I was originally a little drunk and tired, but I was suddenly shocked by Yu Xiaowan's words, I don't know why, my mood is very complicated.

I don't know, when you receive the news of your ex-girlfriend's marriage, what is your mood, is it so complicated?

Yu Xiaowan, an intellectually gentle and well-informed woman, in my lonely and helpless years, she was silently accompanied by her girlfriend, caring and generous, diligent to help me take care of everything, and occasionally with a little playfulness.

Aside from the final ending, she really has to do everything that a girlfriend should do, and it can even be said that she does it better than others. She was smart and intellectual, and saw my lonely and helpless heart at that time, so she chose to move in with me and take care of my life intimately, and every scene she ever lived together, she almost played the role of a wife, and I still feel that she is very sensible and warm when I recall it, so I was adrift and helpless, and I really wanted to marry her at that time.

It's a pity that we have no fate.

"Do you really want to get married? It's been less than a month, and you were still single last time you went back to Xianghai Town together, Xiaowan, there's no need to be so impulsive. "I admit that I don't want to believe this fact in my heart.

But Yu Xiaowan's character will not say this to me casually.

"Getting married is such a big thing, of course, it's not impulsive." She said lightly, just like the indifference she once had, she could never see the joy and sorrow.

"It's all flash marriage, isn't it impulsive? Xiaowan, you... Think more about yourself, did Uncle Yu agree? What's your dad's opinion? And also... I don't know why, I'm so incoherent that I have mixed feelings.

Is it because I still miss her in my heart? No, it's not, but I'm just in a mess, like an important person is leaving my world.

Yes, Yu Xiaowan is a very important person in my life, and she has experienced a very memorable and important time.

"Xiao Nuan, thank you for caring about me, these are not important anymore, the important thing is that I am getting married, it is the eleventh holiday, I hope you can come." Her tone was flat and she couldn't hear any emotion, and such an important thing as marriage came out of her mouth, like a step-by-step meal.

I listened to her flat tone, and instantly I was unable to answer, and I sat down on the bed, my past memories kept flooding, and scene by scene seemed to be saying goodbye to me.

In the ruthless years, there are always some people who will slowly disappear into your life, in sight, and even in memory, maybe one day you will suddenly think of her, but you can't remember clearly, you can't remember what you have experienced with her, you can't remember what she looks like, and you can't even remember this person, you only know that she was once very important.

The two people on the phone fell into silence, I sighed helplessly but couldn't speak, on the phone, she suddenly coughed her throat, but it was more like enduring choking, and then she was quiet for a few seconds, as if she was calming down her breathing, and opened her mouth faintly.

"Xiao Nuan, thank you, thank you for not hating me, thank you for knowing me so well, and only you know everything about me. The news that I'm going to get married has received a lot of blessings, only you, persuading me... Caring for me. She said at the end, and she snapped, and I seemed to hear her choking up.

Her tone was wavering after all.

Yes, I know Yu Xiaowan very well, and she knows me very well, but when the two of us get along, we tacitly know each other and don't say or ask.

"Xiaowan, it should be me thank you, thank you for the time when you accompanied me intimately." My tone was full of emotion.

A person who leaves represents the passage of time and represents me moving towards old age.

"Those days ... I'm also very happy. ”

The call seemed to come to an abrupt halt because neither of us wanted to continue reminiscing, because she and I were both rational people.

Yu Xiaowan, who can't be loved, is going to enter a life called marriage after all, women can't escape these realities, there are some things they can't afford to wait, and they can only hide in their hearts in the end.

"Okay, don't say more, bother you for so long, send me a blessing at the end." She regained her calm tone and prepared to end the call for the night.

"Xiaowan, this blessing actually I wanted to say to you a long time ago." I was silent for a long time, she waited for me quietly, and I, thousands of complicated emotions turned into a sentence: "If one day you get married, I hope it is because of love." ”

"Thank you."

On the other side of the phone, a tear crept down her face.

And I, I have never seen Yu Xiaowan's tears in my life, since I met her, she seems to have quietly buried the emotions of her life in her heart and will never open them.

After hanging up the phone, I lay on the bed, feeling empty in my heart, very uncomfortable, and had a very bad premonition.

In a person's life, some people have accompanied you, but in the end, for various reasons, they will leave your world, and from then on they have nothing to do with your life, this feeling is very powerless and helpless, you will only feel that you have become old, Yu Xiaowan is the first person to leave, but she is not the last, this feeling is very bad.

So this night, I lay in bed and couldn't sleep.

