted to call his classmates to come to Qiao Yang's performance, but who knew that Qiao Yang was only willing to discount the few performance tickets that were given out and refused to give them in vain, Qiao Xia had no choice but to save her face, and planned to buy a few admission tickets from Qiao Yang with her own money.

Doing something unkind to his daughter again, Qiao Yang let out a long sigh, and there was a smell of smoke mixed with it, Qiao Xia smelled it sensitively, and was forced to cover his nose helplessly.

Qiao Yang blocked Qiao Xia's hand to take the money, and said calmly: "Take it back, your father and I can't afford this money."

The more Qiao Yang spoke to her righteously, the more Qiao Xia felt that something was wrong with this person, and touched Qiao Yang's forehead with the back of his hand to see if he was burned again.

As a result, her body temperature was more normal than hers, and Qiao Xia wondered: "Did you really win your lottery ticket?"

It seems that Qiao Yang didn't win the lottery, and it was like a dream to watch the drama.

Qiao Yang didn't know how to answer Qiao Xia's question with a disparate face, so he came back to his senses and pretended to be serious and asked: "Xiao Xia, did your mother say anything about me before, and what kind of person I am?"

This is very important for every divorced couple, what the other party evaluates of themselves, or what kind of person the other party is to educate their children, whether it is worth learning or staying away from.

Qiao Yang never thought about such a problem, because he was used to being a bastard, and those people all thought that Qiao Yang was a moth without discrimination, and he also felt that Su Man taught Qiao Xia not to get close to Qiao Yang, but Qiao Xia still returned to China to find him, which means that Su Man also saved face for him, and he was not so bad in Qiao Xia's heart, so he also wanted to find out what was going on.

Qiao Xia thought about it and said calmly: "She said... You haven't grown up yet", haven't grown up yet? He's almost fifty.

Qiao Yang couldn't understand what Su Man was thinking, but he couldn't say anything to Qiao Xia, so he scratched his head and looked puzzled: "Your mother's description is really abstract."

The great psychologist Sigmund Freud once said, "Don't get to know women, because women are crazy." But Qiao Yang still asked cheaply: "Then what kind of person do you think I am, a good father?"

He wasn't sure about this question himself, and he was embarrassed to ask Josha, who he didn't think would judge him for good or bad, because Josa was a creature that was more incomprehensible than a woman.

Sure enough, Qiao Xia's answer was: "Have you watched "August Love", that is the movie I have seen the deepest, the little boy in it, born without even knowing his parents, and later he ran out of the orphanage just to find his parents."

"Then did the little boy find it later", Qiao Yang no longer knew what the question he asked before, what attracted him was the next plot.

Joxia nodded: "I found it, the little boy is a genius, a musical genius, his parents are cellists and guitarists, and the little boy has successfully recognized himself with his parents with a concert he organized."

"That kid is amazing", Qiao Yang praised, looked at his watch again and it was past midnight, Qiao Yang consciously yawned: "It's not early, you go to bed early."

After saying that, Qiao Yang went back to the sofa and lay down on his own, Qiao Xia looked at Qiao Yang who was sleeping on the pillow.

In fact, there was a scene in that movie that was the most memorable for Qiao Xia, she didn't dare to tell Qiao Yang that the little boy was lonely and alone on the snowy road, but he insisted on telling him in his heart that his parents didn't want him but got lost, so he wanted to find it.

Qiao Xia is the same, Qiao Yang doesn't have the feeling of being a father, it's just that the feeling is lost, so Qiao Xia is taking Qiao Yang to explore patiently.

She believes that one day the warmth that belongs to her will appear.

The performance time is getting closer and closer, Qiao Yang is also in a sluggish tense rehearsal, the last rehearsal is fully prepared, and the actors' performances are also quite good, especially Qiao Yang, his acting skills do not know that compared with the first time, he has risen more than one grade, which has brought a lot of surprises to the audience.

But the bad ones still go with the flow, and everyone gradually didn't take Huang Shiyun seriously, and let her line up for the last rehearsal and then find a substitute to replace her, which is also an expedient measure.

Even Chen Qiuyan, who recommended her to play Little Jane Eyre, watched it, and in the end, she reluctantly threw the script on the table in person, which was not just angry, but gave her up.

Qiao Yang couldn't do any comfort to the little girl who was crying in the corner, he also left the scene with everyone, it was nothing more than looking back at Huang Shiyun hugging his knees and crying, this repertory troupe is not able to attract people's attention by crying, this Qiao Yang figured it out more than ten years ago, if he cried, he would have been a supporting actor for ten years and cried I don't know how many times.

Gradually, no trace of anyone could be found on the stage, and people forgot Huang Shiyun in the corner, until the spotlights on the stage were turned off one by one, and no light was left for her, and she was shrouded in darkness.

