It was the first time since that that that she had made such a gesture of goodwill to him, and he was a little flattered, and hurriedly moved out of the way. Then he asked her, "What book do you want to read?" ”

As he spoke, he led her to the bookshelf wall, and looked back at her, his eyes sparkling with full flattery, "Come and pick it yourself." Take whatever you want. You know I don't like these things anyway. It's just a showpiece here. ”

She didn't answer, just stepped forward, tilted her head and slowly scanned the books on the shelves, occasionally pulling out a book and looking at it twice, and then putting it back in.

Fu Shenxing stopped talking. He took a few steps back, leaned against the edge of the table, and watched her back.

She had been calm since that incident, but he knew that underneath that calm was the fear of sleepless days and nights

。 She had been suffering from insomnia and had to rely on sleeping pills to fall asleep at night. In this regard, he was heartbroken, but he was helpless. He wanted to go up and hug her and comfort her. Tell her "Don't be afraid, I'm here". But he didn't have that qualification, because he was the culprit, the root of all the harm she had suffered.

Those things in the past, he thought that as long as everyone forgot about them, they could be regarded as things that had not happened, like an abscess that had suddenly been punctured, and it was exposed to his and her eyes, unsightly.

It turned out that he remembered everything so clearly, the bastard things he had done to her, and the bastard things he had said. In the past, because I didn't love, I couldn't care at all. You can trample on her wantonly, trample her into the mud. And now, just thinking about those things makes him feel a pain in his chest.

He's like that, so what about her? How could she not hate, how could she forget? She just didn't speak, she just learned to be silent. Except that night she was brutally beaten by Zhang Shou, and when she was unconscious, she asked him "Are you still satisfied?" and since then, she has not accused him of anything.

He was afraid of her silence. He would rather her quarrel with him, quarrel with him, or even pounce on him and beat him, than be silent as she is now. She was standing in front of him, less than two meters away from him, but he knew that she was far, far away from him. The closeness and warmth he received were nothing but his self-deception. Read the full text of the latest chapter

He stood there looking at her, his eyes wetting before he knew it. He is a ruthless person, cruel to others, cruel to himself, and willing to shed blood rather than tears after being sensible, but at this moment, he wants to squat down, hug his head and cry.

She stood in front of the bookshelf for a long time, but finally only picked out a thick dictionary, held it in her arms, turned to look at him, and said, "It's still this one, you can fall asleep when you look at it." ”

Fu Shenxing smiled stiffly, in order to be able to say a few more words to her, and asked her without words: "Why did you choose this book?" ”

He Yan glanced down at the book in her arms, and replied softly: "When I was in school, I fell into trouble, and it is easiest to be sleepy when I memorize this." ”

He smiled, "I'll give it a try when I get back." ”

She didn't speak, only pulled the corners of her lips slightly, and walked out with the book in her arms. He followed her off, and when he reached the door, he couldn't help but speak. "Ayan." He stopped her, stepped forward and grabbed her hand on the doorknob, and leaned close to her from behind, and after a while, he said abruptly: "I'm sorry, I forgot about those things, is it okay?" Please. ”

He Yan was silent for a long time, and finally only patted the back of his hand lightly, and said, "Fu Shenxing, let's all look forward."

。 ”

It's easy to say, but it's easier said than done.

That night, he moved back to the bedroom to sleep with her, but just as he reached out and touched her, she unconsciously shivered and subconsciously hid to the side. He froze for a moment, withdrew his hand in a sneer, and was silent for a while, and then said astringently: "Sleep in peace, I won't touch you." ”

She curled herself into a small ball and slept with her back to him, only to suddenly throw herself into his arms in the middle of the night, hugging him tightly around his neck and burying her head deep in his chest. Before Fu Shen Xingshang had time to rejoice, he heard her cry and say, "Yuan Ze, I'm afraid, he has found it again, and he has found it again!" "Fork group Dongcai.

Fu Shenxing's body froze, his hand stopped in mid-air, froze for a long time before slowly falling again, patting her thin back, and comforting her softly: "It's okay, it's okay." ”

She gradually woke up from the nightmare, and as if realizing that this embrace was not the one she wanted, she stopped crying, let go of her hand, and withdrew from his arms, "Thank you." She whispered, her voice calm and restrained, and she rolled over and shrunk back, wrapping herself tightly in the quilt.

