Chapter 235: Can You See It?
Maybe tomorrow, everything will have an answer!
When Song Xu was frantically pouring his own wine, An Yanan had been released by Su's father and returned to the city.
Her mobile phone has been smashed and can't be turned on at all, and when she returns to the city, the first thing she does is to go to the apartment to find Song Xu.
Song Xu, however, was not in the apartment.
She changed her mobile phone and dialed Song Xu's number, but no one answered.
An Yanan was worried about Song Xu's safety, so he immediately asked people to look for Song Xu.
Twenty minutes later, she finally got Song Xu's location - in the colorful bar near Suli Hospital.
An Yanan rushed over immediately, but Song Xu was already drunk and unconscious under the mixed attack of a variety of alcoholic drinks of different concentrations.
She dragged Song Xu into the car and went back to the apartment.
put Song Xu on the sofa, and Song Xu staggered, almost fell down, and fell to the ground, just like Song Xu couldn't think of it and jumped off the building.
It's only a few days, but it's as long as centuries have passed, and so much has happened.
An Yanan sighed and looked at Song Xu quietly for a long time before shaking Song Xu, wanting to try to make him sober up and ask him what was going on.
When they were separated, Song Xu's attitude was still very resolute, how could he leave the hospital and pour himself wine again?
He only tortures himself like this when he is in pain, hesitant about things, and can't make up his mind!
Did Su's father say something to him again, did Su's father use her and Song Tong's personal safety to threaten Song Xu and continue to be with Su Li, which is why Song Xu was so distressed?
"Song Xu, Song Xu?" An Yanan softly called Song Xu's name.
"Huh?" Song Xu replied vaguely, finally having a little consciousness.
He tried to open his eyelids, which seemed to weigh a thousand pounds, but everything he saw was ghosted.
"Asian Male...... Yanan ......" Song Xu subconsciously read An Yanan's name. made An Yanan's heart, inexplicably, feel a burst of warmth.
This time, when he was unconscious, he called her name!
Although this was just a small act of Song Xu, it made An Yanan feel the sweetness.
She grabbed Song Xu's hand and said softly, "I'm here, Song Xu, I'm Yanan." ”
"Yanan, Yanan, I miss you so much, woo ......" Song Xu cried bitterly when he heard An Yanan's voice, like a helpless and aggrieved child.
Only when An Yanan was by his side did he feel safe and dare to indulge his emotions like this. He was really uncomfortable, very aggrieved, and needed to vent and confide.
An Yanan gently patted Song Xu's back in distress, and constantly comforted him gently: "Okay, okay, it's okay." ”
Song Xu grabbed An Yanan's hand tightly, buried his head in her arms, hugged her waist tightly, and cried for a long time before he felt the suffocation in his heart and alleviated a lot.
Song Xu wiped away his tears and struggled to sit up, and suddenly, his stomach churned, and he subconsciously rushed to the bathroom.
An Yanan hurriedly helped the swaying Song Xu, helped him, and went into the bathroom.
After a burst of vomiting, Song Xu's pale face like paper finally improved a little, clutched his stomach tightly, and leaned against the wall.
An Yanan washed away the filth, helped Song Xu, returned to the sofa in the living room and sat down, and then went to the kitchen by himself to cook sobering soup for Song Xu.
After Song Xu vomited, his mind was still groggy, but he was somewhat more sober than before.
Because of his sobriety, the questions that bothered him before filled his mind again.
He listened to the faint, slight, clashing sound of pots and pans coming from the kitchen, and the feeling in his heart was very complicated and tangled.
He could feel that he had obviously fallen in love with Anya Nan, and he was also very dependent on Anya Nan.
However, he really can't accept that he is in love with a man!
He never thought that he would fall in love with a man in his life!
What should he do? Should I distance myself from Anyanan, or should I ...... Trying to change yourself?
Song Xu was taken aback by his new idea.
How could he have the idea of changing his sexual orientation, and could it be that he really had a tendency to like the same sex?
Before Song Tong, he wanted to match him with An Yanan, did he already see his tendency?
Song Xu suddenly felt a little flustered, feeling that the world he was familiar with had become a little unrecognizable.
An Yanan cooked the soup, walked in, put it on the coffee table in front of Song Xu, and said thoughtfully: "Drink it, it's not so hot anymore." ”
Song Xu subconsciously reached out and took the spoon handed by An Yanan and drank the soup.
After a few sips, I realized how accustomed I was to Anyanan's kindness!
He threw away the spoon as if it had burned his hand.
An Yanan thought that Song Xu had not sobered up yet, and reached out to help Song Xu pick it up.