Qiao Yang was dragged to the bar by the single male compatriots in the troupe, and started the 9-to-5 years again, but since that night, he also wanted to try to change his evil ways and be a good father, but that thought was now floating in his mind for a moment and then disappeared, and his colleagues invited guests to the bar, as an early celebration for the end of the performance.

The master DJ who accompanied the stage was changed, and even the waiter invited a more iconic one, Qiao Yang, who hadn't been here for a long time, seemed to be a world away from all this, letting the flash beat his face, thinking about what he usually came to the bar for.

When I see a beautiful girl, I flirt with her, and run away after flirting. This is his consistent criterion, he usually works hard to make himself ten years younger, plus the bar is dimly lit, no girl can see her real age, plus the expression of the gentleman is decent, the love words are full marks, and one is accurate.

So he stared at the girls who passed by him, his eyes were like knives, scraping the girls, but he didn't know if his eyes were too poisonous recently, or if the male hormones were insufficient, and he was not interested in these girls at all. So he turned back to drink with the single male compatriots of the troupe.

Originally, they had seen Qiao Yang's real skills, thinking that they would watch Qiao Yang's skills learn two tricks today, and strive to get rid of the single, but Qiao Yang was a little powerless today, could it be that he really changed his evil and returned to the right with his daughter?

Lao Xu took a cocktail to Qiao Yang and asked with concern: "What's the matter, aren't you usually happy when you see beautiful women?"

Qiao Yang shook his head and didn't answer. The rest of the male compatriots also lost interest for a while and began to discuss the topic of who is better looking in the troupe beauties.

"I am very optimistic about Xiao Zhou, who plays Jane Eyre this time, this girl looks like she has aura and good conditions."

"Why don't you mention little Jane Eyre, it's not bad for everyone."

"Come on, reckless, I don't know which tendon Deputy Head Chen drew to choose her to play."

"If you want to say that Deputy Head Chen is really a big beauty, if anyone can take her down, it will be amazing."

"Didn't you see her eyes glancing at Chief of Staff Joe from time to time during rehearsals?"

Everyone looked at Qiao Yang, Qiao Yang was more experienced than them in dealing with women, so when they played it, they called Qiao Yang a 'Chief of Staff Qiao', and they, Chief of Staff Qiao, are really capable, and even Deputy Chief Chen, who is out of reach, can take it.

Qiao Yang, who was afraid of everyone's eyes, cringed and was admitted to Lao Xu's side, put on a face that didn't care, and shook his hand: "I said don't think too much, people are the flowers of Kaolin, what can you think of me, a three-no-no man, it's nonsense."

One of the 'male compatriots' delegation stood up and explained: "Staff Officer Qiao, is it true that I always think that Deputy Commander Chen is special to you, you see that he is here, and your once-in-a-decade male lead quota will be in your hands"?

Qiao Yang drank some of the wine in the cup, and continued to retort like a defense competition: "That's because I acted well and took special care of me, didn't the teacher like good grades when you were in school?" Also, what do you mean, it's a rare encounter in ten years, why can't I be the male protagonist without Deputy Head Chen."

Qiao Yang watched them answer indefensively, drank all the wine as if disgusted, and touched it habitually, he forgot to bring the bad script, and he had to continue to go home to study it today, and he didn't care about continuing to be presumptuous with them, so he found an excuse to go back to the rehearsal place just now to get back the script.

So he took a taxi back, but found that the lights on the stage were still on, and there was still a person on the stage who was secretly performing, Qiao Yang didn't study it further, and vaguely remembered that his script was still on the back rows of audience seats, he picked up the script that was wrinkled to the pages flying, and he couldn't find a clean white place on it when he wrote and painted with a black pen, and he didn't treat textbooks to this extent when he was in school.

Qiao Yang silently put away the script and was about to leave, but he heard a cry from the stage: "Don't lock me up in the red house." It's the lines of 'Little Jane Eyre', and the voice is like Huang Shiyun, but it's not certain, because Huang Shiyun can't shout to the extent just now.

Qiao Yang looked forward curiously, Huang Shiyun on the stage was trapped by a spotlight, she knelt on the ground, prayed silently to the air, begged for her 'nanny', and begged her 'aunt', the performance was not at all like the rehearsal just now.

made Qiao Yang think that she was dazzled and her ears were ringing, but after watching it for a while, it was indeed Huang Shiyun, it turned out that she could act, and her acting was even better than what she demonstrated to her that day, which also means that she slowly realized the role that day, and finally achieved results today.

Sure enough, as long as people force her, her brain will be enlightened, just like Huang Shiyun, if Chen Qiuyan saw her like this, he would be very happy, he didn't bother Huang Shiyun to continue to act, he thought that this little girl was suitable for this kind of slow enlightenment.