Sometimes, the school is more cruel than society, because it is a group of destructive but intolerant teenagers.

—Epigraph

You can think of it as an autobiography, a memory, whatever it is, but don't ask me if it really happened, it would be embarrassing for me.

When I was in junior high school, I was the most bullied boy in my class.

The moment I answer questions in class and sit down, the stool will definitely be pulled away by the students in the back, and then I sit on the ground, and the classmates in the class laugh, and even the teacher can't help laughing; Sometimes the stool wasn't pulled away, and I sat down with a sigh of relief, but I jumped up in a hurry, with a few sharp pushpins stuck in my buttocks, followed by a loud laugh.

In the evening self-study, the classmates in the class were talking and chatting, but the disciplinary committee member quietly walked up behind me, slammed my head with the rolled up textbook, and scolded again: "Silly X, don't make trouble, okay?!" "In the midst of the laughter, I just wanted to find a crack in the ground to get into. After class, I mustered up the courage to lift a stool and smash it at the disciplinary committee, but I was beaten by all the boys in the class.

They never let me touch the soccer balls that I bought at class fees. In physical education class, I ran to the big playground in a hurry, but a fat man said, "Well, if one of your classmates agrees, we'll take you to play, how about it?" I looked at my classmates behind him, their indifferent faces mocking, and I walked away alone. Later, the football broke down, but the class leader came to me: "The classmates said that you played the most hard, so you have to compensate according to the price." ”

There are so many things like this that I spent three years in junior high school like I was in hell.

Looking back now, there must be something hateful about poor people, and of course there are many things I have done wrong myself. The more they bullied me, the more I wanted to blend in with them, trembling, walking on thin ice, and smiling with everyone, but in exchange for more mockery, bullying, blank eyes, and exclusion...... There was one of the most bullied people in every class, and unfortunately, I took on that role.

And the source of all this is just because of my tablemate, a fat man of the rich second generation. yes, the guy who took the lead in stopping me from playing on the big playground. Speaking of which, I blame me, I don't understand the world, I was brainwashed by education, and I do whatever the teacher says.

I studied well, while my table mates sucked at studying. Usually when I mock the test, he always wants to copy my answers. Now that I think about it, if he wants to copy it, I'll copy it for him, and there are a lot of pieces of meat. But I was very stupid at that time, and I thought it was a violation of campus discipline, so I blocked him with my arm and prevented him from copying it. So the tragedy happened, his family was very rich, and his parents were officials, and he was also very popular in the class, and his classmates all looked to him. He was the first to take the lead and lead everyone to exclude me, and over time, it became the current situation.

If it is useless to sue the teacher, she will ask me rhetorically: "Why do people bully you and don't bully others, let's find more problems in ourselves." ”

When I was in junior high school, I tasted the warmth and coldness of people, walking alone to school, walking alone after school, being alone in the corner in physical education class, and no one was in a group with me doing activities. The girl I like can only watch from afar, because she won't even get close to me for even half a step.

At that time, I even thought about suicide.

The campus is cruel, even more cruel than society. This is a group of destructive but intolerant teenagers who do everything recklessly and don't know what the consequences will be. Now I am iron-blooded, ruthless, violent, and dark, and I can't get rid of the meridians at that time.

Day in and day out, I want nothing more than to graduate early and be admitted to high school. We are a small town in the area, and we only have elementary and junior high schools, so if you want to go to high school, you have to go to the city. I think that after I go to high school in the city, my classmates will all come from the surrounding counties and towns, and I will be able to get out of the current painful situation.

I studied hard, studied hard, and tried not to deal with anyone around me. Their jokes, teasing, and bullying were all in my stomach. My grades got better and better, and I was finally admitted to Seongnam High School, the first key point in the city, with the fifth place in the school during the high school entrance examination.

There were still some twists and turns when I got the admission letter. The school called me and told me to go to the teaching office to get it. When I got there, I couldn't find it, and even the teacher wondered, "I was still here just now, where did I go?" After thinking about it carefully, he said, "By the way, a few classmates in your class also came to get the notice just now, do you want to take it for you, you can ask." ”

When I heard it, I felt chills all over my body. My classmates would never be kind enough to help me get the notice, and if they did, it would only prove that they wanted to burn or tear it up. I pushed the door open like crazy and ran for their tracks on the way back.