And that's just the beginning.

Her body instinctively refused to be touched by him, and when the scars slowly faded and he couldn't help but want to get close to her, her body would stiffen uncontrollably, no matter how hard he tried, it would not be hot or soft. On several occasions, he tried to tease her with his lips and tongue, kissing her all over her body, while her body remained stiff and cold.

She told him to look ahead, but she stayed where she was, unable to move. Fu Shenxing was in pain, but he couldn't do anything.

Ah Jiang had already returned from Southeast Asia, and seeing these two people torturing each other like this, he couldn't help but persuade Fu Shenxing to let He Yan go, saying, "I don't want to live well with you when I see Miss He, she's just trapped there." It's better to let her leave first, and after three or two years, things will slowly fade, and maybe you can forget it. When you pursue her again, you may not be able to coax her to soften her heart. ”

Reason told Fu Shenxing that what Ajiang said made sense, but he didn't dare to let go, not to say two or three years, even two or three months. He Yan will leave, will go far away, and will never come back. Yes, he was a selfish bastard, and he would rather watch her wither in his hands than let her laugh in the arms of another man.

"Forget about that, okay? Please, Ho Yan, forget the old ones, only when we just met

。 He begged her more than once, and she always calmly answered him "yes", and even tried to adjust herself, but under him, she was still as stiff as ever, and even worse, and once when he touched her, she retched uncontrollably and vomited diligently.

This is the instinctive disgust of the body, the truest expression of her heart, the truest heart that neither her reason nor her hatred for him can suppress.

All his guilt was crushed by her reaction, and after despair came irrational anger, he grabbed her shoulders tightly, gritted his teeth and asked her, "He Yan, what else do you want me to do to let go of the past?" Yes? You tell me, what do you have to do to be satisfied? Zhang Shou I killed, I killed his family, what do you want me to do? That's right, I have trampled you, I have spoiled you vigorously, you retaliated back, did you find someone to force me to come back? I'll let you do it once, so that you can balance it out a little bit? ”

He got up to open the door and shouted downstairs, "Ajiang! Come here! ”

Ah Jiang heard the dispute between the two of them clearly outside, and when he heard this, he timidly went upstairs and called nervously: "Mr. Fu≈≈"

Fu Shenxing's eyes were spitting fire, and he roared angrily: "Get in!" ”

Ah Jiang had to move in step by step, and Fu Shenxing shouted like a madman: "Come, go up to me, go up to her." ”

Ah Jiang was already stupid with fright, and he didn't dare to move when he stood there.

Fu Shenxing looked at He Yan again, and saw that she was sitting there indifferent with her eyes down, so she said fiercely: "Ah Jiang is not satisfied with your intentions, right?" The homeless people on the street are all right, right? Ajiang, go outside to find someone, the dirtier and rougher the better! ”

Where can Ah Jiang really go, standing helplessly, looking at He Yan for help, "Miss He≈≈"

"Good! Good! You won't listen to me anymore. Fu Shenxing's face turned pale, and he gritted his teeth: "I'll go by myself, go by myself!" ”

He pulled out his feet and walked out, so frightened that Ah Jiang hurriedly hugged him from behind, dragged him deadly, and turned his head to beg He Yan: "Miss He, please Miss He, don't compete with Mr. Fu, you persuade him, persuade him." ”

Only then did He Yan look up at Fu Shenxing, her expression was calm and almost indifferent, "Shen Zhijie, I really tried my best." ”

Yes, she really did her best

。 The moment she knocked on his study door that night and made a gesture to him in the name of borrowing books, she had already decided to put up with everything and told herself to persevere for revenge. It's not that she doesn't want to, but she can't do it, and the idea of revenge can't support her to go on. What can you do if you kill Fu Shenxing? If you sell your body and soul in exchange for your death with him, will you still have to go to hell and continue to haunt him?

Her incomparably strong will slowly collapsed at some point, and she finally lost control of her body.