Song Xu also reached out to pick up the spoon at the same time, and suddenly, he touched An Yanan's hand.
Song Xu immediately bounced up from the sofa as if he had been electrocuted, and his knee accidentally slammed into the corner of the table.
"Are you alright?" An Yanan frowned slightly, looking at Song Xu strangely, feeling that Song Xu seemed to have something, something was wrong.
"Shhh ”
Then, as if he had run away, he ran into the kitchen.
He didn't know why he ran into the kitchen, anyway, he just wanted to find a place to hide first.
Perhaps, he should run back to the bedroom so that he could stay hidden, but he made it to the kitchen! If you want to run back to the bedroom, you have to go out again, and maybe, you will bump into Anyana!
Why is he so stupid!
Song Xu was annoyed and slammed the wall a few times.
An Yanan walked over, just saw him pounding the wall, immediately went over, grabbed his wrist, and gently and patiently persuaded him: "Song Xu, no matter what happens, you can tell me, don't use alcohol and beating the wall to abuse yourself." ”
Song Xu looked at An Yanan tangledly, and felt like he wanted to cry without tears.
He just doesn't know what to say, he just doesn't know what to do, so he treats himself like this!
This...... What did he say!
"I ......" Song Xu looked at An Yanan for a long time, and he didn't think about what to say.
An Yanan sighed helplessly, took out six cans of beer from the refrigerator, pulled Song Xu, and walked to the living room.
"If you don't say it, forget it, if you want to beat the wall and abuse yourself, I definitely can't watch it. If you want to drink, don't drink alone, I can drink with you, and when you've had enough and are happy, and want to talk about the boredom in your heart, we'll talk about it again. ”
Anya put the wine on the coffee table and opened two bottles.
Then, through the takeaway platform, I ordered a few bottles of liquor.
She didn't know what Song Xu was going on, but if Song Xu wanted to drink, she would have a good drink with him, and when he drank and vomited, he drank enough, and sooner or later he would pour out the words in his heart.
Otherwise, when he figured it out himself, he didn't know that he would have to wait until the Year of the Monkey!
Song Xu didn't know what to say, so he simply continued to pour himself wine.
He and, Anya Nan drank with him.
Soon, the mention of beer was gone, and the two bottles of liquor were also drunk.
Song Xu looked at things, and began to double again, and his hand holding the wine began to be unstable.
An Yanan also drank it, and his mind was a little dizzy.
She held her head, lay crooked on the sofa, and laughed helplessly.
Song Xu heard An Yanan laughing, and blinked his eyes vigorously, only to see clearly that An Yanan was indeed laughing.
He frowned slightly, and asked a little unhappily, "What are you laughing at?" ”
An Yanan shook his head with a smile, and said helplessly: "I really want to serve you, I drank so much before, and now I drink so much, and I still don't say a word." ”
"Alas, why on earth did you pour yourself so much wine, and what was on your mind, that you can't tell me at all?
"I ......" Song Xu felt a pain in his head when he thought of this question.
In fact, he didn't think about the whole thing at all, how to say it.
He felt strange that he liked a man, and he didn't know how to face Anyanan.
The problem is that he doesn't know if this is strange for An Yanan. He didn't know what kind of eyes An Yanan would look at him and what he would think of him after saying it!
What if, Anya Nan is a straight man of steel, thinks his thoughts are disgusting and perverted, and he never wants to pay attention to him again?
Song Xu pressed the corner of his forehead hard, trying to suppress the feeling of headache, and let himself use his reason to think about what to do.
This matter has been dragging on, and it is not a solution, sooner or later, it will be resolved one day.
It's better to take advantage of the fact that now, they are all drunk and their moods are open, go and try to solve it!
"You...... Have you ever liked a man? Song Xu clenched his fists nervously, tentatively, and asked An Yanan.
He had already decided that if An Yanan looked at him with a perverted gaze, or asked him in an extremely shocked tone why he had such thoughts, he would always suppress his feelings about An Yanan in his heart, and find a way to erase this feeling and never mention this topic again.
Anya Nan had already drunk it, and he was a little confused. completely forgot that in Song Xu's heart, she was a man's business.
She laughed out loud, and threw the empty wine bottle in her hand on Song Xu's body speechlessly: "Of course I like men!" Where do you see that I'm someone who likes women? ”
"What?" Song Xu almost suspected that his ears had heard it wrong.
An Yanan actually admitted like this, he likes men!
Can gay be able to see it? Why, he can't see it?
Song Xu felt that his world had been turned upside down again.