Chapter 504: I already knew it, but I didn't want to admit it

Meat Bao was disgusted by Zhibao's behavior of calling himself a new model of humanity, and she was very sure that Lan Shaoye would definitely not say that he liked her as a human model.

So Roubao felt that he had been deeply hurt by his brother, so he glared at Zhibao, turned around and went to find Qiao Mei.

Qiao Mei looked at the meat bun and happily handed the chocolate in her hand to the meat bun: "Sister, eat." ”

"Sister Qiao still has a conscience, and my sister will definitely not marry you to Lan Shaoye in the future." The meat bun happily stuffed the chocolate into his mouth.

Leng Yifeng and Yang Xiao appeared on time with Weiwei, and the meat bun took the initiative to pull Weiwei into the children's world.

Lan Lichuan and Leng Yifeng were sitting on the sofa, not knowing what they were talking about.

Ye Chenmeng looked at Yang Xiao and asked, "Miss Yang, can we talk alone?" ”

Yang Xiao felt that even if he was sitting in this hall, he would have nothing to do, so he simply nodded, and then followed Ye Chenmeng upstairs.

In fact, Yang Xiao knew that Ye Chenmeng would probably say something to herself, but Ye Chenmeng didn't say anything, but suddenly walked to the bedroom, took out a photo album, and handed it to Yang Xiao.

said: "This is the former Leng Yifeng, and the Xi Jianchen in my heart." The year after his death, I wanted to burn the album, but in the end I couldn't. ”

Yang Xiao held the photo album in her hand and didn't turn it over.

I only heard Shen Chu continue: "But I buried these photos in the soil back then, and now I have changed my photo album...... Actually, this is what I wanted to give you early in the morning, but I didn't expect you to leave with Weiwei. ”

Yang Xiao smiled bitterly in her heart, it turned out that everyone thought so in their hearts, and they all thought that she took the initiative to leave with Weiwei. But that's not true, is it?

Yang Xiao didn't explain a word, just looked at Ye Chenmeng quietly.

Ye Chenmeng helped her turn over the photo album. The first photo, somewhat unexpected, was a graduation photo.

There are many youthful faces on it, each of which is full of the joy of graduation and yearning for the future.

Ye Chenmeng looked at Yang Xiao in a relaxed tone and said, "Can you recognize which one is Leng Yifeng?" ”

Of course Yang Xiao recognized it, she had seen Xi Jianchen before. As Xi Jianchen's doctor, how could she not know him.

That young Xi Jianchen had already lived in his heart.

Looking at Yang Xiao, who was silent, Ye Chenmeng spoke again: "Maybe the Leng Yifeng in your heart is different from the Xi Jianchen in my heart. The man I remember is not so tall, nor has such a deep voice as now, does not have such a lean body, and does not have the same cold and depressed expression as now, but ......"

Halfway through Ye Chenmeng's words, he suddenly paused again.

Although Yang Xiao kept looking down at the photos on the album, she was still a little curious about what Ye Chenmeng would say next.

In fact, in a real sense, Ye Chenmeng is his rival in love, which is extremely clear to Yang Xiao from the moment she knew that she liked Leng Yifeng.

Over the years, most of the injuries Leng Yifeng has suffered and the road he has traveled have been because of the woman in front of him.

As her rival in love, in fact, Yang Xiao should hate Ye Chenmeng, and even hope that Ye Chenmeng will disappear from this world. But the reality is not like this.

It is precisely because from the beginning that every effort Leng Yifeng made was for Ye Chenmeng, and it was precisely because she watched Leng Yifeng come all the way that Yang Xiao knew more about the importance of Ye Chenmeng to Leng Yifeng.

In Leng Yifeng's heart, Ye Chenmeng is faith, and it is the reason to support him to come alive and live.

Yang Xiao not only hated Leng Yifeng's love for Ye Chenmeng, but she hated why she didn't want to be with a man who loved her so much.

Ye Chenmeng probably never knew how much courage Leng Yifeng needed to give up on her.

Yang Xiao still remembers the moment when Leng Yifeng leaned against the wall on the edge of the pool at Ye Chenmeng's wedding.

He was so lonely that he lit a cigarette with a match, but he didn't smoke it.

Ye Chenmeng on the stage was holding a bouquet of flowers, smiling like a flower. The whole salute was very festive at the wedding scene, but Leng Yifeng seemed to be isolated in another world. The whole world could not see his sadness and sorrow.

Until Su Jingsheng suddenly approached Leng Yifeng.

She said: "I didn't lose to Ye Chenmeng, I lost to you." You who love Ye Chenmeng wholeheartedly. ”

As everyone knows, that sentence is also what Yang Xiao has always wanted to say to Leng Yifeng.

