I've always felt that all the sorry after a breakup is a very pretentious sentence.

No matter who loses whom, what can a word of sorry bear? It will only make the person who can't let go more uncomfortable.

Liu Qing's sentence of sorry seems to have made me figure it out a lot.

The person who can't let go is Mu Chenfeng, all he wants to get drunk happily and vent the entanglement in his heart, because the person who lets it down will say sorry.

Yu Xiaowan also said sorry to me, because she didn't love me.

And Mu Chenfeng's sentence, he lost her, it was simply a self-comfort, just to balance the pain of her leaving.

One sighed, the other cried, the two looked at each other in such a tangled way, keeping a distance, no one took a step forward, as if the two of them would always be this distance, and they could never get closer.

I silently lit a cigarette and left the room on my own initiative, and two people said that I was not suitable for this place.

After leaving the club, a little cool breeze in autumn blew me on the head of the alcohol instantly, and sat directly on the ground, Brother Feng invited me to drink good wine, good and strong, the door of the club welcomed the little sister took the initiative to help me up, and also helped me stop a taxi, I left in a daze.

And the two people in the room, after the atmosphere was quiet, finally said the first sentence, the most ordinary conversation after a long absence of a couple.

"How are you doing?" Liu Qing slowly wiped away her tears, stabilized her emotions, and her face was calm and a little tangled.

"I'm fine." Mu Chenfeng also said the simplest answer after a long absence.

It's just that he just took half a step forward, and Liu Qing subconsciously took half a step back and hit the door.

With another long sigh, full of helplessness that he couldn't go back, Mu Chenfeng lit a cigarette, slowly took half a step back, and smiled faintly: "You are very beautiful in a cheongsam." ”

With bitterness in her smile, it turns out that when a woman gets married, it is the most beautiful time in her life, but the person in front of her wants to marry someone else.

"Dustwind, don't be like this, we've been... separated. Liu Qing lowered his head, not daring to look at Mu Chenfeng, not wanting to look at him with a helpless wry smile.

Mu Chenfeng sat on the sofa weakly, muttering leisurely: "It's already separated... ”

But every picture of the past comes to mind.

The young two people are together in a young age, Mu Chenfeng eight years ago, he was a poor boy, his career was just starting, Liu Qing eight years ago was just a girl who tasted love for the first time, and both of them thought that they could last forever.

Young love always likes to say long-lasting promises, Liu Qing is like this, she said that she must marry Mu Chenfeng, full of emotion, and made a promise first.

And Mu Chenfeng made a promise, and in order to let her family put aside the view of the door, she walked in her career with all her might, she wanted to marry him, and she needed enough material materials to get married.

The two had different ideas and walked on the seven-year long-distance running road.

As time goes on, people will slowly change, change their views on everything, and even change their original minds.

Why do people change?

Because people will always subconsciously make the most beneficial choice for themselves, unconsciously, in our instinctive choice, we also instinctively change ourselves. In the final analysis, the intent of all emotional factors is self-interested.

And unconsciously, Liu Qing changed her view of love, seven years, quarrels again and again, and the troubles of life, smoothed out her full of love and made a girl become a woman.

Unhappy? Good for you? This is all an excuse for hypocrisy, Liu Qing struggled countless times, thinking that she could persevere, but in the end she still didn't insist anymore, and only said: "I don't love anymore." ”

Don't love it anymore?

This is also why Mu Chenfeng can't get out of the pain and shadow of his ex-girlfriend, and his family disagrees? Substance can't be satisfied? Split? Mu Chenfeng would rather believe in these excuses for hurting people, at least there is a direction of pain, a direction for venting anger.

But a word of no love made him unable to get out of the entanglement in his heart, he had no sad and painful direction, and he was confused. This is probably the most feared and disgusting reason for everyone to break up.

What the fuck does it mean not to love anymore?

Love if you feel it, and break up when you don't feel it? What others have paid is a game?

It feels like an excuse, just to cover up the heart, people will always subconsciously make the choice that is most beneficial to themselves, and that's it.

"I don't love it, do you?"

The person in front of her, dressed in a red wedding dress, made Mu Chenfeng's memories come to an abrupt end, she first said her promise, and then broke her promise.

Why does young love have to say it impulsively for a long time? When the time comes, all the days and the earth will become a blessing to you and him, and you will hurt the person who promised you.

"Do you want to abuse yourself like this when you're so sad? Dustwind, you weren't like this before. Liu Qing had a little entanglement and guilt in her eyes, why did she come to him, she was worried that Mu Chenfeng would be sad to do something to hurt himself because of herself, why was she worried? She just doesn't want to be branded as ruthless and unrighteous because of a word of no love, in the final analysis, she is guilty that she broke her promise and failed a man for years of dedication.

The anger of pushing the door in is just a forced pretense to hide his guilt.

