240 Self-blame (2)
Mother looked deeply into Li Xiaoyun's eyes, and said softly like water: "Xiaoyun, my mother knows that you are a good child, and I can understand why you don't want to go, but things have developed like this, I can't blame you at all, you don't blame yourself too much, my mother has never blamed you, but I am very happy that Jing Hao can do this, he has done so many bastard things to you before, and after this time, it should be a real atonement." I also know that now that you have a baby, you can't be too sad, I shouldn't force you to go to the hospital, but now I see Jing Hao lying motionless on the hospital bed with tubes all over his body, do you know what I feel like in my heart, I ...... I wish I could lie there in place of him. I think Jing Hao doesn't want to see you now, he can give up his life to save you, just so that you and your baby can live happily, instead of living in the shadows for the rest of your life. Judging from Jing Hao's current situation, if you can stay with him, he will sense it, and he will know that you and the baby are waiting for him to wake up. I don't ask you for anything else, I just hope that you can forgive the hardships of being a mother, be considerate and understand Jing Hao's love for you, don't take this as a burden, blame yourself forever, good boy, face him bravely. No matter what happens, there's mom, isn't there? ”
"Mom......" Mom's words just now deeply touched the softest ground in Li Xiaoyun's heart, not to mention that she insisted on not seeing Jing Hao, not because she didn't love, but precisely because of love, for a long time, Li Xiaoyun felt that she was a shadow in his bright world, she felt that the gap between them was so big, although this love was hard-won, but it was very hard to love.
"Mom, don't be like this, don't be sad, I'll go, I'll go see him." Jing Hao was on the hospital bed, lying silently.
Li Xiaoyun walked over slowly, almost a little worriedly, looking at the star lines jumping on the machine next to the bed, from time to time there was a soft sound of dripping and dripping, and the humidifier spewed out a curling water vapor, which made her feel a little trance, she almost thought it was a dream, and everything before was a terrible nightmare, maybe when Jing Hao woke up, the nightmare would be dispelled, and they could be together again.
Li Xiaoyun sat down on the chair, looked at the person on the bed for a moment, stared at his pale and bloodless face, almost transparent, his eyes were closed, and his breathing was so faint, he didn't know that he thought it was a corpse.
Li Xiaoyun felt that her eyes were moist, and the voice that couldn't cry was choked in her heart. A long, long time ago, it seemed like a lifetime ago, and she looked at him like this without being disturbed, waking up in the morning, looking at the person next to the pillow in the first rays of the morning sun, watching him open his eyes and smile at herself.
And now, although they are close at hand, they seem to be separated by infinite distance...... Li Xiaoyun was alone for a while, a shallow smile appeared on her lips, and then she slowly stretched out her hand and touched his face.
"Jing Hao ......", her voice was soft and eloquent, dreaming: "I'm here, it's good to see that you're okay." I thought I would never have the opportunity to see you again in my life. "This book.
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