Su Yang sat in the co-pilot seat of Yan Yi's car with the wontons, and the temperature was just right because the air conditioner was turned on in the car. Yan Yi was looking at his mobile phone in the driver's seat, and Su Yang said to Yan Yi, "Did you buy wontons from the resort?" It's pretty tasty. Yan Yi sighed, "I bought a ticket to Dalian this Saturday." The discount is huge. Yan Yi said softly. Dalian? Really go to Dalian? Aren't you the most hated Dalian person? Su Yang asked in some surprise. After so many years, in fact, my mother's illness has nothing to do with Dalian. Yan Yi's tone was still calm, and Su Yang thought to himself: Dalian has been carrying the blame for so many years, and it doesn't matter now, it's not because Liu Ying is in Dalian. Yan Yi put the mobile phone in the cup holder, adjusted the position of the front of the car, and in order to take care of Su Yang, who was eating, Yan Yi's car drove very smoothly. Yan Yi said: "You have so little to say today, it seems that you are really hungry." What about Xing Ziming? Didn't you two be together yesterday? Su Yang suddenly got a little angry, angry that Yan Yi didn't care so much about where Xing Ziming went, everyone got together in the bar that day to celebrate Yan Yi, but no one told Yan Yi when he left. Which girl did Xing Ziming go with, right? Hug the beauty. After Su Yang finished speaking, he ate another wonton. Hold the beauty? Most of the people who came were Lin Fan's ex-girlfriends. Can you hug Xu Yingning? Yan Yi's tone finally changed when he said this. It's not Xu Yingning, oops, I drank all the pieces yesterday, and I can't remember clearly. ”

"That's amazing, this can get the girl. Xing Ziming has peach blossom luck. Do they live in the villa? ”

"I don't know, I've told you, I'm broken, but that Xu Yingning is so beautiful, Royal Sister, arrogant, noble and cold!"

"Grace 、、、 goddess."

"Huh? Xiao Yi, what do you think of Xu Yingning? If Lin Fan and I help you match, I think Xu Yingning is quite suitable for you. ”

"Don't make a fuss, she's not my type."

"Why isn't it your favorite type? I look the same. After Su Yang said this, he suddenly regretted it.

Yan Yi only felt a dull pain in his heart, he thought of Liu Ying's eyes, such beautiful eyes, Liu Ying's eyes had stars, thoughts, and tenderness, and remembered Liu Ying's proudest long legs, good-looking collarbones and ankles, but unfortunately all of this had nothing to do with Yan Yi. Yan Yi just wanted to gasp at this time. Su Yang coughed and continued to eat his wontons, only to feel that he drank too much last night, and his brain was short-circuited today, so it was not suitable for him to speak today.

When he arrived at Su Yang's design company, Su Yang got out of the car with the garbage (wonton packaging box) and said to Yan Yi: "You slow down on the way home." Yan Yi nodded.

Yan Yi returned home, changed into home clothes, poured himself a glass of water, opened his mobile phone to check the ticket order, and couldn't help but hold his mobile phone tightly when he saw the word Dalian, Dalian, a place where Yan Yi shed too many tears.

Yan Yi was 9 years old that year, he was a little boy who particularly liked emperor penguins, his mother was a full-time wife, and his mother made an appointment with Yan Yi, if Yan Yi got the first place in the class in the final exam, he would take Yan Yi to the aquarium to see the real emperor penguins, primary school students came home from school and had no homework, whenever Yan Yi sat in front of the TV and was unwilling to change, his mother would say to Yan Yi: "Xiao Yi, do you still want to see the real emperor penguins." Can you get the first place in the exam by watching TV every day? Yan Yi had no choice but to return to his room with great reluctance, and then drew one round penguin after another on the white paper on the desk. Yan Yi occasionally overhears the conversation between his mother and father: "Eh, old Yan, I often can't see things clearly recently, and the prescription of my glasses has risen again?" ”

"Go back and wait until Xiao Yi's eyes are reviewed, you can also check it."

"What am I going to the hospital for? I'll just go to the optical shop in front of our house and get a new pair of glasses. ”

"Yes, it is estimated that I am older and my eyesight has deteriorated."

Within a few days, my mother put on a new pair of glasses and asked Yan Yi at dinner: "Xiao Yi, do you see my mother's new glasses?" Isn't it similar to the glasses that your teacher Ban Wan wears, which is particularly temperamental? Yan Yi smiled and said, "Mom, you are really like Teacher Wan." The male students in our class all like Teacher Wan. Mom said, "That's it, how handsome you are Teacher Wan." Dad brought the food and brought Mom's insulin needle. As usual, mom had to give her belly an insulin shot before eating. Every day my mother will cook before Yan Yi gets out of school, and then sit on the sofa and watch TV and wait for Yan Yi to come home, Yan Yi can see her mother as soon as she opens the door when she comes home, everything is the same as usual, the only thing that has changed is her mother's declining eyesight and puffy calves, Yan Yi really took the first place in the final exam, and her mother and father are discussing where to take Xiao Yi to the aquarium. Dad said: "Go to Dalian Shengya Aquarium, there is an undersea passage, and we also have a house there, you and Yan Yi will spend the summer in Dalian this summer." I happen to have a few days of annual leave, so I'll stay with you for a few days. "It's good to spend the summer vacation in Dalian, Xiao Yi also likes the sea, so he can go to the beach to play." Mom touched the back of Yan Yi's head and said. Yan Yi heard that he could see live emperor penguins living by the sea during the summer vacation, and happily began to circle around his parents. Mom packed the family's luggage, Mom and Dad took Yan Yi to buy a plane ticket, and the family flew to Dalian, the mobile phone was not a smart phone that year, Nokia was still the most popular mobile phone brand, and digital cameras were used to take pictures. In the aquarium, my mother almost looked at Xiao Yi, taking pictures of Xiao Yi along the way, taking photos of Xiao Yi and penguins, and taking photos of Xiao Yi with fish above his head in the underwater passage, and his mother arranged Xiao Yi in various places and let Xiao Yi take photos with various fish. After visiting the aquarium, my mother said to my father, "Old Yan, everything I see with my eyes looks like it's in a black frame." ”

"Ah, let's go to the hospital tomorrow for a check-up."