"Wasn't that how I used to be? But you weren't like that before! Mu Chenfeng shouted in pain, as if venting his emotions, and asked her loudly: "Why did you come to me, are you still worried about me?" ”

"I just don't want you to be like this, we've been together for seven years, and now we're not even friends, are we? Why can't you let it go like this? Liu Qing also replied loudly, and tears fell involuntarily.

Mu Chenfeng looked at her tears, and suddenly said to himself: "So that's the case... ”

This may be the tears of guilt, or the tears of farewell, there are too many emotions that can shed tears, but Liu Qing's tears are not because of love.

I don't feel it, I don't love it anymore.

What a reason that people can't let go, but people are powerless to stop a person's change, very powerless.

Mu Chenfeng finally succumbed powerlessly in the face of feelings, and all the illusions he had once had were broken at this moment, he knew that she had changed, no longer the girl who always stuck to him, and no longer belonged to him.

"Liu Qing, thank you, you have been with me for seven years." Mu Chenfeng suddenly wanted to wake up, and said seriously, as if saying goodbye to a past, after saying that, he put on his coat and walked to the door with a smile.

"Dustwind, you..."

"I love you, goodbye."

The moment the door was pushed open, Liu Qing was stiff and motionless, she didn't know why the tears were still flowing, she didn't have time to look at the distant figure, she immediately sat on the ground weakly, an important person, left her forever.

"I'm sorry, Dustwind."

Love is deep, hate is deep.

It turned out that it was Mu Chenfeng who loved her deeply, and Liu Qing hated herself for breaking her promise.

One love and one hate, the two finally said goodbye to the past.

Just walked out of the club, a cool breeze, so that Mu Chenfeng instantly drunk, even if the body is strong and the amount of alcohol is very good, it can't withstand the emotional disturbance, it is said that when people are in a bad mood, they will get drunk quickly, Mu Chenfeng is very drunk.

He remembered his friend's ridicule that he had slept with other people's wives for seven years, and couldn't help laughing: "Xiao Nuan, it turns out that I really slept with other people's wives for seven years." ”

Laughing like wine, he sat weakly on the ground, drunk and directionless, and the doorman girl immediately helped him up and skillfully called a taxi.

Mu Chenfeng didn't know how far the car had gone and where it went, until he got out of the car and found that he had arrived in the company, and he was too drunk, although he was a little sober, he couldn't last long.

Walked to the office in a daze, planning to sleep here for one night, there is also his private bedroom here, but in this bedroom, there used to be a hostess, and Mu Chenfeng never slept in the bedroom after leaving.

And tonight, the past is like a dream.

The past was finally a thing of the past, and he thought he should be able to go back to the bedroom, but as soon as he walked to his office, the light next door was still on, and he fell to the ground with a thud.

A petite girl immediately ran out next door, wearing a uniform that did not conform to her youthful temperament, and she was a little unskilled in stepping on high heels, and hurriedly ran to Mu Chenfeng's side.

"Mr. Mu, why did you drink so much?" She looked at her boss, a boss who was sometimes considerate and sometimes smiling.

"Love? Why haven't you gotten off work yet? Mu Chenfeng was helped up with difficulty, the girl was too petite, and she almost used her strength to breastfeed.

Warmth, that is, his secretary, why would he recruit a young girl who had just graduated, maybe because there was a love word in her name, maybe because on the day of her interview, her pretty ponytail was too much like her.

People always like to deceive themselves and look for the shadow of the past, who will know what kind of other party they like, there will always be all kinds of fantasies and requirements, be mature, be kind, etc., but when you really find out what kind of person you like, you know that what you like is the advantages of your predecessor, and maybe these advantages will become part of your future requirements.

"Mr. Mu, I'll help you in to rest." Warmly and obediently helped him, he fell to the ground with every step, and finally the moment he opened the door, the two fell together.

The girl's face turned red in an instant, and she couldn't push it no matter how she pushed, Mu Chenfeng was so drunk that she couldn't move, she didn't want to move, a burst of fragrance and softness made him confused, and his hand touched it gently.

"Love, stay up late and be hungry... I'm there ... There is chocolate... Mu Chenfeng was blowing hot air in the girl's ears, whether he was impulsive or not, only he knew.

Warmth was like an electric shock, and her little hand grabbed the other party's clothes tightly, very nervous, very shy, wanted to push away but couldn't push, the person in front of her became more and more bold, she finally couldn't help but shout, and said shyly: "Mr. Mu... You, you can't do this, you're drunk, ah~"

The inexplicable feeling made her powerless to resist.

"Idiot, chocolate, yes ... I secretly sent it to you, and I have to eat it at the end. ”

"I... Know that it is ... You sent it. ”

"You, you know?"

The sound of a high-heeled shoe falling to the ground acquiesced to everything.

His hands wrapped around his broad shoulders.