The moment Su Jingsheng turned around, tears rained down. Seeing Yang Xiao leaning against the wall, she said a word, she said: "Yang Xiao, I have an obsession hidden in my heart, not because I am too stubborn, but whenever I meet Leng Yifeng, I am reluctant to give up." I know you know, because your obsession is deeper and more ruthless. I told Leng Yifeng that if I find a suitable woman, I will get married, I am not noble, but I would rather that woman be you than someone else. ”

At that time, Yang Xiao didn't say a word. The back of Su Jingsheng leaving was very stubborn, but it was also rare to relax.

In fact, she is envious of Su Jingsheng, and she envy her that she can pretend to be casual and turn around to pursue her new life.

And Yang Xiao knew that from the beginning, she knew that from the moment she fell in love with Leng Yifeng, there was no way back.

Later, Leng Yifeng called her, leaning against the wall by the pool, his voice was very soft, and he said very softly: "Yang Xiao, I will give you back your freedom, you can leave with Weiwei!" If you can do it, never come back. If you appear in front of me again, even if I torture you, I will not give you a choice. ”

Yang Xiao remembered that she didn't answer him at that time.

So in the end, he didn't wait for her answer, and hung up the phone.

What he didn't know, however, was that the reason why she didn't say a word was because she was wearing a small black dress, leaning against his back, just a wall away from him.

She was afraid that as soon as she opened her mouth, he would hear her voice, and she was afraid that as soon as she opened her mouth, she would not be able to help but hold back.

So in the end, she kept silent, watching Leng Yifeng disappear from her sight.

So the next morning, she left with Weiwei.

Probably no one knew that she was ready to see him forever when she left this time.

But creation makes people. I didn't expect Aunt Wan to suddenly appear and take away Weiwei.

All of this is like a secret buried in her heart, which may never be revealed.

Looking at Yang Xiao, who was deep in thought, Ye Chenmeng then spoke: "But no matter whether his appearance has changed, whether his personality has changed, whether he is Xi Jianchen or Leng Yifeng. He has always been him, the man who deserves to be treated and loved with sincerity. I know that the person who is least qualified to say this is me, but Xiaoxiao, Leng Yifeng is worthy of your love. If you can, trust him one more time. ”

Yang Xiao's hand holding the album turned white, and he was silent for a long time before he said, "It's not that I don't believe him, I don't believe in myself." ”

"No matter how he changes, his essence remains the same, and he will not easily tell his loved ones how important they are to him. Just as outsiders can tell, he will never tell you how important you are in his heart, he may say the words 'I love you,' but he will never tell you 'I can't lose you.'" Xiaoxiao, one day Leng Yifeng will regret it, regret his attachment to our past, regret that he didn't have time to tell you how important you are to him. ”

Yang Xiao knew that what Ye Chenmeng said was right, Leng Yifeng was such a person, he might tell you very seriously that he loved you, but he would never lose his mind and tell the other party 'You are very important to me, I can't lose you'.

This is Leng Yifeng, the Leng Yifeng she loves.

Even if he risked his life to love Ye Chenmeng, he would not tell her in front of Ye Chenmeng that he couldn't lose him.

Because he may know better than anyone else that once the phrase 'I can't lose you' is spoken, it is not only about how much you love her at high speed, but also about putting pressure on the other party and putting a heavy hat on the other party.

Ye Chenmeng said: "Some words are an indispensable part of a relationship, more important than I love you. Yang Xiao, two people who are happy together, it is called happiness. When people who hate each other are together, it's called torturing each other. Does Corie know what two wishful thinking people are called together? ”

"Self-inflicted." Yang Xiao answered very happily this time.

Ye Chenmeng smiled for a moment before saying, "I don't think that's self-inflicted, in my world, I call this hope." You love Leng Yifeng, which is your hope and redemption for him. ”

After being silent for a long time, Yang Xiao said, "Are you persuading me?" ”

"No, I'm analyzing." Ye Chenmeng said.

Yang Xiao asked, "What to analyze?" ”

"Analyze what you already know, but don't want to admit." Ye Chenmeng suddenly smiled and said to Yang Xiao: "Do you know, Xi Jianchen was very warm in the past, the kind of warmth that you knew when you looked at him that you would be happy to form a family with him, and that kind of warmth that seemed that if you didn't love him, it would be a crime." And Leng Yifeng today may not give you that feeling, but the essence of a person will not change. Xiaoxiao, I have been unforgivable, but you are different, you have a slight slight. ”

"I don't want Weiwei to be an affiliate of me and Leng Yifeng, let alone different, Leng Yifeng is with me because I gave birth to Weiwei. It's not because I'm afraid that I'll be wronged, but I'm afraid that he will regret it in the future, I'm afraid that I won't be able to give Leng Yifeng the future he wants, but he still leaves a terrifying scar in his childhood. ”