In the heavy snow, it took me 3 hours to rush from Yangzhou to Nantong, and when I arrived at the hospital, Ye Yiyi was still in the delivery room, because it was the first child, and Ye Yiyi's physique was weak, so the delivery time would be longer

What surprised me was that among the large group of people who were waiting, I saw Lin Xi, whom I hadn't seen for a long time, she should have calculated Ye Yuyi's birth date and rushed back from Ireland in advance I almost subconsciously looked At it According to common sense, Chen Qingyi should also come back with Lin Xi After all, they and Ye Yiyi are very good girlfriends, and it is natural for Rìzi to come back when it is so important to have a child

I regret that I didn't see Chen Qingyi

......

After greeting everyone who was waiting, Lin Xi came to me and Pipsqueak, and Pipsqueak happily hugged her legs, and Lin Xi's sudden appearance was a surprise for him

Lin Xi was also very happy to see Pippi, touched Pippi's head and asked, "Little thing, do you miss your mother Lin?"

"Of course I want to think every day," Pipsqueak replied without thinking

"That's good..... Mother Lin brought you a gift to put in the hotel for you tomorrow "

Pipsqueak didn't care about the gift and asked expectantly, "Mommy, is she coming back too?"

Lin Xi glanced at me before whispering to Pippi, "Your mother has something very important, so she can't come back this time."

"Oh," Pipsqueak replied, and the disappointment in his heart was obvious to everyone

......

The more I look forward to it, the longer the wait is, and everyone is anxious and expectant, and they communicate from time to time, and I am the quietest, but this does not mean that it is calm

At this moment, I remembered Zuo Lan She had the same experience as Ye Yiyi now, but as the father of the child, I didn't have such a wait for her and Pippi I don't know if she was like Ye Yiyi at that time, there were many people who cared about her

Maybe Zuo Lan was lonely and heartbroken that day..... Because the child's biological father was not able to wait by her side..... Looking back now, this must be the most regrettable thing in my life

I panicked in my heart Thinking of Zuo Lan's face and smile I really want to cry God is not fair It shouldn't have been deprived of her life like this She is so strong and so kind.....

......

At the end of the corridor in the delivery room, there was a little rooftop where you could smoke, and I walked up to that little rooftop by myself and lit myself a cigarette in the howling cold wind

Actually, it's not that I want to smoke much, I'm just afraid that I'll lose my temper in front of everyone I can't control my tears My heart aches for a while Because of self-blame Because of missing But people can't come back to life after death...... At this moment, I realized that the most painful thing in the world is nothing more painful

I held on to the guardrail on the rooftop and watched the snowflakes in front of me in disbelief How great it would be if this heavy snow could build a bridge of communication between us and the sun I hope she will scold me harshly because she never did this in her life But I owe her so much

In fact, it is not terrible to owe someone, the terrible thing is that you will never have the opportunity to make amends, to atone for your sins, so you can only live your whole life in regret and self-blame Maybe this is the heaviest punishment Zuo Lan gave me

......

The door separating the rooftop and the corridor was opened, and standing in front of me was Lin Xi

Her sudden arrival caught me off guard, and I hurriedly wiped the tears from my face, and in any case, I should not offend this festive man with tears and sentimentality

"You're crying"

"No, the wind blew the soot into my eyes."

Lin Xi shrugged his shoulders and didn't ask any more questions

In fact, since I read the rì notebook left by Lin Xi and faced her again, I have not been able to be as calm as before, although Lin Xi did not know that I had read her rì record of her life in the past few years

"Are you okay over there?" I asked Lin Xi, also to hide some of my emotions

Lin Xi nodded and said, "Very good, the rìzi in Ireland may be the most unburdened rìzi in my life.....

"yes, that should be congratulations."

Lin Xi smiled but said meaningfully: "In fact, a person can change himself, learn to let go, learn to let go, and it will really be much easier and happier."

"You did it, didn't you?"

Lin Xi nodded, and then asked me: "It's a pity that you haven't done it, that's why you're here smoking alone."

I don't have words, I've tried to let go, so I want to take Pippi back to the town, and never care about the troubles of the world, and live my own life, but I can't do it, and I fell into the emotional bond again

"You can't let it go, Qingyi can't let it go, Anqi can't let it go, and even Sister Shen Man can't let go, that's why you're so miserable...... I was struggling with similar pain, so I went to Route 66 alone, not for the unruly zìyóu but to find relief...... Unfortunately, even after more than 3,000 kilometers of Route 66, I couldn't get out of it...... It wasn't until Qingyi told me one day that she was in love with you, and I really realized that leaving you was a complete relief...... Because Qingyi will not be the only woman who falls in love with you, nor will she be the last, and the most terrifying thing is that you may not even know who the woman you really love is."

I looked at Lin Xi in a daze, what she said was right, not quite right, what was wrong for me, I didn't know, I was a little numb

"Yixi, have you read the rì notebook I left behind?" Lin Xi asked me suddenly

"Looked"

My answer surprised Lin Xi She looked at me with a complicated expression for a long time before she said: "I used to be so unable to let go of you At the wedding with someone else, I even hoped that you could come and take me away, but ......" Lin Xi shook his head and didn't say anything more

After a long time, Lin Xi asked again: "I know there is no if, but I still want to ask if...... If the night I leave, you read the rì remember, will you go to the wedding scene and take me away?"

I was immersed in Lin Xi's if, and if I had watched the rì that day and went to the wedding scene desperately, what would have happened now?

Maybe I won't take a taxi to work that day, because I'm likely to drive Lin Xi's car, so I won't be able to pick up Mo Han's handbag, and if I hadn't met Mo Han, I wouldn't have known Angel by mistake...... Maybe I wouldn't have worked at Buick and chose to start a business with Lin Xi, so there would be no Siro, and there would be no "Siro" incident caused by negligence...... Under the chain reaction, I won't know Brother Luo, I won't know Han Feng, and I won't go to that town, so I met Ye Yiyi and met Zuo Lan again......

It turns out that one choice can really change the fate of a group of people, and now whether the fate we are facing is accidental or inevitable, no one knows, maybe there really is a script that plays a role in the fate of all of us