Fu Shenxing gradually calmed down from his anger, he froze there and looked at her in a daze, and after a while, an almost cruel smile appeared on his lips, and he said softly: "He Yan, I won't let you go, even if you die, you will also die in my arms." ”

Her face was still calm, and she responded to him: "Okay." ”

He stopped trying to touch her, and even began to ignore her. Two people live in the same house, but they are like two complete strangers, ignoring each other. He is still busy every day, leaving early and returning late, and she is also quiet and duty, and she no longer even plans to take revenge.

Alive, maybe just because she's alive.

Until one day, Tian Tian suddenly called her and asked her hesitantly: "Is what they said true?" ”

He Yan chuckled and asked, "What did they say?" ”

Tian Tian is also very smart, so when he heard this, he didn't ask any more, paused for a while, and said, "Do you want to go out shopping together?" ”

This sudden invitation surprised He Yan, but she didn't want to disturb her friend's life anymore, and she didn't want to involve anyone in danger anymore, so she refused with a smile: "No, I've been a little lazy lately, and I don't want to go anywhere." ”

Tian Tian was silent, and after a long while, he asked her again: "It's impossible for us to go back to before, right?" ”

He Yan couldn't help but smile when she heard this, "Tian Tian, I robbed your fiancé." ”

"That scumbag is not wanted by the old lady herself!" Tian Tian couldn't help but swear, paused for a while, and instead of subsiding away, the anger seemed to be more vigorous, and said: "Forget it, it's my brain that is pumping to call you." In front of men, friendship is a fart! He Yan, since we have broken off the road, let's simply understand everything from the past. The tens of thousands of dollars I gave you before, you gave back a lot of money to my wife. Also, you can find the photos you left for when you used to go to school and return them to me

。 I cut out all the group photos, and each asked for half of each. ”

These are clearly angry children's words, not like same-sex friends breaking up, but like boyfriend and girlfriend breaking up, anyone who hears it can't help but laugh. But He Yan didn't smile, not only didn't smile, but even frowned slightly. She didn't use Tian Tian's money, although Tian Tian gave her a bank card before she fled the United States, but she didn't take a penny from it.

Tian Tian couldn't be talking nonsense, let alone blackmailing her for tens of thousands of yuan. Then she must have another purpose when she said this. He Yan was full of doubts, but her face responded quietly: "Okay, I'll give it back to you." ”

She hung up the phone and sat silently for a moment before dialing Fu Shenxing's mobile phone. He answered the phone almost immediately, but he was silent for three to five seconds before he asked her indifferently, "What's the matter?" ”

"I want to go home, Tian Tian wants the previous things, I'll go back and find her." She replied.

He was silent on the phone for a while, and then replied to her: "I asked Ajiang to go back and accompany you." ”

Ah Jiang quickly returned to the apartment and personally drove He Yan back to her parents. She flipped out the old photo album from her college days and looked for photos of Arita Tian one by one. There are a lot of photos, but more of them are photos of her and Liang Yuanze. He Yan looked at it slowly, and unconsciously, a smile curled up on the corner of her lips. At that time, they were still so young, and at that time, Liang Yuanze still loved her and was still by her side.

It was getting dark outside, and the person in the photo began to blur, she reached out to touch the lamp on the bedside, and at the moment when the light was on, her eyes inadvertently swept to the ornaments on the bedside, but the person was stunned and stunned. It was a palm-sized porcelain doll, a smiling male treasure, the porcelain doll she didn't forget to stuff into her mother's suitcase before she escaped, so that she could bring it to Liang Yuanze.

He Yan's hands trembled very much, and she grabbed the porcelain doll to take a closer look, and when she saw the flawed black spot on the doll's eyebrows, tears suddenly welled up. This is the one that Liang Yuanze bought for her, and this is the "male treasure" that represents Liang Yuanze. She couldn't help crying and laughing, afraid of being heard by Ajiang in the living room, so she didn't dare to make a sound, so she could only cover her mouth with all her strength and press everything in her palm.

Liang Yuanze is still there, and he didn't really leave. It turned out that he was still here, right next to her.

Ah Jiang couldn't hear He Yan's movement for a long time, so she couldn't help but be a little worried, stepped forward and knocked on the door gently, calling her, "Miss He?" ”

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