"It's evil." As she spoke, her mother took Xiao Yi's hand and walked to the bus stop, and Xiao Yi noticed that the back of her mother's hand was also bulging because of edema. The next day, Yan Yi was called up by his father early in the morning to accompany his mother to the doctor, and when he arrived at the eye hospital, the doctor gave his mother a simple examination, and the doctor said: "Your disease is fundus hemorrhage caused by diabetes, just come to have a laser on Wednesday, but you should do a picture before the laser and then check it thoroughly." Yan Yi was relieved to hear that his mother's illness could be cured, and his father asked about the price of the film, and took Xiao Yi and Xiao Yi's mother home. Yan Yi only remembered that Wednesday, in order to do the imaging, he waited in line for a long time, and the results of the examination came out, and the doctor looked at the imaging film and said to Yan Yi's mother: "Your fundus bleeding is more serious, the fundus... The blood is full, and even with surgery, only 0.01 vision can be preserved. The cost of the operation is about 10,000 yuan. But if left untreated, vision will continue to deteriorate until you become blind. When Yan Yi heard the news, he only felt that his eyes were blurred with tears in an instant, and he couldn't see the doctor's face anymore, Yan Yi took advantage of his parents' lack of attention, wiped his tears, and pretended that he wasn't crying. Dad and Mom took Yan Yi to take the bus, and Dad said on the way to the bus stop: "The main thing is that this disease is not an eye disease, it is caused by diabetes, and it will be committed even if it is treated." Mom said, "Let's not go home yet, let's take Xiao Yi to buy clothes first, Xiao Yi doesn't have a decent jacket yet." Dad said, "Where to buy a jacket in the summer?" My mother said, "I won't be able to see it in winter, so let's look for it while I can see it." On the bus, Yan Yi kept his eyes closed, only Yan Yi himself knew, and when he opened his eyes, tears flowed down. Yan Yi's mother really bought a jacket for Yan Yi in a shopping mall in Dalian, and it happened that the store had several sets of out-of-season promotional clothes, but Yan Yi didn't wear that jacket until he was 26 years old. Hung in the closet all the time.

Dad and Mom decided to take Yan Yi back to Tianjin after Dad's annual leave, the night before returning to Tianjin, Mom vomited many times, and in the morning Mom was already vomiting blood, the plan to return to Tianjin was canceled, Mom was admitted to a hospital in Dalian, and Mom, who was transfused with hemostatic plasma in the hospital, vomited blood once, and there was a blood clot vomiting out, and Mom muttered: "Let me die." The hospital's diagnosis certificate reads: "Diabetes causes stomach bleeding, and diabetes causes kidney failure." Nine-year-old Yan Yi looked at his mother's pale face, and couldn't understand how diabetes could not be done with insulin, how could it still be like this. The answer to this question was not found until Yan Yi went to college. The main symptom of diabetes is high blood sugar, insulin is the best hypoglycemic drug, but it is not insulin that everything is fine, but also to monitor blood sugar at all times, control blood sugar at a normal level, mother usually rarely detects her blood sugar, in fact, mother's blood sugar has always been high, but even if the blood sugar is very high, the body will not feel uncomfortable, the typical symptoms of diabetes three more and one less are not as absolute as written on Baidu, high blood sugar will hurt the blood vessels of the whole body, so many years of damage to blood vessels finally broke out on this day.

After his mother was discharged from the hospital, his eyesight deteriorated even more, Yan Yi found that his mother's cooking was getting harder and harder, his mother's stomach was getting bigger and bigger because of kidney failure, Yan Yi's summer vacation was not over, and his mother was blind, Yan Yi thought that although his mother was blind, he could be his mother's eyes, so he took his mother to Xinghai Square for a walk, and sang Zhang Haidi's "Love in the World" to his blind mother, and his mother smiled, feeling that his blindness was not so terrible, but unfortunately the good times did not last long, before returning to Tianjin, Diabetes causes heart function to decline, and my mother will be wheezing from the living room to the bathroom, and she will no longer be able to go for a walk in Xinghai Square with Yan Yi.

Yan Yi would cry every night, crying until he had no strength and fell asleep, when he was nine years old, when he took his mother to Xinghai Square for a walk, looking at the seagulls in the distance, Yan Yi shed tears, and silently thought in his heart: "Seagulls and seagulls, can you fly to God?" Please, God, save Mom. ”

Back in Tianjin, my mother was completely admitted to the hospital, and when she was discharged from the hospital, the doctor said: "Go home and eat something good, think about what wishes have not been fulfilled, and take care of them at home." "It's time, my mother left Yan Yi a sum of money before leaving, and this money is the money that Yan Yi bought a house in the suburbs to buy a car for himself.