Pay attention, two shifts today, one shift at eleven o'clock in the morning, two shifts at three o'clock in the afternoon, although the number of changes is less, but the number of words is still the same as every day~~~

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Li Xiaoyun shrugged her shoulders, pretending to be relaxed but extremely bleak with a smile, "Didn't you see that I have no appetite recently, and I usually can't keep up my spirits, and I vomit from time to time, so I ...... That's right, it's really like being pregnant, but do you know ......" Li Xiaoyun looked at Jing Hao, and there was a layer of mist in front of her eyes that was slowly condensing, blurring his handsome appearance, "The last time I just had an abortion and left the hospital, I passed out on the side of the road in the heavy rain, and I was drenched in the rain all night, and it also caused heavy bleeding, the doctor ...... I have left behind the sequelae, and I may not be able to be a mother again in my life! ”

Jing Hao's whole person was completely stunned, he seemed to be petrified and froze motionless, the eyes staring at her were full of remorse, surprise, pain and despair, his lips trembled slightly, and slowly spit out two words, the words "Xiaoyun ......" became as if they weighed a thousand pounds at this time, and he struggled to get out of his mouth, and he no longer had the strength to do anything else.

Li Xiaoyun's heart seemed to be stirred by a blunt object, and she admitted that she had been pretending to be strong all along, and she was using an indifferent appearance to hide her scarred and fragile heart. However, every time she mentions things about the baby, it is really difficult for her to be strong, no, she should always be fragile and painful in front of this matter. She sniffed, pretended to wipe the tears from her face with the back of her hand, and continued: "Jing Hao, these days, I don't feel your kindness to me, I am also a living person, and I also have a flesh-and-blood heart, every time you care for me, every care, every care, I remember it deeply. It's just that the more you treat me, the more uneasy my heart becomes. During this time, there is not a day that I did not spend in pain and entanglement. Because I know that I still love you in my heart, but everything that happened in the past haunts me like a nightmare every day, and I can't forget it at all, and I can't convince myself to forgive you again. I have the same dream almost every night, a pink, chubby cute baby, who staggered towards me and asked me over and over again, Mom, why don't you want me, why don't you want me......"

"So, during the days I was with you again, I couldn't eat every day, I couldn't sleep well, you threw away my sleeping pills, and let Juan look at me and didn't let me drink. So, I'm more anxious, more restless sleeping, maybe it's because of mental depression, I'm really stressed, I will have no appetite to eat the West, sometimes even if I eat the West, I want to vomit, but this doesn't mean I'm pregnant, I hope you don't misunderstand......"

"I was sorry for you just now, because I couldn't convince myself to forgive you again, not because I was pregnant with someone else's child that I couldn't let go like this. Every word you just said on the stage was so true, so earnest, and every word could touch my heart deeply. You may not know how much I wished I was really pregnant with a baby at that time, no matter who he was, maybe only then can I live up to your true feelings for me, and the silent dedication during this time, but I ......" At this point, Li Xiaoyun choked again, and no longer had the strength and courage to continue.

Jing Hao had been listening silently beside her, until Li Xiaoyun stopped, he took her in his arms, patted her back gently, and then kissed her cheeks, eyes and sideburns in a little panic, "Okay Xiaoyun, I'm really damned, it's all my fault, I never knew that I had caused so much harm to you, and let you suffer so much silently alone." I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Xiaoyun, it's all my fault. I've done so many bastard things to you, so many hurtful things...... Now I really, really regret it, baby, forgive me, okay? Give me another chance, okay? I will love you so much, love you, and never let anyone hurt you again, including myself. I'll spend the rest of my life compensating you, baby, don't cry......"

Li Xiaoyun lay on Jing Hao's shoulder, grabbed his clothes with both hands, and cried uncontrollably, as if she wanted to wash out all the grievances, bitter crying, and torture she had suffered through tears. And Jing Hao just hugged her tightly, nothing more, just quietly let her out of her full of struggle and helplessness.

I don't know how long it took, Li Xiaoyun's crying gradually weakened, buried her head in Jing Hao's arms and sobbed again and again. Jing Hao pushed Li Xiaoyun away from his arms slightly, then picked up her face and looked at her deeply. At this moment, his face was so close to her, so close. Li Xiaoyun saw that his eyes were also slightly red, and there were some tears in the corners of his eyes, and there was only a piece of pity and affection in his eyes. He actually cried, this man she once loved humbly, now I'm afraid that he is really in love with her, he actually cried for her......

Arrogant like him, indifferent like him, and strong like him, Li Xiaoyun never thought that one day he would cry in front of people, and he was heartbroken and crying for her. It turns out that under his cold and ice-solid appearance, he also has a fragile heart.

In the past, even if he took the initiative to find her, he was still right, one or two words of convincing were his limit, and the tenderness on his face became faster than the weather, and it could be replaced by coldness and ruthlessness almost in an instant.

The corners of Jing Hao's mouth rose slightly, like a child ready to please his parents. He gently wiped away the remaining tears from the corners of Li Xiaoyun's eyes with his fingers, and whispered softly: "Xiaoyun, I was not good before, I was wrong." Can you give me another chance? Let me love you so well. You used to love me so much, but I know that I hurt you too much, I'm afraid it's hard for you to believe me anymore, but just think this is the last time, believe me one last time, let me be good to you, let me love you, let me love you like you loved me before......"

Li Xiaoyun raised her head and looked at him stupidly, "I'...... Is it really okay? Wouldn't you mind? I'm no longer a complete woman, I may never be a mother anymore, are you still willing to want me like this? ”

Jing Hao's eyes were filled with deep guilt and pity, "You're still blaming me like this, aren't you?" I was wrong, I was really wrong, it was I who made you suffer so much......"

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