Our town is really small, and I quickly posted their traces in the small square. There were about four or five people, and among them was my tablemate, the fat second generation official. In his hand, he was fiddling with an envelope, and the words "Seongnam High School" were faintly visible. I rushed over and yelled, "Zou Yang, give me back the notice!" "An arrow will take my notice.

Zou Yang flashed, this fat man was quite flexible, and immediately held the notice high and said with a smile: "You come to grab it, you can rob it!" ”

Zou Yang is not only fat, but also tall, and he is also a good basketball player in our class. And I was so thin and short that I couldn't grab anything from him, and I was just jumping around like a clown, which caused the others to laugh. "Zou Yang, please, give it back to me." I'm about to cry. That notice was my only hope of getting out of hell!

"Haha, Wang Hao is going to cry!" Zou Yang tossed the notice around, and the thin envelope jumped lightly in the air.

"Zou Yang, give it back to me." I whispered a plea, trembling all over.

"Get on your knees." Zou Yang suddenly said: "Kneel down, and I will return it to you." Then, as soon as he bent down, he shoved the notice into the hole in the sewer and smiled hideously: "Otherwise, I'll let go of my hand." He pinched the notice with two fingers, and as soon as he let it go, it would fall in.

"Don't ......" I trembled even more, and tears finally burst out of my eyes. At that time, I thought that if I lost my letter, I would have no hope of going to high school.

"Get on your knees." Zou Yang's voice became colder and colder.

The other classmates were silent and looked at me with numb expressions.

Passers-by who came and went only thought that children were playing, and did not pay attention to the situation here.

Who can know the pain in my heart at this time?

I'm going to get out of here, I'm going to get out.

I whispered this in my mind, and slowly knelt down on my legs.

The pain in my heart is naturally self-evident. This revenge must be avenged, and it will definitely be avenged. My fists clenched into fists.

When I go to high school, I will have a bunch of brothers who are friends in life and death. One day, I will let Zou Yang kneel in front of me!

I swore this poisonous oath in my heart. Tears, one by one, rolled down on the clean ground.

"Hahaha......" Zou Yang laughed, suddenly the expression on his face stiffened, and he took his fingers out of the sewer, "What about the notice, the notice accidentally fell!" There was a hint of panic on his face, and it was obvious that he couldn't accept the consequences of shòu at a young age.

I looked at his hand in amazement, it was empty, and the notice was gone.

My head felt like it had been struck by lightning, it was wooden from head to toe, and I didn't react at all, and I even forgot that I was still kneeling.

"Haha, it's funny!" Zou Yang conjured up the notice out of nowhere, walked up to me with a smile, and slapped me in the face with the notice. "I was impressed that you guys were able to be admitted to Chengnan High School." One, two, three.

I endured it silently, it was not the first time I had been beaten like this, and it didn't seem to hurt much to be slapped in the face with a notice.

In the end, Zou Yang got annoyed, put the notice on top of my head, and walked away with those classmates laughing. I looked at their backs and took the notice from the top of my head, with my name written on it, and I felt a pang of relief in my heart. I slowly stood up, my legs numb and my face still stained with tears.

"I can get out of here." I looked around, and everything in this town was my nightmare.

Seongnam High School, I'm coming.

I didn't go out all summer. I was afraid that if I met Zou Yang and his former classmates on the street again, I would be insulted again for no reason. My parents also blamed me for not going out for a long time, and I felt like I had mold at home. Alas, where do they know dào my pain? However, when I was admitted to Seongnam High School, they were still very happy. Usually tired of staying at home, at most go around the door of the house, and never run too far.

Sometimes I run into my neighbor Yu Chengfei, who is a year older than me and also studies in the city. However, he was very poor at studying and could only study at Seongnam Vocational and Technical College, which is across the wall from Seongnam High School. The two schools live next to each other, but their status is very different. Since Yucheng Fei went to the city a year earlier, I asked him about the situation over there, so as to familiarize myself with it in advance, so as not to be caught blind when I got it.

Once after chatting, Yu Chengfei said casually: "Wang Hao, what happened to Chengnan High School, remember to go to me." ”

I smiled all over my face: "Thank you, Brother Yu." "But I didn't take it seriously. There were a lot of situations like this, I was notoriously bullied in my class, and the school boss offered to accept me as a junior brother. At that time, I was very happy, thinking that I had found a backer, but the next sentence of the big guy was: "Bring fifty yuan tomorrow." I was speechless, shaking my head and sighing. So this kind of initiative to cover me, I also have some caution.

Besides, Seongnam High School is a well-known key high school, what can happen? It's too late for everyone to study hard!