Looking at the dark night sky, I began to feel a lot of helplessness in my life, and I couldn't help but imagine the ending of everyone around me, everyone's life, everyone's final intersection, and then say goodbye.

As a result, the more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable I became, because of this phone call, all I thought about was a negative and pessimistic picture, but in reality, I was so powerless to change.

I have said countless times, now I want to give my sister happiness, but I have always been powerless to change the status quo of my sister's hard work, I said that I want to give Dianne an answer, but I am powerless, in addition to giving her a word, what responsibility can I bear, what can I give her?

A sense of security doesn't depend on one shoulder, what can I give her but sharp teeth?

This was Wei Zixuan's last words to me, I was powerless to answer him at the time, and it is the same now, in fact, the one who really lost was me.

Relying on lip service and taking advantage of it, what can you do? With a very different identity and a powerless reality, I still can't win against him in the end.

In this way, a night of cranky thoughts and negative emotions made me have a nightmare directly, and I woke up very early the next day, only to find that I was in arrears on the phone, and I left a person in my heart, and the phone also followed my mood and shut down.

This negativity was very bad, and I needed to vent, so early in the morning, I didn't rush to pay the phone bill, changed into sportswear and went for a run.

Breathing in the clear air, the university town is lush with greenery, I find it really comfortable to run in the morning here, I don't care about my body without breakfast, I run for a long time, I just want to sweat and vent my emotions.

It's time to recover well, otherwise you will really fight against the masters, and it is easy for the muscles to react slowly.

I was running slowly, and suddenly felt a large number of people behind me, I looked back curiously, surprised, and suddenly felt crying and laughing.

"Lin Xiaonuan, why did you come out for a run." Shen Lingyu smiled in surprise and slowly ran to my side, dressed in red sportswear, extremely conspicuous, tight and extremely sexy.

And behind her, followed by a large group of morning joggers of different types, their eyes are basically looking at her little buttocks, because every time she runs and twists, the sexy curve will make people squirt blood once.

"Hehe, boss, why are you back, Su Ze is not resting?" With a smile on my face, when I saw Shen Lingyu, my negative emotions instantly became intimate.

"I can come back if I want to, and he can't care about me." Shen Lingyu saw me smiling kindly at her, her eyes were charming and gentle, and she said lazily: "I saw your boss, should I be invited to dinner." ”

"I haven't seen you for a few days, and when I come back, I will bully your employees, is this like words?" I blew my beard and glared, Shen Lingyu was amused and giggled, and said angrily: "It's really your punishment for often peeking at me, which can be regarded as an indirect deduction of your salary." ”

I saw her giggling, and hurriedly asked her to stop running, so as not to have a stomachache, and the two of us went to a stall in the morning, and this soy milk and fritters were delicious.

After a few words of teasing with Shen Lingyu, my mood seems to have improved a lot, I eat a lot, I found that I and Shen Lingyu went to this kind of stall to eat a lot of times, and when I used to climb the mountain with her, I would also choose to eat in this kind of place, but she is a pampered Shen Lingyu, and she actually likes to eat these stall snacks with me.

"Well, the fritters are good, you don't get tired of eating, Lin Xiaonuan, you are quite good at choosing these snacks, take me to taste these more in the future, I can consider not deducting your salary." She ate elegantly and did not forget to praise me.

"Boss, eat early in the morning, don't mention the salary, it will affect your appetite." I feigned dissatisfaction.

"You, you have no heart and no lungs, pretend to care about money, if you really cared, you would have worked hard a long time ago, which is like knowing that you are lazy now." The royal sister sharply knocked me down again.

I smiled helplessly: "Yes, boss, you said that I am so unproductive, what will I give a woman happiness in the future, whose family will take a good look at me." ”

I said very negatively, but Shen Lingyu lowered her head and drank soy milk, as if she didn't care, and suddenly asked: "You are smart and careful, but why do you have no heart and lungs every day?" ”

I was speechless the moment I was asked, Shen Lingyu is a mature woman, and she is still a boss who knows how to operate, she can see through me more than others.

"Why do you feel like you're in the wrong mood today? Did something happen? Seeing that I didn't speak, she said with a gentle look of concern.

"My ex-girlfriend is getting married."

Shen Lingyu was stunned for a moment, thinking that I was missing my ex, so she was sad, then looked at my expression, shook her head again, and asked, "Then what?" ”

"She's kind of like you." I sold a pass.

"What's wrong with me?" She had a serious look in her eyes.

"You said that a woman's youth can't be consumed, so she finds someone to marry." I emphasize that it is marriage, not love.

Shen Lingyu was silent for a while, and then I asked her, "Boss, will you be like this?" ”